Bittersweet. Gentle. Painful. Joyful. Longing. Sublime.
These are just some of the words that come to mind after today's episode with regards to AarYa's love. I just can't seem to get over the emotions of the last scene so you will have to forgive me, yet again if my take is AarYa centred today, as it has been almost all week. We were all so eagerly awaiting a beach sequence and when it came, I can't describe the effect it has left on my heart and mind. I feel uplifted, warm and hopeful, and yet at the same time I feel pain and longing. it was a beautiful melange of emotions that this episode, and especially the last scene left me with so I will get right to it.
From the first scene, with the arm-wresting it becomes clear that Yash is trying to avoid Aarti. Over the past few days, and I think especially in the bangle scene, he has become aware that she draws him towards her without his own knowledge, and since her vehement declaration of identity, it has become impossible for him to connect this attraction with anything Arpita-related. The truth of the matter is that he is attracted to Aarti, he wants to be around her, he wants to play with and tease her, and he wants to live in a world where she is happy because for some reason, her being unhappy makes him deeply restless. She matters to him and he has realised this, which is why I believe he was hiding in his room with the children as his buffers, engaging them in a never ending battle so that he wouldn't have to go downstairs to the breakfast table and face all his feelings for Aarti. The poor children, naively become their papa's shield, losing again and again, until their mother comes herself to save them.
There was so much significance to this scene, where for the first time, Yash is not able to meet Aarti's eyes. He is pensive, quiet and most of all scared, which makes Aarti's dialogues in jest to the kids all the more meaningful. Yash is indeed scared to engage in this dangerous game he can finally see her playing. The loss in this game is so unknown and so overwhelming to him that he hesitates to compete, while he sees that Aarti does not fear loss because in her loss is Yash's victory and Yashs victory is her own. Aarti once again makes the unknown less overwhelming for Yash. And so he loses because loss is less frightening for him than victory in this case. They are going to the beach anyway, but this way he can be in control, a feeling he is fast losing in this game of push and pull. Something caught my eye just after the game and after the children left, Yash looks at Aarti adoringly, as though he has appreciated the feeling of loss the same way Aarti did the day they played dog in the bone. Then, as though challenging him yet again, Aarti thanks him for letting her win,
for the children. Her contradictions at every turn are drawing Yash in and he can't fathom the depths of her so he gets away as quickly as he can.
The song selection for the beach scene was beautiful and instrumental in creating that trance like feeling of the whole scene. Today Aarti was completely lost in her love of the wonderful man before her and she let her emotions be her guide. There was magic in the air and it spoke to the imprisoned magic in her heart, which she finally unlocked and set free do to its work on the object of her love. I loved watching her provoke Yash a little more every time he came out of his shell one step, not by any conscious maneuver but just by letting what was in her heart free. If he bought her bhutta, she encouraged him to eat it. If he had tender coconut with her, she silently pleaded with him to share one, and when they stood together watching their children build sand castles, she pointed out the heart that was drawn around them in the same sand. And at every step of the way I saw a new Yash today, a Yash who was longing, not for Arpita but for Aarti.
Today showed me how Aarti and Arpita have really switched places in his heart. Before, he longed to be exclusively with Arpita, but his marriage with Aarti kept holding him back thanks to his family, society, religion and the children's needs. Today when he watched her eating the bhutta, I could see that he wanted to be with Aarti, the laughing, joyful, beautiful Aarti but now it was Arpita who was holding him back, and making his feelings for Aarti impossible and forbidden. When he was with the children he was satisfied and happy, but every time he looked at Aarti, a sadness overcame him, more so I think because he started to realise that she wants it too, but he can't.
I also found it very poetic that every time Yash tried to escape Aarti, he went to the children and in particular to Ansh. He was drawn to Aarti's child and not to Arpita's children because subconsciously, and maybe even consciously by now, he wants to feel close to her but he is forbidden by his promises and principles, so he goes towards the part of her, the "ansh" that he is allowed full access to, both when he went to them sitting the beach chairs, and when he went to help them build sand castles. Today I saw a Yash that was overwhelmed by Aarti but could not go any closer than he had already gone. He is holding himself away, turning his back, and walking away, anything to stop himself expressing the very feelings that Aarti's inviting, mirthful eyes draw out of him. The push and pull has begun and it was beautiful!
Finally, I love how their pasts were hinted to the viewers but we were given no inkling of whether they remembered them. There is a picture of Yash and Arpita sharing a tender coconut on the wall at the beach house. Today, Aarti showed him with her eyes that she wanted the same thing. But Yash turned his back because he is not ready to share that with her just yet, though he wants to make sure she is still there, drinking her tender coconut beside him. He didn't get angry at her suggestion, he was merely surprised that she wanted it and then made it clear that he did not. And then he collected her coconut for her. He wants her by his side, he wants to share things with her and he will take responsibility for her, but he is not ready to drink out of the same coconut just yet, like he did with Arpita. Aarti on the other hand, is ready to let him into that most intimate of places in her heart, where a similar visual of Prashant resided and was treasured for so long. She is ready for the "umar bhar ki qaid" which her confession will put her in, no matter Yash's feelings. she wants to tell him that she is in this for real, forever.
Aside: I loved Paridhi's speech about artists and how people should respect them for what they do! It was also nice to see a girl who could stand up for herself and make that guy actually feel shameful. Girl power! 👏 Now if only she wasn't a total hypocrite in her words/actions in relation to love. 🤔
Edited by Samanalyse - 13 years ago