Pyaar Ka Bandhan Chap 21 pg 53 - Page 19

Chapter 11: Tere Bin Nahi Jeena (No life without you)

"A life without love is a life that only death can replace because only the power of love can erase the pain and hurt that would otherwise last a lifetime!"

Manvi POV

Karan had a gun at Virats head and Virat was just streaming blood everywhere. I watched helplessly as two of Karan's friends held me down. I heard the gun shot and literally jolted out from their grasp running to Virat. It was too late, he was gone, he was almost dead. I sat there just hugging his lifeless body and heard him slowly gasp, "bye Manvi, I love you baby. I love you so much, please don't forget me after I leave you." He closed his eyes and I just broke down over him completely. I woke up panting and saw Virat gone from the bed and freaked out. Chachi's words came back to me as I shook in fear, "it wasn't an accident, it was planned," what if Karan did the same thing to Virat because of the case? I clutched the sheets tighter at the thought and began crying helplessly not knowing what to do. He came out of the bathroom but I was still in my trance. Those couple of minutes that he was gone, I was so scared that he left me that I didn't even realize that I had tears streaming down my face. He tried consoling me but nothing worked, just the thought of him leaving me had me shaking.

Virat's POV

It was the middle of the night now, probably 3 or 4, I got up to go to the bathroom and I heard Manvi scream NO as she got up abruptly, she had another dream. I got out and saw her crying clutching the sheets to herself. "oh baby what's wrong, look at me sweetheart, he won't hurt you now, you have me with you, I promise nothing will happen to you or our baby, come its late, let's go back to sleep honey," I said pulling her into a hug. "Virat you are here, you haven't left me! In my dream, you said you were leaving me, I was so scared, please don't leave me, where did you go! I need you Virat, I really need you. I love you so much, I won't be able to live without you, please don't leave!" she cried as she settled herself clutching on to me not letting me move even an inch. "Manvi?" She just clutched me harder as her tears began soaking my t-shirt. "Oh god, Manvi, shh, its ok sweetheart, I was just in the bathroom. I can't even think of leaving you, I love you and our baby so much. I am here now, do you want eat anything or do you just want to go to sleep?" I asked her not knowing what to do. "You won't leave me right if I fall asleep again?" she asked clutching the back of my shirt like I was going to run away from her. "Baby, I am right here, I am not going anywhere, come here, let's get you to sleep" I said tucking her in securely as I got up to do some work that I had left. She got up and held my hand to her cheek, "you said you wouldn't leave me, where are you going?" she whispered into my chest, her eyes filled with tears ready to stream out. I stared at her, something told me it had to do with what happened today, she was hurt so much and all I wanted was to fulfill my desires. I mentally slapped myself for making her go through this, why couldn't I just control my desires earlier I yelled at my brain. I looked back at her, her hair was all messed up, her eyeliner was completely smudged and her neck had three red love marks that I gave. I closed my eyes in shame, the poor girl was so hurt and I just made it worse, why couldn't I just understand her in the morning, I held both her hands and caressed her cheek "baby look at me, I am right here. I am not going anywhere ok. I love you, I love our baby too much to leave you two. What happened between us was my love for you Manvi, nothing else. I can't see you like this baby, I wanted you to be stronger and forget your past but I was a stupid idiot and brought your past back to you. I wanted to give you the love you deserved but I guess my love is just not strong enough to get my chulbuli Manvi back, I failed Manvi, I promised to give you a lifetime of happiness and all I managed to do was make your pain even worse. I am so sorry; I promise it won't happen again until you are ready ok. You need to stay happy though, you are pregnant, I don't want anything to go wrong with the baby. You need to stay happy and healthy so we have a happy and healthy baby. I don't know what to do, everytime I try to make my chulbuli friend come back, I end up making it worse. First I married you to keep you happy and just made you feel guilty and now I wanted to help you erase those memories and I just opened them up for you! I am sorry baby, I am so sorry for everything!"

Manvi POV

I broke out my thoughts and looked at him; he had his hands covering his face and was just crying in guilt now that he opened those memories for me. I felt so bad. This wasn't right, all he had done was try to help me and he was blaming himself for hurting me. Why couldn't he just understand that him leaving me was why I reacted the way I did, I needed him so much and here he is thinking that he caused all my pain. I caressed his hair and placed his head on my lap, removing his hands that were covering his face. "Virat, I am so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, I was just so scared to see you gone that I over reacted. I don't want my dream to come true Virat, I don't want you to leave me, that's all. Don't regret anything that happened between us, I told you already I enjoyed it. I have never felt so loved in my entire life. Please don't ever say your love is not enough, your love really did make me forget everything and give myself to you Virat, I love you so much. I was crying because of my dream not because of what happened. I wanted this intimacy, I miss you all day and the only time I get with you is at night, I just got scared when I saw the bed empty and over reacted because of my dream," I finally confessed wiping his tears and trying to soothe him by caressing his forhead. He smiled and I heard his stomach growl. "Virat, tumne to bola ki you ate dinner at work?," I asked confused. He looked down, "woh Manvi, I made you so sad in the morning that I didn't feel like eating. I didn't realize you were making that surprise for me so I lied and told you I ate at work so that you wouldn't have to see me during dinner. Sorry," he said moaning and clutching his stomach that growled again. "Virat, utho I made aloo paratha; it's in the fridge, I will warm it. Aloo Paratha, mango achaar, egg plant ka sabsi and jalebi. I had made it all for him for the surprise and it completely slipped my mind. I placed the plate in front of him and he smiled, "I know you didn't eat without me eating, how about we eat together, aau na he said holding out his arms for me as he placed a piece of paratha into my mouth. I did the same for him soon we had finished the plate. "mm, Manvi this is why I didn't eat at work, the food you make is no comparison to that nasty cafeteria food, ,thank you so much baby," he said kissing my cheek, "are you feeling better?" he asked hugging me close, "don't ever think I will leave you again , we are together forever, nothing can break us apart," he said pecking my cheek again and taking me back to the room.

We headed to sleep when I saw Ma and Bauji's picture on Virats locket as he got into the bed. "I took it into my hands and looked at him. "Virat, how were you so strong, knowing that you were a rape child? You lost both your parents at such a young age, I would have been completely broken if not for you di and jiju but you were alone, you had no one that loved you?" I said realizing his horrible past. He closed his eyes and set his head onto my lap. He held my hands and placed them on his hair, "I feel so relaxed with you like this Manvi, I just want to pause time and stay like this forever" he said as I caressed his head again. He was avoiding my question, I could tell by the stress that lined his forehead. "Virat you can tell me, its ok," I said trying to get him to talk. "Manvi you have no idea what I went through. I am so thankful for Bhai, Chachu and Chachi. Chachu was gone to the US for work and bhai was the only one that would talk to me. I hated my life. Bua and dadaji would always ignore me so I had really no one except him. I am so glad Bhai loved me so much, he never thought of me as Vikram Uncle's son, he knew the truth but still accepted me as his own brother; he never let me feel left out and always gave me first shares on what bua would give him. I just wish bua and dadadji would understand but I never got any love from them. The love that chachu and chachi gave me when they got back though was enough to make me stronger though Manvi. I had heard that love can win it all but I really saw it with all the love that bhai, chachu and chachi showered on me. I never once felt like rape child after they came back and that's what I wanted to do for you too. I have seen the power of love and I wanted you to feel it too so that all your pain would go away. I don't want to talk about this, can we please just sleep " he said pulling me up and covering us with the duvet. I thought long and hard about what Virat said and knew what had to be done, I wanted to give him everything he deserved and decided to call dadaji tomorrow that way I could talk to chachu about Ma and Bauji too, I needed to make sure jiju and Virat were in no danger because of my case. I turned over to see his hands over my stomach just caressing the forming bump, I smiled and ruffled his hair making him pull me closer. I sighed, he was right, we were together forever, nothing could break us apart, I won't let anything break us apart. "go to sleep baby," he mumbled kissing my lips and placing me securely on his chest. I hugged him tight and fell asleep just listening to the sound of his heartbeats, they were soo soothing and they let me know he was still with me, like he promised he would always be.