My Torrid Affair
The weekend was up on me. The thought of it made me fretful. How were these days going to pass? Filling them with tedious hum drum, listening to mindless drear of the husband, cooking, supervising cleaners, soccer practice and piano lessons. The only thing that made it bearable was my time with my son and shhh the anticipation of seeing "the unspoken" on Monday morning.
My sneak peeks in with my help group had given me support and an outlet to air my feelings. I had to clear my browsing history several times a day to make sure I wouldn't be found out. I was living this dual life. I had been caught once cheating by the husband; I couldn't afford to be caught again. He had warned me about the obsession. My son knew about the affair, and he knew it had bought back spark in me. I knew I had to stop, but this was more powerful than I had dreamed off. I was happy in my mundane life and I wasn't even looking for this affair, and now it had engulfed me. My body and mind ached for Monday, except for those special much anticipated and sporadic Sundays.
What was Monday going to be like – loving, uncouth, passionate, and apprehensive, was there going to a lot of talking or were there going to some quite moments, was there going to be touching or just some quick and some not so quick glances. The kiss had evaded me and my eyes shut tight trying to push that moment out of mind.
I thought about the affair all the time - once a day it was the real thing, other times it was the anticipation of the real thing, or the replaying of the real thing, the fantasies and the innumerable hours of day dreaming and the countless critically analyzed and deeply philosophical conversations with my help group. I am trapped in this beautiful web of dreams.
So my affair is with ARHI moments and my help group is you chicas and chicos at the forum helping me cope with craziness that is "the unspoken" IPKKND. Let me know what your weekends are like. I hope you enjoyed reading this madness.😛