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As the breathes were fast,
A
s the floor was cold, As the night was cruel,
As the stars were laughing,
As the mind was filled with countless images,
As the past was running away,
As the present was not helping,
As the future stood there with a blank face,
As the tears came down...
I saw you.
Half of my heart cried to hold you,
Half of my mind sceamed to push you away,
The war of my heart and mind,
Left me broken like a little china doll,
Left me broken like a little china doll,
Then I saw you coming towards me.
Through tears...
"No....don't come close to me."
I plea, you disregard this,
It's not your fault, it's just your nature,
You always disregarded me,
You played with me,
You played with my heart,
You played with my life.
"Go away..."
You walk towards me...
And I can't do anything,
I am helpless,
Everything that was mine, I gave it to you,
And everything that you gave me,
They disappeared after I see you walking away in my mind,
I want to curse you,
I want you to realize the pain that I am going through,
But alas,
I am not even capable of doing that.
Through tears,
I saw you next to me,
"I am sorry, I wanted to tell..."
Your words hang in the air,
Maybe because you realized just how hollow they are,
You look away as I stare at you,
My little sob breaks the eternal silence between us,
Through tears,
I sigh.
Through tears,
I ask you to go away.
Through tears,
I wish.
Through tears,
I wish.
Through tears,
I wish all the happiness in the world to be at your feet.
Through tears,
Through tears,
I smile at my own weakness.
Through tears,
I realize you looking at with that concerned face of yours.
Through tears,
I explain.
"It's the shortest amount of time when I have accepted the truth, thanks to you. Just go away, before you start making it hard for me.
It's okay for you to laugh at me, because even after you completely ruined my life, I still can't say anything bad to.
You gave me smiles, that were so beautiful.
You gave me tears, that are never-ending.
And through these never-ending tears, I plea.
Please, never come back to remove these tears like you always used to do."
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A very little (crappy) poem written through Avni's POV when she finds about Sameer's truth. I can't help it! Ever since the marriage track, my thoughts are occupied by what will happen next! And yeah, I was extremely sick and tired that I can no longer write the after episode feelings because the timings of the show are not matching with my life! GAH! Stupid stupid stupid stupid cable wala....I seriously hate him. But that's another track.
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Kisses,
Maisooma.
Anupamaa
