Taarey FF.. Is hatred stronger than Love?? (Note pg 80) - Page 37

In RH-

Taani was seated against the wall directly in front of the RH mirror... Her tears had dried up and now her eyes reflected neglect and anger... She felt neglected from her friends, as if they didn't care about her,which made heroutraged at her their behaviour... How could they FORGET??! It was the most important day in her life... And! Those 'so called friends' didn't even remember!! She felt like screaming out her heart and telling them how she felt and what today meant for her!... but she didn't... for them... for their day to go without carrying her pain as burden on themselves... But she was sick and tired of always understanding them and their point of view! Why couldn't someone ever see her point of view??! Why didn't they understand her?! Why did she always have to do things according to their happiness?! Why didn't they ever think about her happiness!!!?

All of these thoughts forced her to feel alone, abandoned and EMPTY... As if her heart had disappeared and there was nothing beating inside of her... She felt like a lifeless body, without mind and soul...she started weeping badly, placing her hands on her face trying to run away from her surroundings... Like a baby covers their face thinking if they can't see the world, the world can't see them...

She started talking to Krishna ji:

T: kyun bhaghwaan!!! (Sniffing) apne ek ek karke meri zindigi seh saari khushiya kyun cheenli!!! (Digging her face into her hands and crying loudly) Meri maa... Mere dad... Aur ab!... Ab Mere dost!!

A few of the moments spent with her friends were going through her head... she remembered the whole gang sitting at the canteen, talking, laughing and the boys pulling pranks... their rehearsals in the RH... how they all went to India Fest... her first day at St. Louis and how she met the gang...

It was taani's first day at St. Louis... she was wearing:

She walked into the college and everyone was staring at her' they all giggled at her dressing style'

Girl 1: (dramatically) how old fashioned!!

Girl 2: she's trying to get the lime light from wearing all these desi clothes' (looking her up and down)

Girl 1: all she wants is the boy's attention' 9rolling her eyes at taani)

And they started giggling at her' all of the attention and gossiping was bringing tears into her eyes' and she turned back, about to leave, when Sharon came in'

Sh: What are u all looking at??! (Screaming and evil eyeing them all, with a questioning look) Get lost!!

Taani just stood there staring at Sharon'

Sh: hey' u new??

Taani was amazed at how quickly Sharon voice turned from Diva of the School LOUD! To a caring and helpful person..

T: ha' who baas mein jaa hi rahi thi' (she started walking away)

Sh: wait! (grabbing her shoulder and making her walk with her) jaane ki koi zaaroraat nahi hai' the girls were just jealous from all the attention u were getting' so chill!! (she looked at Taani loving) by the way I'm Sharon' Sharon Raiprakash'

T: ohh' hi! (smiling back)

Sh: (rolling her eyes) and ur name is?? (Questioning look)

T: ohh.. aahh Taani' Taani Kundra' (Smiling and forwarding her hand,
for a hand shake)

S: (stared at her hand and then to her, weirdly)

Taani thought that Sharon didn't want to become her friend' so she put down her hand and dropped her head' Sharon started laughing, causing Taani to look up' Sharon flung her hands around Taani, hugging her' Taani was so shacked, but was happy for getting her first friend' so she also wrapped her hands around her'

*END OF FLASHBACK*

Taani started smiling remembering her first meeting with Sharon' and then the flashbacks of meeting the gang went through her head' she remembered how Sharon introduced her to the Gang' and she fit in immediately' she played pranks with the boys and talked about clothes and did lots of gossiping with the girls' and she never knew how Sharon transformed her from a simple, Salwaar Kameez wearing girl to the Diva of St. Louis'

And then she remembered how the Gang had forgotten about her mother's death and treated that day as a normal day' it hurt her a lot!! But she didn't say anything'

Now she started crying again' talking to her Krishna Ji:

T: Woh kyun mere paas hote hue bhi, itne dhur aur alag he ki I feel alone!! Even though they're with me! Kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki... Woh mujhe shamajte hi nahi! (Letting go of her face) Ki woh mere dost hi nahi! (Looking up) krishna ji... Ap kyun kar rahe ho aisa mere saath?? (Sobbing between her words) aisa kya paap kiya tha meine??! (Pleading Krishna ji to Answer her question) Jiski itni baardi saaza... (shaking voice) itni baardi! saaza mil rahi hai mujhe??! (Crying like a baby) KYUN!!!! Kyun krishna ji... Kyun?? (Looking up pleadingly)

In Philosophy Class-

The whole class was silent listening to the professor... But the gang was too busy thinking about Taani... Whether their doing the right thing or not??

Neha was the first one to break the silence...

N: (whispering to Sharon) Neha thinking taani sad was... (Making a sad face) and Sharon right was! (Evil eyeing Swayam)

Sh: (turning around to Neha) hmmm... I think so too... Meine usse baat ki thi, aur woh bohot lost aur upset thi... But ab hum kar bhi kya sakte hai??

(A light bulb flicked on in Nil's head)

N: guys i have an idea!! (Screaming out, grabbing the Professor's attention)

P: tht's great Nil! I can see ur very enthusiastic about this subject... (Smiling and Nodding his head) So tell me what do u think on this topic??

N: T.. Tt... To.. Topic??(scared)

P: come on Nil don't be shy... Tell me: if we each see colours differently, is my red your green and my blue ur red? (Looking questioningly)

N: WHAT!? (Confused... Screaming it out)

P: excuse me?? (Angry)

N: (laughing nervously) wha... Wa... What... An easy question! (Nodding) Ha! What an easy question, sir mein aise easy questions nahi answer karta?! Yeh toh meri bezaati hui!

P: (confused face) hmmm... paar'

Ri: (cutting off the professor'confusion on her face) but sir... Agar apka laal mera hara hai, aur apka neela mera laal... Toh farak kya pardta hai!!?

Every one banged their palms on their heads... Including the Professor.

In RH-

Taani got up from where she was sitting and walked to the centre of the RH... She faced the mirror and stared at herself. Her features that used to compliment her; were now either swollen from crying or dull and pale from not having any blood going through her system... She looked like a
ghost: white pale body with red swollen eyes... You could see the pain of separation in her eyes... They seemed to be pleading to god, for something... No! Someone... Her eyes pleaded for someone's love and affection. She also wanted someone to console her, to take her into their embrace and make her feel loved and safe...

She had craved for that someone since 2 years!! And it broke her heart to stand alone in this world... Even though she had friends, she always had this emptiness in her heart... One that needed to be filled before it engulfs her heart within itself...

She looked at her hands... Remembering her mother's words... Her mom used to say that Taani's hands read that she would have a lot of love in her life... But Taani always questioned Krishna Ji about this... Where is the love??!

T: Kaha hai woh pyar jo mere haatho mein likha hai?? (Staring closely at her hands)

With Rey-

Rey was now walking into the college to attend his philosophy class... His jean was still wet from the rain, but he had taken off his wet jacket and was now only wearing the dry shirt underneath...

He ran up the stairs and walked down the hall way, approaching his class... When he remembered he had forgotten his phone in the car... Irritated he walked back down the hallway and down the stairs, towards the exit...

When suddenly he heard sounds of music being played... Stopping him in his tracks... He walked down the main hall and tried looking for where it was coming from... the song was Ore piya, but with a kathak tune in the background... and he could also hear the sounds of ghungroo moving in tone with the music...

(For those who don't know what a ghungroo is:)

In RH-

Taani had taken out a traditional pink and red salwaar kameez, from her hand bag and worn it...

The dress:

Whenever she couldn't deal with life's changes, she would always do kathak until she falls to the ground... It was her mother's talent, and she had taught it to Taani... So it made Taani feel joined to her mother... As if she was there doing it with her... She still remembered her mother's lessons (she turned on the music and walked to the centre of the RH, facing the mirror) she started off in the kathak position... Her heels joint at the bottom and her legs bent down towards her sides... with a few hand movements her mother had taught her, she touched the ground and placed her hands in the starting position...

The music started... (I have no idea how to
write kathak music!! 😔 so sorry... But Natasha. and Charmar1 helped me in picking
a song... It's: Ore Piya)

Taani straightened her knees and started tapping her feet continuously on the floor... The ghungroo on her legs making noise according to her movements...

O re piya haye..

She swiftly moved both her hands to a clapping postition and brought them up to her face and moved her eyes left to right, slowly bringing her hands down... the wind from the fan blew on her hair... Making her look enchanting... Her earrings and dress glistened in the
light...

Nazrein bolen duniya bol

she moved to her right side, still tapping her legs... And straightened her right leg out to her right side and tapped the bottom of her heel on the floor and brought it back in, quickly (a bit further away from her left legs heel)...

Her eyes moving with her hands and legs movements...

O re piya haye..

She moved back to the centre of the RH... Placing her bent hands up to her neck, so that they were facing each other at the centre...

Nange pairo pe angaro

She put her left hand on her right shoulder, and quickly brushed her fingers across to her left shoulder and kept forwarding her hand outwards towards her left' while she was moving to her right' she repeated the same with her right and instead moved to her left side...

With Rey-

Rey was still looking for where the sound was coming from... He walked well into the centre of the main hall and the noise was coming from straight ahead... He was moving his head around trying to see who was the person dancing...

In RH-