But Tejesh, BM is a HINDUSTANI NARI, who has been putting sindor relihiously for 20 odd years talks about her husband so affectionally, blaming herself that she was NOT a good wife , she was NOT perfect match for her hsband, then what do you expect, BM blames herself.
To blame oneself means u are comforting u'rself by saying no problem "I was responsible for all what I am facing now". So the pain in such a case is less. But the moment u blame others for u'r problems then it hurts a lot cuz u think why am i suffering for others doings...May be thats why she blames herself