I stare at you as you walk through the halls. Avoiding my gaze, you glide through like a breeze past me. It's okay...I'm here to understand. I, for one, have known you for a very long time. Whether it has been through your rough times or the more happier ones...I have witnessed it all. And I have laughed with you, cried with you and loved with you. Sometimes I stop and wonder on why I care about you so much. Maybe its just your smile, or maybe your gentleness, or maybe its just YOU.
Bending down to check the patient's heartbeat, makes you meet my gaze. I stare back at you...trying my best to offer some comfort. But you wont accept it. It's okay...I'm here to understand. I have seen you grow up into a responsible man despite your parents, have seen you always offer support and love instead of asking it for yourself. Sometimes I stop and wonder about why you are this way. Maybe it's your selflessness, or maybe your ego, or maybe its just YOU.
Asking for a cup of coffee, you lean on the counter. I take my time in preparing it, hoping to make small talk. You give a quick smile and try to respond back convincingly. I ask you if everything's okay. You stare down and start narrating the case file of a patient. It's okay...I'm here to understand. I have seen you hide pain over and over again...forever building a barrier around you. Sometimes I stop and wonder about how you could be so beautiful? Maybe it's your passion, or maybe your grace, or maybe its just YOU.
You avoid my eyes to hide everything that is inside you. You build barriers in order to keep me at a distance. You pretend to be happy, so that it makes my day. But I know you too well. I see you walking around the hospital...helping the elderly, goofing off with the kids, giving advice to your friends, avoiding your basket...and ignoring YOURSELF.
But its okay...because I am always here to understand. And I will keep trying to offer that one look of comfort, that one chance of a hug and that one shot of making small talk. Because knowing you Armaan Malik, I know that even though you avoid my concern like a plague, you still appreciate my every small gesture.
Love, Your Fan