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Our relationship
"Our's is arranged marriage.When he saw me for the first time itself he decided to marry me.He says that he could not think any other girl as his bride after the first meeting.He loves me madly,that's why though his parents and relatives went against our marriage he did'nt leave my hand.May be because of that i also started loving him unknowingly.We became very close to each other.But our relationship is not a perfect one.He is a stubborn man who wants others to agree with him always however disgusting his ideas are.He can twist his tongue in any way.He is not bothered about it's painful effects on me.When he crosses his limit through his bitter words sometimes i lose my control and speak back.That is just because i can't pretend before him.I want my mind to be clear.I want him to know what goes in my mind.I don't want poison to remain my mind.Suppressing too much in the mind creates too much of poison.But he does'nt understand that anyone will lose control if they are always given pain.When i speak out my mind he considers me as a spoiled girl.Just because i'm a woman i'm not allowed to open my mouth?How can i always suffer silently?
I agree..he does'nt wound my heart purposefully even if the fight goes deeper.
He forgets that i'm also a human being,i have feelings,because of him the mental trauma i undergo is unbearable sometimes.He does'nt bother about my tear drops.Because he hates women's tears.According to him,women cry to attain what they want,that is just their drama.How can i make him understand that i'm not pretending to be sad?I shed tears not to melt his heart.I cry only when i can't control my emotions when it reaches a certain level.I'm sad that he does'nt
He loves me,but he becomes violent sometimes.I don't want him to be violent with me,because i don't want my husband to stoop so low.We have always loved each other,but we did'nt understand each other,we did'nt trust each other.Recently i realized the depth of his love however rough and tough he is.When he is angry he shouts at me,he threatens to desert me,but the time proved that he wants me,he cannot leave me alone simply.So i trust his love now,i know that he will stand by me when there is storm in my life.But now also i can't share my worries with him always as he fails to understand me completely.Unfortunately he does'nt trust me at all.Though i'm always faithful to him,he misunderstands me and considers me as a liar.Yes,it is difficult to understand him and his way of love.But i love him.
I love him,but sometimes because of his behaviour i prefer to stay away from him for peace of mind.Though i want to be away from him,i want to be with him always.That's the peculiarity of our relationship.Sometimes he is very sweet,sometimes he is very rude.His colour changes quickly.When i think about our life since we saw each other...yes it is nice.We had nice time with each other.There were a lot of beautiful moments in our life.That's what makes me stuck up to him always".
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Ishaani
