You know, I noticed a rather interesting thing while reading this chapter. There has been a distinct role reversal when it comes to A and K over the last ten years-- back then K fought for love while A was resigned, and now A is fighting for love while K is hesitant.
I think the lessons that A and K learned ten years ago AND over the last ten years have been very different.
A realized what NOT fighting for love can do.
K realized what fighting recklessly and over-zealously can do.
And both are trying to rectify that-- and still missing the mark a little.
K is absolutely right about protecting her stand and her job. A) It is notoriously hard to build a reputation (especially when you're a woman in a man's world) B) Women have always had more to lose in India C) The past is indeed an ugly thing and K has been burned too many times in the last ten years for her to have faith and give in so easily.
A on the other hand has this desperate quality. He's lost too much. And all he knows is that he can't lose her as well. He isn't sure about the exact nature of his feelings for her but he does recognize that losing her is not an option and so he is trying his darnedest to get her to give in. There is only so much loss a person can take and A feels that he is on that threshold. If he could have NOT loved her, he'd have done it. But since he can't, the only option for him is to hold on for life.
Also Juhi, I think this is a special record that you're setting for chemistry via hand holding. I love how the quality of the hand-hold has changed. Back in the caves in CA it was reassuring, protective, and comforting. Now it's sensuous and threatens to explode.
But I honestly think thy are getting there. The past does occasionally threaten to consume everything, but I think A is doing much better. Unlike last time, he reined in his temper and the poison. He knows what a moment of impulsive rage can do to K. And he's fighting it. He's just not sure that he'll always be able to fight it.
And that makes him very real and very human. (and more attractive than some prissy perfect dude)
Perseverance is key-- but not in the way A thinks. Rather than reminding K about their explosive chemistry at every turn, perhaps it would serve him better if he reassured her of his effort and genuine will to try and move on, of his inability to function properly without her, of how by hurting her he only ends up hurting himself. K is inherently a gentle and loving soul. Once she KNOWS that they have a shot, that he is INDEED doing his best and that his aren't just empty words, I have a feeling that there isn't much that would stop her from going to him and helping him heal-- and in return have him help HER forgive herself.
I do wonder what the dynamics between NK and Arnav will be like! Definitely not amiable. The question is HOW hostile?
Because that threatens the A and K equation as well.
This is indeed a convoluted mess, but I have no doubt about your ability to wrap things up neatly and unravel all the threads that you have so intricately knotted.
P.S. Kar diya na Vidya Bagchi wala kaam? I say it's Arnav.
Edited by Semanti - 12 years ago
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