MG FF- PARINEETA THREAD 9 - Page 19

She smiled a bit…she was really trying to catch fire…but herself getting burned. That day, she recalled, she ran back to her house and cried her heart out, locking herself in her room. Jasmeet came and hugged her tight…knowing very well what her daughter was going through. She felt dizzy yet again and tried to sleep… but she couldn't. no matter how hard she tried…she couldn't stop herself from craving for him… loving him madly..even this side of his. She had reached to the point where she could do nothing but love him crazily.

She woke up much later in the day and felt really dizzy. Fear gripped her heart again… if she was really expecting.. then probably it will hurt Maan even more. He anyways feels guilty about their togetherness… and now the baby? She couldn't live in so much pain..she decided to go to he hospital and confirm.

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He drove like a maniac, breaking the speed limit.. he was tired..his body wasn't listening to him anymore…he wanted rest but what was going within him was beyond any comparison. He played with Geet's life..the one who had always protected him from every little pain…and look at him..what did he do? He was suddenly so scared of the expectation she had from him… will he be able to keep her happy? She seemed to be in so much pain… even on that night… she was so much in pain..but he couldn't forget that beautiful moment with her…. tears clouded his eyes…. She loved this much? his vision blurred and then he saw her..standing in front of him… smiling…with her arms wide open for him. he smiled…. He wanted respite from this pain… he wanted to be with her no matter what… he raised his hands, trying to reach her and everything went dark.

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Dadima was shocked to hear the news of Maan's accident from adi. It wasn't a very serious one as adi had stated. A drunken truck driver had lost his control and hit Maan's car from behind. He managed to dodge but slammed into a nearby tree. Dadima was so worried… and today was karwachauth as well. She was even more scared. She asked if Maan was okay..adi asked them to relax saying he had just got minor scratches and a cut on his forehead which was not too serious. Dadima was totally disturbed by the day's events..geet wasn't at home either. It was karwachauth and she had vanished somewhere without telling anyone. She was about to call her when she saw her walking up the stairs to her room quietly. She was back!!! Dadima sighed and walked towards her room to speak to her.

Geet entered the room..she had been staying with the kids after that night. She was too numb to realize anything when she felt like throwing up once again. she ran to the washroom and threw up whatever she had eaten in sargi. Tears rolled down her eyes as she saw herself in the mirror. She was not in a position to think anything. She slowly went and sat on the bed, caressing her tummy. What to think now? what to do now? he regrets everything….probably he will regret this as well. she was slipping into a darkness where there was no return. All these years of pain and sadness came back to her altogether with double the force and amount. She took a deep breath in… and probably she had lost all hopes now. the first thing that came to her mind was an abortion. She was in very early stages…so that wouldn't hurt. She would never ever bind him to something that would hurt him.

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He was given first aid and he just wanted to get back home..to her—the only place where he could feel better. Yet it was the same place that could make him feel like a burden as well. his body had given up. He had been torturing himself to no ends. the doctors advised rest..but he was no where near listening. They tried to give him sedatives… but he shouted at them and walked out, even though he wasn't in a condition to walk. He missed his home..dadima..kids..and her. but he knew he needn't worry about the kids because she was there…she took care of them more than he ever did! and yet again a realization struck him—they were probably not her own kids… still she loved them more than a mother…and he took even that for granted! He felt even cheaper…but he couldn't stay away from herself. More than 3 weeks of restless battle with himself he realized no matter where he goes… the only place that soothed his soul was in her embrace. He called adi to get the tickets. but to his misfortune the immediate flight was already full. He screamed at him for not using his common sense and called for his private jet. He wanted to get home as fast as possible..it was too suffocating to stay away from her.

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She stopped thinking anything at all. She never gave herself time to think too because she knew if she did that she'd get weaker. She stood up to get her bag when she felt a tug on her hands. she turned back to see Dadima standing there...she had tears in her eyes and she didn't want to read anything at all. She saw her shaking her head for a no…she froze right there! Did Dadima know about this? She just stood like a statue trying to understand if she knew or not. Dadima read her confusion.

"aapko kya laga…aap chupa lengi aur hume pata nahi chalega?"

[what did you think? You will hide and we won't know?]

Geet just didn't speak anything..yet her tears gave away her feelings. Dadima held her chin and made her look at her, "look at us Geet… and why did you hide everything from us?? From your Dadima?"

Geet just looked down… how did Dadima even know? She had tried hard to hide everything from everyone. Dadima shook her, "and what were you thinking of doing han?"

Geet looked up to see that anger and pain in her face…what could she say now? probably her tears didn't feel like accompanying her for this one time. She just spoke meekly, "how did..you…" she didn't even need to complete her sentence!

"we have known you since you were a baby Geet… and we had been observing every little change in you since the past few days..and you think we won't know? We were very sure of it since the past few days..but just got a confirmation"

She made Geet sit on the bed and cupped her face, "this calls for a celebration beta… its your baby… aapka aur aapke Maan ka… aapko tho khush hona chahiye…phir aap aisa kaise soch sakti hain? Aapki doctor ne khudh hume phone kiya tha abhi… she told about you seeking information about abortion!!! Ek baar bhi apne baby ke bare mein nahi socha?"

[this calls for a celebration beta… its your baby..yours and your Maan's… you should be happy..then how could you think like this? Your doctor called us just now and told about you seeking information about abortion!!! Did you never think about your baby?]

She sat quietly… registering everything into her numbed mind. She had stopped thinking at all just because she didn't want to back out…. But the truth was she was breaking from within.. the thought that he never accepted her as his...and their baby… a sob raked her body. She didn't want to think about it..she pretended not to think about it… but she couldn't run away from reality. It was her baby… her Maan's baby….she had hated herself for thinking about abortion… but she probably couldn't burden him with another guilt. She placed her hands over her tummy... and looked at Dadima. she had tears in her eyes while she asked her, "aap aisa kyun karna chati hain Geet? Don't you want to feel your love growing within you? Don't you want to feel that motherly bliss? The baby is your love Geet…."

She couldn't hold back anymore….and sobbed in Dadima's arms, "I don't want to do this Dadima… but I can't burden him with another guilt…."

Dadima was sure she will cry and let everything out. But strangely, she didn't cry…she never cried all these days… she was too hurt within… just too much and probably she was reaching a point where hurt seemed to be a part of her life. So what's the point in crying anyways! Dadima was surprised to hear that coming from her, "why guilt beta…he loves you.."

Geet didn't know if Dadima will understand what she meant by guilt or her thoughts for that matter. She kept mum. Dadima caressed her head, "don't do this beta..promise us ke aap kabhi aisi baat sochengi bhi nahi… baby ka promise..you will never try to hurt him.."

[don't do this beta… promise that you will never think like this… baby's promise… you will never try to hurt him..]

As if she needed to promise! Dadima made her sit straight and caressed her tummy, smiling, "promise us Geet… you will never ever think of aborting the baby whatsoever. If Maan says anything..he has to face us before he could reach you! But we know he will accept the baby as much as he does to you…will you promise?"

Geet nodded her head with a yes..but then she had her conditions as well, "I promise Dadima.. but I do have one condition.."

Dadima wondered what was Geet thinking. All she could get from her talks and her observations that somewhere Maan was not realizing what he really wants and in all his confusion he is hurting Geet. But she was too happy for Geet too..her little gundi Geet had grown up so much that she was expecting a little gundi/gunda of her own.

She waited for Geet to speak up… but wondered why she was hesitating. Geet was never like that..she spoke clear and loud about what she wanted and what she did not.

"Geet..what is it?"

"umm…I promised you something Dadima..its your turn to promise me something..if you really love me…."

This was something too big Dadima knew… otherwise Geet would never ever say like that. There must be something big. She was scared now..too scared to hear what she might ask her.

"will you promise Dadima??? for your Geet?"

Dadima was too scared to reply but seeing Geet so broken yet so cold.. she had to answer in affirmative.

"you will not say thing about the baby to Maan… he shouldn't know anything…"

Dadima knew something strong was coming..but this strong..she hated herself to have agreed to her condition.

"but why beta….why don't you.."

She cut her off, "not now Dadima.. he already regrets everything… I don't want him to regret our baby also… please Dadima..if not for me..then for the baby at least…"

"but Geet…its wrong… you had hidden about gayathri's thing also…he has to know…"

"only when he is in right state of mind. I don't want to burden him further ..please..", she literally begged. Dadima knew this was wrong..very wrong..but probably anyone in Geet's place would have done the same. She loved him to the extent she knew not of… just loved him and even in this state..all she thought was him. Dadima had no choice but to agree. She kissed Geet's forehead, "yes but if anything goes wrong… we'll tell him everything.."

Just then nakul called them. Some girls were there to apply mehndi. Dadima wiped her tears and asked Geet to come fast. Geet stood up to walk… but her health wasn't permitting her at all. Her fever sustained..and above all..this weakness. She felt dizzy and her vision blurred and before she could understand anything, she was lying unconscious. Dadima turned to Geet like that. She panicked and called the doctor immediately. the doctor did some initial chek up..she was the same whom Geet had gone to meet this morning. She smiled and spoke to Dadima, "just as I had told you ma'am…your daughter-in-law is expecting but she seems too weak..that is why she fainted. Even this morning I checked..she is underweight. She needs to eat properly…"

She advised a complete rest and a good diet for Geet before leaving. She was even a little upset that she was fasting even in this condition. She needed to eat for the medicines to work. Dadima was worried about Geet..and in such a condition she would never let her starve. She saw the ladies coming for mehendi… in any other case she'd have cancelled the puja..but this was Geet's first and that too with an added happiness of her pregnancy.. she didn't want to. Geet could at least take part in the events if not keep the fast. she left Geet and called Maan. his phone was switched off..and even adi's. she was worried as to what happened…but then they might be busy in work. Work..huh she hated it today. She saw the ladies asking her to join their talks..she smiled weakly and joined them just for formality.

After an hour, the kids were back too. They saw Geet up and hugged her tight. Dadima immediately took some food for her. she needed to eat. Geet was really feeling dizzy and the first thing she did was gulp down the water that Dadima had brought for her. she was famished…but then realized she wasn't supposed to even take water. Dadima assured her that it was okay and that she needn't fast. Geet couldn't argue much because she had somewhere accepted the fact that he wouldn't come for her. her body needed energy too..her baby needed her to eat and drink.

Dadima and the kids made her eat some light food and let her rest. It was almost evening when Dadima called up jasmeet.

"jasmmet..when are you coming? We have been waiting for you since morning…and where is roops?"

Jasmeet was little happy that things were turning better at KM. she was still very very very upset about the whole media thing..and she knew Geet a little too well. she will break..but she wouldn't let anything break him. she smiled, "yeah I will leave in a few minutes maa… was held up with a meeting.. roops is coming with me…"

Daidma smiled, "theek hain..theek hain..but aate waqt mithayion ki dukaan leti aana aap.."

[okay..okay.. but get the whole sweet shop while coming..]

"ji?? I didn't get you maa? Mithayion ki dukan? Itni mithayion ki achanak kahan se zarurat pad gayi aapko?"

[ji..i didn't get you maa. Sweet shop? Why do you suddenly want so much sweets?]

"its not for us beta..its for you?"

"what??"

"yes…you are going to be the grandmom of another little angel very soon…"

For a moment jasmeet couldn't believe what she heard…it was too good to be true…like a mirage. She thought Dadima was kidding, "are you kidding ma?"

"no beta..what you heard is true… even the doctor confirmed today… Geet is expecting…"

There was a visible happiness in Dadima's voice. But jasmeet was still in a dilemma… this was just too good to be true but then why should maa lie about something like this? Her own life stood in front of her…but she tried to think positive. May be she was wrong… but a fear still lurked within. Was Geet really expecting? She was happy..just too happy but then she was still scared..she didn't know why! May be she was scared as a mother? Even happiness had a fear within itself. She smiled and finished the call. Roops was all set to leave when she saw jasmeet sitting quietly, still not ready. She asked if she was worried about something. Jasmeet looked at roops and smiled a bit, "Geet is expecting,…"

She kept her fears to herself seeing roops squeal in happiness. She was literally jumping around the house. Finally this distance between Maan and Geet seemed to come to an end..or was it just the beginning? Jasmeet sighed and decided to concentrate on the happiness itself. She changed and both of them drove to km.

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awesome upd.

really heart touching.

poor maaneet are in pain.

How will maan react knowing the truth.

Upd.soon.