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Guys.....Not that I am at all in favor of Sam's character as of now....but today....seeing him standing outside the hospital room...all alone.....hiding himself...from the family...made me feel a lil bit for him...so thought of this post..............But dis Guy gonna have a hard time .....n Avni.....btwn...I am improvised his feelings 4 Avni part a little bit...
Sameer's POV::
Nd the time stood still.....he looked at the mirror......yeah ...its him... only him........but still the reflection looked very blurred to Sameer.....something was not very clear to Sameer.......what's going on........is it only that he has laid the very first ground of the destruction...the destruction of Ila Gujral n her family.....is it only that hez the first one to hurt them....as he promised his brother.....but then.....why...why is he hiding.....hiding from himself.....why aren't the three brothers together celebrating the success of their grand plan....why is his hands trembling to pick up his brother's calls.....why is he feeling so lonely.......why does he look to b a stranger to himself.........why is he scared to look into the eyes of his semi-conscious mother....even when its only bcoz of her that they have become so desperate........................all the answers remained unknown to him.....
For some unknown reasons.....he started defending himself.......his mind and soul were completely contradicting each other........wasn't it that they were supposed to take revenge from the family.....ruin them beyond repair.....then why does his heart ache thinking of the poor girl Avni....why did I need to use her.....I just used her.....But.....wait.............Isn't Prithvi Bhaiyya using Damini.....even hez on the same tract..........he wants to make them weaker economically....and I made them weaker emotionally.....its all a part of our game....yhhh....v had planned it.........v had planned it...didn't we......then why does every time Prithvi bhaiyya blames me for doing anything in favor of our plan.....I married her...n bhaiyya went furious....but I had to do that in order to get close to Avni...n Ila aunty........I had manipulated each n every action of mine.....still bhiayya thinks that chote is more responsible than me....after all hez playing the safest game......dealing with files n papers.....n for that u don't need to paly with one's emotions.....its just a strong employee-employer relationship which chote had to establish.....n even hez doing the thing of his own interest.....he just loves to work...........n moreover......Its me...who was always there to support him.....even it was me again...who made Ila gujral realise that Prithvi bhaiyya shd b married to Damini................n still my brothers think...dat I am not trust worthy.........when all of us r playing the same game.....then...why its always me at the receiving end..................why...?????
Its all because of Avni.......why isn't she that strong........why does she melt each time I touch her.....why does she have to b all shy n coy.....why is she not as headstrong as her other sisters.....she got me wrong.....every time....whenever I have thought about hurting her.....I feared....feared that she won't be able to live if I betrayed her.......n each time her love...her concern...her innocence.....has pulled me towards her..............May b that wasn't the ripe time for me to marry her......I was her best friend....n Ila aunty trusted me......but somewhere in my heart...even I wanted to posses her.....Lying.....I thought...I was lying her.......but no....!!!!!!!! I was lying myself.........Ilove her.....love her very much....den ....why did I do that to her......why in that fit of impulse I denied the fact that I married her....that I am the father of that unborn baby....why did I turn my back to my responsibilities......Ahhhhggg!!!!! I am a damn loser.....I have no control on my mind....the game of truth n dare....lies n love...have confused me soo much.....I am losing it...
Sameer's POV::
Nd the time stood still.....he looked at the mirror......yeah ...its him... only him........but still the reflection looked very blurred to Sameer.....something was not very clear to Sameer.......what's going on........is it only that he has laid the very first ground of the destruction...the destruction of Ila Gujral n her family.....is it only that hez the first one to hurt them....as he promised his brother.....but then.....why...why is he hiding.....hiding from himself.....why aren't the three brothers together celebrating the success of their grand plan....why is his hands trembling to pick up his brother's calls.....why is he feeling so lonely.......why does he look to b a stranger to himself.........why is he scared to look into the eyes of his semi-conscious mother....even when its only bcoz of her that they have become so desperate........................all the answers remained unknown to him.....
For some unknown reasons.....he started defending himself.......his mind and soul were completely contradicting each other........wasn't it that they were supposed to take revenge from the family.....ruin them beyond repair.....then why does his heart ache thinking of the poor girl Avni....why did I need to use her.....I just used her.....But.....wait.............Isn't Prithvi Bhaiyya using Damini.....even hez on the same tract..........he wants to make them weaker economically....and I made them weaker emotionally.....its all a part of our game....yhhh....v had planned it.........v had planned it...didn't we......then why does every time Prithvi bhaiyya blames me for doing anything in favor of our plan.....I married her...n bhaiyya went furious....but I had to do that in order to get close to Avni...n Ila aunty........I had manipulated each n every action of mine.....still bhiayya thinks that chote is more responsible than me....after all hez playing the safest game......dealing with files n papers.....n for that u don't need to paly with one's emotions.....its just a strong employee-employer relationship which chote had to establish.....n even hez doing the thing of his own interest.....he just loves to work...........n moreover......Its me...who was always there to support him.....even it was me again...who made Ila gujral realise that Prithvi bhaiyya shd b married to Damini................n still my brothers think...dat I am not trust worthy.........when all of us r playing the same game.....then...why its always me at the receiving end..................why...?????
Its all because of Avni.......why isn't she that strong........why does she melt each time I touch her.....why does she have to b all shy n coy.....why is she not as headstrong as her other sisters.....she got me wrong.....every time....whenever I have thought about hurting her.....I feared....feared that she won't be able to live if I betrayed her.......n each time her love...her concern...her innocence.....has pulled me towards her..............May b that wasn't the ripe time for me to marry her......I was her best friend....n Ila aunty trusted me......but somewhere in my heart...even I wanted to posses her.....Lying.....I thought...I was lying her.......but no....!!!!!!!! I was lying myself.........Ilove her.....love her very much....den ....why did I do that to her......why in that fit of impulse I denied the fact that I married her....that I am the father of that unborn baby....why did I turn my back to my responsibilities......Ahhhhggg!!!!! I am a damn loser.....I have no control on my mind....the game of truth n dare....lies n love...have confused me soo much.....I am losing it...
