ArHi SS:Shattered #4 *Completed*

Is this love? – Chapter 9

Juhi

Certain points I need to clarify before I start, these are assumptions ( I normally am against making assumptions…but giving in here, not so strong as your Khushi) I am going to make while reading so may not refer to the following while commenting, these are given from now on. Facts!

1. You are a genius

2. You are talented more than I could ever express in words, despite the details and length of my comments

3. Your writing leaves me in awe...

4. Your clarity, you're though process way to amazing…..I refer to my notes when I say this, meaning I am enjoying the ride not analyzing...

5. The amazing visual impact of your writing, I feel like I am watching not reading…

6. You need to write a book….

Before I start, the scene where he first sees her praying I did wonder if it was Namaz but you cleverly did not give it away, so I just figured that she is praying to DM, but I did have a feeling and re read that para a couple of times to see if I had missed something, Genius you! Sorry, refers to FACTS!

I loved your Khushi….she could have given in, it was way easier too, resisting this man, for who she feels so strongly, he who has spoilt her for any other, she had in her mind given into her feelings for him at Sheeshmahal, ready to explore this attraction and pull they felt towards each other. Had it not been for his actions with Sheetal, they might have been together…

So when she says, everything cannot be according to his terms and the way he wants it.. Including the nature of their relationship with the demons of his past hanging over their head and their relationship, like Damocles sword, threatening their relationship…which can at any point prove fatal. One who cannot get over his hatred and one her guilt, not the best combination for a secure and steady relationship? Everything cannot happen as he pleases…when he decided that he wanted to take revenge on her using Sheetal, when he follows her to Bangalore and now this……I loved it…I am all for love and their specially but here I am glad that she held her own and kept her, why would anyone set themselves up for heartbreak ? I liked that she maintained her dignity and self-respect…

She wants him too, but the stakes are too high, he realizes where she is coming from but he is being honest but at the same time he does feel what they have between them is too potent for them to ignore and deserves a chance at being explored…..if only he would have phrased this need better and not just as an announcement of a decision that he has taken without much thought, but a more mutual one….

I loved how when she spontaneously reprimands him for not obviously thinking things through….referring to how if she agreed hypothetically would this work between them under the conditions, without causing a scandal….what would be the practicality and feasibility of a relationship between them, the implications on their families, their relationship did not have the luxury of being explored under the circumstance around it and the external factors, clearly he had not given any thought to it, but she had… and when he realizes that she has also thought of the possibility of a relationship between them, it pleased him a lot!

His focus was just to have her with him, period! Consumed by this thought he did not really have much scope to think of anything else… In his head he just has a dilemma of her and di, not being able to separate the two, but he knows that he will never let anything make her unhappy…….so if they were in a relationship he could not let her go and the past would probably be easier to deal with paving the way for the present and future.

I liked her honesty that while she had thought of it, especially that night in Sheeshmahal, giving into her fears and hoping for something meaningful, those were her thoughts coming up to get him…at this point I loved how he apologize and wishes to turn back the clock but that is not to be…errors of the past could not unfortunately be eradicated by that…

I loved how she goads him, maybe she is already engaged, I loved how just the thought his sanseins stop….this was possible of course she could be….be he could not accept it..I loved his possessiveness…am a sucker of a jealous and possessive Arnav!

"Don't toy with me. Not on this." Oh God….too brilliant Juhi….Opps sorry refer to Facts!

I love how she tells him she rejected it but they are still looking and loved his smugness…..his confidence at what it is that she feels for him….if its anything like what he feels for her then he can be rest assured she will reject them all……they are not HIM!

And loved how her leaving silently, giving him hope that she will come back to him…..

I liked that this was so emotional for her, a hard decision that even though she shares everything with La, she needed time to process what happened before sharing….or could it be the nature of the conversation, the reality of the relationship that he expected from her, without any certainty that she made it unable to share with La, even though she wants too I loved La's perceptiveness she knows something is amiss and Khushi is not being honest… and loved how La gives her the space and just reassures her that she will be there!

I love the conversation the two brothers have, the teasing and the bond, loved how Aakaash finally voices what Nani was expecting….he did not want to be a politician, this was not his calling, wonder what happens when he finally admits it to nani, she will not be surprised, but what will be her next plan……if only Khushi was her daughter in law, she could occupy the family seat….

Loved how just looking at her he is mesmerized and his feelings for her, try as hard as he can, she is always there …the feelings that she arises in him…if not love what is it? If he can curb the feelings of hate and bitterness at seeing NK being able to have moved on despite the loss of his di…for the sake of his feelings for Khushi , it's a great beginning…I loved how he just wanted to go and touch her and reach out to her…this unnamed relationship a force so powerful. Totally beyond their control….

Wondering why she has preponed her return, hoping it's for him….

Love the flirty Arnav, going and sitting with her and openly and smugly flirting with her… The temptation, getting tough to resist ….I loved she was unable to pull her fingers away from his touch, making her human …but the stark difference between their colour of their skin symbolic for the evident difference between them but ironically making it perfect….

Loved how back to work things keep them busy, the prayer meeting making them both venerable, she wanted to provide him with comfort and solace, I loved how she in a dilemma, her anguish at his pain….remembering his reaction to NK and the past and how significant it was, thinking she had taken the right decision, it's almost like she is justifying it to herself, hoping she will believe herself….

I loved her power of belief, despite everything that happened in the past she still believes in the power of pray and God.

I loved that she does miss him, more than she accepts or wants to, his touch, his flirting and him…it was too powerful for her too resist too and I love that she is introspecting …

Loved how he calls in her and asks her if she is okay….and his apology, loved that, he realizes that it was a tough morning for both and he has no reason to lash out at her and that she would have been equally affected, ….I love how he tells her that there is no one who understands him better!

I liked his trust in her and the impact that had on her and the way he touches her…..so innocent but I got goose bumps, it was so sensual...and her anger at herself for her moment of weakness that could have potentially destroyed what she has worked so hard for…..but sexual harassment? Her outburst I understand the dilemma and questions in her mind, her yearning for him and a relationship that has no future….really loved that scene, it was so visual...oops…FACTS!

He is her boss and since that is all he can be, he does not have the right to touch her and if need be she will fight the urge there is too much to lose…and moreover theirs is a professional relationship of one that is between a boss and an employee…one more angel/obstacle in their way….I wonder what her political aspirations are? What indeed if they had met under normal circumstances…..? Without wanting to give away too much and not having an appropriate answer I love the way she flees, but can she flee from the thoughts in her head….

Apparently not…..loved the turmoil, confusion, the conflict between heart and head…unable to focus on anything but his words…when you throw a cliffhanger at us….did I mention you are evil? But no, that is not in my fact list……

It would be too obvious if it turned out to be Arnav, and it's you writing so I am not second guessing, -referring myself to my notes!

Now re read all facts – Facts can be changed or modified as I see fit…..

So now the waiting game……..