Naps re...why do u do this to me?....i mean what just what can i reply here?...where should i find the damned words to express what this is making me feel...so soooooooo man feelings so many emotions ALL AT ONCE...its insanity....its just insanity...i mean i want to say so so so many hings but i just don't know what to say where to begin where to end....
these aren't just fifty reasons naps..but this is the whole WHOLE AY journeey...eveyr moment a new destination of life of love...and u can actually actually feel them journeying travelling growingggggg....her reason her moment main koi story chupi hai..i dunnno...its like a flowing river...jab se i had read mads ke yeh reasons i i was too too choked to even begin imagining moments on them...coz u know d best part..every every reason can resemble the ENTIRE ay journey and not merely one moment...so i know naps i know how difficult this might hav bene for u..i mean what might i SAW how freaking hell hard you worked for this..perhaps this is the mix which took the longest time ever...but naaaaaaps wne i first saw it i felt omg OH MY GOD JUST OH MY GOD...i just had no word to express i had no words i still don't have wordssss but i can never NEVER forget the feeling i got when i saw it for d first time ever it filled me with FREAKING PRIDE i meann i was so soooooooooooooooooooooo filled wid pride ki i felt i felt i wld explode...pride for ay for you for myself to be watching this feeling this...pride in d fact that THEY are my definition of love...omg naps...i dunnoooooooooooo..it is just inexplicable....as u always sya naps some things some feelings can't ever be expressed..this feleing which i am getting on every every consequent watch...THIS is the feleing which just can't be expressed naps...but i hope badly badly fiercely fiercely hope ki u somehow know what am feeling ki somehow u feel my my gratitude my thank you wale whispers mer badi badi wali ninnuish huggggggy which is just wanting to crush u in a bear bear hug and say ninnnu i love youuuuuuuuu am proud of youuuuuuuuuuu and yes ninnu let me say it let me just say thank u this one time for creating this...its not a mix u have given nins....its its i dunno what
i swear i dunno what to say yaar its so so so so sooooooooo sooo COMPLETE...am feeling as if no words ca ever do justice to this naps EVER....throughout the mix i had this unbelievable wala feelinggg as if as if i couldn't freaking believeeee what am seeingggggggggg what am feelinggg...i couldn't believelove was this pure THIS PURE THIS THIS THIS PURE..it was as if for the first time ever am realizing the true meaning of loveeeeeeeee
and some moments toh some moments tooooh just straight away hit my soullllllllllllllllllllllll...it so so soooooooooooooooo did...i mea don't ever expect me to to define what i felt in these moments
'and at all other times your smile is the reason i know i will always be ALRIGHT"OMG...i dont have words..i so dont have...i never expected u to use this scene but still this is THE moment which is not a moooooooment naps its not a moment its THEM its THEM its HIM for HER..and the freaking beauty is its not them in any particular phase its them ALWAYS in every phase of theirs of hers she NEEDED his smile to be alright...OMG...be it their silent friendship wala phase be it yamini phase be it their dating phase OR BE IT NOW NOW...after bet after three promises wala phase,,,OMG....omg omg omg..naps I LOVE YOUUUUUU..u don't know what just what u have created in this moment...
i mean..who ever who so ever thought in second season theirlove was't shown or it was just he loving her and her feelings weren't shown or there was no pain and blah blah blaah THEY so damned need to just see this moment written on those words....damn it..yes she was happy agter their so called break up she was happy she was living and not wasting her life whining and crying away n a small corner...she was instead beaming..yuppppppppp//she was BEAMING...GLOWING.and you know the freaking reason for her glow her beam her happiness ???????...HIM...AND HIS LOVE..damn lov never left her heart her soul it glowed like an undying flame widin herrrrrrrrrrr...a flame jiska light lay in his smileeee...she was happy coz he was happy...he so was happy..and h was wid her..what else could she ask for?....haan ager woh khush nahi hota..if he had shown her how broken he is without hertoh shayadwoh kab ka toot chuki hoti..but damn he wasn't broken..coz he was complete there was no reason to fele sad to fele bad to fele as if d world has ended..are hetoh was busy thanking god ki he has a life woh life jiska her moment he wants tospend in looooving her...and coz he was so happy so at peace even she got a reason to be happy to liveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and to go on hoping for him for them...geee..i dunnnno....i mean i just dunno..yahaan pe he was not happy he was regretful he was sad he was missing their good old days he had gone back into time pahli baar in months he had talked abt love...and she knew he was not happy she knew she was not fulfilling his desire his dream...but damn she wanted him to be happy she wanted him to know ki aaj bhi they r together in whatever way whichever form...aur jab tak he didn't understand that..she just oculdnt be herself...damn just see the way she is smiling to herself wen he leaves..don't u think she freaking knows how much he loves herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr???...don't u think she freaking knows then how much she herself loves him??..she KNOWS IT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL....she knows it all yaar but she also knows right now its not the time..but time or no time she needs to feel his smile his happiness his peaceee to SURVIVE .TO FIGHT...TO GO ON...TO KEEP TRYING..TO KEEP LOOKING...sh NEEDS him to be happy not for his sake but FOR HER OWN SAKE coz in his happiness lies her whole freaking meaning of lifeee...its like just the fact ki he is happy makes her life worth living gives her the courage to go on living...gee i dunnnno
i can never sum what this moment means to me...NEVER....and its YOU and Mads ka words that hs made this moment so freaking sacred...u uys have made this moment THE moment yaar where u realize ki omg just how selflessly she loved him..ki how she NEVER stopped loving hi..ki how not loving him was not an option for her..ki how no matter what happens...oe thing one feeling and one person would just be d same damned thing for her..and thats him and her love for him..nothing can snatch it from her...this was something which was just hers it always was it always will be only and only HERS...its like maktub for her...her reason her identity her destiny...goh guys..thanx for creating this moment...thanx isn't even enough to express my feelings yaar..nothing no words r enough...just no words
and i know there r many many more moments i have to talk abt but damn naps am just too tooooooo choked to go o right now...wld be back...wen i manage to find my voice again...
Edited by FollowYourHeart - 15 years ago