Friendly Disclaimer: my words and ideas are mine only, please do not copy. you are welcome to use it, but please give credit accordingly. Thank you!
Episode 33
"Khushi!" rolled off his tongue almost involuntarily as if something from within sent a signal. The dhaks dhaks haven't really begun yet, but Arnav's heart has begun to skip a beat when he hears her name mention.
His disappointment in not being able to see her and his longing for her looking at her empty desk in the morning... has a silent desire to see her today come true? He looks at the door in anticipation and waits for it to open, in she comes...
She looks up to see him, as his eyes are already fixated on her, initial gazes they both know things have changed and she looks away, as does he
...just for a second, eyes locked again and they slowly make their way to each other. He can't look away, his piercing eyes, she adjusts her dupatta,
does she feel exposed? her mark on her hand is visible, and so is regret on his face.
He tries to apologize with his eyes, she may have even heard(rather seen) his apology, but is quick to dismiss maybe because she isn't ready to see the human in that "rakshash"
Trying to maintain his dimeanor, he asks the question that has been eating him up since he left at Buaji's the last he saw her
"Tum theek ho?" three little words "are you ok?" normally suggesting concern for one person from another but something about it doesn't sit right with Khushi Khumari Gupta
"kya pucha aapne?...hum teek hai? aisa sawaal to sirf aap hi kar sakte hai"
Arnav lets her talk, maybe its one way to be free of himself of guilt or he is so glad to have her in front of him healthy, after all he did let her push him about three times at the guesthouse after he found her safe. She continues her verbal attack, "ek minut aapki zindagi mein khuch apne aap to hota nahi, sab khuch to aap karte hai hai na?" at this point he tries to get a word in to allow himself some clarification
"Nahin, aaj hum bolenge!" (she seems to have forgotten, her little venting moment at the guest house), nevertheless, Arnav lets her continue
"haan, hum abhi teek hai, aur kuch hi der hum aur bhi theek hone walen hai...kyu ki hum yeh naukri chodenge! (i'm doing just fine and will be even better beacause i'm quitting this job)"
Her words seem to shatter something inside him, the mere thought of never seeing her again, yes this shattered him, how quickly his expression changed to shock. (SOBTI! this is why i love you!!!)
She whips out her resignation letter and he looks at that paper, almost afraid of it as it is paper that will take her out of his life.
He looks back at her with hurt and anger on full display, to which she even takes notice but again is quick to dismiss..
She pull the letter back as she is not finished yet, and wants to clarify that"hum yeh naukri darr kar nahi chod rahe, i'm not affraid to work hard, but won't be a slave to anyone!"
She gives specific examples of all his unfair tasks that he wishes he could turn back time and change.
"Humne sab khuchh kiya, kyu ki hum iss contract ki keemat jaante the, par hamaari nazar mein KKG ka naam aapki contract ki keemat se ziayada maaine rakhta hai!(I did all you asked because i new the value of that contract, but the value of my name on that contract is more important!)"
Some of this is registering with Arnav, but his broken heart is slowing down his brain ability to process. he looks up into her eyes again, and she pauses almost waiting for ASR to explode, which never came...
she points out that they both had a responsibility towards the contract, but the day he abandoned his, her obligation also ended, again another pause from her just waiting for him so say something...still nothing, so she continues before those funny feeling she's been having about this man turn into something...
"I got a chance do a lot of thinking and came to only one conclusion...BHAAD MEIN JAAYEN AAP AUR BHAAD MEIN JAAYEN AAP KI NAUKRI!"
"Jo insaan kisi ki zindagi jaan bhuj ke khatre mein daal sakta hai, uss insaan ke saath hum koi rishta nahi rakhna chahte"
Interesting choice of words here she chooses, and his reaction...
Was he looking fwd to some kind of rishta(ralationship) with her? and she again noticed his reaction and realized what she said, but the more she heard his unspoken words, the more she lashes out...still stuck on the contract
"Dont think for a minute that i lost this contract or i'm running away, this loss is not mine, infact by pushing too far you've proved that this is your loss! aur aap harte bahut boora hai Mr.Raizada, you still won't admit that it was your fault!"
finally, anger briefly wins over his other emotions, is this what she was going for?
"I'm not here to give you a count of your mistakes, just want to clearifiy this contract doesn't mean anything now!"
still looking for a reaction from him...to not avail except the look on his face, this look certainly she didn't expect, he is a rakshas not this
"kyun ki iss contract se ziyada, app se ziyaada, hamaari zindage kis keemat hai! (because my life is more important to me than you and this contract) [little does she know, he feels the same way now] "aur yeh keemat humse pyaar karne waalon ko maaloom hai [little does she know he is included in that category] "not some one who puts my life in danger and dares to ask me "tum theek ho?"
If Arnav wasn't completely shattered before, he is now. she snuck into him all of him, and from the inside her attack was fatal...her final nail on the coffin:
"to sun lijiye, Mr.Arnav Singh Raizada, aap ki vaje se nahi, aap ki bawajud bhi hum teek hai! [i'm ok, not because of you but despite you!] i'm breaking this contract, do what ever you want"
He steps forward and she steps backwards, his looks as his life has been sucked out of him (maybe too dramatic, but its how i feel)
"bol diya?" he asks, he extends his hand to receive the contract and she hands it to him, but his hand remains as her moves back, clearly he is not ready to accept this, to let her go
"bol diya" her answer comes.
"khushi bitiya" naani's calls with concern
Khushi turns and is startled seeing Naani, Anjali and Maami standing there, Arnav also didn't know they were standing there, almost embarrassed as he never lets anyone talk to him that way.
Why did he let her go on blaming him, yes it was unfair to her from the get go and he did all those things, but he also saved her life twice no? He chose not defend himself, was it not enough to free him for all the charges?
Khushi says her greeting, and apologizes for her behavior but explains that she had to hand in the letter herself so its not considered her loss, she looks over to Arnav...the last thing on his mind was win or loss,
"Chalte hai"
even after all she said and the havok she caused him within, he can't help but give her a tender look, a plea of some sort "please don't go"
She hears his plea...but lowers her eyes and turns her back to him and proceeds to walk out, while he doesn't move an inch, just watches her leave...is that doubt on Khushi's face as she leaves?
a few more steps and she turns around to see him one last time, his eyes right where she left them.
His fist closing with that piece of paper that's ...and just like that the door closes.
loved the scene Anjali lets khushi know she is brave, but also that they both may have misunderstood eachother, right she is.
Khuhi looking uneasy on her way home, gets a call from Payal
"khuchh bola nahi woh?" payal asks
Khushi thinking the same thing, and is annoyed, "jiji hum rakte hai" she hangs up. the uneasiness and the doubt on her face seem to get stronger every steps she takes closer to her home and away from Raizada home. "why didn't he say anything? did i do the right thing? as she later on says "hame itna bura kyu lag raha? (why am i feeling so bad?)"
lets rewind to this morning,
Khushi was ready to go to work regardless of a sleepless night, Payal told her not to even think about it. Khushi mentioned the contract to which Payal says "BHAAD mein gaya contract." after much convincing from Payal/Buaji/Shyam didn't seem to do the trick, emotional blackmail from Payal worked like a charm. Payal expresses more concern about the contract while she was writing her resignation and was the one that initiated Arnav-Bashing, to which khushi almost wanted object but instead let her sister know that she was on her side "agar uss raakshash ko ladna hai ...to hum bhi taiyaar hai" She assured her. Khushi goes to the office to hand in her letter where she misses ASR and has a confrontation with the "three stooges" (all credit to Cinthia for that phrase, thanks dear). At one point Lavanya accuses her of running away of the contract and quitting because she is scared or incapable. after which she goes to the RM, where she meets with a different Arnav Singh Raizada who asks her three little words "tum theek ho" and unknowingly unleashes the "Sherri" (tigress). IMO the cause of Khushi's irrational outburst was a mix of Payal's words especially "BHAAD mein gaya contract," Lavanyas accusations of her running as she clarifies to Arnav that she is not running and finally her own feelings toward him..they had changed, "diehli itni bhi boori nahi hai" she says after doing tedious work for ASR, standing in the rain all night and almost getting killed at the guest house...Really Khushi, Diehli itni bhi boori nahi hai? or could it have to do with the fact that you have your own personal hero who saved you twice?? yes he was the one that put you in harms way, but even you know Ms.Gupta there is more than what meets the eye.
Arnav reading, err looking at that dreadful letter and crumbles it up with one hand to toss it away all the while thinking of memories of her, was he trying to take those memories and toss them away as well? his brain says yes, but his heart feels otherwise (IMO)
Cricket
267