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Hey-yo guys! 😊
Here is another OS.. this time, I dint write it on any of the fictional characters.. you can imagine whoever you wish to, for.. I haven't used any names too.
Here are the links to my FF's, in case anyone's interested in reading - 😳
https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/fan-fictions/1340595/mjht-ff-g-o-l-a-triangle-lastch-pg-107
https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/fan-fictions/1379826/mn-ff-pride-and-prejudice-ch-5-pg-37
It's a sad OS.. and a really small one. Apologies for any grammatical errors. Criticism is welcomed.
PS: Thanks a million for reading and commenting.
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NUMB...
I feel inhuman now. Cut, bleeding, incomplete, shattered... yet emotionless. I can't believe what I saw some three hours ago. The guy left me . . he left me and went away. . where did he go? What had happened to him? Why was he there in the hospital? Why was he not answering to my calls? Not replying to my mails and texts? I was and I still am . . ABSOLUTELY clueless.
I had heard, read and seen that when hearts break . . they don't make any noise . . yet, they manage to destroy everything.
Some five months ago, I met with this fellow. All my friends used to tell me that the GUY of my life would be one very gutsy and patient man, who'd strive hard and certainly change my opinion about love. And lo, it did happen. That gutsy and patient lad took away my heart which I had kept secure since so much of time. Not just my heart, he took away the humanly feeling . . my smile . . the tears even. I am dead . . I don't feel like I am alive.
Such are life's dearies . . whatever you expect, just the opposite happens. Just the opposite. I never told him I loved him and also, I knew he did. But neither of us said anything. I believed him to be a true and reliable friend . . someone who'd never break my trust. Although, he dint break my trust, he broke me apart. Dead or alive that lad is, I don't even know.
I can't bear this anymore. I feel all my bones are broken, my mind's not working, my eyes are scarlet, I don't feel like eating, drinking or even breathing. No him . . no life.
I had been doing away with love ever since I saw my sister heartbroken back in the first year of college. I made up my mind I won't ever fall in love. I'm really head strong but this magician actually made my world turn around, my opinion change . . in just five mere months.
I went to the Church . . I questioned Him . . but he was being as evasive as ever. As usual, He had no answer to give. I remember, when I asked Him as to why did he snatch my parents away . . he made no reply, dint answer and likewise, this time also . . he did nothing . . the idol stood there and made no answer.
I remember that walk on Marine Drive, Mumbai. He held my hand for the first time . . not purposely though. I was about to slip when he held my hand and caught my fall. Filmy, eh? But trust me, I felt for the first time that I will finally have the missing part in my life and it would no longer be incomplete.
One needs reasons to live, always. However, once the reason lost, the second time you need to search for the reason again and allover again till the time you don't get one. But I'm not left with anymore might. After my parents passed away, my work was my reason to be living. And now that he has left, I can't concentrate on my work. Forget work, I can't do anything and therefore I have no reason to live. I don't wish to live.
I can't live with the fact I don't know if the man I'm irrevocably in love is even alive . . I dare say . . that living without him is not a problem as long as WHEREVER he is, with or without me is safe and happy . . but living with a question mark on the whole thing . . with a mystery is not possible. Just not possible.
I never believed in men. They were all lurking sharks to me. However, as he stepped into my life, my opinion changed. He WAS the one. I can never forget the day he kissed me. As he was inching closer towards me, I could feel currents flowing up and down through my body . . my cheeks got hot and red . . I blushed, for first time ever. And for the first time ever, I came across the feeling called love and err . . experienced the bliss. I can't ever forget how sweetly he apologized after realizing what he just did and made me uncomfortable. These memories would have been enough for me to live . . but like I said, I can't bear the other pain. The pain of living with a mystery.
Wherever this fellow is, I wish him all the luck and happiness in the world. Though, I'd be no more . . if he's back . .he'd have my memories with him. He'd have those five months with him I am leaving behind and . . .
The woman who was saying all this was a frail and pail looking woman. With her lips dried, eyes scarlet red and swollen, wearing a white saree and her hair left open. Although she was beautiful, the agony had snatched away the glow from her face. She was standing on the terrace, 15th floor . . as soon as she finished, she closed her eyes, as if recalling the old times, she smiled and then a tear fell down from her eye, she caught it in her hand, glanced at it and smiled. Within a minute, again she shut her eyes tightly and jumped off the cliff...
Love,
Kanky 😳
Here is another OS.. this time, I dint write it on any of the fictional characters.. you can imagine whoever you wish to, for.. I haven't used any names too.
Here are the links to my FF's, in case anyone's interested in reading - 😳
https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/fan-fictions/1340595/mjht-ff-g-o-l-a-triangle-lastch-pg-107
https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/fan-fictions/1379826/mn-ff-pride-and-prejudice-ch-5-pg-37
It's a sad OS.. and a really small one. Apologies for any grammatical errors. Criticism is welcomed.
PS: Thanks a million for reading and commenting.
* * *
NUMB...
I feel inhuman now. Cut, bleeding, incomplete, shattered... yet emotionless. I can't believe what I saw some three hours ago. The guy left me . . he left me and went away. . where did he go? What had happened to him? Why was he there in the hospital? Why was he not answering to my calls? Not replying to my mails and texts? I was and I still am . . ABSOLUTELY clueless.
I had heard, read and seen that when hearts break . . they don't make any noise . . yet, they manage to destroy everything.
Some five months ago, I met with this fellow. All my friends used to tell me that the GUY of my life would be one very gutsy and patient man, who'd strive hard and certainly change my opinion about love. And lo, it did happen. That gutsy and patient lad took away my heart which I had kept secure since so much of time. Not just my heart, he took away the humanly feeling . . my smile . . the tears even. I am dead . . I don't feel like I am alive.
Such are life's dearies . . whatever you expect, just the opposite happens. Just the opposite. I never told him I loved him and also, I knew he did. But neither of us said anything. I believed him to be a true and reliable friend . . someone who'd never break my trust. Although, he dint break my trust, he broke me apart. Dead or alive that lad is, I don't even know.
I can't bear this anymore. I feel all my bones are broken, my mind's not working, my eyes are scarlet, I don't feel like eating, drinking or even breathing. No him . . no life.
I had been doing away with love ever since I saw my sister heartbroken back in the first year of college. I made up my mind I won't ever fall in love. I'm really head strong but this magician actually made my world turn around, my opinion change . . in just five mere months.
I went to the Church . . I questioned Him . . but he was being as evasive as ever. As usual, He had no answer to give. I remember, when I asked Him as to why did he snatch my parents away . . he made no reply, dint answer and likewise, this time also . . he did nothing . . the idol stood there and made no answer.
I remember that walk on Marine Drive, Mumbai. He held my hand for the first time . . not purposely though. I was about to slip when he held my hand and caught my fall. Filmy, eh? But trust me, I felt for the first time that I will finally have the missing part in my life and it would no longer be incomplete.
One needs reasons to live, always. However, once the reason lost, the second time you need to search for the reason again and allover again till the time you don't get one. But I'm not left with anymore might. After my parents passed away, my work was my reason to be living. And now that he has left, I can't concentrate on my work. Forget work, I can't do anything and therefore I have no reason to live. I don't wish to live.
I can't live with the fact I don't know if the man I'm irrevocably in love is even alive . . I dare say . . that living without him is not a problem as long as WHEREVER he is, with or without me is safe and happy . . but living with a question mark on the whole thing . . with a mystery is not possible. Just not possible.
I never believed in men. They were all lurking sharks to me. However, as he stepped into my life, my opinion changed. He WAS the one. I can never forget the day he kissed me. As he was inching closer towards me, I could feel currents flowing up and down through my body . . my cheeks got hot and red . . I blushed, for first time ever. And for the first time ever, I came across the feeling called love and err . . experienced the bliss. I can't ever forget how sweetly he apologized after realizing what he just did and made me uncomfortable. These memories would have been enough for me to live . . but like I said, I can't bear the other pain. The pain of living with a mystery.
Wherever this fellow is, I wish him all the luck and happiness in the world. Though, I'd be no more . . if he's back . .he'd have my memories with him. He'd have those five months with him I am leaving behind and . . .
The woman who was saying all this was a frail and pail looking woman. With her lips dried, eyes scarlet red and swollen, wearing a white saree and her hair left open. Although she was beautiful, the agony had snatched away the glow from her face. She was standing on the terrace, 15th floor . . as soon as she finished, she closed her eyes, as if recalling the old times, she smiled and then a tear fell down from her eye, she caught it in her hand, glanced at it and smiled. Within a minute, again she shut her eyes tightly and jumped off the cliff...
Love,
Kanky 😳
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