'It is easier to forgive an enemy then to forgive a friend...'
today in the case of gunjan and samrat i found this to be so true too
today perhaps in what was always just required in mayank' case - a leap of faith - his own heart needing to accept the truth he always knew - that the accident wasnt samrat' fault.. he never knew - that this 1 ride 1 journey will be the one step which fate would need to take to change the course of their lives forever - mayank admitted .. perhaps forgiving Sammy .. is correct.. is perhaps the only way to cure this pain too that has been killing them piece by piece , part by part in their lives for the past 3 years... he recalls that he felt the need to drive fast too and so hence perhaps feels he is also perhaps ... someone who should regret..
he even made gunjan wanna forgive samrat who stood by her word .. that she had stopped him that day .. where 1 wrong move - i over-speeding car turned the wheels of fortune... and hence her anger her pain her unforgiving samrat is justified.. as she says .. she doesnt think she is now in any way connected to him... a mistake which mayank rightfully corrects .. saying their is still a connect - before he leaves - as in the very beginning he told her perhaps you saw him in the flesh after 3 years today but his memories and dreams have forever been with you...
a place where 3 years ago on a pani puri stall they had this cute outing.. where the day before auditions samrat had admitted he would audition for the film too with gunjan under the condition neel had kept to give nupur a second chance... where in a manner only she could tell - he was doing this for her Di too... for her dreams to have a chance to turn real too - today they again met - but this time - it was as her heart was filled with pain and his with regret that the same place - once filled with happy memories turned melancholy too ...
ah ! what a beautiful meeting - how tragic, painful and heart wrenching too !!
2 lovers whose love changed the ways of fate .. perhaps today had to succumb to it too ... not as their love is lost but because - it has been eclipsed totally by a pain in their hearts ...he who never regrets .. never learns of or accepts his mistakes ..has no regret whatsoever perhaps isnt given a second chance by life as well to correct his folly too
but what about someone who regrets repents and gets crushed in the each breath of his life - does life offer a chance - so well deserved to him too ? perhaps yes ...
for today thou she admitted that the gunjan who loved him and the samrat she loved died the same night with her Di and their love took with her it's last breath for she .. she cannot forgive him
but he.. he who has lived each day .. trying to embrace death yet fight with it only with 1 regret - that he never could share the pain of her burden too - he couldnt console her... he tells her today .. each day without you i died a million deaths yet i couldnt stop breathing for i hadnt yet found you .. his tears her pain - his inability to have shared it or lessen the stab - his only doom & his only chance at redemption too..
i had heard this song once which i suppose in one line sums up his present condition the best -
"Once upon a time I was falling in love but now I'm only falling apart. There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart." - bonnie tyler
today samrat is stuck in his hell ... locked inside the cage of his regret .. the closet filled with her memories and the heart with her love tortures him yet is his only chance that he'd ever get ... only she could free him .. as he can unlock her - from the fortress she has build around her - for "In all things it is better to hope than to despair