now hello guys
all my armaan lovers
well i was thinking that if u would have been at armaan place.......while going all through this what would be your thinking............as till now armaan has not come so we don't know he will react it
so i want to know your thinking
i have kept my self at armaan place.........and i felt this
i know it's too long guys but please read it
ARMAAN SITUATION
while sitting on a chair holding riddhima's photo in his hand and crying silently.........the room is covered in dark so that no one can see his tears.........he says riddhima's (in wishper tone) and closes his eyes.
thinking
i am sorry riddhima ........i am sorry for coming in your life,i don't deserve u.I have always hurt u,becoz of me u have always suffered.I have given u nothing accept pain and loneliness.I am sorry for every thing.Whenever u were with me,u have got only trouble.DR.SHASHANK WAS RIGHT I curse the day when i came to your life but at same time I feel proud and blessed that u came in my life,i fell for u,i loved u,u r my life but unfortunately my life is not with me.........i left my life for her life.I am away from u but still my heart beats for u ,till my last breath i will love u.MY last breath........it would have happen that day if Rahul........yes rahooool wouldn't have stopped me.He took promise from me that i will do such things again to end my life.YES i am with rahul since the day i left sanjeevani........he was their,he had heard every thing what dr.shashank was saying to me.HE was out side of my room.......he heard dr.shashank saying that becoz of me riddhima is in this condition........i am not good for her.........i have always troubled her.When he came inside i don't know.......becoz after listening to dr.shashank word i was numb,could not think any thing can't react,i could only feel my life was going away.........and i could not do any thing to stop it.MY riddhima was going away from me.I don't know what happened ,what happened between dr.shshank and rahul........as i reacted when rahul jerked me......i could only see dr.shashank moved out in anger and rahol was too angry.Rahool was saying to me some thing but i could only think about whatever dr.shashank had said to me.Riddhima.......how is she.....she is till in ICU as dr.shashank said.I ran towards ICU rahul was with me........no one was their in the way......i reached to ICU.........i saw my riddhima lying lifeless........and it's all becoz of me,i am responsible for every thing.I went inside.........sat beside her i didn't wanted to think of asny thing right now but dr.shshsnk word's were echoing in my ears......i just wanted to see my riddhima.I can't put her life in danger and becoz of me this all has happened.........yes i am only responsible for every problem in her life.that's it.I have decided......i'll go.....i'll go away from her life at least after this she will be safe.BYE RIDDHIMA i kissed her forehead .........our last touch.I stood and walked out.Rahool stopped me and asked that why am i doing this....i won't be able to live without riddhima.I just looked at him and he understood it becoz he did also same thing for love of his life........he left muski for her better life.We came to my house without meeting anyone.......i didn't wanted that any one should come to know about all this.I came in my room and the only thing i could i feel was Riddhima presence......i was lost in her thought,i came back to reality when i saw rahool packing my bags.I didn't question him becoz he knew i won't stay here now,It's funny.......the 2 person who never liked each other so much were now understanding each other without saying a word.Rahul took me with him......after emotional blackmailing session........i agreed becoz he was doing every thing for me......and i didn't had guts to break one more heart.We left the city forever......leaving those memories which are my life now......and to whom i will never forget.around 2 months......i never stepped out of my room.........but that moron rahul and stepped in and forced me to start my life again by blackmailing with BI name.........BI the only person i have in my life after rahul........they both were with me through all this.and i could never say to BI.by all this time rahul and i have become very close frnds,we had our INTERNS exam after one month.well now we both are officially senior doctors.DR.ARMAAN MALIK a CARDIOLOGIST..........a doctor treating others heart who's heart has stopped beating.DR.Rhaul a very good NEURO SURGEON.
I am away from u riddhima but i could not stop my self from........knowing about u.I havd promised dr.shashank that i'll never come in front of u........but Rahul again helped me in this.......he always told me about u........when i heard u won't be able to walk again........i never belived that becoz i knew my RIDDHIMA never give up........and u proved me right.u came back riddhima with your full confidence.i am very happy u have joined sanjeevani again.........now u will hate me more.i deasrve this.TODAY 1 year has passed to that incident which had changed our life.tommorow i am coming back RIDDHIMA coming back to sanjeevani........being a doctor my patients are my first priority.........they are more important than my personal life.i don't know how will i manage but please hate me riddhima so that i can face u..........don't ever call me back riddhima.
this was my thought ..........i know quite long but please do read and please do tell what u would have feel if u would have been at armaan place