I dont get him... i just dont get him... just when i think i can pride myself over knowing him a little he springs a total surprise at me ... and i fall in love with him more than i ever did before.. and he gives me every reason to love him more.... when i fight with him, i dont like it... but when we dont fight, i hate it ... i cant imagine being myself with anyone else ... infact i didnt know what i was all about till the time i met him... he makes me feel important... one minute he acts like he wants to throw me out of his life, and the moment i turn to leave, he pulls me back with so much force...i cant say a word... like i said before.. i dont get him...
people say, when you are in love, everything around you starts looking beautiful... your life changes.. and you smile for no rhyme or reason.. but with me, before i could enjoy any of that, i saw his serious face, i had confessions to make... confessions bigger than those three words that lovers yearn to hear... those words were never exchanged between us... will he ever say them... may be he wont.. but i still get it .. what i feel for him is beyond that ... and what he feels for me is beyond even beyond that ...
he makes me cry... and then he says he cant see tears in my eyes... he seems to think only he has the right to hurt me... and i think so too... i dont want to let go of him....i want him by my side always... and you know what...i know he thinks that way too...
he wants to be my fiance, cos he thinks i need him, i never asked him to ... but he just knew ... i ... lo... no .. i wont say it ... i need not say it...
this is something i cant comprehend.. he is someone i cant comprehend ... and i feel special around him... i feel at home.. at peace... i hope it stays this way ... now... forever... and ever....
love,
Geet Handa
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