I failed, but my love did not..Continued

This is wat i feel about AR's journey since the time Armaan left... This is wat Ridhima would be feeling...

My life had come to a hault when I realised that you will never come back.. Suddenly I was left all alone beacuse wat I knew, I had everything in you so without you I was equal to nothing... My life had met its dead end beacuse my "Life" was no more with me.. I searched for you everywhere but in vain..

But this wsnt the only hurdle my love had to cross, there was something worse waiting for me..

And that was, that I now had even lost the right to call myslef as "yours" just "yours" because, i was somebodyelse's wife!! Nothing could be more shattering than this but I had to accept it coz you were not with me..

I even tried ending my life but dint succeed.. I was now forced to live a lifeless life.. The word "smile" had lost my address, i was now emotionless coz the person i had those "varied emotions" was not with me.. You were not with me..

For my parents' happiness, I "tried" moving on, failed but kept trying.. The man with whom my "fate" was now done, is a nice guy. His niceness for once made me believe that I could bring life back to me, though deep inside my heart I knew that the true meaning of life had lost its importance for me from the day you went...

I realised that I had to "move on" and holding on to your unforgetable memories was injustice to the new "relationship" imposed on me..

Unwillingly though I tried coming out of you and with the help of my "Aaj", I thought if not fall in love again, I could atleast give myself a second chance to smile again, a chance to "move on"....

It wasnt that I had fallen in love with the "new man", but may be I could start life afresh, as you were not with me and I was in a new "relationship" that could give me happiness in future..

I wouldnt deny that there were moments when I accepted "My Marriage" as my "only truth".

And the day when I finally decided ti give my marriage a second chance, that man a chance who stood by me all along.., "You came back", yes "You", "My love", "My life"...

I cudnt believe my eyes, that face, which would lighten up my day, that eyes which when fell upon me made me feel as the most beautiful girl in this whole world, those lips which cudnt get tired enough to call out my name.. I was happy to see you fine.. You were absolutely fine, you remembered me.. You hadn't forgotten our love and those moments...

Sory guys abhi i gtg fr urgent work! Theres lot more in A-R journey and i will continue in some time...

We embraced each other, that hug made me realise what I had missed since you left me.. Your arms around me reminded me of how "special" I was and of all those passioante times we had shared....

But, but wait I still those moments why?? Hadn't i moved on..! hadnt I decided to accpet my 'fate' and move on in life..! Yes I am someone's wife and moraliy this aint right.. I had to leave you there and then and escape your ouch your presence as soon as I could coz now i cudnt afford to loose myself in you again....

My innerself is now divided! You are back and my one side is happy like never before :) But my other half states that I m married and I 'have' to stay with my 'Present'..

Now more difficulties surround me..I meet you daily, try hiding my 'truth', try escaping 'your gaze'. But why am I ddoing this?? If I am a happily married woman, If I have well moved on then why do i avoid you.. Why you still affect me??

When you came so closee to me again, held me tight just the way always did, looked into my eyes with all the love in this world and said "I Love You", why did I melt? Why your touch created a magic on me that I forgot my "Aaj" and all I could think was about "us" about "You and Me"??

Why was I so about to kiss you?? Being a sher escapist, I tried escaping these questions.. but somewhere I knew they wudnt leave me..

I swear, i can never in my weirdest dreams think to hurt you but I have in reality.. and.. I am sorry.. My love for you had always been pure, true, but "Circumstances" and "Time" betrayed us..

Today I cant break the ties of my marriage to be with you.. But the question which haunts me is why is it so difficult for me to let you go out of my life!!, To tell you that you have no place in my heart.. When there were few days in my life where I could imagine a alife without you, a future without your love, a start with someone else then why seeing you weakens me so mcuh that it has become impossible to even think of a future without you.. I feel that today I am facing the biggest test of my love and I have failed.. yes failed.. but my love hasnt because it was for you then and for you today too...

I 'can't' be with you, the ties of my "Aaj" stops me and this might never let me confess that "I Love You" "I still Love You", but this emotion had never faded away from my heart and will be sacred in my heart, just "For you Armaan"

Love Pri

aww thanks Mahua :) wil continue

Thanks Dear :) finally continued!

Thanks glad you like it! I have continued and would like to have your opinion too 😃

Vey nice post...hope u update once u r done with ur exam:)

Lol thanks :) I am now able to concentrate coz now i have vent out my feelings 😃

And I have updated 😊