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m a ili nonplussed today.. with loads of things running in my head.. and the episode did not help either.. it just got me deeper into a maze of conundrums..
The CC sisterhood: First of all one thing that had no doubts in my mind.. and one that stood out from the word go is how effortlessly Deepti fits into any character.. you see her and forget that she is enacting a part.. she was superlative here too.. oh! what a talent.. I won't disrepute her talent by my mere words.. moving on.. one thing that really is bothering me.. is at one level I could not buy her theory.. I completely saw her logic of embracing all of nature but why should that come at the cost of disowning a part.. the same part that she projected would bind her.. if All of the needy old people are her fathers and every young mind her child.. doesn't Devki and BB fall into those too.. the only hint of contortion in her facial muscles emanated at the mention of Devki.. so there could be this inch of human desire in the form of maternal instinct still creeping somewhere I feel.. but she was damn right about one thing.. she was not in a position back then.. or even now to be a MOTHER to Devki.. and fairly entrusted the role to Charu.. CP was in real need of finding herself back then.. and now having found her purpose and self.. her small domesticity doesn't feature in her scheme of things.. I don't want to be judgmental but in all this I feel sad for Devki. .what an unfortunate childhood.. if one believes in karma.. maybe she paid for hers
Ramble over.. the melancholy of the first scene marred my appreciation of VD scene.. but in spite of it.. Vs lil moment of nostalgia.. his insecurity for any more changes in his life.. was sorta reassurance that he is loving this stability... and Devki reading his emotions.. oh girl.. m proud of the dignity you rendered to his feelings towards someone else.. knowing fully well he was still somewhere attached to his past and respecting it.. CPs daughter someone.. I am thinking the book will only help her in her relationship with Vaibhav if not to prepare her to face the harsh reality of the mortality of her mother's physical incarnate.. I digress.. but loved how she yet again provided the very stability to Vaibhav that somewhere he has come to cherish.. and is it just me.. or the way he addressed her as a partner had multiple connotations.. a hint of personal affection.. I wanted to melt as much as Devki did.. but I hope that girl isn't heading towards rude shocks at least on this account..
Charu's compassion as a mother towards Devki choked me.. exactly what I meant.. as a follower of wisdom and universal mother CP appeared more non-committal than Charu who only mothers her immediate children.. I guess maybe they both assume apt responsibilities.. one cant be attached in a universal role.. i guess it makes you myopic..
Baa reading Charu.. little things in this show.. little details mean a lot.. Baa ends up being the know all .. if she found out CP was living.. how would she manage this truth.. knowing what's at stake from IMs end. .from Charu's and now from Devki's.. all individually.. not even putting the equations together..
the last bit was a comic relief.. that old lover boy😆 he personally went to the Ashram and his exp at Chinu's intrusion.. typical patronizing behavior.. but once Sonal saw him.. he was defensive.. the donation bit was🤣 I swear I wld have rofled in Sonal's shoes.. going chal jhootey.. hawa aan de🤣 but on hindsight.. poor man.. a highly successful businessman.. stands as such a desperate human being.. trying to hold on to the only hope.. but to what effect.. has he considered the repercussions of his running behind his past.. but then again he is IMV.. its all abt him and that one encompassing love affair anyways.. 😆
P.S this epic rambling later.. Sam I considered your doubt.. did she really say Parineeta or Parimita.. I cldnt tell.. also she said they are christened meaning she didn't chose it for herself.. and may be if anything the perfect wife has a connotation towards a global domesticity she now possesses.. LOL or some sort of re-assurance that she wasnt a complete failure at domesticity.. I really dont get the ways of spirituality.. I can see my mom sit and laugh and pity my efforts here😆
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