Saras - I want to be at Peace

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-Srushti-

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Posted: 12 years ago

Apart from the major editing glitch where Saras, after rebuking Dukhba yesterday,and now suddenly he comes to her saying that he remembered that it was her who had saved him years back and even yesterday...I know he came to open himself up, after Kumud told him to open up...but then wasn't yesterday's scene seeming out of the blue now😕

But Apart from that slight hitch,,,It was again an emotional roller coaster ride as ever before...

It is amazing..that eventhough through his anger, his denial...he does listen to Kumud..whether she is taunting or trying to make him understand..he has always listened to him...right from the moment, he had not even seen her face...

Even when he was half concious seeing the haunted lake, her taunts penetrated through him, and she made him plunge those demonizing waters...he had drowned then, yet he braves those again...only on her say...

And today, even through his anger...he listens to her..and goes to the first person he thinks would understand him...take him in her shelter, like the way she had done since he almost drowned again...

But Guman again had come in between...even though a millions of miles away, she manages to ruin Saras and his chances and hope to love and be loved...

Though, we find that inexplicable cruelty the way Dukhba rejects the heart rendiering plea of a lost child who wanted nothing but to be comforted...

"Mein Shaant honaa chahta hoon'...That sentence HAS to be the dialogue of the day...his plea..he knows ...that he will never be able to find peace, until he unbinds himself from that scene of horror...that guilt that has bounden him all these years...and what a web of misery did Saraswati created for her son by extracting that promise..to take care of his father...He is dying inside everytime...

And he has to fight those demons inside..he cannot say that his mother was wrong..that would totally undermine the importance of the memory of his mother..he cannot fall in line with his fater..that would undermine him as Saraswati's son...He is tired of that fighting everytime...he has lost it...completely and fully..and may that is why he came to Dukhba..the woman who came as close to Saraswati as anyone could..and may be he thinks that she can release him from that...somehow he can be free from that ghost by this woman who was very much alive..and he can let go of that battle without a guilty conscience???

And he goes to touch her feet and is totally taken back as he sees the rejection in the first step he took towards trusting and opening up...

And Dukhba tells him that Saras is no more...Saraswati's son died with her...what is left is Guman's son...

Just look at him...he is not even understand what happened..it is as if suddenly Dukhba took away his existence...he never separated himself from his mother's name and suddenly the woman he had leaned on for support and comfort..suddenly took away his world..the small world where he had exiled himself and found a sanctuary from the cruel and stone hearted world...

You have to cry for this guy at this moment..is it a wonder that he is so averse to love...and opening himself up...???

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-Srushti-

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Posted: 12 years ago

And Just look at the horror on his face..the moment he has stepped in this village he has been misunderstood,,,Kumud did that..the villagers did that...and to some extent so did Vidyachatur, thinking that he had come to accept the proposal..and ofcourse Dukhba...but this was like changing him to something he himself abhorred..Guman's son...and not Saraswati's...!!!! He lost whatever he had, by coming here

On a side note...See what years of hate and prejudices do to you... a gem of woman could not hear the genuine plea in his voice..she could not see Saraswati in Saraswati's son...

And he lost it in the first step he took...he fell so deep that he doesnot have the capacity to hold out any longer...he cannot take another step...so irreversibly has he taken the plunge..look at how defeated he walks

Yet it is amazing..that inspite of the loss...it is his anger which vigours him..as if punishing himself for being so weak...he again takes it up...vents it up with whatever is available...

The mother India Pose😆

Ofcourse Kumud comes and jumps on the wrong conclusion...Although she is right in her anguish but she did not know about the conversation right?? so why does she assume that everything is about her ??? The man is fighting his demons...and all she wants is his forgiveness??? And again on her rant?? is this the way you ask for an apology?

And finally she says that she had made a mistake that she called him here...that I think hurt him the most..his whole life turned upside down...all these years..his protection...his values...everything crumbled because she had called and he came...and now she was reneging...

And so he lashes back!!

And tells her that she is going...and now even her jabs...also hurt...he has fortified himself now..

And it is then he actually opens up...and t ells her that this time it was she who was showing her back..and it was her pride that made her challenge..that could not digest a rejection and told him to come to her house...he actually thought that he had hurt her feelings..but it was not her feelings but her pride that was hurt (And I am reminded of the legendary confrontation of Elizabeth and Darcy!)

And again he alleges...that she did not want show him her face..that still rattles him, does it not...amazing...how both manage to hurt each other inspite of their own pains!!!

how he tells her that it was only SORRY that he had come here for...thereby telling her that it was her reluctance to show her face that did not earn her an apology...answering her allegations of yesterday that he had not apologized once!!

And I love how both of them absolutely dont respect each other's personal space,...😆

So in the end.,,,both of them...emotinally charged and so strong for others...and yet so vulnerable...exhaust themselves..did someone notice the absolute hopeless state that Saras was in when standing alone in the field...those small moments of happiness as if were asking for ransom for that small moment of lapse...so sad...so heartbreaking!!

Edited by -Srushti- - 12 years ago

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SHANA

@ShanUlas

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Posted: 12 years ago

u explained saras so well 👍🏼

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dlimbachia

@dlimbachia

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Posted: 12 years ago

heyyy yarr ur post is much better thn epi...⭐️ da bitterness ws def nt thr in ur writin👏.i hated da epi to da core may b i ws in a bad mood i saw it tht way da epi ws heartbreakin...thr is too much f bitterness...cvs need to relax a little it has to b balanced...i felt like today way ott f shwin bitterness..but poor saras whnever he takes kumud teachers advice he gets more sucked into da quick sand in which he is dwrnin sumbody helpp himm yarr...i just liked da precap for tmrw i hp some light heart filled moments we get to c...n ofcourse yar our anaconda (MR.GAUTAM RODE) take a bow ur def on a roll aur thodi toh daya karo humpar...SRU U AS USUAL BANG ON sara feelin❤️...but sry yar i just cldnt take da bitterness ...supelike for ur writin yar🤗

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stuti..

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Posted: 12 years ago

Excellent WU. Joining this watch on some recommendation...

Edited by stuti.. - 12 years ago

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-GayabCat-

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Posted: 12 years ago

Great post

Seeing saraswatichandra cry and all emotional type was so sad

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bahi.

@bahi.

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Posted: 12 years ago

I felt so sorry for Saras today. He wanted to be feel loved by maahi, and he did what Kunud told him to do - open up for someone, but she hurted him more. But it's understandble why he is like this.. Lonely.. I cried for him today.. I want to give him a hug 🤗

Edited by Baki - 12 years ago