My Hell Is The Closet I'm Stuck Inside UPDATED - Page 2

di beautifully written...agree wit u totally
iam jus crying now 😭 😭 wat an emotional episode...aww it was so hurting....sam said so many times chash but he did'nt completed it... 😔 as gunji dont want to hear tat name...it will be very tough for gunji to forgive..but hoping sam will do somthing tat gunji heart will be melt... 😊 iam sure sam will do anything for his chashmish

gosh aahana...ur post has made all those frozen tears out of me...shittt my hands are shaking...and my heart beat isnt normal..what do i say...today samrat just left me without a word aahana...what cud i still feel is the numbness of that pain i saw in his eyes!!!...it took him a whole lot of three years to find her...to find the girl whom he loved the most...for whose happiness he prayed forever but ironically destiny chose him...n only him...to give her the biggest pain of her life...!!! i know she isnt wrong...neither is her hatred....if i wud have been in her place..more or less wud have done the same...but its really hard to see his pain TOO.
u said it so right aahana...he just got stuck in his own hell...its said that "after death its peace...but whats painful is the transition between life and death"...and sam is stuck there only!!!! neither did he live nor did he die...coz dieing wud have meant releiving him off from all the pain...but somehow he considered himself so much at fault that even DEATH seemed a less punishpent to him.he waited...waited for her to give him his punishment...he waited for gunjan coz he cudnt end his pain without knowing that whether she is still in pain or not...gosh aahana what a love is this????
its just like "both of them got wounds...one just covered them ruthlessly so that forgetting her own pains she can support others...and the other...delibrately let his wounds burn in open...coz he cant medicate them until he knows whether her wounds have filled or not.."...seriously if such kind of love ever exists in this world...I salute to it from all my heart and soul...and i salute monaya for making sajan what they are today...!!!
thats it aahana...i wont expand more...i can still see sam's tears and gunjan's turning back to him..n thats holding me numb again n again...u know na how its feeling right now...🥺

loved youre post ahaana...its so sad...😭

i am somewhat scared now

@ jyoti

somehow today i am to moved an numb at the same time hun

oh god what a beautiful meeting what a heart breaking moment and i think i cant even cry for sammy cause he's shaken me so much tonight that i am virtually stunned

today finally i saw mayank admitting the need to forgive sammy.. ah he so knows his friend hun.. sam always had this conviction .. that mayank will definitely be the first to forgive him

god hun when they met.. as she saw him .. those tears that filled his eyes with memories abundant ... something hit me so hard hun

next he knew she wouldnt forgive him so easy yet when he said i regret not being able to share ur pain with u .. of not being able to share ur grief be there in that time is all i regret

each day death came to me yet ur face.. the thought of seeing u ,, the need to console u was what was in me left - my only hope - the only reason i willed to live each paining breath .. damn that guy just right about hit a note where it hurt the most

and thou she may not allow him to call her today the word chashmish hun. it is as she knows deep down it is who she is .. that word isnt merely a name to her but her whole identity it is the love they share ... she isnt stopping him to call her that - she is running away from herself by asking him not to call her that

i was numb after seeing sam's condition...

aahana i was waiting for ur topic. but i have no more words to reply.😭

replied back n i m at lost of words

@ aashi and aahana - girls just reading your posts is making me want to cry....my poor samrat!! and poor gunjan!!....both of them are caught in the hell of their own making!😭

Originally posted by: sajanroxx20

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Beautiful topic hun!! 🤗
I soo agree with you!!
Mayank tried to explain gunjan that its not completely sam's fault!! and if nupur would have been here had she acted the same way like them..?? It was everyone's fault in it.. we were asking samrat to speed up!! But gunjan said that she was not!! And she cant forgive sam!! Mayank told her that you maybe seeing sam after 3 years, but he was always there with you.. in your thoughts!!

And now sajan's confrontation scene..
Man.. the scene was really beautiful, at the same time soo heartbreaking and painful!! 😭 😭 I still cant stop my tears 😭
Sajan confronted.. finally!! Sam was passing by the pani puri stall, remembering the moments with his chashmish he spent there..!!
And at the same place he saw his chashmish after 3 long years!! Tears were trickling in his eyes throughout 😭 Happy to see his chashmish after soo long, at the same time filled with regret!!
he went to her n called her CHASHMISH!! But gunjan strictly told him that she is no longer his chashmish.. she's Gunjan!! 😭 Sammy accepted it and said yaa i forgot that after whatever happened 3 years back, i've lost the right to call you chashmish!! 😭 But still he couldn't help himself from calling her by that name!! Whenever he was talking to her, everytime the word Chahmish was slipping out of his mouth.. he was trying hard not to repeat it.. 😭 Chash...... Gunjan, Chashmi.... Gunjan!! 😭 😭 It was soo painful seeing this!! 😭 He asked her why didn't she meet him before leaving..?? Since past 3 years every second i'm dying.. whenever i was near to death, you were always used to come to stop me!! Because there was still hope left in my heart.. i didn't see you, i was living in hope that some day i'll share my pain with you..!! 😭
Gunjan started walking.. but sam said if you have loved me even a single sec, then you'll turn.!! Those FBs were making the scene more intense!! 😭 Gunjan said ki their loved died 3 yrs back, the gunjan who loved samrat, and the samrat whom gunjan loved died with the last breath of her di!! 😭 😭
Gunjan was being soo cold. but somewhere her heart was crying.. she was not showing it on her face!! 😭

exactly jyoti cant agree more...we all remember how gunji just before sajan's first kiss comes crying in his arms and says that u have to promise u will never call me gunjan again...and today she had to herself ask him not to that...her heart wud have bled ruthlessly while saying so...coz even her ears yearned to hear his voice...she may accept or not...even her heart sank while she turned away from him all over again(luved the way sanaya showed this very emotion)...!!! it was a really heartbreaking scene jyoti...and i think thats why cvs broke it with that match inbetween...else in a stretch it wud have been difficult to see.
Samrat was totally left heartbroken!! 😭 😭 I really wanna give him a tightt hug... 🤗 😭
I hope everything gets back to normal soon, cant see our sajan in soo much pain!! 😭 Maybe now gunjan will soon be joining excel i think!!
And kudos to monaya for potraying that scene soo beautifully!! 👏 👏 👏 They were fab!! 👏 👏

n am even worried for sam..where has he gone..even he didnt turn up in college and isnt picking phone??? i hope he is fine.for the past three years he had been keeping himself strong just to meet gunjan but after such a confrontation...all his leftover hopes too wud have shattred...!!!

just two lines for sajan i remember from the song bekrar of paathshala...

"sooni sooni rahon mein ab tera hi hai intezar
jali bujhi saanson mein ab tera hi hai khumar
na jane maine kya khoya kya paya
kuch bhi na samjhe yahan"