ARSHI FS-FROM YOU AND ME TILL US UPDATED 26/9 - Page 51

Her allegations didn't went good with him,she was questioning his understanding when she herself has misunderstood his honest heartfelt confession as only a means to get to her to realise something was wrong with him.He was stunned at her behaviour which kept on shifting and thus finally wanting to get hold of the reason behind her outburst and still hurt by her misunderstanding he spoke but the words that came out didn't held any anger in them instead they had an inkling of underlying pain beneath them.

"Tum to aise keh rahi ho Khushi jaise tumhein sab kuch samajhti ho"(You are saying as if you understand everything).

Khushi expected an angry retort back at her allegations or some defending but his question has unarmed her,anger was something she was used to experiencing and could handle very well but the pain behind those words couldn't not be misinterpreted.Preturbed as she was,she voiced her question to him.

"Matlab?"(Meaning?).

"Tumhe sach mein nahi pata"(You seriously don't know)Arnav asked not wanting to answer it himself but as he saw her questioning gaze,he didn't realised when the words automatically left him.

"Tumhe sach mein lagta hai Khushi ki maine us din tumse phone jo bhi kaha tha ,woh sirf isliye tha ki main tumhe ishara de sakun"(You seriously think that day whatever I said to you on phone was only because I wanted to give you some sign).His voice didn't held any anger,it was calm but Khushi could clearly see the hurt her innocent words has led to.Tears pooled into her eyes as she stared at his face.

Arnav saw tears pooling in her eyes and then once again berating himself for being the cause of her tears he said in a rush.

"Forget it maine yeh sab kaha Khushi,tum bahut tired lag rahi ho ,so jao tum"(Forget I said anything Khushi,you look very tired,go to sleep).And saying so he turned to move away towards bed when he an angry loud voice reached his ears.For a moment he was thankful that today no one was around or what reason he could have given to everyone for their ever calm and soft spoken Khushi anger.

"Aap jab chahe,jaise chahe aisey mudke bina baat khatam kiye jaa nahi sakte Arnavji"(You cant turn away every time without completing the conversation Arnavji).Khushi spoke as she came near him and not giving him a chance to speak anything continued further.

"Yehi baat thi naa,humein andaza ho gaya tha,agar aapko bura lag gaya to aap humein keh nahi sakte the,aise jaane ki kya zaroorat thi aapko?"(This was the matter right,I realised it,but if you were hurt and felt bad why couldn't you just tell me,what was the need to go like that?).

She saw confusion sputtering around his features and as his eyes bored hers she answered his unvoiced question.

"Aisey kya dekh rahe hai humein,hum samajh gaye the aap isi wajah se naraaz hai par Arnavji aapne ek baar bhi nahi socha hai ki aap aise chale jayenge to humsein kaisa lagega,aapke paas phone nahi hai,Amanji ko pata nahi tha aap kahan hai,hamare mann mein kaise kaise khyaal aa rahe the,aap aise kar sakte the jabki aapko pata ki shyam-- "(Why are you seeing me like this,I understood that you are hurt because of it only,but you didn't think even for a second that if you vanish away like that how would I feel,you didn't had phone,Amanji had no idea where you were,do you realise what all thoughts were going around my head,how could you do this when Shyam--).

Khushi winced at the mention of him and Arnav swore under his breath,he has been so engrossed in his own pain that he didn't thought what his vanishing act could do to her,he has heard from others,seen her fear of losing him himself and then he has been so thoughtless though it didn't seemed to lessen the hurt he has felt.At that time,the only thing which has gone around was Khushi not understanding his feelings and only he knew how his heart has pierced at the thought of it.Seeing his silence infuriated her further letting her spat out again angrily.

"Ab aise chup chaap kyun khade hai,koi jawaab nahi hai aapke paas?"(Why are you standing quite like this,don't you have any answer?)Khushi charged back at him.

"Tumhe jawaab chahiye jabki tumne ab tak mere kisi sawaal ka koi jawab nahi diya hai"(You need answers when till now you haven't answered my any question).Came the instant reply.

Khushi couldn't fandom that inspite of his own folly he has the nerve to retort back at her but then it was her husband and didn't she knew him too well for that.So finally Khushi answered him back in her own way.

"Aapko abhi bhi jawab chahiye,toh suniye,haan humne khana nahi khaaya kyunki hum nahi kha sakte yeh jaante hue ki aapne nahi khaaya,humne aapki har manpasand chiz isliye banayi kyunki hum chahte the ki jab aap waapis aaye to hum dono saath mein khaana khayenge ho gaya yaa aur bhi kuch jaana chahtey hai aap"(You need answerd fine,so listen,yes I hadn't eaten anything since morning because I couldn't eat knowing you haven't eaten properly,Yes I made your favourite dishes because I wanted us to eat together when we come back,done or you have any more questions).

Taking a breath she continued further wanting to clear her stance at the very point ,which has ended up hurting him so deeply.

"Aur haan hum subah sirf mazaak kar rahe the, Arnavji humein laga aap humein samajhtey hai,jaantey hongey ki hamara irada aapko thes pahuchane ka nahi tha, who sirf ek mazaak tha,aisa karney ke baarein mein to hum sapne mein bhi nahi soch saktey"(And ,in the morning I was only joking.Arnavji I thought you would know me enough,you would know that it was never my intention to hurt you,it was all a joke,I can never even think of hurting you).Khushi confessed honestly).

"Aur mujhe bhi lagta tha ki tum mujhe jaanti ho,kitni baar jab mujhe laga ki tum meri khamoshi ke peeche chupi pad sakti ho,mere gussa ki chupa hua P--"(And,I too thought that you understand me ,so many incidinces where I felt that you can understand my silence,the emotion hidden behind my anger--).He stopped at the last word but continued "Par maine yeh kabhi nahi socha tha ki tumhein aisa lagega ki maine woh sab tumse sirf isliye kaha ki main tumhe bata sakoon ki main kisi musibat mein hoon"(But,I seriously never thought,you would feel that I said those words to you because I wanted to tell you that I am in some trouble).Arnav finished off warily.

"Hum aapse keh rahe hai ki woh ek mazaak tha,hum jaantey hai ki aapne who kaha tha kyunki""(I am telling you that it was all a joke,I know you said those words to me because--).Khushi spoke almost desparately stopping at the end word becoming all conscious all off a sudden.

"Kyunki?"(Why?).Arnav probed her to speak further,his heart wanting to hear something but when only silence followed he told her in exact words,his feelings at that time.the moment when he has felt he has lost everything.All the time when his thoughts have been of her,he has revelled in the knowledge that Khushi knew what he felt and now he wanted her to know his feelings at the time he has uttered those words to her.

"Tum sunna chahti ho na to sunno,us waqt un logoin ne mujhe gunpoint pe rakha hua tha,mujhe nahi pata tha ki agle hi pal kya hoga,who meri jaan le sakte the aur mujhe laga who aakhri baar jab main tumse baat kar raha hoon,tumhari awaaz sun raha hoon ,aakash se tumhara hamesha aur Di ka khyaal rakhne ke baad jab tumse baat hui to mujhe bas yahi khyaal tha ki kahin tumhe bina bataye hi main""(You want to listen right so listen,that time I was held at gunpoint,I didn't even know what would transpire the next moment,those people could have killed him and for me I felt may be it was the last time I was talking to you,the last time I am hearing your voice,after extracting a promise from Aakash that he will always take care of you and Di,I only had this thought that what if before confessing my feelings I --).

"Lekin shayad us sab ka tumhare liye koi matlab nahi tha,tum to bas Nani aur Di ko unka Chote lautana chahti thi,AR ko uska chairperson ,sharad tumhe koi farq nahi padta"(But may be all those things didn't mean anything to you,you only wanted Di and Nani to have their Chote back,you wanted AR to have his chairperson back,may be it actually doesn't make a difference to you).

"FARQ PADTA HAI!!!!,jab aap humsein door chale gaye the to hum saans bhi nahi le paa rahe the,har pal bas yehi khyaal rehta tha ki hum aapko kisi bhi tarah waapis le aaye, raat ko so nahi paate the,har jagah sirf aap dikhayi dete the,us waqt humein ehsaas hua ki chahe hamare aas paas kitne bhi log kyun naa ho aagr aap nahi hai to is zindagi ka koi matlab nahi hai,aapki har baat se humein farq padta hai Arnavji, jab aapne humse kaha tha ,hum aisein laga tha ki kisi ne saari duniya ki Khushiyaan humein de di ho aur aap musibat mein hai yeh jaane ke liye humein aapse kuch bhi sunne ki zaroorat nahi hai,humein bahut pehle hi ehsaas ho gaya tha ki aap thik nahi hai ,jaante hai kyun,KYUNKI HUM BHI AAPSE PYAAR KARTE HAI".

"Sunna aapne hum bhi aapse pyaar karte hai Arnavji ,is duniya mein sabse zyaada"(You heard,I LOVE YOU ARNAVJI,more than anything and anyone in this world).

"You still need to hear it Khushi,I LOVE YOU TOO DAMMIT"

They keep staring at each other,the first time those eyes have met to where they were now,the eyes which has always held the unnamed emotion in them,the eyes which has told their other half the truth when they has been so bent to convince other of the alter but today it was as if all of it was leading to this.The confession from one heart to another,the hearts that beat for the other.From the morning incident since when she has uttered those words to now,Khushi smiled as happy tears flew out of her eyes ,a natural blush reaching her cheeks as Arnav lips curved into a smile too,two souls who have fought with their feelings for so long,who have seen deceits,has almost lost each other by the ugly webs laid around them,now stood together in each others embrace,baring their heart and soul to each other and when Arnav pulled her closer and their lips met,it seemed like the most natural thing to do,a kiss that spelled,togetherness,unconditional love and a bond forever.