Letters of Liquid Pearls

Nayva to Meeta:

I remember the days when I came back from school with mud all over my frock and u ran to clean me up with showers of ur love draped in anger n worry n shock….

I remember the days when u wud stay up on the wee hours of the morning when I cud not sleep…..showing me the beauty of moon amidst the twinkling bright stars….telling me that I will be fine and that I am as beautiful as the moon surrounded with stars in the face of u n dad who wud guide me and protect me..

I remember the days when u wud pain the bones of ur ankle n knee standing in the kitchen by the heat to cook me my favorite food just coz I was being bratty to not eat what I didn't like…..

I remember the days when u wud leave everything and anything the moment the thermometer wud read a temperature of my body beyond the normal lines…

I remember those wrinkled marks on ur forehead that announced "worry" in big bold letters when I was headed out to sit for my exams at school and yet the pat on my back to wish me goodluck and the kiss on my forehead to ease my stress was something u never missed…

I remember each time u wiped my tears….provided me with the comfort of ur arms or ur lap or ur shoulder when I needed it the most…

I remember how u encouraged me each time I fell….praised me at my worst and smiled at me during my downs….

I remember the scoldings u gave when I wronged…..the lectures I had to tolerate when I erred and the advice u gave in my hesistance…..

I remember it all mom……ur love…ur anger….ur pain….ur worry…but what I don't remember is ur silence mom….I don't know ur silence …and I don't know how to deal with it….Scold me mom…ground me mom….do all that I know mom….for I know I have wronged u….but don't leave me in the midst of this vacumm where I know not of any air!!! I am still ur breathing child whom u have nurtured into a young adult...I am still ur belonging…..and I m still part of u….Give me a chance mom…..for I need to unload the burdens of my heart….for I need to untie the knots that I formed on a journey new to me….Provide me with ur guidance mom….for these roads not only got me entwined into loops unknown to me but also lead me into seeing shades of grey in me….Lend me ur hand mom for I need ur support to dig me out from myself……to help in this journey ….in this phase of life that I have no knowledge of mom….

Today I look up to u yet again mom….I place myself in entirety upon ur hold n all I ask in return is ur undivided and non-judging attention ……..I request u with all my heart for risking ur faith….ur trust in me …..with completeness…..

I know m not worthy of this request…but still I urge u mom….for My Heart Weeps Today!!!!!!!😭

Meeta to Navya:

What should I tell u Navya……for I don't even know where to begin with…

What shud I say to u Navya…..for I have not been able to recognize u….

Wat right do u want me wave on u….for I don't even know whether they still belong to me or not….

Where do I find the Navya who seems to have been lost from me for sometime now….

How do I even begin to listen to you Navya…for the tone that I hear in ur voice today is one that is alien to me…..

When did u grow so old Navya….that I did not even come to know of it…..

U tell me u haven't changed…..that u are still part of my very existence…….that my essence still breathes its freshness in u….that u are an extension if my being………but why is it that when I look into ur eyes………they tell me a different story.

U ask me to risk my ears ….my heart….my faith in u yet again……but tell me Navya…..is it really worth the effort when that same heart is fearing the complete loss of u….

Yes Navya……I can sense the guilt in ur words….I can read the fear in ur silence…I can feel the pain in ur voice but what I cant comprehend with is the path on which ur foot have boarded….. I cannot seem to encompass the journey on which u have embarked…..and my eyes refuses to decipher anymore the dreams that ur eyes have beaded……and this is wat is awakening my worst fears Navya…..the fear of losing u…….My chords don't seem to match with urs anymore and rhythms of heart don't seem to sing the same notes of my heart….and yet strings of that heart still poke me to give in u ….to let u unleash urself bit by bit to its finest details …..to unveil ur inner self who used to be pure n pristine from its deepest roots……

The equation of motherhood is still an unsolved mystery for me…..and even tho fears are engulfing me into its shield……I have a strange courage to face ur reality……..I just don't know what the consequences of this will be Navya……I just know….that its not going to be easy…..its not going to be the same anymore and that's why Navya….My Heart Weeps Today!!!!!!!😭

Deepu to Meeta:

Hours have pasts\ since the sun had dawned at our balcony and birds have returned back to their nests…..Infact its been a few hours already since the moon have provided its glowing brightness into our bedroom and is now prolly getting ready to hide in fears of the morning sun dawning at the horizons n I see u sitting with a stern n worry ridden face at Navya in her bedroom and u tell me it's a casual talk expecting me to believe it??

Do u really think I have failed in knowing u after so many years into our marriage and having a beautiful family with u???

I have loved u….cherished u and the moments we have spent together and till date it pains me to see u in pain……it worries me to see u in worry but what gets to me the most is when u believe that u can hide things from me……Its leaves a sting in me to realize that I pose fear more than warmth on people….

U may not feel comfortable Meeta telling me all that's troubling u…..not today….but I know that time will come when u feel the need to unload that burden u are holding onto today and I want u to know Meeta……..that I am always there with u ….for u…for us and for our children…and I only hope that that time comes sooner than I think….for I can sense ur weeping heart and along with u….My Heart Weeps Today!!!! 😭

Originally posted by: Aanchal15

If the previous post blew me away, this one surely ripped me, through and through...😭😭

Navya's reflections are so, genuine.She wants her mother, to admonish her, for the taciturnity is something, she is unaware of. It is annihilating her... I can decipher her feelings , for I have been through it,too (yes, Urmi, my mom too, used to punish us in the same manner- becoming mute)...😔

Mita's trepidations are ethical, for she is unable to fathom, what is happening. She feels, she is unable to identify, with the metamorphosis, that her child has, undergone...so, so, tear-jerking..😭😭😭.

Papa Deepak feels so vulnerable, for he is unsure, whether, Mita will confide in him. He wants to be there for his family,and, knows that , Mita will unburden, when the time is right, and for that he is willing to wait , patiently... So endearing... 🤗

Shilpa, an awesome post, ...👏👏

Originally posted by: Aanchal15

@ Urmi - u r too kind...🤗🤗

Originally posted by: barbie2011

Mom's silence is always so painfuil, it tears you apart..I can relate to this..because My mom use to do the same..if she was upset on me she will not talk..and that use to kill me😭..that was the toughest punishment..i use to tell her the same..talk to me ..scold me..punish me but please dont keep quite..no i cant take this silence...

it feels as if you have taken a chapter from my childhood days and presented it here..awesome ..

so true whatever we do..we always come back to our mom..we seek her love ,we seek her embrace in the toughest times..we never try to hurt her intentionally we never can..yes the time plays its tricks...but we never want to hurt our mother...

So aptly put in such beautiful n simple sober words...yes...a mom is God's sent first angel...its her face that we first see the moment we take birth and its her embrace we first recognize...She is someone without whom we feel helpless n handicapped and when the same mom detaches her self from us emotionally...its cringes the heart to an extent that the pain cannot be even descrbed in words...

letter from Meeta to navya:

You have so effectively described a Mom's frame of mind...she is not able to believe to what she is seeing, listening and feeling rgt now...she is not able to realte to navya ..becuase she is not what she had been all this years..when she embraced her and supported her...

She is at loss rgt now...becuse she is afraid to know what path has she really taken and how far has she gone..she is afraid that this time she might be the one who will have to break all the dreams that navya would have possibly seen..she would not be able to support her ..or wipe her tears..but this time she miight have to just watch her cry on her own...

It is difficult for a mom..to go thru this situation ..it is really gng to be tough for both of them...

Beautifully said...Meeta herself has entered into a turmoil of emotions along with her daughter...she is absolutely at a loss of conscience for she is not able to decipher her own emotions n sentiments at the given stance ...neither is she able to comprehend with her reactions...Its truly said to see her in such a fix coz being an experience adult at life she has no knoweldge of what sort of a journey her daughter has embarked and wat is making it worse is that she has no clue as to how far she has gone into the journey and with whom...while being a mom...her motherly instincts n the mother care is screaming out to listen to navya n reason out with all that is happening...its n utterly sad situation from her POV coz from both ends...its a no win win situation...

letter from Deepak to Meeta:

so lovingly you have presented Deepaks dilemma and hurt..

he can clearly see that Meeta is trying to hide something from him..he is not uppset because she is hiding, as he trust her completely..but he is hurt because she didnt think him warm and understanding enough to share her worries with him, it hurts him to see that his presence instills the sense of fear among his family and not love and care...i loved the way you said it at the end..that he is waiting to share the pain that meeta is going thru..and he stands with her all the time..that is how beautiful their relation is...

I truly feel for Deepu...its quite a co inciddence yet sad to realize that fathers usually involuntarily end up wearing the cap of strict n stern vs that of warm n compassion...and Deepu is no different...poor guy has always provided his love n care n his protective sheild for his family when n where required and yet he get to placed in the que of the situation...but its so endearing to see how patiently he is willingly to provide for that time n space needed by his other half 😳

Loved it ,loved it..a lot..

sorry for the long post..couldn't stop myself..

keep writing dear😊...

Originally posted by: Newly_Born

Just ossam.

Originally posted by: Aanchal15

If the previous post blew me away, this one surely ripped me, through and through...😭😭

Navya's reflections are so, genuine.She wants her mother, to admonish her, for the taciturnity is something, she is unaware of. It is annihilating her... I can decipher her feelings , for I have been through it,too (yes, Urmi, my mom too, used to punish us in the same manner- becoming mute)...😔

Mita's trepidations are ethical, for she is unable to fathom, what is happening. She feels, she is unable to identify, with the metamorphosis, that her child has, undergone...so, so, tear-jerking..😭😭😭.

Papa Deepak feels so vulnerable, for he is unsure, whether, Mita will confide in him. He wants to be there for his family,and, knows that , Mita will unburden, when the time is right, and for that he is willing to wait , patiently... So endearing... 🤗

Shilpa, an awesome post, ...👏👏