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Today is 20th April, 20th April 2016. The day that is going to change my, oh wait, actually "our" lives forever. I never knew this day will come this soon, I actually never waited for this day to come, never thought about it, never before I met Swayam. And today here I am getting all ready for it.
I can't describe what I am feeling right now.. completely mixed emotions.. on one side I am happy.. happiness that I can't express and on the other side I am sad.. sadness that I can't hide. I am gonna leave the people who have always been there for me, but I am going to be with someone who is always going to be right by my side, even without me saying it.
I still remember the day I first met Swayam, Swayam Shekhawat. The guy I am madly in love with.
He was wearing a white tee with a open white shirt and a blue jeans. The first day of the college and like everyone else he was occupied in his own thoughts. "Mr.Lost" I used to call him then.
I really don't know how but we bumped into each other, I guess both of us were lost at that time :P
I fell in his arms. I clearly remember the look on his face at that time, so innocent, so adorable. Well, He was different, different from all the guys I have ever met.
That was our first meeting. The first time I met my future husband. I couldn't even imagine then that it will turn out like this. I never thought the guy whom I met so randomly would be my future husband. Wait, no one ever thinks about this when they meet someone for the first time :P
We both became the CS of our college, he was so much fun to work with. Work with him never seemed like work. He always had some plan to make it fun. Actually he never let me do any work. All I used to do is sit and look at his cute smile.
I love the way how me makes laugh when I don't even feel like smiling. How he used to bring out the best in me. How he used to do every silly thing just to bring a smile on my face. I had, actually still haven't met a guy like him and I am sure I never will. Well, who wants to when I have him by my side forever.
We became friends, best friends, fell in love somewhere between now we are getting married.
Long journey.. a journey which I won't forget ever.
Four years back, on the same day, he called me up to meet him. Like every other day we met, I got ready to meet him, but I didn't know that this day was not like any other day. It was SPECIAL! Really special.
When I reached his place, he hugged me and said he's gonna make me meet someone special. Someone who is really close to his heart. Someone whom he loves more than himself. I was happy.. happy to know that Swayam considers me important enough to make me meet the person he loves the most. I was happy.. but I could feel pain deep inside me. Pain when you lose someone, pain when you feel that you are losing out on something special, something even more important than your life, Pain that drives you crazy, Pain that can leave you lifeless. I cudn't decide how to react. I didn't know what was I feeling, but I cud feel the pain, the pain deep inside my heart, but I decided to let go and put a smile on my face.
Swayam held my hand and took me in. I had been to his place so many times, but this time it was different. Before entering his room, he shut my eyes with his hands on them. He opened the door and took me inside. A few steps in and then we stopped. My heart was beating as if this is my last day on earth. I cudn't wait to see who the lucky girl was. Cudn't wait any long.
I asked, "Swayam! Is she here?"
He said, "Right here, in front of you."
I felt like killing that bitch right then and there. I wanted to escape. Wanted to go far away from everyone and everything.
I said," Swayam! Let me open my eyes now?"
He slowly removed his hands from my eyes, but I was still standing there as before with my eyes shut. I never wanted to open them because I felt I'll die if I did so. Not wanting, I opened my eyes slowly.. very slowly.
I saw myself standing in front of a mirror. MIRROR ?
I turned back, looked into Swayam's eyes and asked, "Where's she?"
He turned me back towards the mirror. Bought his face next to mine, took my hand in his hand and pointed with it towards the mirror and said, "There's she! The most beautiful girl in the world, right in front you."
I stood still with tears rolling down my eyes. Was it true? Was it me? Was I the girl Swayam loved more than himself? Was it happening for real or was I dreaming?
He wiped off the tears on my face. "My princess doesn't have the right to cry"
I turned back and hugged him like anything. I didn't want to leave him even for a second. I didn't want to go away. I couldn't live in his arms forever. I cud die in his arms. I felt it was all I wanted, rather all I NEEDED!
Swayam kissed my cheek slowly and then bent down on his knees. Looking down, he bowed his head and said, " Yeh sir sirf tumhare saamne jhuka hai aur hamesha tumhare saamne hi jhukega"
That one line, just one line of his was enough to make me burst into tears. I cudn't take my eyes off him. I cud see the love in his eyes. The love that was enough to make me die for him.
I was so lost into him that I didn't take my eyes off him even for a second, but then I realised that was just not it. I looked around, it was me everywhere. My pictures were all over his room, on the walls, on his cupboard and even all over the ceiling. I stood still. He had placed them so beautifully; I could see pictures with each and every expression of mine. He made me feel special, made me feel BEAUTIFUL. He has always done so. He has always made me realise that I'm not what I think. I'm way more special than it.
This was unbelievable. This was UNREAL. How can someone love me so much ? How can someone make me fall in love with myself? HOW?! I hugged him again. Hugged him as if I am never gonna leave him. I had fallen in love with him all over again.
Its true that life gives you happiness when you least expect. It could have been a complete different story if what I was expecting had come true. I'm glad it isn't. That was the most special day of my life and happiest one too. 201th April, 2012.
And now its 20th April,2016, right 4 years after it, It's the day for which I have been waiting since then. They day me and Swayam are going to tie the knot of marriage. The day You and I will become "US".
Today is 20th April, 20th April 2016. The day that is going to change my, oh wait, actually "our" lives forever. I never knew this day will come this soon, I actually never waited for this day to come, never thought about it, never before I met Swayam. And today here I am getting all ready for it.
I can't describe what I am feeling right now.. completely mixed emotions.. on one side I am happy.. happiness that I can't express and on the other side I am sad.. sadness that I can't hide. I am gonna leave the people who have always been there for me, but I am going to be with someone who is always going to be right by my side, even without me saying it.
I still remember the day I first met Swayam, Swayam Shekhawat. The guy I am madly in love with.
He was wearing a white tee with a open white shirt and a blue jeans. The first day of the college and like everyone else he was occupied in his own thoughts. "Mr.Lost" I used to call him then.
I really don't know how but we bumped into each other, I guess both of us were lost at that time :P
I fell in his arms. I clearly remember the look on his face at that time, so innocent, so adorable. Well, He was different, different from all the guys I have ever met.
That was our first meeting. The first time I met my future husband. I couldn't even imagine then that it will turn out like this. I never thought the guy whom I met so randomly would be my future husband. Wait, no one ever thinks about this when they meet someone for the first time :P
We both became the CS of our college, he was so much fun to work with. Work with him never seemed like work. He always had some plan to make it fun. Actually he never let me do any work. All I used to do is sit and look at his cute smile.
I love the way how me makes laugh when I don't even feel like smiling. How he used to bring out the best in me. How he used to do every silly thing just to bring a smile on my face. I had, actually still haven't met a guy like him and I am sure I never will. Well, who wants to when I have him by my side forever.
We became friends, best friends, fell in love somewhere between now we are getting married.
Long journey.. a journey which I won't forget ever.
Four years back, on the same day, he called me up to meet him. Like every other day we met, I got ready to meet him, but I didn't know that this day was not like any other day. It was SPECIAL! Really special.
When I reached his place, he hugged me and said he's gonna make me meet someone special. Someone who is really close to his heart. Someone whom he loves more than himself. I was happy.. happy to know that Swayam considers me important enough to make me meet the person he loves the most. I was happy.. but I could feel pain deep inside me. Pain when you lose someone, pain when you feel that you are losing out on something special, something even more important than your life, Pain that drives you crazy, Pain that can leave you lifeless. I cudn't decide how to react. I didn't know what was I feeling, but I cud feel the pain, the pain deep inside my heart, but I decided to let go and put a smile on my face.
Swayam held my hand and took me in. I had been to his place so many times, but this time it was different. Before entering his room, he shut my eyes with his hands on them. He opened the door and took me inside. A few steps in and then we stopped. My heart was beating as if this is my last day on earth. I cudn't wait to see who the lucky girl was. Cudn't wait any long.
I asked, "Swayam! Is she here?"
He said, "Right here, in front of you."
I felt like killing that bitch right then and there. I wanted to escape. Wanted to go far away from everyone and everything.
I said," Swayam! Let me open my eyes now?"
He slowly removed his hands from my eyes, but I was still standing there as before with my eyes shut. I never wanted to open them because I felt I'll die if I did so. Not wanting, I opened my eyes slowly.. very slowly.
I saw myself standing in front of a mirror. MIRROR ?
I turned back, looked into Swayam's eyes and asked, "Where's she?"
He turned me back towards the mirror. Bought his face next to mine, took my hand in his hand and pointed with it towards the mirror and said, "There's she! The most beautiful girl in the world, right in front you."
I stood still with tears rolling down my eyes. Was it true? Was it me? Was I the girl Swayam loved more than himself? Was it happening for real or was I dreaming?
He wiped off the tears on my face. "My princess doesn't have the right to cry"
I turned back and hugged him like anything. I didn't want to leave him even for a second. I didn't want to go away. I couldn't live in his arms forever. I cud die in his arms. I felt it was all I wanted, rather all I NEEDED!
Swayam kissed my cheek slowly and then bent down on his knees. Looking down, he bowed his head and said, " Yeh sir sirf tumhare saamne jhuka hai aur hamesha tumhare saamne hi jhukega"
That one line, just one line of his was enough to make me burst into tears. I cudn't take my eyes off him. I cud see the love in his eyes. The love that was enough to make me die for him.
I was so lost into him that I didn't take my eyes off him even for a second, but then I realised that was just not it. I looked around, it was me everywhere. My pictures were all over his room, on the walls, on his cupboard and even all over the ceiling. I stood still. He had placed them so beautifully; I could see pictures with each and every expression of mine. He made me feel special, made me feel BEAUTIFUL. He has always done so. He has always made me realise that I'm not what I think. I'm way more special than it.
This was unbelievable. This was UNREAL. How can someone love me so much ? How can someone make me fall in love with myself? HOW?! I hugged him again. Hugged him as if I am never gonna leave him. I had fallen in love with him all over again.
Its true that life gives you happiness when you least expect. It could have been a complete different story if what I was expecting had come true. I'm glad it isn't. That was the most special day of my life and happiest one too. 201th April, 2012.
And now its 20th April,2016, right 4 years after it, It's the day for which I have been waiting since then. They day me and Swayam are going to tie the knot of marriage. The day You and I will become "US".
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