ArshiSS: love like ours.(Ending_PAGE61)

I felt the little rain drops sliding down my cold cheeks, it was late and the coldness caused the Goosebumps to form on my skin.

I was remembering every little thing he had said to me, all the pain he gave me because of this one misunderstanding, each day he hurt me by saying one thing or another just something he could say to me to kill me further inside, it was just like a game and all I was waiting for was it to be over.

"I can't believe I ever loved such a person like you khushi, I can't believe how close I let you get to me"

Tears started welling up in my eyes, I felt my eyes sting, The tear drops fell down and merged with the rain drops that had formed on my face.

"It's good that your parents are dead, if they were here today to see what kind of a wh**e you are they would have been ashamed"

The killing pain shot through my heart just like a bullet would normally do.

"Why? Why couldn't of you been in the car that day with them? At least that way I would of never had met you!"

The words kept echoing in my ears, I kept shaking my head and put my hands on my ears just so I wouldn't have to remember all that hurtful past, but it wouldn't go

"I hate you!"

That was the last thing he had said to me. The worst you can hear from the person you love is that. I physically couldn't just take it in anymore, I fell down on the hard concrete road right by a lake, and I cried, I cried my heart out and let out all the pain in my heart. I hoped he had read my letter I had left for him just before I left.

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I walked inside my room and slammed the door shut and leaned again it. What the hell was I thinking? Why did I say such things to her? She deserved it didn't she?

I was confused I didn't know what to do, I hate her with passion but I love her too and I wished she loved me back. Why do her tears affect me so much? She played with my feelings and my families too! Why should I feel guilty? No I shouldn't.

I walked to my bedside draw and then I saw a note folded in half and it had my name written on it. I knew it straight away it was from her. I was staring at it for God knows how long, I decided to read it. I slowly opened the note and read:

Dear Arnavji

Please before you chuck this letter do read it, it's got everything but the truth and I hope one day you will understand the pain I was in.

I just wish you had believed me instead of that creep. God arnav, I never knew you would think so low of me. I feel sick even knowing that you think im with him and that I helped him in killing you! How could you even think that?

Anyway, there is no point in me trying to justify myself as it's too late. I just want you to understand that I would never do such a thing to you or your family. Your family had been there when mine weren't, I consider your family as my own and I thought you knew that, turns out you didn't.

Arnav I never had such love from random people in my life that gradually became a part of my life. I was hurt deeply when you spoke about my parents, I could have never imagined you to say such things about them, your right in a way im happy they're not here to witness the hurt I am getting and now it is time for me to go and meet our parents.

Take care Arnavji, I love you, I always have and I always will.

I felt a sharp pain pierce through my heart, a pain I never felt before. Every sentence, every word in that letter pierced through my heart. It suddenly struck me "now it is time for me to go and meet out parents" oh no what have I done? I quickly ran out of the room and sprinted out of the house after asking everyone if they had knew where khushi was neither of them did.

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I took a big step into the icy cold water and I felt it tingle on my ankles. I remembered all the good times with Arnav.

That time where he had put the payal around me ankles.

I took another step.

That time where he bandaged my ring finger when it got Injured.

I took another step and now the water was up to my thighs, I still remembered everything as I took slow steady steps into the moving water.

That time he had saved me from getting run over.

I took another step and remembered more things

The time we had a bet and he kissed me for the first time ever.

I took another step and by now the water was up to my cleavage.

I remembered the first time we hugged properly when I found him after he got kidnapped, the warmth I had felt, I wish I felt that warmth now.

I took another step and the water by now was up to my collar bone, I looked up and remembered how he had blackmailed me into marrying him. I looked up at the stars and saw my parents shining through the cloudy sky; next to mine I felt that in my heart were Arnavji's parents. I smiled, smiled at how I was lucky to live up until this stage. I closed my eyes and remembered the fun times with my parents and I was happy that now finally I could be with them. I then opened my eyes carefully and whispered

"I love you Arnavji"