Things I Noticed - 03/24/10

I had been told throughout the day that today's episode would be an absolute treat to watch. I'd seen pictures (courtesy of Shabz a.k.a. Dew-drop) and I'd had ridiculously high hopes for this episode. Which is why, I can't explain how surprised I am to know that it has surpassed ALL of those expectations and then some! 😍 I'm not going to sit here and tell you guys that I loved the episode because that would be a huge understatement. Instead, I'm just going to warn all of you - I have NO idea how long this will get because I don't even know how many things I noticed (Yeah, THAT's how many! I lost count! 😆). So, if you hate reading or are faint of heart, please read at your own risk! 😆

• Dutta seemed hesitant as he was walking up the stairs - he seemed disturbed by what had just happened downstairs. Even though he was walking away from it, it felt like he was "replaying" what had happened in his mind and what he "saw" was bothering him. He didn't seem "driven" to get to his room as he climbed up the stairs - he seemed to be debating what had happened downstairs and I honestly felt that he wanted to "go back in time" and fix it. Maybe say what he had said a little better? 🤔

• "Warna aisi pungi maron ga na, seedha rocket ki tarhan upar jaye ga!" - Bwaaaahahahahahahahahahaha!!!! 🤣 I find that dialogue HILARIOUS! And the sad part is that it's funny to me because of how it SOUNDS - I honestly have NO idea what Baji meant by it. But it just sound hilarious! In fact I cracked up as I was typing it - "pungi"..? Bwaaaahahahahahahahaha! 🤣🤣

• Did anyone else feel that when Baji was telling the guy not to cause any more "loocha", that he was being very compassionate? To me it seemed like Baji was honestly trying to help the guy - cooperate and don't make a mess! That's all it would take for him to be safe - and Baji was trying to get the guy to understand that. Like he WANTED the guy to just understand that and not cause any unneeded complications. I liked that about Baji - his compassion even with someone who'd tried to cheat him and Dutta out of money, apparently. I really liked that.
  

• Dutta approaches his room, still lost in thoughts about what had just taken place, but the minute he steps in his room and lays eyes on the "chichora" (LOL!) it's back to business for him. Like SEEING the guy had reminded him of where he was and what was happened and he was "back". I especially loved how they used Dutta "Bhao's" background music to emphasize the transition between Dutta to Dutta Bhao in that split second.
  

• Dutta was angry at the guy for being stupid enough to call this trouble upon himself but he wasn't angry enough to punish him for it - yet. When he asks Baji if they were done talking, I realized that this was just a verbal reprimand/warning - and he seemed annoyed by it (all of yesterday's episode) because this guy had brought it this far! If he'd just been doing what he should have, this would never have happened and Dutta wouldn't have to issue a warning. I honestly felt that both Dutta and Baji did not like that the "chichora" had let things get so bad - and they were almost dreading the thought that he might not "learn" his lesson yet.
  

• "Dutta ka usool hai - pehley shaanti, baad mein aandhi. Agli baar Baji ko bulane nahi, urane bhejon ga." - *sigh* Where do I even begin with this one?! I guess, it's only fair to start by giving all the dialogue writers of LTL a "crate of Pepsi", courtesy of thornewood9 and myself! 😆 HOW they manage to come up with such unique and amazing dialogues - I know not. I am honestly NOT used to listening to dialogues on a daily soap and being awed by how amazingly brilliant it is - I've usually had to listen to the cliche'd "Tum... Tum yahan kya kar rahey ho?". Or better yet, "Mujhey ye sooch k bhi sharam ati hai k maine tum jaise insaan sey pyaar kiya tha" *insert dramatic music here*. 🤣 I am not used to hearing sensible yet entertaining dialogues from characters in a soap - and for that I really need to thank the dialogue writers. They've been doing a stupendous job! 👏 Now that that's done, moving on to Dutta - When he started the dialogue he was looking away, as though he was thinking about the numerous other times he'd displayed that "shaanti". But as soon as he realizes what comes "next", he turned his face towards the "chichora" just to make sure he understood the gravity of the situation - he was NOT joking and the guy needed to see that! And like I said in the previous point, even though he'd HATE to "punish" the guy - DON'T for a moment think that's he'd hesitate before pulling the "trigger" should the time call for it. And that's what he wanted the guy to understand - HE had done his part by calling the guy over and explain to him the liability of crossing Dutta Bhao. But now that he's done his part, anything else that happens will be a result of the guy's responsible or IRRESPONSIBLE behavior.
  

• Did anyone notice Nakku "look away" as Dutta threatens the "chichora" (I can't help it! 😆) - like she knew he was "working" and this was "normal" but STILL a little part of her couldn't stop itself from showing it's (surprise and) disapproval. Like she knew Dutta was BETTER than this - he was not as "horrible" as he was making himself sound here. Or maybe I'm just seeing things... 😆

• As soon as Baji left with the "chichora", Dutta transitioned back into his thought about what had happened earlier - he slowly (in thoughts) walks away from the door.
  

• Off course! Without any hesitation and without so much as a knock, Nakku walks right in Dutta's room (yet again!) like it's HERS. No matter how many times she does this and no matter how many times I comment on it - EVERY time I see her do this, I get a warm feeling down my spine. I really do love the "right" these two display on each other. In a world where everyone's all about "MY space" and "MY time", I love how these two do not seem to care about "MY" when they're around each other. *sigh* 😍

• LOL! Can I ask WHY Nakku felt the need to bring that TINY tray for ONE cup? Could she not just carry the cup downstairs? 🤣

• Dutta hears a "noise" and turns around to find Nakku picking up the cup - once he turns to see who it is and finds Nakku there, his eyes don't leave her. It's like he's "waiting" for her to say something. But when she just begins to turn around and leave, he reflexively asks her "Kya hua?" - the fact that she wasn't doing something he'd come to see as "routine" (and was comfortable with) at once caused him distress and concerned him. It was like he was thinking "something has to be wrong or she wouldn't act so 'out of character'..." - I like how he's always concerned for her. And once he catches himself and his reflexive "Kya hua?" - that's when he explains to Nakku why he'd thought something might be up (in case she was wondering). That's when he tells her that her NOT saying something him was what was making him think something was up.
  

• Dutta WANTED to talk about what had happened downstairs - that is why when he sees Nakku behind him, he expects her to say something to him. The incident downstairs had bothered him and he needed to EXPLAIN himself. He needed to explain why he said what he had because what he had said could just be interpreted as him being a "jerk" (for the lack of a better word" and he didn't want that. He wanted to get it out there that he had a REASON behind him. He wanted someone to listen. At least that's what I felt through out Dutta's walk up the stairs and then through his slow walk across his room before he sees Nakku.
  

• Once Dutta sees Nakku and asks her if she's going to share her "gyaan" today, did anyone notice how he held his chin up and his shoulders wide? As if he was saying "I'm ready for whatever criticism you might have for me...".
  

• When Nakku tells him "Main kya bole gi sahib, aap sab jante ho!", she sounded "disappointed" in him. Like she KNEW he knew better - she saw no reason for him to be this "rude". I like how she was comfortable enough with him to now "scold" him (even if it was a pseudo-scolding) for being "rude" downstairs, for the first time.
  

• On hearing Nakku's words, Dutta silently nods and says "acha" - as though what he'd thought had been proven correct. People WERE thinking that what he'd done downstairs was a sign of him being an "arrogant jerk". So he turns around and slowly walks to his wardrobe - that's when he'd decided to tell Nakku the "reason".
  

• "Rukh ja!" - *sigh* Dutta's so COMPLETELY aware of Nakku that even when he can't see her, he can tell what she's going to do. He knows she's getting ready to leave and so he asks her to stop and place the cup back down - asks her to get comfortable. And she complies without any retaliation - not even the silent kind! *sigh* 😍

• Did anyone else feel that Nakku thought she'd "upset" Dutta again with her words, as she put her cup down? Like she thought he'd asked her to stay so he could reprimand her - and she was preparing herself for it? I totally did! 🤔

• When Dutta first lays eyes on the brown box, it's like he's reminded of everything associated with it. He's reminiscent first - but then, his expressions begin to show extreme contempt for that box (maybe as a result of what's in it or as a result of what it's associated with or both!). It's like the first time he saw the box, he was reminded of what it was related to. And once he remembered what it was associated to, he realized how much contempt it had for that "thing" and that contempt was visible on his face (with his chin perched up and his gaze lowered at the box, in disgust). Finally he comes to terms with what's in that box - he curbs his disgust towards that box - and turns to speak to Nakku.
  

• "Aaj tak tu jo bhi boli, main sab sunna. Kabhi kabhi ghussa bhi ata tha, phir bhi chup chap sunna tere ko." - Dutta was asking Nakku to be patient with his explanation just as he'd always been patient with hers. He wasn't implying that he'd been a "great listener" or that he'd done something extraordinary by listening to Nakku's point-of-view without being harsh - he was just explaining that IF she feels that his explanation is not up to par (which he feels there's a high chance off), she should be patient with him. This comment was for HER to be patient with HIM - it was NOT meant to show how patient he'd been with her. Because in his mind, he'd enjoyed her talks so there was no scope for him to be "patient" with her - but he couldn't imagine anyone even understanding what he'd be saying. In his mind, what he did has no "excuse" - it just has a "reason". And even though that "reason" might be good enough for him, he could not expect and did not expect it to be good enough for everyone else too. So he requested them to call on their "patience" instead, when their "understanding" gives up.
  

• Dutta looks at that brown box, momentarily braces himself and then he reaches for the box. *sigh*

• Right after Dutta closes the closet door, he pauses for a second - as if he was thinking, "Alright. Lets do this."

• Even though Dutta has prepared himself to talk about "this" with Nakku, (once he places the box on the table and takes a seat) he has to prepare HIMSELF to be able to talk about this. He looks at the box and gathers all his thoughts together - he convinces himself that this is going to be okay and he braces himself for whatever is in that box. And then once his mind is made, he looks at Nakku - he was now going to give his "explanation".
  

• Since Dutta'd asked Nakku to stay and put the cup back on the table, she'd been expecting him to get upset at her. As he stood by his closet, she kept fortifying himself to withstand Dutta's anger once it unleashed. When he slowly walked towards the sofa and stared at the box from his seat, she waited for him to begin reprimanded her. But instead he started off with an explanation - "Neeche maine jo kuch bhi kaha, bauhat sooch samajh kar kaha.". THAT took Nakku by surprise - she was not expecting that.
  

• "Mere naam ka mangalsutra peheney wali ko pata hona chahiye - kisi bhi waqt usey mangalsutra torna parh sakta hai." - Dutta

• Dutta: As he said this, he was being TOTALLY realistic. There was no "dramatics" and no "exaggerations" involved. He knew this was true - he was just stating a fact (as hard as that fact might be). He was not saying to illicit a "shock" from the listener. He was saying it because he wanted Nakku to know that he KNEW what he was talking about - he wasn't ignorant of his life style and neither was he ignorant of how his life style affects other people.

• Nakku: The moment those words left Dutta's mouth, you could SEE on Nakku's face the intensity of that "sharp pain" that rose up in her chest. The thought of him being hurt enough for his "wife" to have to "break her mangalsutra" rendered her physically incapable of being her "understanding" self. Just for that moment, she did NOT like what he said - she did NOT approve of what he said and she definitely did NOT want to accept what he'd said - and you could see it on her face!
  

• "Mere aur maut k beech bauhat kum fasla hai - bauhat kum." - Dutta

• Dutta: He sounded like he'd accepted his "impending" doom as a reality of life now. Even the worst of worst men expect themselves to live forever - they get scared at the thought of "death". Yet Dutta is letting Nakku know that he's honestly accepted the fact that he could die any minute - you could see it in the compassionate/understanding way he tries to explain to Nakku just how deeply he understood the danger in his life. He wasn't being sarcastic and he wasn't sounding resentful of the danger - he just sounded like a man who KNEW what his end would be and he was okay with it.
  

• Nakku: She listens to him explain the gravity of the situation he's in and finally gains enough composure to look back at him with those pleading and pained eyes - like she was asking him "Is there ANYTHING I can do? Just tell me what I can do to stop this. TELL me, please!"
  

• Once having said that, Dutta turns to look at the box - it was time to open it. Yet he still pauses for a second to tackle some last minute doubts and prepare himself one more time. And then he lifts the lid to the box.
  

• Nakku looks at the revolver (I think that's what it's called) and almost INSTANTLY she knows what this is about - you can see the realization dawn on her as she lifts up her face to look at Dutta. She KNEW what this was about. *sigh* Something had Dutta distressed and all it took was one look for her to figure out why - have I mentioned I love these two? 😍
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• Now when Dutta finally gets to SEE the actual object - the revolver itself - he isn't reminiscent or disgusted. He's sad - just so extremely sad - for what it reminds if off and for what it symbolizes.

• Nakku can totally "feel" Dutta's pain - so much that you could actually see her holding her breath (as she was trying to bear it) - while Dutta tentatively reaches to grab the revolver.

• Dutta holds the revolver in his hands and brings it close - to really see this "thing" that had caused him so much pain and disgust. And as he does so, you can see him relive each moment with this revolver - he is looking at this "thing" that turned him into a monster and remembering with distinct clarity HOW monstrous he'd become.
  

• While Dutta's coming to terms with holding the revolver again, Nakku silently waits for him. She knows once he's ready, he'll talk - and when he does, she'll be right there for him. *sigh*
  

• "Dekh isey" - Such a simple sentence but it was said with SO much contempt. With a slight lift of his chin to point at the revolver, he asks Nakku to look at "this". Like he was asking her to "look" at something absolutely disgusting - something that should be looked at only to know what NOT to do. He hated that revolver - and he hated being associated with it. *sigh*

• "Is par laga hua khoon nazar ata hai?" - Dutta

• Dutta: He genuinely wanted to know her answer. He wasn't being sarcastic or mean - in fact a part of him wanted her to say "yes" (I thought so) so he knew he wasn't the only one who saw the "true" nature of this revolver!

• Nakku: She knows she needs to answer his question, but she's taken by surprise for a brief moment (like she wasn't expecting him to answer her a question this abruptly). And then she composes her self and lets him know what she sees - Nothing. And she's almost anxious as she answers him - like she's hoping that her answer is what he wants to hear too.

• "Mujhey ata hai." - Another very simple statement and yet it clearly explains how Dutta feels. Quite simply, he lets Nakku know once again that he "sees" the "blood" on that revolver - like he's telling her that he SEES his "real self" too. He knows who he is and what he looks like - he has NO misconceptions about himself.
  

• Dutta looks back at the revolver and he's reminded of something (old or new) that distresses him. So he looks away from the revolver (as if to physically block out the thought and prevent it from reoccurring in his mind) and then he gets up and walks around the table to the window - with the revolver in hand.
  

• Dutta "plays" with the cylinder as he thinks about the "bullets" shot and the people killed as a result of it - to me it signified what he felt. That he'd killed people like it was a joke - something insignificant in the "grand scheme of things" - and that's what his "playing with the cylinder" implied to me. But this could just be me. 😆

• When Dutta talks about his first victim, he starts off by being "angry" at him self - "You killed a man in front of his young son! He screamed in front of you as his father lay dead!". It was like he was accusing himself for being a monster. But in the very next moment, he's not the tormentor anymore - now he's tormented. By the young son's screams - like he can still hear that scream RIGHT NOW. And THAT is painful to him - to live with his mistake and mentally punish himself over and over again for 10 years. Dutta looked like he was in so much pain - I LOVED Mishal's acting for this part (For the entire scene really, but especially when he's talking about the scream echoing in his ears - that was mind blowing!).👏

• Nakku physically winces at the thought of Dutta killing someone in front of their young child - until she catches herself. It was as if that effected her just as much as it did Dutta - only Dutta has punished himself for the last 10 years and she feels the child's (and Dutta's) pain.
  

• Just as quickly as Dutta "felt" that pain, he reeled it back in and turned to face Nakku.
  

• Dutta asks Nakku again - Can she really not see the blood stains on his hands and on the barrel? Like the stains were CLEARLY visible to him and he was incredulous at the fact that she could not see them!

• And again Nakku softly shakes her head to disagree - again hoping that her answer is what Dutta wants to hear. But both times, before when he asked her if she could see the blood on the revolver and now again, she answered what she FELT was right - not what she thought he "wanted" to hear. She was in no way trying to win "brownie points" from him. She was just being honest with him and hoping that it was good enough (which it was!).
  

• "Ginti hi bhool gaya hoon main - itney logon ka khoon laga hai is par" - Did anyone else feel that Dutta was "ashamed" of having forgotten count of all the people he killed? Like he was embarrassed to admit it - and a little disgusted by the fact. Anyone? Umm... I did. 🤔

• Dutta hadn't deliberately walked over to the mirror - but when he did catch a glimpse of himself in the mirror, you could see his "anger" at himself. He angrily points at himself and tells Nakku to "ask this man" - his tone then changes to that of someone trying to "explain" a point. He walks up to the mirror and tries to "explain" to himself that his animosity wasn't with "everyone". It was like he was trying to make himself realize that some people died as collateral damage - for a moment it seemed like Dutta Patil (the man) was talking to Dutta Bhao (the reflection) and trying to convince Bhao how "wrong" he's been. And then Dutta "Bhao" replies letting Dutta Patil know that "ye dhanda hi aisa hai..." - that he couldn't change this.
  

• "Yahan goli par insaan ka naam nahi likha hota, Nakku - jo is sey takra gaya, ussi ki ho jati hai." - Dutta's trying to explain his helplessness in the matter. He didn't WANT to kill anyone innocent but he couldn't stop their deaths if they were in the crossfire. It's like he's desperately trying to explain to her (and himself) that he didn't mean to kill them - he really did - they were just at the wrong place at the wrong time.

• Dutta's reminded of all the innocent people he's killed and all the people he's injured irrevocably as a result of those deaths - and he closes his eyes to bear the pain and guilt that washes over him before he sits down.
  

• As Dutta sits down and lifts the revolver up to his face, while he's haunted by the "memory" of all the devastation he's caused. He's widowed so many women - and then he turns the barrel and places his on his forehead, because he deserves to die for what he's about to say next - and he's orphaned so many children. He is ANGRY at himself, DISGUSTED with him self and he is in excruciating pain due to the knowledge that HE did all that. For a second there he almost wishes he could pull the trigger but then decides that would be too easy a punishment for him.

• "Yehi hai Dutta." - He looks so DISGUSTED by who he's become. "This" guy, who widows women, orphans children and kill innocent men. THIS guy - it's him. And then he looks up to the "sky" and says "Dutta Bhao" - it was like he was implying that a name so "grand" that it demands fear ironically belonged to a man who is so "tormented" and "hurt" himself. He looked so vulnerable in that one moment - like he was pleading with the "powers that be" to help him out of this misery. To relieve him of such a grandiose name when he was in fact just a simple man. And then he lowers his gaze - as though he knows that his "pleads" will never be answered. And you can see him accepting his torment as his "punishment". *sigh* LOVED Mishal's acting here too. It was heart wrenching.
  

• And just like that, Dutta had accepted his "punishment" and was back to being "Dutta Bhao". I LOVED how smooth yet instantaneous that transition was - like Dutta had been experiencing this transition for the past 10 years (which he has been).
  

• The camera focuses on Nakku's face, and there is a stupid LOGO blocking her face?! SERIOUSLY!?!?!?! I want to SEE her face! Grrrrrr... 🤬

• Dutta "Bhao then gets up and looks at "Dutta Patil" in the mirror - "Dutta Shriram Patil" says the reflection, with such an "exhausted" face (like he's been tortured for "days" in those few moments). And then Dutta "Bhao" replies with a "smirk" - as though he was saying "You're one of 'us' now - there is no going back.". I LOVED how the creatives transitioned between Dutta "Patil" and Dutta "Bhao" to explain Dutta's internal struggle/torment. I really really loved it! 👏

• "Jab bhi koi jeeta jagta admi, lash ban kar dhair ho jata hai na - toh uski roh, aur uski chiekh... mere dil mein baith jati hai." - Dutta
  

• Dutta: He starts off with so much contempt in his voice when he talks about someone getting killing - like the idea repulses him even though it's his profession (or maybe because of it!). Yet he his voice becomes pained when he explains how the victim's souls and their screams become a part of his memory forever - he hates the murders and he's tormented by the victims screams/thoughts later. *sigh*

• Nakku: Ever since Dutta started telling her what's in his heart, she's been "hurt" for him. But now, when he tells her how EVERY victim torments him forever after their deaths - the pain gets too much to bear and she physically looks away to "block" it, if even for a moment.
  

• It's Dutta Bhao who takes a seat on the sofa - and it's Dutta Bhao who compares his heart to a dungeon filled with dead bodies. It's Dutta Bhao who had no remorse for what he's done in the past - because he knows that's the only way to survive in a "world" which is thriving on the "Jungle Rule" i.e. Kill or be killed. Everything about that "Dutta" on the sofa - from his posture to his words - screams "Bhao".
  

• When Dutta says "Main aisa hi hoon", Nakku almost seems to disagree with him - like she wanted to tell him "THAT is not who you are!". Like she knew he was so much more than that and she realized he was selling himself short.
  

• "Magar jaisa bhi hoon, sacha hoon." - Did anyone else think that Nakku totally admired Dutta in that instant? She wasn't "smitten" by him - she actually truely admired him for the man that he was. (As did I, if you must know! 😆)

• And when Dutta tells Nakku that he does NOT want to keep the truth from his "wife-to-be" - Nakku seems to finally and completely "understand" his point-of-view.
  

• Once Dutta's done explaining himself, he's at "ease" - and that is when his asks Nakku "Ab samajh mein aya?" as a sign to himself that he's finally explained as well as he could and there is nothing more he could say.
  

• "Ye mangalsutra, naach gana, karanji khilana - ye sab HAR larki ka sapna hota hai. Lekin mein tujhse poochta hoon Nakku, kya KOI bhi larki apne sapne mein, IS Dutta jaise kisi ko dekhti hai?"

• Dutta: He understands that girls have dreams - he understands that they have expectations with respect to their marriage. But what he really wonders about is, if anyone of them dreams of someone like "him" - if anyone of them dares to understand HIM? And even as he was asking the question, he knew the answer was "No" - "No, they don't." And then he shakes his head silently as a answer to his own question.

• Nakku: When Dutta first tells her that he wants to "ask her something", she looks eager to answer him - as though ANY chance she gets to "be there" for him is a chance worth grabbing with both hands. But once he asks the questions, she realizes that the answer is not something that would do justice to HIM - the question he asked was so partial because how he's "classified" himself is very "partial" according to her. He is NOT just a "don" and a "murderer" - he is SO much more and if only he'd give her a chance to explain THAT in her answer. She "searches" for a way to answer his question while still doing complete justice to him. Or so I thought. 🤔

• Now Dutta wants to know if Supriya even "understand" the meaning of marriage with him? Marriage doesn't just "end" at the wedding - where all the fun stuff from a girl's "dreams" (like singing,dancing and cooking karanji's happens!). It is much more than that - and Dutta wants to know if Supriya really understands that. Up till now, everytime we've seen Dutta think about Supriya, we've seen him think about her with respect to what she did to "prove" her "love" for him. But today we find out that Dutta doesn't even consider those "actions" as being capable of expressing an understanding of him. Just because she can sing for him, dress up (like a P.) and make karanjis doesn't mean she really comprehends the idea of marraige with him - and THAT is what he was trying to get her to understand downstairs. Picking mangalsutras in "fun" maybe and "enjoyable" - but the "right" mangalsutra doesn't constitute a successful marriage, the right understanding does. And that's what he wanted to tell Supriya.
  

• "Jab tak woh mere haathon par lagey khoon ko bardasht nahi kar paye gi - woh mere dil tak kaise pauhanche gi?" - Dutta
  

• Dutta: It was like he was asking Nakku if he was wrong in expecting Supriya to love him in spite of his faults and not by "ignoring" them. He wants to know that he is "lovable" the way he is or he'd rather not be "loved" at all.
  

• Nakku: She slightly nods as a reply to his question - as though she was telling him "I understand - I understand what you mean."
  

• "Kya woh mere ankhon mein chupe ansoo ko dekh paye gi?" - Dutta

• Dutta: He was almost "hopeful" when he asked that question - as though he was thinking MAYBE she'd be able to understand me and my pain? Maybe? *sigh*

• Nakku: Did anyone else notice how Nakku slightly smiles at Dutta's question - but it wasn't a "happy" smile. It was a "fake" (for the lack of a better word) smile that appears on your face when you're trying to give someone hope, only you know that it's not true. Does that mean she knows that Supriya's an idiot? 🤔

• Supriya: Rolls her eyes - like I said, she's an idiot! A man, your fiance, is talking about his apprehensions with this marriage and you ROLL YOUR EYES? DO it one more time, I dare you! Do it! See if i don't poke them out with my fingers! Phir karti rehna "roll"! 🤬

• "Mere dil ka dard samajh paye gi?" - Dutta sounds really "doubtful" of Supriya's ability to understand him and his pain - it was like as soon as he hoped about her understanding him (in the previous dialogue) he realized that she wasn't "capable" of it. He was almost daring Nakku to prove him wrong - but he knew she couldn't.
  

• Even now - while he's suffering from all this angst and torment - Dutta still has the compassion to care about someone else's feelings?! He doesn't want Supriya to get into a marriage that she isn't completely aware of and that she hasn't completely accepted? *sigh* Seriously, where can I find one!?! 😍

• WHY did Supriya come upstairs? Eaves drop karne? Aayi, baatain suni aur bhag gayi? I swear, this mavali and his pathetic habits are rubbing off on her. What was the REASON for her to wander upstairs? Koi tameez nahi sikhayi aayi ne? First she gets all "cozy" with her boyfriend in her fiance's house and then she eaves drop? 🤢 She deserves that abusive-cowardly mavali.
  

• When Nakku called Dutta, did anyone else think he was expecting her to criticize him? And then when she told him that he "thought" before he spoke, he almost looked surprised - like he was thinking, "Umm, sirf main nahi sab sochte hain..." 😆

• Did anyone else think that Dutta looked "endearingly" at Nakku when she accepted her "mistake" at having spoken without thought and out of place before? Like he found her ability to accept her mistake (even though she didn't do anything wrong according to him) heartwarming. In a world where he's surrounded by people who lie and cheat, he is amazed at her ability to be so honest in such a simple way - to the extend that if and when she thinks she did something wrong, she doesn't even hesitate to accept her mistake and apologize. Anyone..? So.. I did. 🤔

• Dutta touches Nakku on the shoulder:

• First reaction: OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!! *hyperventilates* OMGOMG! OMG!!!!!! *deep breaths*

• Second reaction: Did anyone else notice how Nakku held her breath as soon as she felt Dutta's hand on her shoulder? (*takes deep breaths to calm down*) She slowly turns her head to make sure Dutta's hand is really there and she isn't imagining things - and not to scare him off if it is there! And then once she realizes that he has indeed places his hand on her shoulder, she blinks once as an attempt to try and regain lucidity (I totally sympathize with her by the way! Dutta should not be "touching" people unannounced. Some of us are faint of heart! 🤣)

• I am going to go ahead and gifts the creatives a "crate of Pepsi too" - courtesy of thornewood9 and myself (thornewood9, adjust kar laingai baad mein! 😆). Why you ask? Because this is the FIRST time I've seen a "hero" make "contact" with a female without it being an accident (in which case they go the cliched gasp-you-touched-me-lets-have-an-eye-lock-with-a-circular-shot route) or without it being an intentional yet manipulative "contact" (in which case the guy knows he's going to make the girl go weak in the knee and he's just doing it to mess with her/corner her). Dutta touched Nakku because he GENUINELY wanted to assure her that what she said was never unwelcome. This is why when he touched her, he waited for her to be sure that he wasn't just being attacked by the "flailing-hands-syndrome" (Totally my invention! 😆 Hey! It's 3:00 a.m. and I'm writing this on 3 hours of sleep in 2 days. WHAT do you expect!! 😆). He patiently waits while she realizes that this wasn't a "mistake" - and then he lets her know that he appreciates her "truthful talks" that come from her heart. And the entire time he touched/spoke to her, he looked at her RIGHT in the eye (had she managed to look back at him!). He was not "ashamed" of what he did and he didn't have any "hidden agendas" - he just wanted to assure her and he'd look straight in her eye to let her know. *sigh* I love Dutta! And I love the creatives who gave him to me (us! 😆)!
  

• Did anyone notice Nakku finally take a deep breath as Dutta moves his hand - like she could finally "think" again? I did! Because that's when I took a deep breath too! 🤣

• "Tu mujhey janti toh nahi, lekin kuch kuch samajhti hai." - Dutta's almost amazed at this realization. Even as the words come out of his mouth, he realizes how true they are. And that pleases him a lot. He also realizes that that's why he "blurted" everything to her right now - and as soon as Dutta remembers what he'd just disclosed to Nakku, some of his happiness "evaporates". Like just the realization of that torment sends his happiness away. *sigh*

• Even when Dutta walked away with that finality in his step, Nakku didn't move. She wasn't going to move until Dutta told her she could leave. And once he did, Nakku slowly moves towards the table to get her tray and head out - all while Dutta stares out of the window.
  

• Did anyone else notice Dutta lower his head and steal a look at Nakku while she's getting ready to leave? And Nakku also trying to steal a glance back at him? I did! Unless I am seeing things now, due to sleep deprivation!🤣

• Duttwa walks over with the revolver and puts it back in the box. He closes the box and places it in the closet - slamming the closet door when he's done. He does NOT like that thing!

• Omg. Seriously? Trying to pataofy the Aayi to get to the son? Pathetic. Pathetic. Pathetic! 🤢 (directed towards Supriya)

• LOL! HOW slow is Nakku walking that Dutta, puts the revolver away and walks out - and during ALL this Nakku's just barely reached out the door? And he walks past her and down the stairs while she's still standing up there? 🤣 Supriya se seekho Nakku! Usko dekhna tha kaise P.T. Usha ban k bhagi thie abhi thori dair pehle! 🤣

• Nakku's totally distressed by Dutta's revelation to her - where as Dutta walks out like he's been living with this for the past many years (as he has). I loved how they showed the contrast between the two characters. Nakku just found out so she's still coping with the information - while Dutta just puts the revolver back and shuts the closet door, effectively closing that chapter for now.
  

• So when Dutta walks over to Aayi Sahib after she calls him over, who else went *swoon*? Except for me, off course... Because I totally did! 😍

• I LOVED Nakku's expressions when she thinks about being in Supriya's place and "washing off Dutta's blood stained hands with her tears". She seems so "hopeful" when she thinks about being in Supriya's place - but the minute she remembers Dutta's blood-stained hands and the pain/torment associated with it, she tries hard to hold back her tears. And then just as easily she smiles at the realization that she isn't "good enough" for Dutta - as though she was thinking "if only". ANd finally she accepts that she won't get Dutta's love but also accepts that she understands Dutta's pain completely - *sigh* I loved how somber she got at the thought of not getting to be with Dutta and at the realization of his pain. Fabulous expressions by Mahi, really! 👏

• Who else smiled with Nakku when she remembered the "touch"? Like no matter how much pain she was in, the fact that Dutta touched her made it all better. And then she turned to slowly touch her shoulder where Dutta had touched her - as though trying to feel his presence. *sigh* 😍

• I loved how Baji asked Nakku about Bhao - first he sounded "angry" but that was because he was displacing the rage from the phone call onto her. That's when he caught himself and got a little more "civil in his approach - "Bhai kidhar hai?" he asks. And when she still doesn't answer fast enough, he softly yet urgently asks "Arey kahan hai!?". I really liked that transition in the conversation! 😃

• When Nakku silently points down the stairs (as Dutta's location), I loved how flabbergasted Baji looked! "Arey, sala tension itna hai, aaj kal mere ko ghar mein hi log nahi dikhte!" I know it wasn't meant to be, but it was really heart warming to me - that even during all this "tension" he manages to revel in the little surprises.
  

• Nakku knows something is "wrong" and that is ALL it took for her to rush down the stairs after Baji. When just moments ago she was trying to "figure out" how to react to all this new information, now all she cares about is finding out WHAT happened - since it concerns Bhao! *sigh*

• The "Look" Dutta gives Baji when he hears that they've located "dhokebaaz Deshmukh" - Oh. My. Sweet. God. OMG! That totally looked like a "lion" who's tail someone had stepped on - it was "PISSED" and it was ready to kill! It took me a full 30 minutes to recover from that one - I kept replaying that "Look". OMG! ☺️ I think I might just send a "crate of Pepsi" (courtesy of thornewood9 and myself! 😆) to "dhokebaaz Deshmukh" too. He's been nothing but kind to me - first by shooting Dutta and giving us a chance to see Tasha together in the hospital and then at the Patil mansion (It IS because of him you know! If he hadn't shot Dutta, Nakku wouldn't have saved him!😆). And now it's because of him that we get to see the "Look". *sigh* ☺️ So... Shabz, could you get me THAT picture? *innocent muh* Pretty please?! 😆

• So I tried looking closely at Aayi Sahib's reaction to "dhokebaaz Deshmukh" information and honestly, to me she just looked like a mother who's heart just sunk to her feet because she realized that her son was going to be in danger. As soon as she heard about the "dD" (dhokebaaz Dekhmukh - not to be confused with Dancingdoll!😆) she knew Dutta would go - and that thought literally wipes the color off her face. But now that could just be me being the eternal optimist - I could be totally wrong here, but I'm going to wait and watch for that one! 😆

• "Bajirao!" - THAT was a "roar"! THAT WAS A "ROAR"! Seriously! It was! Please tell me I am not the only one who thought that was "roar".
  

• When Dutta called Baji, did anyone else think he totally looked at Dutta as though he was seeing this "side" of him for the first time? Baji had to pause and "look over" Dutta once to make sure he saw what he saw. I did!
  

• Right before Dutta shakes his head to indicate his disapproval for the idea of Baji (or anyone else) going, he looks at Baji as though he was saying "You should know better!" - at least that's what I saw. Now I could be totally wrong! 😆

• When Dutta said that he'd go alone EVERYONE skipped a breath - even Supriya (unless it's for show, which I'm not sure it wasn't!).
  

• When Aayi Sahib told Dutta that he won't go, did anyone else think that Dutta's expression said "Are you for real?! Did you NOT hear what Baji just said!?" Lol! I did! 😆

• Once Nakku realized Dutta was planning on going (alone), you would almost SEE her helplessness - first she practically yells out to him to not go. And then as she hears Dutta and realized that he really will go, you can see the worry and the despair creep down her face. *sigh*

• Dutta will NOT let someone else clean up his mess! dD has wronged HIM - no one else but him will set the record straight for that. There is just NO other way around it. And I LOVE it! I love that he has this strong sense of "personal" - if someone does something to HIM, HE makes them answer for it. Not his associates and not Baji. *sigh* 😍

• "Goli mari uska dukh nahi. DHOKEY sey goli mari, is ka ghussa hai!" - Dutta has always been one to keep "truthfulness" and "trust" before everything else (especially given how badly Seema had destroyed him). I LOVE how this dialogue explains his priorities - he isn't doing this for "revenge" because the guy attacked him. He is doing this because the guy CONNED him into an attack - it was stealthy and it was unfair. And THAT Dutta does NOT tolerate! (And I say KICK THAT dD from here to Timbaktu - as much as he's given me the "Look", I am sure this will return when More comes back! 😆)

• "Aur main dhokebazon ko nahi chorta" = "freaked out Supriya" Bwaaaaaahahahahahhahahahahaha! 🤣 Aur karo eaves dropping! Bataye ga tumhe Dutta! Tumhe bhi aur tumhare mavali ko bhi! 🤣

• I loved how Dutta closed his eyes - he was trying to be patient against his mother's (unfair) demands, according to him. He wanted to do this alone - but his mother insisted on taking Baji along! But what I loved even more was how he didn't argue with her - she asked him or rather told him Baji would go and that was it. The closest Dutta came to a retaliation was "closing his eyes and taking a deep breath". And when Aayi Sahib asked him if he wasn't going to listen to his mother, you could see that it was a lost battle - all he could do was whisper her name. She was making this hard for him - but he could not REFUSE her. So he finally looks at her with the expression that says "Fine, you win mother." and nods his agreement. *sigh* A don who pays attention to his mother's wishes? WHERE do I find one!
  

• Seriously? A guy is going for a gunfight and you are going to do your manipulating BS NOW? SERIOUSLY?! Yaar I am NOT a violent person (sans a few scenes where I totally love violence - they usually involve Dutta! 🤣) but this chick is driving me up the wall with her insensitivity! I hate people who are this selfish and obnoxious - kis cheez ka attitude hai mujhey samajh nahi aa raha! Na akal hai na shakal (she looks just as "good" as Nakku - in fact Nakku glows because she has a clean heart so she looks better! And do I even need to explain why she has no akal? She's with the mavali - enough said.) I do NOT understand k itni akar ki baat ki hai! How DARE you live in a man's house, eat the food he provides and sleep in rooms he provides and THEN wish him harm? HOW!? 🤬 And YES! You heard me right! I called her "chick"! And her man-boob mavali can be the rooster for all I care! 🤣

• Did anyone else notice how "surprised" Dutta was that Supriya was asking him not to go? It was really subtle but it was there - I think. I mean I saw it. 😆

• And then, I think he knew she wasn't genuine about it (that she was doing it to keep up appearances) - because he simply tells her nothing is going to happen to him. There was no assurance, no compassion - it was just a fact and he was letting her know. That's that.
  

• As Dutta's taking aashirwad from Aayi Sahib, he looks totally consumed by his rage - like he cannot think of anything other than dD , what he did to Dutta and what Dutta's now going to do to him!

• Did anyone else think that Baji turned and looked at Nakku - and saw her crying? I do! The eternal optimist shall prevail! 😆

• I know Aayi Sahib is the running candidate for being the "bad guy" but until she's not proven guilty I am going to say this - I LOVE this mother-son relationship. I love how she's worried for him yet she's still strong for him - she gives him her aashirwad and tells him he's going to be fine. She makes the right decision for him (like asking Baji go to with Dutta) when Dutta isn't thinking straight (in his rage). I really love that! 😃

• When Nakku calls Dutta, he looks a lot "softer" (as far as expressions go) than he did when Supriya asked him not to go - he really cares for her. And he understand that she is genuinely worried for him. *sigh* And Nakku, even though she has tears in her eyes, doesn't ask him to stop - she almost wills him to be okay. She looks like she's telling him "Be safe. And please come back home." *sigh* I LOVE how these two say so much with just ONE glance! *sigh* 😍

• Baji totally looks at Nakku before he follows Dutta out - like he was making sure she was okay as they left. I LOVE Baji - Nakku relationship! And I sort of miss it not being around as often. 😍

• Nakku watching the two most important men in her life (other than family) walk out the front door into danger - you could almost FEEL her pain, worry and fear. *sigh* I just wanted to give her a hug and tell her it will be okay!

• I loved how the camera shifted focus between Supriya and Nakku - like the creatives wanted to show the difference between the girl who's "supposed" to love Dutta and the girl who really does! The difference between what's fake and what's real. 😃

• And did anyone else think that Supriya noticed Nakku crying for Dutta? I did! And now I wonder what that means? 🤔

• And then this "chick" shamelessly smirks and wipes off her fake tears?! And was that an "eye roll" interrupted by the episode ending? *gets ready to poke Supriya's eyes out* LORD, give me patience - or I might commit murder today! I hate ungrateful and insensitive jerks! And she's quickly proving to be one! 🤬

• Speculating thing: So I was thinking, Dutta went out to take part in a prospective gun fight. The guy that he's fighting with has been in hiding for a while, but is finally "available" again. WHAT IF, this is More's doing? He found the guy and now he set this up to get Dutta trapped? And that's when our Koyal, who can't stay idle while Dutta's in danger so she obviously follows him, gets shot? Huh huh? Have I totally gone delusional due to sleep-deprivation or do you guys think there's a chance? It really occurred to me after Dutta did all the "getting shot" talk in his room with Nakku and then "coincidentally" he walks out to take part in a gun fight 10 minutes later? I don't know. That's what I think at least - but I could be wrong.
  

I told you guys this will be long! I am not even going to apologize today! 🤣 But I will offer free Pepsi - courtesy thornewood9 and myself! 🤣 And umm, this has gotten really long today and it's 4:40 a.m. here - I have to get up in about 4 hours for work - so I can't proof read it. Please just ignore my mistakes?! 😳 See you all in a few hours! 😆

Hey Fivr...I always knew this wud be a LONG one. Soon u will be needing more than one post for this. infact i thought this one wud be the one. I'll read and reply to this in the eveining.

I am still reading Fivr and I am already sweating 😉....Give me time....phewwwwww

Lovely Fivr.....From the moment Dutta started explaining to Naku, I felt that even though it began as an explanation of his earlier behaviour, he went into this introspection mode...like he just needed to voice his thoughts and feelings....all those feelings, emotions that he had carefully kept hidden through the years...They were finally getting a chance to come out.

wow such a lengthy writeup👏

Fivr 👏👏. OMG after reading your post its as if I went through those emotions all over again. Yesterday's episode was so intense and I was totally at loss of words.. just didn't know what to write.

Wow fivr...it waz a lovely detaild lengthy analysiz.....👏really enjoyd reading it yar...!

Okay I agree with EVERYTHING you said! Again I can't give a detailed reply cause I'm in the Library *Peers Around For Librarian*

Okay! First of all Dutta turning all Lion on us again? *Swoon*☺️
Man! *Aisha Fans Herself* How HOT was that??? Especially when he Roared! And yes it was DEFINATELY a Roar! This whole epsidoe was DUTTA all the way! *Dreamy Sigh*
The man is so complex! Still rivers really do run deep don't they? I actually did get teary eyed listening to him. The man has so much ANGST He's so strong, I mean he's carried all that pain and torment for ten years all by himself😭 How can he still remain so compassionate and loving? Dutta thinks his heart is dead but his words today proved that it isn't dead. His heart has been badly hurt, so hurt that it feels dead. But the right person is going to heal it and wake it up again. And Naku is doing that. Why else would he explain himself to her? He told her such a personal, such an intimate thing. He hasn't even told BAJI this. He trusts Naku enough to tell her and when he touched her he SHOWED that he trusts her, that he holds her highly in his esteem and he KNOWS that she will never betray him. His expression when he held her was one of compassion and endearment. Has he ever looked at Supriya like that? No he hasn't. Not even when he was thinking of her on the Terrace. I think Dutta is moving past the Friendship Phase😳 He's not Falling for her yet but he's moving towards that path😳

I loved how he said he doesn't let Dokhaybaz people go! Soon Loh Supriya!😡 Kaan khol kar soon loh!
I hated her today. ABSOLUTELY LOATHED her😡 I swear to God! The girl is an IDIOT. There Dutta was expressing his heartfelt feelings to Naku and she's bloody rolling her eyes???😡
And then the icing on the cake was the way she faked those tears and rolled her eyes at the end! I want Dutta to be angry at her again this girl has forgotten what FEAR she felt when he was angry at HER😡 I think she needs reminding!🤬

Okay this Deshmukh guy is the guy who ambushed Dutta when he saved Naku right? Hmm... I think there's something there... but I can't think WHAT. Will come back to that.

Ah yes! I justsaw the Promo. Mawali is telling Idiot that the person who sent him wants Dutta to fall so in love with Supriya that he can't bear it when she leaves him.
😲
Guys? It can't be Aayi. If it is then My God the woman is EVIL. It's not Dutta. Kaala? Is she really that Evil???
I think it's Seema. 😡 I think she's come back. GOD!😡
I mean who ELSE could it be???
*Ponders*

What else? I hope Dutta doesn't get hurt Or if he does I hope we don't have to see Supriya tending to him😡 I don't think Naku is gonna get shot yet.... It seems to soon... of course if she gets shot AND Dutta gets hurt they;ll have to postpone the Wedding right? So that'll mean that article that said "Dutta will fall for Naku during the Wedding Preperations" is TRUE.
Hmm. But then that article also said Naku will get hurt while MOREY is there😕
Maybe Morey has teamed up with Deshmukh???
God I hope not

Aisha xxx😉