#5Kya Pyar Aisa Bi Ho Skta Hai??(AR)note-153 - Page 78

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Will send you pms with next update i.e tomorrow, divorce day is divided into 3 or 4 parts.. will try to end this day with in a week but not sure,

Again a warning..

Pain's surely there in upcoming parts but I suggest you to not to skip these parts, whether its painful..

Part-183

Armaan turned his wheel chair and started walking towards car thinking "kyu kiya riddhima aisa, kyuu??? Hamare sab vachan tod diye tumne aur mujhe tanha chod diya, pata ni kaise jeeyunga tumhare aur ardhaan ke bina 1-1 pal, itna bada dhoka dene se pehle 1 baar bhi tumhe nahi khayal aaya ki tumse 2 logo ki saasein judi hai, kaisi saja di mujhe???

Kiss gunaah ki saja di??? Kaash aaj issi waqt mai maut ko gale laga sakta, tumhe divorce dene se jayda aasaan saja hoti wo, par nahi kar sakta, kuch pal aur kuch din pal-2 markar bhi jeena hoga, mera maksad pura ho jaye uss din meri saasein khud saans chod degi mera..Kitni ajeeb baat hai na riddhima,

tumhare itne bade dhoke ke baad bhi tumse nafrat nahi kar paa raha hun, kitni koshish kar raha hun ki tumse nafrat karun jaise iss waqt khud se kar raha hun par hamesha ki tarah mere dil ne aur meri aatma ne mujhe chod kar tumhe chunna, apna dil hi bewafa nikla tumhe iljaam kya dunga,iss dil ki saja to maine decide kar li aur tumhari…

(he looked at some papers and photographs again, his driver helped him in settling in car, soon they're at home, armaan quietly entered in room and saw riddhima lying on bed, he quietly placed aarish next to riddhima, then looked at riddhima whose eyes were closed and were swollen a bit, armaan's eyes again fills with pain

yet he couldn't control himself and caressed her face thinking "may be its last time, kal ke baad sab badal jayega…", he again caressed her face, wanted to kiss her but couldn't as again that photographs roamed in his mind, he closed his eeyes tightly and again tear dropped from his eyes, he gazed at riddhima with pain

and mumbled "kyu aisa kiya, kiss baat ki saja di riddhima tumne mujhe, kyu???" he reminded their last anniversaries when both of them races who's going to wish first and then their hidden surprises which they starts planning before a month, lil smile covered his lips, their 29^th nov always starts with a sweet,

pasionable kiss full of warmth of their love and day ends with the same, he smiled fakely thinking this time their day'll end without each other, he again looked at riddhima "wo kaise react karegi kal subah jab divorce papers dekhegi?? Khush hogi na bahut, officially aajad ho jayegi mujhse.."his eyes slightly fills with hatred

and then he turned his face and goes out from room, through out the night he kept on roaming in garden and riddhima kept on looking him from glass window through out the night, she didn't want him to know that she knew what he's planning to gift her on their anniversary, she didn't wanna apart herself from his soul today only,

her hand's on her cheeks where armaan touched her, she with teary eyes kept on caressing it and all the 6 years kept on roaming in her mind and one question's playing in her mind "kya wo 6 saal inn photographs ke aage itne chotte the ki unn 6 saalon ko bhulkar ye photographs yaad reh jaaye, kya wo sab vachan,

wo sab pyar ki baatein sab itni chotti thi ki ye photographs ke saamne aate hi wo baaatein piche chut jaaye, kaise yakeen dilwaun armaan ki maine kuch galat nahi kiya, mai tumhari hun aur rahungi, she reminded her b'day night and

thought "mujhe nahi pata uss raat kya galat hua mere saath, mere shareer ne mujhe dhoka diya ya ye photographs jhutti hai, par ab bhi bas itna jaanti hun ki meri aatma sirf tumhare naam ki maala rat ti hai, kaise bataun tumhe ki tumhare siwa ye duniya ab mayne hi nahi rakhti, tumhare siwa kuch mayne nahi rakhta khud ke liye mai bhi mayne nahi rakhti, tumse hi to riddhima hai, riddhima ka astitva hai, tumse hi riddhima ka roop hai, tum nahi to kuch bhi nahi hai", she cleared her tears and kept on looking at armaan…

Its morning 8 o'clock, riddhima's on terrace looking at the black clouds which were ready to fall down in form of rain, but riddhima thought that it's their way of showing pain for AR, they too feel pity onAR, aaj wo bhi royenge unke saath, she looked at armaan who's still in ground and sitting with closed eyes,

hurt and pain're clearly visible on his face, though riddhima's trying to act normal as if she doesn't know about divorce papers yet she doesn't wanna go in front of him, she didn't have guts to face him as she feared she'll definitely break down, armaan'sthinking that riddhima's still resting in room..

Ankit's home..

Ak: (on cell) hello dad.. congratulations, aaj 10 mahino baad maine apna vachan pura kar diya, barbaad kar diya riddhima ki jindagi ko puri tarah, uski ijjat kal 5-5 rupaye ke akhbaaron mai bikegi, iss shehar mai ab uska jeen mushkil ho jayega, mere paas aane ya marne ke alava uske paas aur koi chaara nahi rahega, aaj armaan usse divorce de dega, dr. shashank kal jaan na chahte the ki kya mai sach mai riddhima se pyar karta hun, ab unhe bhi apni ijjat ki fikar ho rahi hai,

ek riddhima ki galti ki wajah se ab sabko bhugatna padega, bahut armaan ke naam ki maala rat ti thi par aaj wohi uske muh par divorce ke papers maarega, ab pata challega usse ki actual mai ankit kya cheez kya hai, 10 mahine lage par atlast apne lakshya ko paa hi liya, barbaad kar diya riddhima, uski jindagi aur uske ghamand ko, dr. shashank chahte hai ki mai riddhima ko agar chahta hun to uss se shaadi kar lun, unhone sochne ka time diya hai aaj tak ka, bas ab mai riddhima ke muh par rejection ka chanta maarunga, kal tak wo pure shehar mai badnaam ho jayegi dad.. ab aap khush haina???

Mr. Si: haan bte bahut khush hun, aaj dil ko sukun mila, I'm proud of you son, riddhima deserved this, uss din usne mere muh par tamacha maara tha aur ab usse puri duniya tamacha maaregi, rote hue dekhna chahta hun, gidd gidate dekhna chahta hun use, jitna jayda tadpegi utna mere dil ko sukun milega…

Ak: aisa hi hoga dad, infact aisa hi ho raha hai, abhi ne bataya ki aaj apni saalgirah ke tohfe mai armaan riddhima ko divorce papers de raha hai, tamasha dekhne jaayenge hum log, aap jashn manaiye aur mai uski barbaadi dekhkar aata hun…

Mr. Si: par baaki ke dost jo riddhima ke hiteshi the wok aha hai..

Ak: don't worry dad sabka maine intejaam pichle hafte hi kar diya tha, rahul-muskaan Patiala gaye hai, atul ko AIDS ke uppar seminar ke liye delhi bheja gaya hai saath mai 4 interns bhi gaye hai, anjali rehti hi bahar hai, niki-rohit-abhi mere control mai hai, jo mai unhe dikhana chahta tha unhone wohi dekha, prachi bhi rohit ke saath hi hogi kyunki uski riddhima se jayda interaction nahi thi,

rahi ritu-chirag ki baat to niki ne usse bhi sab bataya hi hoga, agar usse vishwas nahi bhi hua hoga to armaan ka divorce ka decision sunkar usse yakeen ho jayega, baaki 3-4 interns aise hai jinhe jayda farak nahi padta kissi ki life se bhi, aur vivek-sonal,srishti-rishab ye jayda bolne waale logo ko maine 15 din pehle hi sanjeevani ki dusri branch mai survey ke liye bhej diya dr. keerti aur dr. shashank se baat karke, so all set, nothing to worry, hamara raasta bilkul saaf hai dad, maine sab bahut soch samajhkar kiya hai, riddhima ko defend karne ke liye uska saaya bhi nahi hai, sab uske against hai, sab…

Mr. Si: ab mai jashna manaunga dil khol ke… jeete reh beta jeete reh… (ankit smiled)

Ak: dada vibha kaisi hai??? Wo apna dhyan rakhti hai na?? aur aap usse dawai lena remind karwate rehte hai na??

Mr. Si: haan bte, vibha bilkul theek hai, bas india aane ki jidd karti hai bahut jayda, maine usse abhi ke liye samjhaya hai, par 3 months baad wo hospital ke function mai jarur aayegi, usne mujhse wada liya hai..

Ak: (smiled) okk dad, mai khud sab settle kar lunga…ab mai rakhta hun phone, taiyar jo hona hai… (mr. singhaniya smiled and line goes dead)

Dr. Shashank house..

Sh: padma mai riddhima ko ghar laane jaa raha hun, aaj armaan use divorce de dega, thodi aur hongi court ki formalities wo hum baad mai dekh lenge..

Pa: mujhe ab bhi yakeen nahi ho raha, armaan riddhima ko divorce de sakta hai, aur mujhe riddhima par pura yakeen hai ki wo aisi giri hui harkat nahi kar sakti…

Sh: abhi filhaal mai ye jaanta hun ki mujhe riddhima ko uss armaan se dur lekar aana hai, wo jab tak uski life mai rahega uska kuch acha nahi ho ssakta, riddhima paagal ho gayi hai jo usse abhi tak kuch samajh nahi aaya, par thode din armaan se alag rahegi to usse pata chal jayega ki armaan ke saath uski jindagi barbaad hai, bas riddhima ko le aaun, maine ankit se baat ki hai, acha ladka hai, well mannered and intelligent, har kaam bahut soch samajh kar karta hai, aaj sham tak wo apna jawaab bata dega to jald se jaldi riddhima ki uss se shaadi kar denge, aur aarish ko anjali sambhal legi…

Pa: aap riddhima ki marji jaane bina itni badi planning kaise kar sakte hai..

Sh: bass uski marji ke kaaran hi wo aaj ye sab jhel rahi hai, iss baar mai kissi ki nahi sununga, jaisa mai chahta hun waisa hi hoga, saare hospital mai uski badnami ho rahi hai saath mai meri bhi, ab aur nahi … (he turned only to find anjali standing with widened eyes) anjali..

An: armaaan riddhima ko divorce de raha hai aur mujhe hi iss baat ka pata nahi… armaan aisa kaise kar sakta hai, wo to riddhima se bahut pyar karta hai..

Sh: pyar nahi paagalpan tha jo uttar gaya, usse realize ho gaya ki riddhima ki uske kaaran jindagi kharaab ho rahi hai, tabhi wo chahta hai ki mai riddhima ko aaj waapis le jaun..

An: mujhe believe nahi hota dad, armaan ridzie se bahut pyar karta hai, wo aisa kar hi nahi sakta.. (she reminded riddhima's pregnancy days, then lonavla days) aisa ho hi nahi sakta dad, wo dono bahut pyar karte hai ek dusre se..(suddenly her gaze fell on photographs lying on table, she looked at them with utter shock, then looked at padma and shashank) ye kaisa ghinona majak hai…

Sh: majak nahi hakikat hai..

An: dad mai ridzie ke saath badi hui hun, don't try to fool me…

Sh: riddhima ne khud apne uppar sab charge liye hai, ab usse drugs aur sharab ki aadat kaha se padiye mere liye samajhna mushkil nahi hai, mai chahta hun ki jaldi se usse armaan ki qaid se bahar nikal laaun, mujhe shuru se hi uss ladke par vishwas nahi tha, aaj hamari wo pyari si riddhima inn galat aadato mai pad gayi, sab uss armaan ki sangati ka assar hai, tabhi kehta hun ki bache ma-baap se jayda samjhdaar ban ne ki koshish to kar lete hai par baad mai unhe apni galtiyo par pachtawa hota hai, ye hota hai bacho ki bewkufiyon ka anjaam..(he threw photographs on floor with reports..and goes out, anjali looked at padma)

An: mujhe ab bhi vishwas nahi ho raha… (and she too goes out, called atul and told him about everything, atul's hell shocked, he got up immediately from conference nand told her that he'll try to get back soon, he too's very worried and wondering how's this possible, they contacted rahul-muskaan, they too reacted in same way, they asked anjali to try to stop armaan, they'll be back soon, anjali rushed towards AR house..)

On other side ritu-chirag, niki-abhi, rohit-prachi too goes at armaan's place, though it's difficult for ritu and chirag to believe on news but when they saw armaan's red eyes they tried to believe as they know armaan knew riddhima much more better than them and when he believed on news than there must be something wrong,

but still they're unsure, all gathered at armaan's place, armaan's very surprised seeing them at their place, thinking maine to sirf dr. shashank ko bulaya tha par ye sab…. And before he could ask anyone, riddhima came out, armaan for a moment kept on looking her, she's wearing his favorite sauce waala red suit with semi Patiala salwaar, had jarkans work on it with green dupatta on one side,

wearing mangalsutra and and small red and green jarkans set, her maang's filled with a thin but long line of sindoor, and a small stone bindi, with bangles and kangan in hands, half clutched curls with lil flicks falling on her face adding more beauty in her, her every step's making a noice as her dupatta has ghungroos at the end, for a minute armaan's lost in their wedding,

coz riddhima's looking like a bride today with nothing over in make-up yet looking extra ordinary, she'd lil smile on lips, her swollen eyes were hidden under the effect of make-up, though she's feeling that her each step's making her go close to her death but still she's walking looking at armaan in continuation,

all were looking at her with awkwardness but riddhima seemed to notice nothing as she's lost in those blue eyes with flashbacks of their most memorable times and one question was running in her mind "how'll she stay away from these eyes, from his embrace, from his soul, from his heart's beautiful music which gives her peace no matter from whatsituation she passes from,

riddhima reached near him and settled on her knees and while looking in his eyes she kisses on his cheeks and with a smile mumbled "happy anniversary jaan, aaj hamari shaadi ko 6 years complete ho gaye hai, I wish har saal mai tumhe aise hi.." before she could complete, armaan interrupted "tum kab uthi???"

riddhima eyes slightly filled, she looked down and when she's sure that her eyes again got empty, she looked him and then forward her cheeks near his lips while mumbling "tum mujhe wish nahi karoge???", armaan's slightly surprised and was thinking what should he do, but when thought with riddhima's pov he moved forward thinking "abhi usse kuch nahi pata, let me wish her for the last time,

let me feel her for the last time" thinking so when he moved forward he himself doesn't know, riddhima smiled when saw his lips coming towards her, her heart as usual thumped but this time more with fear, when he's about to kiss her on cheeks, riddhima unknown to him moved her head such that his lips straightway touched her lips, today riddhima's not thinking about anyone,

she could only see armaan, she could only feel him and wanted to do that only, armaan's shocked with this sudden kiss, he tried to moved back but riddhima holds his hand tightly and closed her eyes, all were shocked, some were thinking that riddhima had really sold her character and soul and some were emotionless…slowly-2 both backed out with riddhima still with closed eyes,

as if she's trying to save this taste and armaan's still in a daze, riddhima opened her moist eyes and looked in his eyes and mumbled "6 years ki reet kaise tut sakti hai armaan, raat ko 12o'clock na sahi par wishes to har baar ki tarah hi di jayengi na", she cleared his lips and mumbled in his ears "I love you armaan and will continue to love you till half to half breathe remains in my body",

armaan didn't look amaze and looked at everyone, riddhima stood up and mumbled "waoo armaan tumne hamari anniversary ke liye sabko bulaya hai, tum har baar mujhse pehle kaise surprise de dete ho", she pouted, armaan kept on looking her and for a moment thought came across his heartthat how he'll handle divorce papers to her but again goes, riddhima goes to ritu and hugged her but felt the coldness in her hug but she continued to smile fakely,

niki-prachi moved to armaan when riddhima tried to talk to them, riddhima glared at ankit, dr. shashank and anjali, ankit was smiling wickedly and winningly but riddhima ignored him and goes to armaan, holds his wheel chair and started moving saying "tumne to surprise de diya ab meri baari", armaan said "wait I wanna talk to you", riddhima said "abhi nahi armaan, pehle cake",

she took him in common room followed by everyone, in centre, on decorated table one beautiful cake's lying and room's slightly flooding with heart shape balloons, ankit slightly got tensed in heart thinking "ye sab kya hai, kahi armaan phir se emotional fool banke kuch ulta na kar de aur mere bane banaye khel par paani na phir jaye,

pata nahi kyu ye divorce papers riddhima ko nahi de raha", armaan again tried to say something but riddhima sshed him and handled him knife and herself placed hand on his hand and moved it towards cake, no one seemed to be interested as everyone's finding it as drama, but riddhima didn't care, she moved his hand near cake and with in a minute it's in pieces,

riddhima took a small piece and tried to feed armaan but he turned his face, riddhima holds his face and feeded him and slightly put cream on his cheeks, armaan gave her a bit angry look, riddhima said "tum itne sadde hue tamatar se kyu act kar re ho, challo cake khillao mujhe aur mera gift kaun dega mujhe???"

armaan holds her hand and took out some papers from his pocket and with moist and hurtfull eyes placed them on her hand and mumbled "ye tumhara gift hai, ab please mujhe baksh do, chod do mera picha karna", he rudely joined his hands and turned away, riddhima looked at envelope and from her eyes tears dropped,

ankit smiled winnimngly, anjali's helpless coz everything's going instantly, there's no time for her to react, armaan's washing his face in bathroom , his hands were shivering thinking what he'd done, and he tried to visualize riddhima's reaction and in heart one question came "kya ussne wo papers kholle honge", he shivered again wih fear, came out from thoughts when heard some voice,

it became clear when he moved out with surprise, it's true that he's divorcing her but still he can hear and feel her from anywhere, she's singing, though her voice wasn't craky yet sadness can be felt easilyfrom her voice, armaan wondered if she'd opened the papers, he moved further, he could see her, and riddhima too's looking at him while singing, armaan turned his back when saw her proceeding towards him…

R: mera sindoor hai mera shingar hai (riddhima stopped for a moment and from her eyes tears dropped)

tu meri dhadkane tu mera pyaar hai.. (then she quickly rushed and passed him, she stood far from him, both looked each other)

rab se bas ek saugaat mangun piya,har janam mein tera saath maangu piya

(armaan's lost in their engagement ceremony, he saw riddhima in magents orange lehnga and taking rounds around him, her eyes full of happiness and true love, on his lips a small smile came but suddenly that image vanished and he came in present, riddhima's pointing god and with one hand pointing to him, then entangled her both hands tightly(for togetherness) and placed her head on her entangled hands, indicating that she wants him in every birth, not for a single moment she broke her eyes contact with him, she didn't blink…)

maine har saans pe naam tera likha

tujhpe balihaari jaun kassam raam ki ...

(armaan again turned his back with hurt, riddhima's voice chocked a bit, tears ran down from her eyes in continuation and she sits on ground as her body rejected tp move further, her body's not ready to accompany her soul, she holds her head and looked at armaan…)

mujhpe chaai hai kaisi ye deewangi

(she pulled her hair tightly with both hands and looked above towards ceiling, from her eyes tears dropped again but this time with anger as she's not getting for which sin she's being punished, why didn't she die for once, why she's being punished with thousands deaths on her each breathe)

maine maana tujhe apna bhagwan

(then she looked towards idol of god that's on small table and right at the back of idol there's one mirror, riddhima ignored idol and looked at armaan, if seen from her eyes then one could surely find armaan as god..)

mujhko saugandh saajan mere raam ki

bin tere mai nahi ab kisi kaam ki

(riddhima touched idol feet and caressed armaan from mirror, then turned towards him and again pointed him with one hand and shaked her head with tears, armaan's heart's thumping against his chest, he's not able to take it anymore, nor have guts to turn his back again, don't know how many times he died before turning his back, though he's hurted badly by riddhima or better say riddhima ditched him but still he cares for her, he can't see her in this condition, damm it he loves her, his chair itself moved towards her, for a minute he forgot everything, he forgot world, hust riddhima's face's revolving in front of his eyes and past 6 years…)

teri dahaleez pe dam ye nikale mera

tujhpe balihaari jaun kasam ram ki..

(riddhima touched ground and then placed that hand on her head and laid on ground and cried bitterly, with all the flashbacks of their engagement ceremony, her heart was contrasting the situation when she sang same song on that day and today, on both the days she wanna tell armaan about her feelings for him,

the only difference was at that time armaan's slowly-2 getting aware of her deep love for him and there's no space for doubts against each other , there's only happiness all around at that time and today though he's aware of her love but still don't trust her, today she sang to clarify herself and to tell him that she loves him a lot and always will, today she sang it just to prove her innocence, their love started strengthening with this song and today for the sake of their love, just to save their marriage she again sang this song)

no one came forward and tried to pick riddhima up, they just kept on watching her, niki-prachi again were in dilemma as they wanted to know which face of riddhima's true, they're feeling bad, they too can't see riddhima in tears, ritu's on 90%-10%, 90% she's sure that riddhima can't be wrong and 10 % she's unsure, but she's with armaan,

coz she knew armaan loves riddhima a lot and if he decided to divorce her then there must be something, abhi-ankit's happy with riddhima's condition but seeing armaan approaching her, ankit again got nervous a bit, anjali tried to go to riddhima but shashank holds her hand saying let her realize that her condition's so bad due to her jiddipan,

only armaan goes to riddhima, riddhima slightly raised her head and looked at armaan, armaan noticed her blood red eyes but he wondred why was she crying, still she didn't opened the envelope which he gave to her, riddhima kept on looking him, then placed her head on his knees and again cried, armaan tightly entangled his hands on his chair arms, his heart's abusing him badly for being so rude towards his jaan but his mind kept on reminding him the previous day)

R: (with tears) aisa kya ho gaya hai armaan kitum mujhse itna dur-dur ho?? Mujhe meri galti to batao??? Kyu mujhse itna dur jaa rahe ho, kyu mujhse baat ni kar rahe, bolo armaan bolo… (she cried more and hits on his knees with lifeless hands) kya tumhe ab mere pyar par yakeen nahi raha armaan?? Bolo armaan kuch to bolo, kyu tum mujhse dur bhaagna chahte ho…

from armaan one tear dropped and he turned his face to other side and quickly cleared his tear, ankit got slight tensed, when he saw armaan's grip loosing around chair arms, he panicked thinking "agar iss drama queen ke aansu yunhi girte rahe to kahi wo emotional fool apna iraaada na badal de, baaki sabki jubaan par bhi jaise abi-2 paralysis attack par gaya ho,

koi kuch bol nahi raha aur naahi uss riddhima ko alag kar rahein hai armaan se, mujhe hi kuch karna hoga, wo bhi jaldi, kaji khel phir se ulta na pad jaye, aur 10 mahine barbaad karne ka iraada nahi hai mera, he slowly-2 moved and picked up envelope and photographs from table and quickly moved forward when saw armaan's hand in air, probably he wanna comfort riddhima, but before that ankit goes..

Ak: riddhima armaan se nahi mujhse pucho… (riddhima looked at ankit, followed by armaan, he noticed his hand holding envelope, don't know why but armaan's temper raised a bit, he again clutched his hands tightly.. ankit handled her all reports,photographs and then divorce papers) ye hai wajah, tum armaan se chupana chahti thina apni asli pehchan aur ussi ke liye tumne hamare bache ko bhi abort karwa diya,

ab dekho kya haasil hua tumhe, armaan ko sachayi pata to chal hi gayi, aur wo tumhe divorce dena chahta hai aur tumne ek maasoom ko duniya mai

aane se pehle hi maar diya, kaash tumne aisa na kiya hota….

riddhima again looked at everything in her hand and more tears dropped from her eyes, armaan's looking at riddhima and he didn't find any shock expressions on her face as if she knew about it, he's slightly confused but in his eyes anger and hurt're clearly visible, riddhima again looked at armaan and got lil more shattered when noticed lil hatred in his eyes, she just shaked her head with watery eyes as her tongue too left her side, her eyes're trying to convey him that it's not the truth but armaan turned his face, dr. shashank too came forward

Sh: challo riddhima ab tumhara yaha koi kaam nahi hai, maine to pehle hi kaha tha ki ye insaan tumhare lyke nahi hai…(riddhima again settled on her knees and turned armaan's face towards herself and made him look in her eyes)

R: tumhe kya ho gaya hai armaan, kya tumhe nahi pata ki mai tumse kitna pyar karti hun???

A: (smiled fakely) pyar aur tum??? Tumhara pyar to mere liye bahut pehle hi khatam ho gaya tha riddhima..

R: (with disbelief) armaan tum mere pyar par ungli nahi utha sakte, mai jinda hun yahi proof hai mere pyar ka, jis din tumhare liye pyar khatam hoga uss din meri aatma ka hi aakhri din hoga iss duniya mai, iss se jayda bada proof aur kya dun tumhe apne pyaar ka???

A: mat jhooti duhai do riddhima, ye hai tumhara pyar.. ye (he again showed her some snaps and paper and then threw it in air) mujhe divorce chahiye aaj hi, abhi issi waqt… (riddhima again settled on floor as a lifeless body with photographs all around her, armaan moved his chair back, he could not control himself from crying, ritu-chirag tried to come near him but he shaked his head..)

To be continued…

Next update :tomorrow…

Lots of love

Ankita…

no warning today, coz mujhe lagta hai ki part senti hai par rona-dhona jayda nahi hai, hope you'll like it..

main highlights: r-sh confrontation, anjali realizing her mistake after knowing truth, and mmm baaki aap log bhi to padna na, mainr agar sab bata diya to aap kya karoge???

Part-184

A: mat jhooti duhai do riddhima, ye hai tumhara pyar.. ye (he again showed her some snaps and paper and then threw it in air) mujhe divorce chahiye aaj hi, abhi issi waqt… (riddhima again settled on floor as a lifeless body with photographs all around her, armaan moved his chair back, he could not control himself from crying, ritu-chirag tried to come near him but he shaked his head..)

Sh: challo riddhima, ab tumhare liye yaha koi jagah nahi hai bache, ye jagah waise bhi tumhare liye kabhi thi hi nahi, apni jindagi ko naye sirre se shuru karo, challo.. (riddhima kept on looking at armaan, when he moved back)

R: (with choked voice) ek minute armaan, abhi hamari baat nahi khatam hui hai…(he turned, riddhima collected all photographs and reports and placed it on armaan's feet) ek baar mai tumhare muh se sun na chahti hun, kya ye sab reason hai hamare divorce ka??

A: haan riddhima..

R: meri aankho mai dekh kar kaho ki kya tum mujhe divorce issliye de rahe ho kyunki tumhe lagta hai ki mai bewafa hun, tumhe dhoka diya hai, ek 3^rd class ladki hun jo kissi ladke ki baahon mai jaane ke liye taiyar ho jaati hai, kyunki mere shareer ki bhuk nahi khatam hoti kissi bhi ek se.. bolo meri aankhon mai dekhke ki mai ek characterless ladki hun jo har ladke ko apne jhaanse mai fasana chahti hun, unke bacho ko janam se pehle hi…

A: (throwing the square piece of glass on floor loudly anf his both hands got injured badly and blood started coming out) nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. (he screameddddddd much larger than his voice) bassssssssssssss karo riddhimaaa, bassssssss karo.. (with hatred) itna mat khud ko giraao ki baad mai apne saath rehna bhi mushkil lagne lage….

he's still shouting, for a minute as if everything stopped around them, his voice's echoing in room, he's boiling in anger, no one had seen him in this anger before, all were scared for a moment and jammed on their places only, riddhima closed her eyes and again fresh tears came out from her eyes, don't know how she told such things to him, don't know from where these guts came to speak in such language in front of her husband, her life, she opened eyes and saw blood in armaan's hand, her heart thumped badly, she quickly holds his wrists, but armaan pushed her hand with jerk

R: armaan please, dekho to kitna khoon beh raha hai, please dekhne do.. mai tumhare aage haath jodti hun, pleaseee dekhne do, pata nahi kitna gehra jakham hai..

A: tumne jo jakham diye hai uss se jayda nahi, jab tumhare diye hue jakhmo ka dard sehkar bhi jinda reh sakta hun to ye to kuch bhi nahi hai.. (riddhima looked him and again tears rolled down, she cleared her tears)

R: armaan tum kuch bhi bolte raho, par tumhe meri aankho mai dekhkar ye bolna padega ki mere low character aur bewafai ki wajah se tum mujhe divorce de rahe ho, and I promise mai tumhe aur aarish ko chodkar hamesha ke liye tumse itna dur challi jaungi ki ye hawayein bhi jo mujhe chukkar gujre wo tum tak na pahunch paye..

A: aarish tumhare paas rahega riddhima..

R: (looked him) nahi armaan, aarish tumhare paas rahega jab patni ke rup mai bewafa hun to maa ke rup mai bewafa kyu nahi nikal sakti, aur mai nahi chahungi ki hamare bte par mera bura saaya pade, tum logo ki jindagi se bahut dur challi jaungi armaan bina kuch kahe, bina kuch bole, bas ek bar tum bol do ki mai character less hun aur mai abhi tumhe divorce papers sign karke dungi, mai kabhi nahi chahungi kitum ek characterless ladki ke saath raho,

aur mujh jaisi ladki ki saja yahi honi chahiye ki mai akeli rahun duniya mai hamesha ke liye, mujhe koi dukh nahi hoga, koi gila nahi koi shikwa nahi bas tumhare muh se ye lafz sun na chahti hun, mujhe pata chal jayega ki mai kaisi hun kyunki tumse jayda to mujhe koi nahi jaanta khud mai bhi nahi, to mai tumhare lafz siraankho pe rakh kar inn divorce papers par sign karke bilkul abhi yaha se challi jaungi, bas ek baar bol do…(both kept on looking each other, in armaan's heart her words kept on echoing, when 5 minutes passed and both didn't say anything, dr. shashank butted in)

Sh: ab to tumhe yakeen ho gaya na riddhima, armaan ki khamoshi ne tumhe jawaab de diya na, aur tamasha mat banao khud ka, pehle hi bahut tamasha kar chukki ho, apni ijjat to tumne gawa hi di, ab kya hamari bhi gawana chahti ho, challo yaha se….(shashank holds her arm which riddhima detangled with a jerk)

R: kisne aapko hak diya beech mai bolne ka dr. shashank??? Aapko shayad yaad na ho, par hum ek dusre ko nahi jaante, ab to mai aapki colleague bhi nahi rahi, aapko yaha aaye kaise, kisne bulaya, aap apni ijjat khud gawa rahein hai bin bulaye mehman bankar, mai aapko jaanti bhi nahi aur aap khud hi mujhse relation jod rahein hai…

A: riddhima maine dr. shashank ko bulaya hai yaha par

R: ohh sorry I forgot ki tumne hi to phone karke inhe bulaya tha, to actual mai inki nahi tumhari memory week ho gayi hai, kiss rishte se inhe yaha bulaya..

A: wo tumhare papa hai aur ab tum unke saath hi waapis jaogi..

R: armaan don't.. (with finger) don't.. tumhe fikar karne ki jarurat nahi hai ki mai iss ghar se nikalne ke baad kaha jaungi, mai marun ya jeeyun ye tumhari duty nahi rahegi, tumhe pata hona chahiye divorce ke baad hum ek dusre se aajaad ho jayenge, to hume ek dusre ki care karne ki jarurat nahi hai, mai sadak par rahun ya apne kissi yaar ke ghar par iss se tumhe koi matlab nahi hoga, tumhe fikar karne ki jarurat nahi hai armaan…(before armaan could speak anything she turned to shashank)

Sh: tum ye kya keh rahi ho riddhima mai tumhara baap hun..

R: mera koi nahi hai aarish aur armaan kea lava, meri jindagi hi bas unse shuru hoti hai,unke liye hi ye jindagi hai aur unhi par khatam ho jayegi, kitni baar aapko ye batana padega dr. shashank gupta??? Aur kya apko nahi pata ki jab husband-wife baat kar rahein ho to beech mai interfere nahi karte.. (turning to armaan) bolo armaan??

Sh: (with sarcasm ) uski abhi tak khamoshi ne tumhe jawab nahi diya?? Kitni bewkuf ho jo abhi tak uski khamoshi nahi pad payi..

R: (again turning to him) uski khamoshi pad sakti hun tabhi uske muh se sun na chahti hun, please dr. shashank jinn logo ke baare mai aap na jaante ho uske barae mai kuch bhi bolne ka aapko hak nahi hai, apni so called experience ne aapko andha bana diya hai, armaan ki khamoshi aap mat padne ki koshish kijiye, aapke sir ke uppar se jayega sab kuch, kyunki agar armaan ki aap khamoshi pad sakte to aap 6 saal pehle hi uski sachayi padte, uski achayi dekhte, aapko pata hota ki armaan actual mai kya hai, aur jab aap usse 6 saalon mai nahi samajh paaye to abhi uski 5 min ki khamoshi ka matlab nikal paan aapse melon dur hai, aur mat apna waqt barbaad kijiye…

Sh: pata nahi tumhe iss apahij se kya milta hai..( riddhima glared him with hatred)

R: wahi jo aap jaise theek logo se nahi milta, kyunki mera armaan paralysed hokar bhi bilkul perfect hai aur aap log body se theek hokar bhi paralysed ho, aap logo ka dimag paralysed hai, apahij hona aaj tak aap jaan hi nahi paye kisse kehte hai dr. shashank, physically illness ko kabhi apahijta nahi kehte, apahijta kehte hai mental illness ko jo ki aap jaise logo mai hai, mujhe armaan par proud hai, jaante hai kyu..

kyunki usne kabhi apni illness ko apni weekness ban ne hi nahi diya, kabhi uske mind par hawi nahi hone diya ki usse kuch hua hai, wo to kuch logo ke kaaran(she glared at ankit) armaan ko apni practice chodni padi nahi to um dead sure ki wo bahut ache neuro surgeon bante, aapko pata hai dr. shashank armaan ki illness ka ilaaj kahi na kahi to hoga

aur nahi bhi hua to bhi koi gam nahi hai, kyunki wo bahut ache se jindagi jeena jaanta hai, mentally bahut strong haina, physical illness ke saath banda jee sakta hai par mentally illness life ko barbaad kar deti hai, jaise ki aapne apni beti ki ki, aur aapki beti ne apni khud ki aur apne husband ki life barbaad ki..

Sh: (with anger) kya matlab hai tumhara?? Maine tumhari life kharaab ki hai?

R: aap galat samajh rahei hai, mai aapki beti ki baat kar rahi hun, mai to thi hi aapki step daughter, jab aapne apni sagi beti ko hi nahi chodda to mai to uske aage kahi nahi hun… (anjali was shocked as well as confused)

Sh: riddhimaaa basss……

R: kyu ab sach sunkar itna gussa kyu aa raha hai dr. shashank??? Boliye apahij kaun hai wo jo khud khush rehkar apni family aur apne aas paas logo ko khushiyan deta hai ya wo jo apne hi khoon se khushiyan chinta hai.. (anjali came forward and looked at riddhima)

An: riddhima bas bahut ho gaya, tum kya ulta seedha bol rahi ho??

R: ye baat aap apne dad se kahiye dr. joshi oh so sorry dr. gupta, maine to bas unhe unki baato ka jawaab diya hai, maine nahi kaha tha yaha aao aur un- necessary beech mai interfere karo kissi ki life mai, mujhe aaj tak samajh nahi aaya inhe sabka ghar barbaad karke khshi kaise milti hai..

Sh: riddhima tum had se jayda bol rahi ho, bolo aisa kya kiya hai maine???

R: khud se puchiye dr. gupta….

An: paheliyan mat bhujao riddhima, aisa kya kiya hai dad ne…

Sh: armaan se jayda lagta hai tumhe treatment ki jarurat hai, u're sick..

R: (screamed) yess I'm sick dr. gupta, I'm sick but for sure aapse kam, atleast maine kissi bhole bhaale insaan ki maasumiyat ka to fayda nahi uthaya, aapko pata tha ki aapki beti ka ghar barbaad ho raha hai aur reason bhi jaante the aap, phir bhi chup rahe aur khade hokar tamasha dekha ki kaise dr. anjali ne apne pati ko divorce diya,

agar aap sick na hote to apni beti ko jarur bataya hota ki atul ki reports mai kami nahi thi, wo aapki khud ki beti hai jo maa nahi ban sakti kabhi, aapne kabhi atul se sacrifice na maanga hota taaki apki beti na tut jaye aur wo bechara bhola-bhala atul jiski sirf anjali ko dekhkar jindagi chalti thi usne khushi-2 haan bhi kar di kyunki wo apnui anjali ko dukhi nahi dekh sakta tha, aap sick na hote to uss innocent ko yu saja na bhugatni padti…

An: (with shock) ye tum kya keh rahi ho riddhima..

R: jobhi keh rahi hun sach hai, chahe apne dad se puch lo, aapki aur atul ke tests, blood samples mere paas hi aaye the, maine hi reports prepare ki thi, atul jaanta tha ki aap apna baby jaldi se jaldi chahte ho, par jab result aaya to pata challa ki aapki fallopian tubes hi blocked hai, jiske kaaran aap kabhi consume nahi kar payengi, he's shattered and discussed it with dr. gupta, unhe atul ka pain nahi dikhayi diya,

unhone seedha ye kaha ki aapko iss baat ka nahi pata chalna chahiye nahi to aap degrade ho jayengi aur atul ne khushi khushi apni reports change karwa di, wo nahi chahta tha ki aap khud ko incomplete samjhe aur badle mai aapne kya kiya unhe divorce papers pakda diye kyunki wo baap ni ban sakta, are kya kuch nahi kiya usne apake liye,

kabhi socha, kabhi samajhne ki koshish ki, hamesha aapki khushiyo ki kadar ki hai usne, aapki khushi ki khaatir apke ghar par aakar raha, apni self-respect ko hurt karke, par usse bhi badle mai dukh hi mile, aur ye aapke dad khade hue bas tamasha dekhte rahe, sachayi inke saamne thi, par phir bhi aapko nahi bataya aur aap??

Kya bacha itna important tha ki pati ko chod do, uske pyar ko thukra do ye jaante hue bhi ki bas aap hi uski duniya ho, aapki khushiyan hi uska maksad hai… agar aise hote hai normal insaan to hum sick hi ache hai, atleast bewajah kissi ki jindagi se nahi khelte,

koi chotta sa bhi sacrifice karta hai hamare liye to apni jaan dene ka mann karta hai uske liye aapki tarah bade-2 sacrifices ke baadbhi uss insaan se uski jaan maangna ye sochkar ki wo to paagal hai de hi dega jaan, itne guts nahi hai hum me, aapko shayad sabko for granted lene ki aadat pad gayi hai, par hum wo nahi hai… (anjali's crying badly remembering her time with atul, her divorce, she looked at shashank and ran out..)

Sh: (with anger) aakhir tum chahti kya ho riddhima??

R: abhi tak aapko nahi samajh aaya, mai chahti hun ki aap yaha se challe jayein, auron ki life ko control karna band kariye, ye hamara ghar hai aapka hospital nahi jo aapke according hume chalna padega aur ho sake to apni apahijta ka illaj shuru karwa dijiye, kahi problem na ho jaye… (dr. shashank looked at armaan in anger, he turned to go but stopped as somewhere his heart wanted to see the divorce of riddhima with armaan, that stopped him from going out, riddhima again turned to armaan..) haanji ab bolo armaan..

A: riddhima jaldi se ye divorce papers par sign kar do..(with coldness as riddhima's confrontation with dr. shashank didn't bothered him much, he's feeling as if everything's fake)

R: tum condition jaante ho, signed papers tumhe mil jayenge… bolo armaan tumhe kya lagta hai?? (looking at photographs) kya tumhe bhi lgta hai ki atul ke saath mera koi affair hai, dekho na iss photograph ko, sabko lagta hai I's having pleasure with him, tumhe bhi aisa hi lagta hai kya??

(she asked this with fake smile, now ankit started getting nervous as armaan's not replying on her question, for a second thought came across in his mind that why he's not saying that he's divorcing her for her loose character only, coz it's the fact else there's no other reason for him to divorce her, then why's he not speaking, why he's silent)

R: bolo na armaan, chup kyu ho?? Divorce lene ki jaldi nahi hai kya?? (seeing armaan slightly lost, ankit came forward)

Ak: riddhima tumhe ab tak jawab mil jaana chahiye tha, comeon riddhima mere saath ek itni khubsurat raat bitaane ke baad bhi tum armaan ke aage kyu itni ulti seedhi conditions rakh rahi ho, kitna acha mauka hai riddhima ab naatak band karo aur sign karo divorce papers par, challo mere saath..

R: (glaring at ankit) mr. ankit singhania, mujhe tum jaise insaan se baat karne mai koi interest nahi hai...

Ak: (smirked) ohh really riddhima, lagta hai tumhe baat karne mai nahi sirf ye sab karne mai maja aata hai..(he again showed her photograph of her b'day, this time riddhima kept mum and her eyes felt with slight guilty, armaan noticed that) bolo ab chup kyu ho gayi riddhima, ab kyu bandhan mai bandhna chahti ho,

tum bhi to yahi chahti thina ki armaan se tum aajad ho jao aur jab ye sab hone jaa raha hai to ye faaltu ka naatak kyu riddhima?? Just sign the papers, no more naatak, ab armaan hamari sachayi jaanta hai aur usse nahi bura lagega agar tum uske muh par papers sign karke maarogi, challo jaldi se papers sign karo aur phir hume apna future bhi plan karna hai, dr. shashank to hamari shaadi ke liye bhi taiyar hai….

(riddhima looked at armaan who's eyes were full of anger and he's looking at ankit then her, riddhima started looking down with slight guilt and she crushed photograph in anger… and this time one tear fell down from her eye as her defeat, she wondered with whom she'll fight, when her own life's not believing her, when her own body ditched her..)

Ak: riddhima armaan tumhe apni marji se aajaad kar raha hai, to tum kyu

itni kashmkash mai ho, maana tum armaan se sab chupana chahti thi, par ishq chupaye nahi chipta, ab jab usse pata chal hi gaya hai to tumhe aur pyar ka naatak karne ki jarurat nahi hai, yehi to hum chahte the na, hamara kaam kitna aasaan ho gaya… challo ab papers par sign karo jaldi se..

( riddhima didn't hear a single word, she just kept on looking armaan, when ankit got no reply from riddhima, he placed his arm on riddhima's shoulder, before riddhima could react, ankit received a tight punch in his stomach, he fell down on floor and for a moment closed his eyes and then opened his eyes with shock when something stike his mind, he opened his eyes to confirm and was more shocked when came to know that armaan hitted him..)

A: (with anger) teri himmat kaise hui riddhima ko haath lagane ki, kaha thana uss se dur rahiyo, par lagta hai agli baar se tujhse baat karne ke liye kutton ko hi bulana padega kyunki hum insaano ki bhaasha to tujhe samajh nahi aati, apni aankh aur muh ka itna bura haal karwakar (remember riddhima tore his face skin with hands on her b'day) shaanti nahi mili tujhe jo phir riddhima ko haath lagane ki himmat aa gayi tujhme, ya ab tujhe apni jindagi se pyar nahi raha jo khud hi aag mai haath daal raha hai, abhi tak pata nahi challa tujhe ki riddhima kya cheez hai??? Aag hai wo, jal jayega buri tarah agar usse chunne ki bhi koshish karega…

Ak: (getting up and maintaining his shocked expressions) tu bhul raha hai armaan ki riddhima ab meri hai, mere saath so chukki hai..

A: ab agar apni bakwas band na kito aisa haal hoga tera ki pehchan nahi payega khud ko, naahi mai riddhima hun jo teri baton mai aakar khud ke uppar shak karke guilt feel karun, naa hi mai niki hun jo tere paagal pantiyon par vishwas karke apni bahen jaisi friend par shak karke usse akela chod dunga, naahi mai abhi hun jiski khud ki koi soch nahi hai aur wo auron ki soch apnakar ye saabit karta hai ki wo kitna dumb hai,

tu aaj jinda khada hai yaha par yahi kaafi hai riddhima ki pavitrata saabit karne ke liye, mere liye nahi auron ke liye, khud riddhima ke liye, kyunki mujhe uski pavitrata ke proof ki jindagi bhar kabhi jarurat nahi padegi, riddhima wo aag hai jisse chute hi koi bhi jal jayega, sirf mai bana hun jo iss aag mai jalkar bhi jinda reh sakta hun baaki,

mujhe laga tha ki tujhe ye baat samajh aa hi gayi hogi, jab tu itna strong drug usse dekar bhi uske saath kuch nahi kar paya to uske hosh mai to uski parchayi bhi nahi chuu payega, sone kito dur ki baat hai ankit tu uske aas paas hi bhatak kar dikha de wo bhi kaafi hoga..

Ak: kyu tujhe photographs dekhkar bhi yakeen nahi hua, agli baar jab uske saath soyunga to pehle ek video banwaunga tere liye, sick man, teri tango ke saath saath dimag bhi paralysed ho gaya hai… (his anger started raising as he's not able to swallow the fact that armaan still believes riddhima..)

A: (smiled fakely) ye photographs… inn photographs par yakeen.. (he again laughed fakely) ye mere liye majak se jayda kuch nahi hai, ek acha joke, I think best joke of the millennium jisse mai jab bhi dekhunga tab tab mujhe hassi aayegi, tujhe kya lagta hai ankit tere iss ghatiya majak ko mai seriously le sakta hun??

U must be kidding ankit, maine kaha na ki mai niki-rohit ya abhi nahi hun jinhe apni bekar ki baaton mai fasana tere liye itna aasaan ho, naahi mai riddhima hun (he looked at riddhima who's still standing in a daze) jisse khud par itna yakeen nahi hai ki usse mere alava kissi aur ka saaya tak nahi chu sakta, phir chahe wo jitni marji gehri neend mai ho, par teri lagta hai aankhein bhi kharab hai jo apni aankho se baat dekhkar bhi nahi samjha,

naahi hi tu uss din mask daalkar basement mai riddhima ko haath laga paya, naahi usse itna strong drug dekar usse chuu paya, kitni buri tarah insult hui teri, phir bhi kamal hai ankit teri akal thikaane na aayi, but I guess sharam kaise aati, tune kabhi ijjat kissi se li hi nahi hogi issliye bejjati karwane ki itni aadat pad gayi hai ki ab tujhe farak hi nahi padta baar-2 apni isult karwake..

Ak: tum had se jayda gujar rahe ho armaan, pucho khud riddhima se ki wo uss raat palace mai sajj sawar karkar kyu aayi thi mere paas??

A: pehli baat ye meri sharafat hai ankit ki ab tak tu bacha raha itni ghatiya harkatein karke bhi, warna tu abhi tak jail mai hota aur riddhima se mujhe kuch bhi puchne ki jarurat nahi hai, aaj mujhe yakeen ho gaya ki mai uss se kahi gunaah jayda usse samajhta hun…(he glared at riddhima who closed her eyes for a second)

Ak: andha bana diya hai tujhe teri tango ke paralysis ne..

A:par tu to theek hai, tujhe paralysis nahi hua hai, phir bhi tera dimag, aankhein kyu aise behave kar rahe hai jaise tujh jaisa bada apahij insaan iss duniya mai na ho???

Ak: armaannn..(he shouted)

A: chup ankit, bahut sun li teri bakwas aur bahut dekh liye tere ye ghatiya kaarnaame, ab meri baat dhyan se sunn, riddhima ke character ko niche dikha ke tu pure hospital ko aur puri duniya ko bewkuf bana sakta hai, khud riddhima ko bhi, par mujhe nahi, tujhe kya lagta hai ki inn 6 saalon mai humne kya jhak(don't know its English meaning *pout*) maari hai,

kya issliye pyar kiya tha ki koi bhi teesra aakar ye ghatiya photographs aur ye utt patang reports dikhaye aur unn 6 saalon ko bhulakar inn stupid baton par yakeen kar lein jinn baaton ka koi astitva hi nahi hai, wo mera aadha hissa hai, aur apne hisse ke baare mai mujhse jayda koi nahi jaan sakta…

tu ek kya haajaro aisi photographs dikhata to bhi mujhpar effect na padta, haan accept ki mai hasta bahut, ab itne ache jokes par haste hi hai, royega kaun, tune niki,abhi inn sabke through mere tak ye photographs aur reports to pahunchwa di par tu bhul gaya ki ye log riddhima ke aage kahi bhi nahi hai,

mai inhe jaanta hi kitna hun jo inki baaton mai aake apni jindagi par hi shak karne lagunga, ye mere dost hai bahut ache dost hai no doubt, par naa hi maine iske saath aatma share ki hai, naahi ye mere aadha hisaa hai, sirf inhe bahar se jaanta hun, inka inside part kya hai nahi pata to tune soch bhi kaise liya ki tu inhe use karke mere saamne riddhima ka character laa sakta hai, shaaririk sukh..

(he smiled fakely on this word) physical relations..(he glared at ankit) tu riddhima ko jaanta hi kitna hai ankit, are abhi tu bacha hai, bacho jaise banke reh, inn sab baaton se, inn sab physical pleasures se bahut jayda aage hai hamara relation aur ye sab pleasures bahut chotte hai, par tujhe ye baat nahi samajh aayegi, anpad haina pyar ka matlab nahi pata to teri khopdi mai ye baat kaha se ghusegi, wo to bas aise behuda khel khelna jaanti hai..

Ak: tum kin basis par mujhpar iljaam laga rahe ho armaan??

A: maine iljaam nahi lagaya tujhe bataya hai ki teri aukaat ke baare mai mujhe bahut ache se pata hai, tujhe yahi lag raha hai na ki baaki sab kya sochenge, kahi meri baat par yakeen na kar lein sab, par don't worry ye sab ab bhi tere saath hai, maine kissi ko yakeen dilwane ke liye ya tujhe galat

aur riddhima ko sahi saabit karne ke liye ye sab nahi kaha,

auro ko sach dikhane ke liye mere paas proofs nahi hai aur naahi mai interested hu riddhima ki begunaahi ka gaan gaane ke liye aur mujhe proofs ki jarurat hi nahi hai, kyunki proof ki jarurat waha hoti hai jaha shak ho, aur riddhima par shak ka khyal aane se bhi pehle mai prathna karunga ki mujhe agli saans hi na aaye,

jab mai apni aatma par hi trust nahi karta to aisa jeena to bekaar hoga.. (he again looked at riddhima who's still looking him with shock with tears flowing down from her eyes in continuation, he indirectly tried to give answer to riddhima that not for a single second he mistrusted her) ab tu apne aap ghar se bahar jaana pasand karega ya ye bhi kutton ko bulakar hi tujhe samajh ayega..

Ak: (who's totally shaked from inside by the twist in story, his mind's swaying badly seeing the least expected situation, he didn't wanna loose, he's acting like a ghayal sher who's unable to accept its defeat) mai apni riddhima ko le jakar hi rahunga… (he again holds her arm only to receive two more punches in his tummy, causing lil blood coming out from his mouth..)

Sh: (coming forward) ye kya batmeeji hai armaan malik??

A: (looking him with anger) don't dr. shashank..(with finger) don't interfere in between, it's our personal matter, mat bhuliye ki riddhima abhi bhi meri biwi hai, abhi divorce hua nahi hai, to abhi bhi uski jimmedaari mujhpar hai, aapka koi hak nahi hai husband wife ke beech bolne ka, so just stay out, jab tak divorce nahi ho jaata tab tak aap beech mai nahi bolenge, got it…(ang he again turned to ankit)

Tu khud yaha se jaata hai ya mental asylum se van ko bulwaun, nahi actually mental asylum logo ke liye hai, paagal kutto ko pakadne waali van jayda achi rahegi tere liye.. (ankit glared him with whole hatred and got up, and looked at riddhima) phir mat koshish kariyo kuch karne ki, kyunki mujhe koi dikkat nahi hai tera khoon karke jail mai jaane se, darwaja tere piche hai…

when he didn't turn, armaan literally holds his hand and pushed him towards door, everyone's literally shocked to react specially niki,abhi,rohit wondering how armaan can be so careless and blind, "sachai saamne hote hue bhi usne aise react kiya, usse kya lagta hai ki hum uss se jhut bolenge, humpar vishwas nahi hai, use samajh nahi hai ki hume aisa karke kya milega??"

on other side, how's riddhima feeling can't be expressed in words, from the time armaan started storming on ankit till the time he ended, riddhima's feeling as if all her pain which she went through from last month's taken away, hearing those words from armaan's mouth's like out of the world healing for all the pains she went through, she'd hardly expected that she would hear these words from armaan.. yes she doesn't know herself more than armaan, she atlast accepted..

his trust on her made riddhima breathe for the first time since yesterday, now she didn't mind if the whole world tell her that she's not gud in character or put 1000's of blames on her, she surely won't mind, her heart's mumbling

"tumse sikhe koi pyar hota hai kya, rasmein hoti hai kya, rishte hote hai kya,

Humko bhi ae sanam hai tumhari kasam, chahe jo ho saja hum nibhayenge wafa, ehsaas yun dilaake jindagi badal di….. tune jindagi mai aake jindagi badal di…",

from her eyes tears again dropped with lotsssssssssssssssssssss of respect for him and heart filled with lots of love for him without any complaints from her past sufferings, she thought to take out her heart and gift him again, don't know she's not getting how to express her feelings for him, she thanked god with whole heart… when suddenly she felt someone held her hand, she came in present and looked at armaan who's holding her hand… before riddhima could say anything, armaan placed papers in her hand..

A: ab tumhe apne question ka jawab mil gaya, ye divorce papers hai, inhe jaldi se sign karo….(he said this with coldness and hatred, riddhima's eyes were widened with shock..)

R: armaan????

A: divorce papers riddhima…

To be continued..

Precap/future highlights…

R: armaan tumhe ye decision lene ka hak kisne diya??? Jab hum dono relation mai hai equally to kisne hak diya tumhe ki hum dono ke future ke baare mai tum akele socho???

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R: armaan theek hai agar tum divorce hi chahte ho to mai de dungi, par…

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A: pyar???? Konsa pyar riddhima??? Kaisa pyar??? tum kehti ho kitum mere bina mar jaogi, par mai tumhare saath pal-2 jeekar bhi mar raha hun..

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Trustees: dr. armaan, hum chahte hai ki aap sanjeevani waapis join kar lein, hume aapki kaabiliyat par koi doubt nahi hai..

A: sir mai aapka proposal accept kar lunga par meri ek shart hai…

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Just can say stay tunned……..

Next update:if you want me to update very long part than you have to wait for 2 weeks which will include the whole precap, but if you want update early then precap'll be shown in 2 parts, do reply your wish..

Hope you're satisfied today a bit, I know part senti tha, par I don't think jayda rona-dhona tha, tha kya???

Ab hum chalte hai

Milte hai njab bhi aap chaho.. either next week on Sunday or next to next week.. J

Tab tak ke liye raam raam ji

Lots of love

ankita

Thanks for all your wishes, I'm fine now, sorry for late update :(

No warning, its an emotional part with lots of emotional stuff from riddhima's side, may be its riddhima's love..

Part-185

A: ab tumhe apne question ka jawab mil gaya, ye divorce papers hai, inhe jaldi se sign karo….(he said this with coldness and hatred, riddhima's eyes were widened with shock..)

R: armaan????

A: divorce papers riddhima…

R: par armaan tum ye sab kyu kar rahe ho??? Chahte kya ho??? (she kept on looking him with confusion with tears)

A: kitni baar kahu, aur kitne jayda simple words mai sun na chahti ho riddhima, I just wanna divorce…

R: (settled on floor and while looking sideways and controlling her tears) pata nahi armaann aaj tumhe samajhna itna mushkil kyu ho raha hai, ek taraf tum ankit ki baato aur in photographs ko jhutla kar mujhpar iss kadar vishwas karte ho jab khud mujhe apne uppar doubt ho raha tha, jab khud mai iss guilt mai thi ki kahi kuch galat…

phir bhi tum akele hi ho iss room mai aur shayad iss duniya mai, jisne mujhpar yakeen kiya wo bhi iss hadd tak aur dusri taraf ye divorce papers…. Konsa roop tumhara sach hai armaan???? Please meri confusion durr karo, mujhe iss andhere se bahar nikalo na armaan..

A: tum aur andhere mai… (he smiled fakely) aisa kaise ho sakta hai riddhima??? Andhere mai to main hun, andhere mai to main tha, aur aage bhi andhere mai hi rahunga,samajhna aur samjhana to tumne bahut pehle hi chod diya tha, phir aaj kyu complaint kar rahi ho na samajh aane ki… (riddhima looked him with shock as well as with surprise)

R: armaan..

A: no riddhima.. please aur naatak nahi, already bahut ho gaya hai..

R: armaan natak??? Tum aaj itna ghuma kar kyu battein kar rahe ho, kyu nahi bata rahe tumhare dil mai aakhir hai kya???

A: bataya to hai, divorce chahiye mujhe…

R: (now her patience started leaving her side and anger started rising in her nerves as she's not getting any appropriate answer from her husband, but she tried to remain calm and looking in his eyes) armaan tumhe pata hai court mai jab bhi kissi ko saja sunai jaati hai to uski wajah bhi batayi jaati hai,

kya tumhe nahi lagta ki tumhe bhi apni adalat mai ye rule rakhna chahiye, ek baar itni badi saja sunane se pehle tumhe mujhe meri galti batani chahiye, nahi to wo galti sudhregi kaise, jiss galti ke liye mujhe jinda rehkar marne ki saja sunai jaa rahi ho uss galti ko jaan ne ka hak to ab bhi rakhti hu mai armaan…

A: tumhe saja mil rahi hai, ohh really riddhima, saja to maine ye apne liye rakhii hai, tumhe to bas ajjad kiya hai apne se officially, jaisa kitum chahti thi, jisme tumhari khushi thi…

R: aisa lagta hai tumne aaj kassam khayi hai ache se mere sabar ka imtihaan lene ki par don't worry, bahut time hai hamare paas, saari jindagi hai…

A: riddhima its better ki hum ek dusre ka waqt na kharaab karein, lets come to the main topic, sign the papers…

R: aur mujhe kitni baar tumhe ye batana hoga armaan ki jab tak mai reason nahi sunugi ye papers sign karna to dur inhe mai haath bhi nahi lagaungi, mujhe jaan na ki mere husband jinhe din ke 24 ghante bhi kam lagte the hamare saath ke, aisa kya ho gaya ki unhe ek pal bhi mujhse baat karna apne time waste karne ke barabar lagne laga hai…

A: tumhe lagta hai ki tumne kuch galti ki hai??

R: kitni baar kehna padega armaan baato ko mat ghumao…(she said this with slight anger)

A: mai baato ko kaha ghuma raha hun riddhima, ek simple sa question tha ki kya tumhe lagta hai ki tumne kuch galti ki hai, anyways mujhe tumhara answer pata hai, tum divorce ka reason jaan na chahti ho to suno, mai tumse bore ho gaya hun, nahi rehna chahta tumhare saath, mann bhar gaya hai mera,

ab mai apni jindagi apni tarah jeena chahta hun… bas ab answer mil gaya tumhe, sign karo inn papers ko aur mujhe aajad karo… (saying so he turned his chair, now his grief started subsiding and his anger started rising, may be coz of riddhima's ignorance, riddhima too cleared her tears and threw everything on her side, her grief too started changing into anger, she goes in front of armaan)

R: (with anger) tumhe kya ye sab khel najar aa raha hai armaan, unfortunately ye hamari life hai koi game nahi jise hum bore hokar badal sakte hai… samjhe..(she holds his collar)

A: riddhima..

R: (cutting him) let me complete armaan, tumhari problem kya hai mujhe samajh nahi aa raha, agar itne jayda desperate the mujhse divorce lene ke liye to kyu nahi kaha tumhare character ki wajah se divorce dena chahta hun, tumhe pata tha ki mai easily sign kar dungi papers par bina kissi question ke, itne jayda bore ho chukke ho mujhse to kyu itni parwah karte ho meri, kyu jhuta iljaam lagane se darte ho..

A: kyunki armaan malik ko kissi jhutt ke sahare ki jarurat nahi hai kissi ko apni jindagi se bahar karne ke liye.

R: ohh really armaan, ye jaante hue bhi ki iss reason kealava iss duniya mai koi aisa reason nahi ho sakta jo mujhe tumse alag kar sakta hai, koi bhi reason nahi..(she said this while looking in his eyes as though she mean it) aur agar itna bore ho chukke ho mujhse to jhoot bolne mai to tumhe problem honi hi nahi chahiye thi, kyunki ya to sirf wo jhut hume alag kar sakta hai ya phir meri maut..(armaan looked her with horror for a second then immediately straightens his face)

A: riddhima jhutti galat fehmi aur jhute confidence mai rehna chod do, reasons..

R: (again cutting him) armaan mai stupid reasons ki baat nahi kar rahi, tumne socha bhi kaise ki tum koi bhi mere saamne reason rakhoge aur mai papers par sign karungi, for god sake we are not playing a game, divorce… iska khayal aaya bhi kaise tumhare mann mai…

A: tumhe papers to sign karne hi honge riddhima, hum dono hi jab ek dusre ke saath khush nahi hai to saath rehne ka koi fayda nahi hai..

R: apni baat karo armaan, meri nahi..

A: okk fine, mai tumhare saath khush nahi hun, plz kya ab tum mujhe baksh dogi…

R: sorry armaan ab ye possible nahi hai, wo kya hai na jiss din hum dono ne saat phere liye the uss din hum dono alag alag nahi ek ho gaye the, 6 saal pehle aaj hi ke din hum ek hue the armaan aur ussi din se humne mai (I) ko chodkar hum (We) ko apna liya tha, tab se humne jab bhi baat ki hai hamari baat ki hai, mai ki nahi, tab se jo bhi dukh saha hai, humne saha hai maine ya tumne alag alag nahi saha,

humne sab kaam saath kiye hai, hamara har decision saath mai liya gaya hai, to phir tumhe kisne hak diya ye decision lene ka??? Jab hum dono relation mai hai equally to kisne hak diya tumhe ki hum dono ke future ke baare mai tum akele socho??? Divorce tak pahunch bhi gaye aur mujhe itna bhi nahi pata chalne diya ki hamare relation mai problems aa rahi hai, kisne hak diya the tumhe "hum(we) mai se apne aap(I) ko alag karne ka",

kyu bhul gaye ki ye relation tumhara nahi hamara hai aur relation banane ka aur use kaha khatam karna hai ye decision bhi do log mutually lete hai, akele nahi, to tumne kaise decision le liya itna bada??? Mujhse pucha ek baar bhi ki mai kya chahti hun??? (armaan stayed quiet and riddhima too kept mum for a minute when niki came to riddhima)

Ni: riddhima agar armaan divorce chahta hai to de do use divorce, kyu jabardasti use apne se bandhna chahti ho, jabadasti koi bhi rishta nahi nibh sakta, har insaan ko apne according jeene ka hak hai, agar wo nahi tumhare saath rehna chahta to tum kyu use force kar rahi ho, kyu jabardasti.. (riddhima holds her from her shoulders)

R: (with a sweet smile) niki I agree with you, jabardasti koi relation nahi chalta, tabhi maine tumhe ya rohit se kabhi kuch nahi kaha chahe tum saath the ya nahi, kyunki mujhe pata hai, na mai jabardasti tum logo ko apne saath baandh ke rakh sakti hun aur na hi chod sakti hun, its entirely your wish, par ab baat meri tumhari ya rohit ki nahi hai,

ab baat armaan ki hai, armaan aur meri, hum dost nahi, husband-wife hai,iss relation mai jabardasti ki baat aa hi nahi sakti, armaan se jo baat kar rahi hun wo mai apne hak se kar rahi hun,ek wohi to hai bas iss duniya mai jo mera hai, mera apna, jispe sirf mera hak hai, aur apno par jabardasti nahi hoti niki, jo bhi hum karte hai, wo sirf hak hota hai hamara, armaan se mai jabar dasti kaise kar sakti hun, apne aap se koi jabar dasti kaise kar sakta hai..

(she looked at armaan) riddhimarmaan to ek hi haina aur hamesha ek hi rahenge, to mai apne aap se kaise jabardasti karungi, mai to bas armaan ko yaad karwa rahi hun ki mai uski ardhangini hun, ardh-angini, matlab aadha hissa hun uska, wo mujhe khud se alag karne ke bare mai soch bhi nahi sakta, kyunki aadha adhura na wo khud reh payega aur naa hi mai, bas itna samjhana hai armaan ko.. (she looked back at niki, while armaan smiled fakely and shaked his head)

Ni: par riddhima..

R: niki tum log iss case se out of matter ho, tum yaha jitni marji daer khade hokar tamasha dekh sakte ho hamara, par bologe nahi, kyunki aaj sirf riddhimarmaan ki baari hai, parso maine interrupt nahi kiya tha tumhe, jab tum logo ne hospital mai mujhpar…(she stopped and a lil flash of hospital came in front of her sight and her eyes got filled a bit, she looked at armaan again and tried hard to kept her voice balanced)

aaj tum nahi bologe, armaan ko problem haina mujhse, wo khud bolega, tum use nahi jaante niki, to uske dil mai kya hai kaise bata paoge??? Please uski aawaj ban ne ki koshish mat karo jab tum uske emotions ko hi nahi jaante…. (ritu came forward and hold niki hand, niki tried to say something but ritu shaked her head and took her back… riddhima again turned to armaan)

A: riddhima jinn baton ka matlab tum khud nahi samajhti wo baatein tum bolti hui achi nahi lagti..

R: armaan tum kissliye ho?? Jinn baton ko mai nahi samajh paa rahi hun tum samjha do…

A: kuch baatein samjhane ki nahi khud samajhne ki hoti hai riddhima..

R: par agar insaan wo kuch baatein khud nahi samajh paata to uske apne ko use wo baatein samjhani chahiye..

A: (looking in space) par kuch baatein aisi hoti hai riddhima jinhe khud samajhna hi behtar hota hai, agar khud na samajh paye to samajh lo kitumhara rishta ab bejaan ho gaya hai, usme ab kuch nahi reh gaya hai… (riddhima looked him)

R: armaan mai nahi samajh paa rahi hun kitum kya kehna chahte ho..

A: exactly, mai bhi yahi keh raha hun riddhima, ki ab hum ek dusre ko nahi samajhte, to hum kaise reh sakte hai ek dusre ke saath, please ab to sign kar do papers aur aajad kar do khud ko aur mujhe..

R: (pissed-off) armaan theek hai agar tum divorce hi chahte ho to mai de dungi..(armaan looked at her, he heard his heart thumped badly on his chest then all of a sudden stopped beating thinking they wont be together anymore but then his mind spoke this's what he wanted, he smiled fakely to himself) par…

A: (with surprise) par???

R: meri ek shart hai…

A: shart???

R: haan armaan shart, bahut chotti si shart hai tumhare liye to kyunki tum mujhse bore ho chuke ho, iska matlab dil se bhi nikal hi diya hoga to shart bahut chotti si hai, jayda mushkil bhi nahi hai…

A: bolo… (she placed her hand on his wheel chair and dragged it a bit, armaan looked her)

R: tumhari icha puri karne jaa rahein hai armaan, apni shart ke paas le jaa rahi hun…

they entered in their room where aarish's sleeping peacefully, riddhima looked him and slightly caressed him, this time with full love and without any guilty as she trusts armaan and his words, she bends down and kisses on his forehead, aarish slightly got frightened and snuggled close to her and holds her finger,

riddhima's eyesgot filled a bit, she took him in her arms and again kissed him, her heart's literally banging inside her chest as she doesn't know what time has stored for her, she doesn't know what will be armaan's decision, she doesn't know where her future lies and what her bet will result in, she just knows that she doesn't wanna get apart from her life,

from armaan and their son but don't know why her senses were alarming her that today no one can save their relation but she has one wish that before signing divorce papers she'll get to know the real reason of armaan's cold behavior, she closed her eyes tightly and let tear escape from her eyes and after kissing aarish once again, she moved towards armaan and placed aarish in front of him, armaan looked her..

A: mujhe tumhari shart manjoor hai riddhima, tum aarish ko apne saath le jaa sakti ho, mujhe koi problem nahi hai..

R: armaan mujhe pata hai tumhe bahut jaldi hai mujhse chutkara paane ki, par let me complete, mai aarish ko nahi le jaana chahti..(armaan looked at her questionably)

A: phir??? (this time armaan's a bit scared)

R: armaan meri shart ye hai ki mujhe wo sab waapis chahiye jo mai layi thi shaadi ke baad, jo kuch bhi maine iss ghar ko banane mai contribution kiya hai wo sab mujhe waapis chahiye, ab jab hum alag ho hi rahein hai to sab baatein clear ho jaani chahiye…

(all were shocked totally hearing her words, ritu slightly got hyper thinking "how dare she, riddhima aisa kaise keh sakti hai, itna kaise niche gir sakti hai, use pata hai ki armaan ne sab kharche khud kiye the, khud ussne apne paise so iss ghar ki int(bricks) rakhwayi hai, usne to kuch bhi nahi kiya tha, wo to apne ghar se khaali haath aayi thi, phir use kya waapis chahiye",

where as niki-abhi looked at all as if saying "see her true colors are out", armaan kept on looking at riddhima with mixture of shock and surprise, he could understand her well, he took out 2 meanings of her lines, one meaning which he's not ready to accept and other one which he can't accept as he knew riddhima very well but still he tried)

A: riddhima kuch bhi clear karne ki jarurat nahi hai, maine already ye ghar aur jobhi tumhara tha tumhare naam kar diya hai..

Ri: armaannnn, ye kya bol raha hai tu?? Hosh mai to haina??? (ritu said this with shock, chirag holds her hand and shaked his head in no) par chirag armaan ko dekho, paagal ho gaya hai kya, khud kaha rahega, iss ghar ko usne khud apne haatho se banwaya hai, wo aisa kaise kar sakta hai, use samajho na, hum nahi samjhayenge to kaun samjhayea use… (chirag again ssshhed her, ritu cried bitterly, placing her head on his collar bone)

A: ye ghar bana hi tumhare liye tha to isspar sirf tumhara hi hak hai riddhima, formalities puri hone mai time lagega, to mai dr. shashank ke ghar par papers pahuncha dunga..

R: kyu???

A: ab se tum ussi ghar mai rahogi to..

R: kitni baar kehna padega ki mere future ke bare mai mat socho, apni chinta karo bas, mai jaha bhi rahu, rahu ya na rahu, tumhe uss se matlab nahi hai…

A: (with horror) riddhimaa…

R: armaan lets come to the point, apna time waste mat karo, hum shart ki baat kar rahe the..

Ni: bas riddhima, armaan ne tumhari shart maan li hai ab aur kya chahti ho..

R: (with slight irritation turned to niki) please kya mai armaan se baat kar sakti hu niki….(niki moved back, she turned to armaan) armaan mujhe meri saari cheezein chahiye, 1-1 cheez jo meri hai iss ghar mai, jaise hi sab cheezein mil jaaygi mai divorce papers par sign kar dungi..

A: riddhima ye sab tumhara hi hai, sab kuch…(looking around in room)

R: tum naatak kar rahe ho ya tumhe bhi nahi pata ki mai kin cheezon ki baat kar rahi hun…(armaan looked her and then twisted his neck with his heart thumping loudly wishing if she wont ask anything from him which he's not able to give) 6 years mujhe waapis chahiye armaan, iss ghar mai jitni hamari yaadein hai, unn yaadon mai se mujhe riddhima yani ki mai waapis chahiye..(armaan closed his eyes tightly)

sab kuch nahi chahiye, sirf mujhe waapis kar do, inn 6 saalon mai, main apni kam tumhari jayda bankar rahi hun, to mujhe mere ko waapis kar do armaan, maine jab iss ghar mai kadam rakhe the tab mai apni thi, par aaj mai completely tumhari ho chukki hun, to bas meri shart ye hai ki tumne mujhe 6 saal pehle waali riddhima banana hai, meri cheezein mujhe waapis kar do, iss ghar mai jaha jaha hamare pyar ki khushbu hai,

uss me se bas mujhe mere pyar ki khushbu waapis kar do…(both looked around room and thousands of memories came in front of their eyes, then both looked at each other, both were slightly teary) bolo armaan kya meri cheezein waapis kar doge jo mai shaadi ke waqt layi thi aur jo ab mere paas nahi hai, iss ghar mai kahi ghum ho gayi hai, waapis kar doge kya???

A: (with closed eyes) riddhimaaa… ye kaisi..

R: (cutting him) abhi complete nahi hua hai armaan, pata nahi kyu baar baar interrupt karte ho beech mai, abhi to bas yaado ki baat hui hai… (she looked at aarish) armaan ye kaun hai???

A: riddhima….

R: tumhe itna to vishwas haina ki ye tumhara hi beta hai, ya isspar shak hai?

A: riddhima.. (he screamed)

R: aaram se bolte tab bhi sunayi deta armaan mujhe, anyways.. armaan mujhe na ek confusion hai, please meri confusion dur karoge, abhi bhi hum husband-wife hi hai aur har baar ki tarah please meri problem solve kar do..(armaan looked at her) armaan hum aaj ek dusre se alag ho jayenge, haina… aur hum apni har cheez ka division kar rahein hai, tumhari tumhare paas, meri mere paas, to ab..(armaan looked at her, totally horrified) ab aarish ka kya karein..

A: (at instant) aarish ko tum rakh lo riddhima, mujhe koi dikkat nahi hai…

R: (smiled) nahi armaan aisa kaise ho sakta hai, ye to partiality ho jayegi na mere saath…

A: (before letting her complete) to mai rakh leta hun riddhima.. (with slight horror, he kept on looking at aarish)

R: nahi armaan ye bhi possible nahi hai, hamara sab kuch properly divide hoga, aur aarish ko bhi hum dono ne milkar banaya hai, to uska bhi division.

A: riddhima, tum hosh mai to ho tum kya bole jaa rahi ho..

R: armaan abhi maine complete nahi kiya hai.. aarish ka bhi division hoga armaan, uski rago mai hum dono ka khoon hai, hum dono se bana hai wo, agar mere paas wo raha to mujhe usme tum najar aaoge, aur agar mujhe tumse dur hokar rehna hai to mai tumhari parchayi se bhi dur rehna chahti hun, aur agar aarish tumhare paas raha to mai adhura adhura feel karungi kyunki mera ek chotta sa hissa mere paas nahi hoga, to mujhe aarish ka bhi division chahiye..(from armaan's eyes 1 tear dropped down which he quickly cleared)

A: kaash ye sab sunane se pehle tumhe mujhe maar hi diya hota riddhima, mai bahut khush hota trust me riddhima…

R: kaash divorce papers ka khayal aane se pehle hi tumne mujhe maar diya hota armaan, jeete hue to jannat di hi thi tumne, marne ke baad bhi jannat mil jaati… anyways… shart ki last aur antim kadi… (armaan looked at her) tumhe khud ko mujhse alag karna hoga..(she settled in front of him and took his hand and placed it on her heart) tumhe kuch sunayi de raha hai..(armaan looked at her)

armaan-armaan ki beat sunayi de rahi hai, iss beat ko hamesha ke liye mujhse dur karna hoga, mujhe simple heart beats chahiye jo sirf jeene ke chalti ho, mera khoon jo meri body ki movements ke liye bana hai par tumhare mujhe haath lagate hi isme bhi hulchul ho jaati hai, sir se paon tak daudta hai,

means ye khoon bhi mera nahi hai, isme bhi tum hi basse ho, mujhe apne shareer mai aisi khoon ki ek bhi boond nahi chahiye jo tumhe pehchanti ho, meri saasein jo chalti mere shareer ke liye hai par mala tumhare naam ki japti hai, aisi saasein mujhe nahi chahiye, mujhe nayi saasein laakar do armaan jo "armaan" word ko na pehchanti ho,

meri aankhon mai hamesha mujhe bas tumhara chehra hi najar aata hai, mujhe aisi nayi aankhein laakar do jo tumhare alava har kissi cheez ko dekh sake, meri aatma bhi mujhe nayi chahiye kyunki wo bhi mere shareeer ki hokar bas tumhari bankar rehti hai and last but not the least, meri ye skin bhi mujhse alag kar do armaan, jaha har jagah tumhare hotton ne apne hastakshar(sign) kar rakhe hai ,

mujhe apne touch se free kar do armaan, mujhse armaan ko alag kar do armaan..(she looked him with tears flowing down from her eyes, her gaze fell on bed and reminded how armaan showers kisses on her, she saw dressing table where armaan used to tie pleats of her saree and in between while doing masti showers kisses on her tummy, then again looked at armaan)

bas yahi meri shart hai, ye sab kar do, aur I promise mai tumhe kabhi apna chehra nahi dikhaungi, kuch nahi puchungi, tumse bahut dur challi jaungi, tumse dur jaakar tumhari yaad mai tadap tadap kar nahi jeena chahti aur naahi chahti hu ki bhule bhatke tumhe meri yaad aaye,

issliye mujhse khud ko alag kar lo, I hope jayda mushkil shart nahi hai, tum to bore ho hi chukke ho mujhse to ye sab karna aasan hoga tumhare liye….(armaan just kept on looking her with disbelief, riddhima handled him knife) lo start karo apna kaam… (armaan threw knife away, riddhima goes and picked up knife)

theek hai armaan agar tum ye kaam nahi karoge to mai khud kar leti hun..(armaan kept mum, riddhima's shattered in heart when heard no words from him, she thought he would stop him, but he's not saying a single word,she looked at aarish and settled on floor, then looked at armaan) armaan ek aur little si confusion hai…

R: aarish ki aankhein tumpar hai ya mujhpe??? Uski aankhein tum rakhoge ya mai??? Aur nose, lips??? Mujhe kaise pata challega ki kya mera hai, kya tumhara aur blood ki 1-1 boond kaise alag kareinge??? (armaan just kept on looking her with disbelief, he's not believing his own ears, his mind divided itself into 2 parts,

one was thinking about all the 9 months, how riddhima's pregnancy news came in front of him and second's repeating riddhima's present words which's killing him internally, riddhima waited for 5 minutes but not getting reply, she got up and looked at armaan) I think aarish ki division hum baad mai karte hai, pehle mujhse alag karte hai tumhe….

(she moved aside from aarish, again cleared her tear drop, her hands were still shaking reminding the incident when she brought knife near aarish, her heart'd stopped beating, she's cursing herself for being such a bad mother, she cursed herself for thousand times and don't know when she tightly closed her hand into a fist with knife in between, with in a second blood drops started fighting among themselves that they'll go out first…

A: (feeling some wetness on his finger tip, he came out from trance and looked at his hand, his blood's which came out coz of glass entered in his hand already got dry and seeing fresh drops of blood on his hand, he's surprised a bit and looked up and was shocked to see blood coming out in continuation from her hands and she's just stating at aarish with tears flowing from her eyes, he screamed) riddhimaa.. (and holds her hand, tried to open her palm but it remained tight)

R: armaan leave it, I promise mai marungi nahi, abhi to mujhe dher saara jeena hai aur jeene ke liye mujhe tumse alag hona bahut jaruri hai, warna pata nahi kaisi jindagi hogi meri, saasein kaise aayegi tumse dur jaakar, issliye mujhe khud ko tumse alag karne do…(before she could say more, a loud voice roamed in room,followed by knife voice falling on floor, riddhima's still in a daze, her one hand's on her cheeks where armaan slapped her, she looked at armaan)

A: bass bahut ho gaya riddhima, nahi chahti na divorce dena, nahi papers sign karne na tumne to mat karo,mere saath rehna hai na raho, par please ye sab paagalpan band karo….(he opened drawer and took out first aid box from it and while blowing air on her hand, he applied detol, then did dressing, riddhima's standing still,

armaan looked at her and then hitted his hand on chair for raising hand on his own life, he moved towards window and mumbled) nahi kar sakta tumhari koi bhi shart puri, suna tumne (he slightly screamed) nahi ho sakti tumhari koi bhi shart puri,iss ghar se mai riddhima ko alag karke tumhe waapis nahi kar sakta,

mat do tum mujhe divorce, mat sign karo papers, raho yahi par, tumhe bas naam ke liye ek bandhan chahiye na, diya tumhe wo bandhan, par hamare bte aur khud ko kuch mat karna nahi to pata nahi kya ho jayega,mai waada karta hun mai tumhe kabhi khud se dur hone ke liye nahi kahunga…

he said this with choked voice,as riddhima's words're still banging on him hardly and his grief too's questioning him "tum aisa kaise kar sakte ho, bhul gaye inn 2 mahino ko, wo tumhare saath khush nahi hai, phir kyu usse apne saath rakhna chahte ho"

R: chaho bhi to nahi kar paoge dur mujhe khud se, tumhe kya lagta hai ek paper hamare rishte ka faisla kar sakta hai?? Jiss pyar ko humne inn 6 years mai jiya hai uss pyar ko ye paper maar sakta hai, dil aur aatma se jode hue rishte ka ant(end) ek paper kaise decide kar sakta hai armaan??? (armaan looked her with mixed feelings of grief,anger, horror and hurt)

Abhi's coming forward as he didn't like armaan changing his decision at the end moment of not divorcing riddhima but chirag holds his arm and then asked everyone with eyes to follow him and after a bit discussion they all left, chirag explained everyone that its there personal matter and they're wise enough, so we should better go from here and let them decide about their future,

lets not butt in between them, we are 3^rd person and at this moment no one likes interference of anyone in their matter, all after a moment nodded, where as ritu's lost, from her eyes tears were flowing down in continuation, this time coz of guilty, she's cursing herself, chirag holds her hand..

Ch: kya hua ritu???

Ri: aaj mujhe apne aap se problem ho rahi hai chirag, maine kaise riddhima ko galat samajh liya, wo dono to jeete hi bas ek dusre ke liye hai, wo hi bas ek dusre ki property hai, unhe paiso se nahi matlab hai, unhe iss materialistic world se koi matlab nahi hai, unhe bas apni pyar ki duniya se matlab hai, to maine kaise soch liya ki riddhima apni cheezein matlab paise(money),ghar etc.. ye sab maang rahi hai,

kaise maine itna galat matlab nikal liya uske words ka jab mai jaanti thi ki riddhima inn cheezo par marne waali ladki nahi hai, duniya chahe kuch bhi bole, mai bhi armaan ke saath hun, mujhe yakeen hai riddhima galat nahi ho sakti, usse fasaya gaya hai, kyu, kaise ye mujhe nahi pata, aur bhagwan ji se bas yahi prathna hai AR kabhi alag na ho, ye divorce wagarah ki baatein inn dono ke muh par achi nahi lagti, acha hua tumne sabko samjha diya, definitely unhe abhi hamari nahi ek dusre ki jarurat hai..

Ch: haan ritu unhe abhi bas ek dusre se baat karne ki jarurat hai, 3^rd person kissi bhi relation mai hamesha khatarnaak hi saabit hota hai kyunki wo sirf ek person ki side jaanta hai, dusre person ke mann ki baat usse nahi pata hoti, issliye 3^rd person jobhi suggest karega wo biased suggestion hi hoga..

Ri: (nodded) aur hume to armaan riddhima dono ki hi side nahi pata, aadha adhura sa sach pata challa hai niki se, na riddhima se baat hui na armaan se, aur mai bina kuch jaane hi riddhima ke bare mai pata nahi kya soch baithi, pata nahi ab usse kaise face karungi, sharam aa rahi hai khud par,

chirag kahi riddhima ko ye to nahi lagega na ki mai sirf usse jubaan se hi nanad kehti hun, maanti nahi, kyunki agar maanti hoti to kuch galat bolna to dur uske bare mai aisa sochti bhi na.kaise riddhima ko kahungi ki sach mai galti ho gayi, par mai uss se bahut pyar karti hun..(a tear dropped from her eye, chirag hugged her from side)

Ch: riddhima aisa kuch nahi sochegi ritu, dekhna sab theek hoga, bas abi hume itni prathna karni hai bhagwan se ki unke bech sab theek ho jaye…(ritu nodded and they goes)

To be continued

Precap: armaan's side..

A: tum mujhse pyar karti ho riddhima??? Aaj suddenly ye pyar kaha se jag gaya tumhare dil mai???

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R: armaan itne chotte reason ke liye tum mujhe divorce dena chahte the, iss silly reason ke liye… iss reason ke liye tumne 3 jindagiya stake par laga di??

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Riddhima looked at armaan from window, she could see tears in his eyes though it's raining badly..

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So no divorce for now.. but lets see if its a good decision or not

stay tunned

Next update : very soon…

Lots of luv

Ankita…