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Chapter Thirty-Six – The Unexpected Breakdown
I turned my attention back towards Adi who was watching me as though he was afraid I'd run again. He slowly got up and joined me on the edge of the bed.
"He's changed…"
He nodded his head in response to my statement slowly and then went onto to explain why.
"He blames himself…"
"For?"
"What happened to ma and papa. Not a day goes by where he doesn't mention how much he regrets sending them to go see your parents to talk about…"
He trailed off and I sensed him feeling awkward, so I helped him complete his sentence.
"Our engagement?"
He nodded his head again.
"He feels it's his fault they were…k…killed."
"I'm sorry my pa…"
He put his finger to my lips, not letting me finish, which surprised me.
"It's not your fault Madhy. It never was."
"It was my fault. Had I not entered RK's life…your parents would still be alive…"
He looked away slowly and remained silent because he knew I was right. Had RK and I never met, then my father never would shot his parents. They never would've witnessed my father killing my mother. They never would've fell victim to my father's brutal attack.
"I have to apologize. I have to apologize to him."
Adi's head shot back in my direction as I got off the bed. He stood and I noticed his hand go out to stop me but I ran out of the room before he could. I ran straight to RK's room doors and pushed them open without knocking. He turned his head in my direction and I saw tears flowing out of his eyes. He quickly turned his head away as he noticed it was me standing there. My eyes landed on the picture of his parents that he held and I felt myself go weak. I began to feel sick to my stomach after seeing him in that condition. I hadn't seen him look so vulnerable and emotional in a while…so it definitely hurt to see him like that. I felt my eyes beginning to fill with tears as I unconsciously walked towards him to comfort him. I saw a movement of his arm as he hid his face and wiped away at his tears. Then just as I was about to lay my hand on his back, he stood and turned to face me with anger.
"Don't you see I have a door?!"
I saw the redness, the puffiness that had formed around his eyes due to his crying. I remembered back to years ago when he would come to me and I used to comfort him. Now he cried alone in his room and it broke my heart.
"You didn't lock…so I didn't knock."
"Shut up and get out of here. NOW."
"RK…"
"Get out Madhu."
I knew he needed someone as I stared into his eyes and saw the loneliness…the pain. I wished I could take away his pain and give him all the happiness in the world, but I knew that would never happen now. I figured the least I could do was let him know that he's not alone. I slowly raised my hand to caress the side of his face but he stepped away.
"Out Madhu."
"No. I'm not leaving RK."
"Don't make me drag you away."
"Go for it. I'll just come back."
"I'll lock my door."
"I'll break it down."
He was about to say something but then stopped and looked me up and down, so I corrected myself.
"With Adi's help."
"I want to be alone right now."
"You used to say that in the past too."
"Things have changed. I mean it this time."
"Are you sure…?"
I stepped towards him and raised my hand slowly. He kept his eyes on my hand and then closed his eyes as my skin made contact with his. I gently caressed the side of his face as he kept his eyes closed. Then I began to speak softly.
"You're not alone RK…you never were…you never will be. You've got Adi…you've got me. I did come here to apologize for coming into your life and causing this, but now I'm going to apologize for not coming to you sooner and giving you a shoulder to cry on. I'm here for you."
I noticed a tear fall from his eyes and then suddenly I was in his arms. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and I heard him sobbing into my neck.
"I miss them…this…this is all my fault…"
I felt comfort in his arms even though I knew I was the one supposed to be comforting him. I closed my eyes and slowly ran my hands up and around his back, taking in the feel of his perfectly sculpted back as I did.
"Shh…it's not your fault RK. It never was…"
His arms tightened around me as I comforted him and I felt my chest flattening against his. My heart raced and I liked the feel of my chest rising with every breath against his.
"It was my fault RK…had I never come into your life…"
He didn't let me finish. He slowly pulled away from the hug and stared at me from behind his tears. Then his words broke whatever I had left of my heart.
"You're right…this is your fault. This is your entire fault. Everything is. Had you never come into my life…MY PARENTS WOULD BE ALIVE! GET OUT."
Shattered, I began to step backwards. Backing away from him with every step as I felt helpless. He let tears fall from his eyes but pushed me away at the same time, not letting me take away his pain. I let my tears fall and then quickly turned as I ran out of his room.
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