The way Ru sat and cried in that room remembering Ro's broken promise made me create this post.
Ru told Abhir “ his mother is responsible for every storm in her life”. In a way ru was not completely off the mark with that statement though Abhir hasn't grasped up the severity of that accusation.
Ak always wanted to look mahaan and she never regretted her actions. If questioned she used to pack and run. She was a woman of theory and not action. And her need to look mahaan cost ru her father's love even before she was born.
Ak never regretted that decision and asked manyu what is her galti in rushing to a dangerous place with a complicated pregnancy and an inexperienced Neil. She ran away, got AA and never turned back. That storm in Ru's life was withered by Manyu who fostered her as his own. Popy ki princess. I would say the best years of Ru's life was when she was manyu's princess.
Ak came back, along with it came the truth of Abhir being her popy son. Her plan of seeing popy and her matashree together was aborted. Nevertheless she accommodated Abhir in her life and they became cousins cum best friends and continued to be Popy ki princess.
Then came her matashree death. Something she knew somewhere she was responsible, but the child in her accused ak for not saving her mother. It was a child's anger, a 6 year old traumatized kid who needed support and love. Again ak decides to pack and leave. Abhir goes away telling he hates her and her popy chooses ak, abhir and goes with them.
The child who needed support to accept truth and come back to normal life was left forlorn and in perpetual fear that ppl will leave her as she is bad.
From there the ru of s4 us born, who hold on to ppl she cares for as she is afraid. Because MG never made her feel secure. He mourned loss of ak now and then,made it look like because of ru he is not calling ak back, while never trying to alleviate the child's emotional pain.
Ru grows up feeling an unwanted burden G family has to carry. Nevertheless we see her taking care of her elders and supporting MG in his business at the beginning of S4. Then she meets ar, who promises her he will not love another woman. But when ru admits her mistake of misunderstanding him and ask him to come with her he chose pride over her love. A rule that he didn't apply with ab.
Ru marries ro and is forced to see ar coming with ab who tells her his marriage with ab is deal of a year. Meanwhile ro leaves her knowing her affair with ar. So ru waits believing on the promise of ar he will come to her. Unfortunately that promise gets broken ar loves ab, ditches her in mandap and walks away.
Ru comes back, try to help family by creating jewellery designs. But ro comes back and she goes back to P house to try and claim ar once again. She fails, realizes her mistake, reconciles with ro and start a new life.
But once again truth of ab comes and she starts feeling insecure as ppl give over importance to ab and in a moment of weakness put her life and child life in risk.
Ab gives injection that save child, ru goes in coma and ro gives child to ar ab. Ru mourns the child.
Then comes Abhir, who gives her child back and protects her from certain suicide. Him coming back changes ru a lot, her brother doesn't hate her brings a lot of confidence in her and she becomes the butterfly she once has been. Even stops calling ak murderer.
But fate was not done with her. She decides to tell the truth of her cheating Ro to marry Ar and start on a clean slate and she confesses the same to him in hospital fervently seeking forgiveness and telling he is her love now.
But her worst fears gets manifested that if she speak her truth people will leave her, kyunki ru buri hai, ro leaves her with another set of broken promises.
Now she sits in that room forlorn, alone, carrying ab ka armaan in her womb. As her surrogate, not even grieving properly, doing activities as demanded by her pregnancy as she has to deliver the child for her sister.
A young widow forced to watch couple romance in next room, does she deserve this?
A single woman who doesn't know fate has kept the biggest blow for her in its vault that her husband have actually pawned her as he gave away their child to ar.
Most importantly still the little girl in whose lives every man had chosen someone over her. Her dad, popy, MG, ar and ro. Her dad chose his bhabhi, popy his love, MG ak mausi now and then. Ar ab and ro his bhabhi.
Even her brother chose her sister over her for her engagement.
She craves for that elusive love, to be important in someone's life , whose first choice will be she.
And seeing her sitting in that room I too want to ask the question we have seen enough of ak ka kanha, where is ru ka kanha. Does he exists? If he exists when he will play the sweet notes of his flute.
Her life needs some colors and ❤️
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