Ss Take My Breath Away, Chapter 7, Pg 34, 1st Aug - Page 17

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Chapter Five

"Man you turned out to be a helluva a lot faster then I could ever have imagined!" Dutta stood up and announced. "I had no idea you'd be so fast."

"You know what Dutta I'm in no mood to listen to your crap okay, so just do me a favour and back off!" annoyingly I snapped back.

"It's not my fault, I mean that's quite impressive you know, cause you don't look like that type of girl" he continued regardless.

"I really don't care what type of girl you think I am or should be or whatever it is you're trying to say - right now all I know is that I would appreciate it a lot more if you kept your crappy thoughts to yourself."

"Will someone please tell me what's going on here?" Baji finally managed to squeeze in.

"Naku and Gaurav almost kissed outside the door and Rabiqa caught them" Madhu filled in dryly.

"What!" He reacted, I closed my eyes wishing all this would just go away, why couldn't nothing ever go normal for me just like it did for practically every other person in this world.

"Please Baji spare me the lectures" I prompted in time to save his breath for him before he could go ahead and say anything, and turning toward Madhu I confronted her comment with frustration, "and what do you mean we got caught?! There was nothing meant for hiding, in case you hadn't realise."

"I know babe, but if there's one thing you need to understand about Baji, it's that he's rather slow, and if you haven't caught onto that then a newer discovery would be that you're more slower than he is" she pointed back with her thumb piteously.

"Hey who are you calling slow" Baji stepped up in defence.

Madhu shook her head to pity further and rolling her eyes she sighed, "see what I mean" she confirmed with adequate proof hovering over her, making me smile internally.

"I was the first one to warn Naku actually, unlike you" he said, starting a new argument, which no one saw coming.

"Excuse me!" Madhu gasped, with her hands on her hips, "I only introduced her to him, thank you very much, but it was you two" she pointed variably at Dutta and Baji, "who had to go and stir the trouble and make Naku wander off silently somewhere - which is 'why' Gaurav found her in the first place! So that is not my fault! It's yours, the pair of you troublemakers put together!"

I looked from expression to expression, they were all beginning to stir up, pointing fingers in accusations, Madhu throwing cushions at Baji for effective means of attack, Dutta never taking anything seriously and trying to extract more facts even during the fight. They were unbelievable the whole lot of them, but through all this one thing was for sure, my mind was definitely moving away from the disaster for one night. I tried incredibly hard to forget what Gaurav's lips had felt like being so close to my own, I bit my lip to hold in my excitement in some form but I was quickly assimilated with insult from his shabby ex-girlfriend, who looked so much more breathtaking then me! I wanted to throw up at the thought of even being able to admit to myself that his ex was pretty, but it was a grudging truth I couldn't bring myself to overlook.

"I told Naku to stay away from him for now, didn't I Naku?" Baji interrupted my vision of hatred to enquire of his given warning from beforehand, I looked at him with guilt from knowing he was making a valid point, but I couldn't deny that it was too a difficult task when put into practice. "The whole airfield knows Gaurav and Rabiqa are always having this on and off relationship, so when I saw Gaurav taking interest in Naku I wondered then if he'd broken up with her for good, but being the master of the universe and knowing the best for all my mates I was right, clearly his break-up with her wasn't official," he continued to validate and praise himself during his explanation.

"But Baji" I stood up to defend myself into believing Gaurav's genuine reaction when confronted by that bloody ex-bitch of his, "Gaurav told me on her face that he was breaking up with her, and that I shouldn't pay attention to whatever it was she saying about them still being a couple" I repeated his words just as he'd said them to me, and hoped for a fraction of what it could be worth that I sounded as convincingly sincere as he did.

"Listen - from what I know of Rabiqa, she's damn possessive I can tell you" Dutta butted in, but I found myself listening this time with curiosity. He walked across the living room, using the motion of his hands to portray things in better perspective, "this isn't the first time it's happened, has it?" he looked questionably to Madhu and Baji, who made some sort of gesture in agreement against their wishes. "Gaurav's interest hardly ever arouses in someone as plain as you, but it was later that I figured he's a sucker for girls with coloured eyes, and although I could notice your green eyes a mile off, I totally forgot that could be classed as a quality in your favour" he admitted like he found it so difficult to say just one damn good thing about me.

"Yeah I get it, now if we can move on to your conclusion," I paused apprehensively and wondered whether there even was a conclusion at all, "if there is one of course" I encouraged unsure of my comment.

"Pur-leeese" he tutted in a cool adjustment, "I'm a natural born genius, and if there's anything I specialise in - it's women" he cheered himself on, with the support of Baji. "So, lemme tell you one thing Nakusha" he said paying attention to every lettering of my name.

"Naku will do" I flatly replied, wishing he'd just get on with it.

"Right so Naku, you genuinely believe that Gaurav's interested in you-"

"So do I" Madhu intruded, "he's a great guy, any girl's dream" she fitted in regardless of Dutta's annoyance to her statement.

"You dream about people like Gaurav?" Baji asked at the given chance.

"No" her reply protruded literally, "but I sure wouldn't mind if I did" she added.

"Jesus you girls man, you fall over any tom, dick and harry" he pestered shaking his head to exaggerate his disapproval.

"Falling for guys is as easy a habit for girls just the same it is with men who get so terribly engrossed by the artificial beauty of the hoes! Especially when there's so many gorgeous girls waiting to hear that one comment of flattery - but no! It always goes to the bloody tarted up skimpy clothed bimbos doesn't it, and yet you stand there and cast your buri nazar over my saat rang ke sapne!" she rushed at him, and dragged his attitude down with him; he looked at her like he'd seen a ghost, and she needless to say battered him with her words. I felt like laughing so loud, but I didn't wanna offend poor Baji. She stood over his head while he was forced to slump back into his sofa and embrace defeat, she brushed her hair away from her face and revived composure again, giving glares from knowing she got too carried away.

"Right now that's over" Dutta reminisced his thoughts once again, but right after giving an over-timed stare at the pair of them, "well I know for a fact that he wants to move away from Rabiqa, he's said it to me many times that he wants to end things with her. Note - not because he doesn't like her, but cause he liked her too much but she never took him for real, and that's beginning to get on his nerves. But. The biggest 'but' of this whole query is that Rabiqa is also he's weak point, so where he knows he has to move away from her, he finds himself enchanted by her beauty and in simple words can't stay away from her, so as everyone knows as much as he despises her at times, he won't be able to stay away from her for too long."

"And all this helps how, exactly?" I asked in agitation.

"Oh my god - I get it" Madhu lit up, "I so get what you're trying to say, and wow this should be a fun summer if things go right!" she excitedly bounced around on the sofa.

"You wanna get his attention right?" Dutta started again, this time at a much slower pace.

"Yeah of course, but not if he's not interested in me" I made sure I made it certain.

"Well then first things first, find out how much interest he has in you" he winked at me like he blessed me with a mantra that solved all my problems.

I twisted my face bluntly, was that it! That was his 'genius advice', what kind of rubbish was that, it didn't mean anything to me. I noticed Madhu's look at my clueless face and then I couldn't help myself from asking, "don't tell me you got what he meant?" After a long pause I knew she didn't label me slow for no reason, "you did you get what he meant, didn't you?"

"Of course Naku, it's true isn't it" she pacified coming closer to comfort my back, "we girls need to know exactly where we stand in a man's life, and if that's too far for him to fetch, then we quit fielding" she said.

"I don't understand Madhu" I protested in exhaustion and rubbing my temples.

"That's what you have me for" she smiled so bright that I had a gut feeling I should be worried about this, "if Gaurav really sees something in you that wants to make you his, then he'll eventually come for you, and if he doesn't then you'll know not to waste your time, but first we need to get rid of that witch Rabiqa."

"Leave her to me, I can handle her alone" Dutta quickly filled in, "me and her have a dark past" he added with coolness and left for his bedroom just as his cell rang aloud.

"You mean we're gonna try and break them up!" I gasped in shock.

"Of course, if Gaurav says he don't want her, then we need to make available a choice that he does want, so rather then being artificially blackmailed by her beauty we must employ strategies that allow him to differentiate between what's there, and what's waiting outside his door - literally" she smiled viciously this time.

"Should I be scared of how you intend to recruit me?" I feared for my sanity.

"Of course not hun, it's time to explore how deep the waters are, just as I said earlier, by the way when did you say your fiance was coming? We might just need him you know?" She asked with a mischievous smile that deserved a ultimate shiny special effect glory for its finish.

I got up to leave for my room, following my partner in crime's retirement for the night and clung to my door frame before going in, "I didn't say, and he's not my fiance yet, thank you very much" I paid tribute to her glorious smile with a flattened tone.

Baji was suddenly yet slowly alarmed from sitting on the sofa pretty comfortably and stood up with speed, "wait - you're engaged!"

I chuckled at the coming of his lateness, and informed I was not, but rather forced to look at 'what my Mother called a prospective rishta' and had her hopes pinned sky high that he would be the one, but from previous experiences I knew I could never like him, let alone begin to entertain the fact that I could ever even love him!

"Oh right" he breathed efficiently, not that he needed to worry about anything anyway, but the fact that he did was sweet of him, "I'm off now, you guys have given me enough of a headache for one night" he yawned loud and clear.

"Me too" I admitted, "I'll see you guys in the morning - and Madhu thanks for everything tonight" I said, feeling grateful for all their support, she shook her head like it was nothing, and waved back to me dragging her feet away with her.

I immediately threw my clothes off and slipped into my red, white and maroon checkered night shirt that happened to be the best thing in the world for providing perfect comfort for a decent night's sleep. It wasn't long, nor short, it reached just below my backside but stayed loyally above my knees, not every girls choice I know but comfort was the only desire I ever sought.

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It wasn't morning yet, but I couldn't get back to sleep, I found myself tossing and turning persistently. I grabbed my phone to check the time, "four-fifteen" I moaned inconsolably and decided it was no use to get any sleep now, as if it had gained personal enmity with me overnight and refused to check-in with my tired soul. I kicked the duvet off of me in frustration like an adamant child and stared at the ceiling in the dark waiting for the wind to send at least a stingy breeze my way. When I got cold after a while I hid myself beneath the covers again, still unblessed from the gift of the slightest drowsiness. I figured enough was enough, I got up and grabbed my toothbrush and headed for the bathroom to brush my teeth and decided to set a refreshing pot of tea onto the hob along the way. I crushed some green elaichi's and sprinkled a handful into the saucepan of water and threw in a few teabags and sugar to brew while I freshened up. I doubted anyone would be up so early and as I couldn't be bothered to change I kept in my night shirt, I tied my hair into a loose side plait that would soon unwind itself in due time but until then it would do me a favour and stay out of my way. I splashed cool water all over my face to wake up properly and ran a comb through my tangles before twisting it half heartedly into a ponytail and dashing it over to one side again and headed out to pour a generous amount of milk into the now boiling tea.

There was a radio kept in one abandoned corner of the kitchen, I plugged it in to see if it survived through whatever trauma was inflicted upon it, and it did! Much to my surprise of course, I tuned it into fourteen-fifty-eight to find an old school Rafi tune playing at a slightly blurry signal strength, I turned it up a little and smiled at my luck in finding it. It reminded me of my Dad right away, he had almost every golden hits volume of Rafi in his car which he always used to listen to when we were kids, we practically grew up hearing his songs, and I didn't mind most either, this one in particular was definitely among my list of good music - 'abhi na jao chod kar'. The music was divinely subtle and Rafi's voice was serene and carefree, a good choice in music for such early hours. I found an empty jug or a pot to strain the tea into while humming along and taking immense pleasure in admiring the aroma that filled the air with the sweet sugary cardamoms whiffing past me and ridding every bit of tiredness left in me, I washed a few mugs and sourced the largest one for myself and sat at the square beechwood table perched near the large window that would soon invite the morning break in; as the present moment was still dark as if it were two in the morning. I knew I would get tired later on, but I made myself feel better by knowing I could slouch later during the day just to get myself out of bed for now. I avoided switching on the telly just in case I woke someone up, and instead reverted to last night's mishaps to keep my mind occupied, now that I'd slept on those events it hadn't seemed so bad anymore. Boys will be boys, there was nothing me or anyone else could do for that matter, I regretted that I'd gotten carried away so quickly, I shouldn't have paid attention to things like that, especially not now when things had just started to settle; I needed to sort out my priorities before I got involved with any kind of relationship. So I decided what happened was probably for the best, and that Gaurav was bound to go back to that girl after all, well at least the talks of last night definitely resembled my thoughts anyway. Perhaps I'll just end up being stuck with that good for nothing player my Mum's seen for me. I kept my mug of tea snuggled warmly between both my palms in wait for it's temperature being ready to drink, while I poured a second cup that would also be ready to drink right after I was finished with my first. I'm a huge sucker for tea, in fact my whole family is! Without a good sweet cup of tea the day cannot commence successfully, it's like waking up on the wrong side of the bed, but much much worse, and English tea just wouldn't work as a prospective alternative. I hated English tea with a vengeance, it had to be either Indian tea done the proper way or coffee if it relied on boiling water in a kettle, but never English tea. I found it to be too bland in taste and raw like it lacked obvious attention and effort.

"Well well look who's awake!" Disaster number one uttered mistaking his rudeness to be God's gift and trampled over freely flaunting himself in his boxers at the dining table where I was sat only to be nosey, "what's that - you made tea?!" he asked sounding genuinely astonished!

I gave a goofy frown, "yeah" I remarked sardonically, "it's not rocket science you know, and anyways what are you doing up so early?"

"I always wake up early, you just happened to catch me on a bad time that day - alright" he said in defence.

"I didn't say anything!"

"That's just it, your flipping face says far too much" I heard him mumble, and rather then answering back I gave him an irritated glare.

"Actions do tend to speak louder than words I guess."

"Very funny" he said on his way to the bathroom.

"Really, I thought so too" I giggled back knowing I was beginning to get on his nerves, he slammed the door shut behind him, I sighed aloud with extreme pleasure and taking a huge gulp of my perfect cup of tea.

Only moments later he returned to hijack my extra cup of tea put out for myself, "hey that's mine, get your own cup!"

"And here's me thinking you'd been thoughtful for a change, just goes to show how deceitful women are" he sighed noticeably, and shamefully went on drinking my tea anyway.

"Were you naturally born with a tendency to exaggerate or did it come as a surprise to you in the latter years of your life?"

"Of course I was born this way!" he boasted like he referred to Lady Gaga's track.

"Wow" I said falsely surprised, "your inspiration comes from someone who isn't so sure herself - makes perfect sense" our spree of cussing one another was interjected by his sudden outburst of appreciation for my tea he began drinking.

"That has got to be one of the best cups of tea I've had in long time!"

I looked at him like there was a screw gone loose in his brain, I waved my hand in front of his eyes to test if there was a possibility of him being suddenly possessed by the unknown, "er, earth to egoistic-Dutta, you have come to invade the wrong planet and I humbly request you to leave this helpless-good-for-nothing-being alone, he will not cooperate well you'll soon find" I said in a near terminator style.

"I'm serious!" he said convincingly like he hadn't heard what I said, "that is good stuff, you're probably the first girl I've come across to have made such good tea around here, that's pretty rare you know, even if I must say so myself" he confessed honestly.

I can admit I was on the verge of flattery, but I chose to resist just in case he would backfire from knowing I respected his compliments for my tea, "I am quite aware that I make the best tea in my house, but to hear it from a complete stranger is quite settling" I pursued a smile, "care for some more?" I asked holding up the kettle, he held his mug forward allowing me to fill it up for him, "cheers" I laughed at our strange interaction, and he returned the gesture by clanging his mug against my own.

"I might begin to like you if you carry on making piping hot zabardast Indian chai everyday," his first words of kindness shot back.

"I most certainly will be making zabardast chai every day" I gladly informed, "but it doesn't mean I'm gonna be making it for you every time you wake up."

"Looks like I'm gonna have to take back that one point I just gave you" he emotionally threatened.

I acted astonished, "I'm sure I'll survive" I whispered piteously bringing my hand to my chest in full on dramatised style.

"So you and Gaurav huh? You all ready to bring it on!" he cheered instead.

I made a funny face before I answered, "you know" I bit my lip not really knowing what I should be saying, "I don't think I want to, I mean, sure it would've been great to melt in his arms, and actually get through that kiss on his-"

"Er hello - please I'm at your mercy! Spare me the goddamn details" he said like I was describing some slasher movie scene from Final Destination, which not to mention pathetically made it to five parts successfully, making my thinking more stern in knowing that the world we lived in had no hope for the wise!

"Fine" I rolled my eyes, of course he wouldn't wanna know what Gaurav's embrace felt like, "it would've been great if this was the start to something good, that's all I'm saying, but it doesn't matter it's not like I'm standing on my balcony chanting 'o Romeo, o Romeo wherefore art thou Romeo' under the moonlight with a prickly red rose in my hand" I imitated climbing to stand on my chair to be all melodramatic. I liked taking things to a little theatrical level to relieve myself from the dilemmas of the real world. Only to look down and see that it wasn't my acting skills that held Dutta's stare, which was considerably wandering back and forth between my face and legs, I looked down and instantly realised that I was still in my night shirt, I parted my lips to say something and figured I had nothing left to say and jumped down instead, feeling the most embarrassed yet.

"Methinks thou Juliet has thee sexy legs too," he joined in as I landed and hid myself behind the table once again taking a seat respectfully. I refused to meet eyes with him and hid in the comfort of my palm slumping my chin onto it, I thought he would stop once I remained quiet but how wrong I was. "See, how she leans her cheek upon her hand! O that I were a glove upon that hand, that I might touch that cheek!" He continued to imitate with full on sarcasm knowing how foolish I'd just myself look.

"Very original, it's a shame you don't look like a Romeo" I unleashed in hope of his stopping what I had started.

"Pur-leese" he brushed off, "I would bury that Romeo with my looks, he wouldn't stand a chance! 'O Juliet my love, the truth is methinks Romeo was a fool to dream of touching that cheek when he could have had better options available to him' you do realise now that if I was in your Romeo's place I would talk of the more sexier cheek" he said raising his eyebrows and mocking a cool looking evil laugh.

I was taken aback when I understood what he meant, my initial reaction was to slap him, and before I knew it I did! It wasn't hard or anything, it weren't like an imprint of my fingers would be left behind but it was definitely a slap in any case, and now that I'd committed the crime I might as well brief him with reality while I still had the chance, "I hope that made it clear which cheeks to keep your attention on in the future" I warned.

"To be honest I was kinda expecting that," he shockingly said giving a light rub to where my fingers had attacked him precisely, not to say that was not the answer I'd expected in all honesty! Was he okay about me slapping him - seriously? I thought he would blow the rooftop off by now! "If you didn't I would be sure to know there was something wrong with you" he said carrying on with his tea like nothing major had happened.

"You are seriously weird - I mean to say, ain't that the part where you give that long speech and tell me you're gonna get revenge on me crap" I was forced by my crazed mind to know why he wasn't bothered by it!

"Oh come on, when you got up on that chair I understood you were a little on the melodramatic side, but this much into it - man I had no idea" he said raising his flat palms in the air, my face did a dodgy twitch with a narrowed glare, "okay to simplify matters your highness" he did a quick head bow to make fun while educating me, "we're not in some retro nineties movie where the 'tapar ki ghoonj' becomes the sole essence of the whole story, in fact had you not done that I would've known that you're probably one of those type of girls" he nodded.

"'Those type of girls'?" I repeated in hope that he would elaborate, "what does that mean?"

He sighed like he was tired of explaining things to me, "it means if you were comfortable about my remark of your so-called 'cheeks' then I would be sure to know you're one of the girls that get everywhere and are interested in boys that flirt about such things so openly and if you were comfortable with it then you're basically used to it, and er, well in other words you'd just want guys to get into your pants ultimately!" he finally let out, when he could see I wasn't understanding much of what he was saying at first.

"Oh god! Do you mind!" I threw back, "is that all you ever think about?"

"Hey you asked, so I told you, and no it's not all I think about actually, I think about flying if not that, and just for the information you do know that Romeo wasn't no virgin you know and he made Juliet lose her virginity at like thirteen or something, so just for the record even your idols were no saints."

"For starters they're not my idols, and secondly they were in love - oh and not any old love, real true love, and as for Juliet - hold on a second why don't we start facing some facts here rather than arguing, it wasn't exactly a true story now was it, they were fictitious characters for god's sake" I said in response, "anyways let's not go there right now" I said wondering why I bother to debate the stupidest of things around him "what are you doing up so early anyways?"

"I've got training, and I'm always up early, like I said to you before you caught me on a bad day."

"It's impressive you know, your skill for being an aerobatic pilot, don't you like ever feel scared every time you go up?"

"No way - I love it too much to waste time with a word like 'scared'" he quickly pointed out. "When I'm up there, that one moment is the only thing I live in, the adrenaline gives me that will to live you know, like the only reason that's worth waking up everyday and knowing my day ahead will always look bright" he said growing distant for a few short seconds. "There's little doubt in my mind of there ever existing a better feeling than that in this world for me."

For a minute there I related to him, everything he said just made so much sense to me, although his flying was worlds apart from my own, but somewhere along the lines we both still understood the feeling of discovering another part of the world that was exclusive to us. "I know what you mean, well sort of" I said fiddling with my fingers, "it's like trying to explain to someone that you've found the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow I suppose" I said stupidly.

"Yeah too right, but not everyone has the sixth sense to see it huh" he joked on, partially understanding what I meant.

"Hmm so you ain't so bad 'Romeo', I could grow onto you."

"Well I guess Romeo and Juliet don't sound too good when mentioned separately, but in our case it'll be an exception to the world, now let's go find the yellow brick road that leads you to your true Romeo, shall we" he offered with a smile, "are you ready for this?"

"Actually I'm not Dutta," I discouraged, "I mean whatever we shared last night it was just a little bit of heat in the moment 'thing', literally, there's no saying that it should lead us to being a real couple, and''." I shook my head and frowned when I caught myself at a loss of words for a few moments, "''and I guess the only reason I got carried away with him was because I was trying to get away from my own personal stress and divert my attention elsewhere, but now that I've slept over it I've decided to go meet him later on, just to tell him whatever happened last night was not worth getting caught up with, because truth is, it wasn't really anything, and that's how it should stay" I nodded.

"You sure?" he asked with a hand over my own, and my head kept bobbing in slow motion.

"I'm sure, but thanks for all your efforts anyways" I pressed back with a sigh that left behind the sentiments of the previous conversation.

"You will tell me how it goes with him, right?" he asked curiously this time.

I giggled in response, "yeah, sure, I'll let you know."

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Once we'd finished our tea Dutta left for his room to get changed before he leaving, while I headed back to bed feeling a lot more light-headed than last night. I knew I wouldn't get any sleep but I laid down as the sun came up and woke up hours later.

"Wake up, rise and shine" Madhu's vibrant voice managed to drag me out of bed anyway. "Come on, let's go grab some breakfast and talk things through" she said almost sounding excited.

Forty minutes later we headed down to the cafe and I'd ordered the all-day breakfast with everything extra to go with it, Madhu gave me a few alienated glances but said nothing, "look when I'm bothered about something I get extra-extra hungry so I just have to eat, okay" I defended honestly.

"I didn't say anything, and babe you're so telling the wrong person, I just didn't think you could eat that much looking at the size of your tiny waist that's all, but hey I ain't one for a slim-fast diet either, so eat your heart out with compliments" she praised with generosity.

"Thank god for that, I thought you were about to give me the one-to-ten guidelines on how 'not' to get fat!" I exhaled with relief. "So," I started again with a recharged mode, "you and Baji huh? I don't understand what's taking so long, I reckon he's such a great guy! Girl, if you can make him yours forever, you are totally laughing till the end of time" I practically promised.

"Trust me, don't think I haven't thought of that one myself, but I just don't know how to tell him." She immediately began to stress, "there was these two times I tried to tell him right, but the first time I found out he was dating another girl - but that didn't last very long - thank god" she remarked in between her sentence with a hand over her heart, "and the second time, well I failed miserably" she finally admitted and slumped back into her chair and aggressively bit a huge chunk off her toast.

"Yeah but I don't get it, why? I mean you two talk so openly you know, it can't be that hard" I continued to find out as I indulged on my greasy fry-up.

"Take it from me, it's hard" she advised genuinely, "you know sometimes when I see girls talking so openly around him, I mean like when they get all clingy you know I feel like ripping their false extensions and fake nails from their bodies, and-"

"Whoa! Talk about 'fatal attraction'" I quoted, "what's next - boiling the goddamn rabbit?" I seriously joked, not realising she'd gotten a little offended, not in a big way of course, but in some sense. "I was just kidding Madhu, I know you won't do something like that obviously, it was a joke."

"No it's not that, I'm just wondering will I ever be able to tell him before it's too late, I mean look at how fast you and Gaurav kicked off last night, I wish me and Baji could be the same you know" she replied staring into her empty palm that sat in defeat over her other.

"Oh god, please do not remind me" I begged, "too fast is never any good and you know that, I'm stupid and careless to have let things slip by so easily, and there I was giving you advice when I couldn't even take it properly myself" I said cracking the joke on my own stupidness.

"It's okay Naku sometimes girls just wanna be loved even when they know it's not genuine but the sheer comfort is still worth having at times when you feel lonely, and you know Gaurav isn't so bad, he really is great fun, if only him and Rabiqa weren't so serious I could honestly say you two would make a great couple, but oh well, shit happens" she pressed.

"No crap" I filled in lamely. "But then again, you and Baji have known each other for a while haven't you, so it's different with you guys, being friends is so much better then going straight into something serious."

"Yeah we do, but that's the part that confuses things you see, because by the end of it there's no guarantee that things will end up perfectly and if that happens, then we can't exactly go back to being 'just friends' can we? so yeah that's the scary part."

"I can understand, well sort of," I added, "you see I've never really had a lot of experience in relationships, there was this one guy who I was head over heels for - not in the literal sense" I quickly highlighted, "but yeah he broke my heart and scooped up the broken pieces and trashed them away into the garbage like rotten junk" I narrated metaphorically, "so even if I fall for a guy in terms of their looks, that's probably about it, for some reason I don't actually ever find myself thinking about any particular guy forever you know, I think since my first love, you could say" I rolled my eyes as I saw Madhu's brow raise in question, "I don't think I'm lovable material anymore, I don't think I can love someone not because I don't want to, but I think I just can't to be honest."

"That's quite something, in a weird way it's like you're a female version of a male player, have you ever thought of that?" she asked instead. That wasn't the reply I was expecting but she was right, but guys naturally like to play girls, whereas I don't, I'm just not so ardent on giving my repaired heart to anyone again, that was all.

"I tell you what" Madhu said changing the subject with a new conversation, "let's get out and go shopping and stuff, you know like girl stuff, head into the city and force ourselves into size six dresses and curse each other's diet when they don't fit and then we'll go to bar and drink and drown in our sorrows till our heart's content! What do you say?!"

"Erm" I said back clearly with an immense lack of excitement that Madhu's words so courageously established from beginning to end, "yeah sure I guess I'm up for that" I added unsure of what the rest of this day held in store.

"Right - great!" She shrieked out so loud that I was pretty sure that people half way across the street heard her! "I'll run and get the travel cards and call a few other girlfriends on my way and tell them to tag along, and you go home and get yourself into something better then those clothes and then meet me in around thirty-five minutes at the bus stop on the main road okay" she said in rush and left me repeating her sentence through my head once again before I could make any sense of it.

"Okay" I mouthed long after she'd gone.

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The forecast was predicted for 'bright sunny spells' but you know London weather never lived up to standards, rain - no matter what you did, drizzled down on your day eventually, but we Londoners always remained hopeful no matter what! I got dressed in some casuals and grabbed my sunglasses to cover my face that compromised less to no make-up with the exception of a tiny sweep of pink blusher, besides we were going to get drunk so what was the point anyway. I saw Madhu standing at the bus stop alone waving over to me, I thought she said a few others would be joining us, unless they were running late. "Where's everyone else?" I asked at first.

"Everyone's already made plans, I should have known its Friday night, they're all going down to some club where we're gonna meet them later on" she filled in.

"What?! What club, I'm not going to no club with a bunch of unknown people while we're specifically on a mission to get drunk Madhu" I warned.

"Oh come on Naku live a little girl! And anyways it's not complete strangers, Baji, Dutta and the rest of 'em are gonna be there too" she cheered.

"Right, and that's perfect reason to be there isn't it" I remarked, and to add insult to injury I figured Gaurav may also be there, "by the way that crowd doesn't involve Gaurav by any chance does it?" I asked hesitantly.

"Well on a normal occasion he would be going, yes, but in this case I don't think he is, I already took the courtesy to enquire about him and no he won't be there" she informed, and midway noticed my face growing unsure of the events for our unplanned day, "look Naku, let's see how it all goes and if you don't fancy it we'll head home, or better we'll go to another bar or something, it's not like there's a shortage of places to drink now is there" she winked mischievously as our bus pulled up and we climbed aboard arm in arm.

Yeah I know I'm mega late, but - okay I won't start with the buts lol, but I do hope you're liking it, very light-hearted I know, but I feel at ease when writing this, so please don't blame me for the simplicity of the story pleeeaasse! It will get a little intense in a while but for now it's mellow, and by the way when I say intense I don't mean you need to have Kleenex sponsor your tears lol, so no crying throughout this ff okay 😉

Thank you to everyone pressing Like and commenting, I really love you guys, everyone on this forum is my pehla pyar literally lol - yeah Missy ❤️ don't go getting any ideas k, I'm not cheating on you 😛

Originally posted by: daya0628

after a long time hun an UD

Originally posted by: tahera57

ok, will wait eagerly ud when u have time😊 no problem!

Originally posted by: tinkerbe11

I know, and you can talk after a long time I've seen you gal and I see you haven't lost your touch ⭐️

And girl I am SO gonna nick your siggie man, give me ijaazat or I will become and outlaw 😎

Originally posted by: daya0628

Yeah i got that touch ...its not going anywhere...and I know hun its been ages ,,,,
LOL yeah go ahead and feel free to use it..no problemo
or if u have a scene with the two in mind i can make u one 😆

Originally posted by: tinkerbe11

True say! Haha I guess you're a pro 😛

Okie dokes, erm okay, but I really like the scene with the bottle in the middle of my two greatest fatal attractions lol, it's missing Gaurav lekin chale ga. ❤️⭐️

Originally posted by: daya0628

yeah that bottle is quite attractive in the middle... u have a point 😆then use this itself koi baat nehi