Quick update this week - in a day- which is unheard off if you know anything about me - before real life catches up. I lose inspiration very quickly and am notorious for procrastinating, so I'm trying to update the FF before I have to give up on AbhiRa too.
Hope you find this update a little more light-hearted.
P.S: Not proofread.
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C H A P T E R 2 B
The ride back home was silent. Thankfully Parth took the reins and drove them back as all the others sat and tried to process all the new tumultuous relationships.
Akshara was Naksh Singhaniaâs niece. Named after his mother - Akshara Singhania nee Maheshwari. Daughter to Vishambharnath Maheshwari.
Harsh ran his fingers through his hair, sighing out loud. His son had gone and fallen for the daughter of two very powerful families, one of whom was now investing millions into their hospital. Any step or misstep would send their carefully built hospital to shambles. He stared as his son sat on the passenger seat, barely noticing anything. He seemed to be in his own thoughts. He sighed again as Anand looked at him and silently asked him to maintain his peace.
Theyâd barely gotten out of the car, when Abhi made his way to his motorcycle.
âWhere are you going, Abhimanyu?â
Not paying any of them any attention, he got onto his ride, as he slipped on the helmet.
âIâve got an errand to run.â
âWe need to talk, Abhi.â
Abhimanyu rolled his eyes. âThe time for you to talk to me passed when you were hurling abuses at the woman I love.â
Harsh felt his brother pull him into the house but his eyes were fixed on his son, riding away on his trusted vehicle. His eyes followed him till he disappeared out of sight. And out of his hands.
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Akshara groaned as she woke up. Her head still seemed heavy - as though she was going through a bad hangover. She opened her eyes and stared at the ceiling, trying to get her bearings back. She remembered falling down, she remembered having a panic attack and thenâŚ.Abhimanyu?
She sat up with a start, and gulped down a shout as a voice said, âYouâre awake? Feel fine?â
It was then that she noticed Keerti bua sitting on the couch, perusing a magazine with her eyes on her.
She nodded while her aunt gave her a glass of water from the side table. âStill donât want to talk about it?â
âIâŚ.Talk about what?â
âHow stupid on a scale of 1 to you-just-had-a-panic-attack-because-you-saw-your-old-flame, do you think I am, Akshara?â Keerti asked her sardonically.
âHeâs not an old flame,â was Aksharaâs neat response.
âAh. Current flame, then?â
âNo flame. Not even an ember, Bua. HeâŚhe was here, then? I wasnât dreaming?â
âNope. Although I do wonder if all your dreams are like that. Must be some hallucination if you think you dreamt up an entire panic attack.â
âBuaaaa.â
âAkshuuuuu.â
Keerti took a seat in front of her niece. âWhat happened, Akshara? Weâve given you ample time to come to terms with whatever went down in Goenka house. But seriously, how bad were things that youâre having panic attacks due to a boy?â
Akshara put her head on Keertiâs lap and looked at her Naniâs smiling face on the wall. âIt wasnât due to him. It was due to some bad memories.â
âRelated to Arohi?â
On not getting a reply, Keerti gently swept her hand through Aksharaâs hair. âBeta, itâs good to love your family. Great to love your siblings. But at what cost, Akshu? Your sanity? Your happiness? Your love?â
âOne day or the other, youâll have to face your demons, Akshu. And I saw the way he looked at you. When you were having the panic attack, it looked as though someone was drowning his puppies in front of him, one by one, while he had to watch it sitting on a hot bed of coals all the while solving a nuclear physics question.â
âQuite an imagery, Bua,â Akshara snorted, and added, âI donât know about love. HeâŚhe rejected Arohi. Because of me. How do I even think of him that way?â
âItâs a hard situation, beta. Iâm not going to lie that it isnât. But if you think you donât already love him, that you have a choice in matters of love, youâre deluding yourself.â
âYou think I love him?â
Keerti smiled as Akshara got up and leaned against the headboard. Ah, young love.
âItâs not about what I think. Itâs more about that fact that you almost tore off his shirt when he tried to leave.â It took all of Keertiâs will power to not laugh while Akshara grimaced as the memory of hanging onto his shirt made its way to the forefront.
âCome down for dinner in a few minutes. But remember one thing, honey - heâs still waiting for you. After everything that happened, he knew you were in trouble without even knowing you were here. Thatâs not a connection everyone is lucky to get. And if you let him go again, maybe this time he wonât wait. Donât tempt fate that way, Akshu."
Keerti left the room while Akshara pondered over her words. Then a sudden thought went through her head and she groaned. Burying her head into the pillow, she let out a smothered shout.
âI told him I dreamt about kissing him. I. Am. Such. An. Idiot. â
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Naksh looked at the young man sitting in front of him. Accomplished. Successful. Ambitious.
As Abhimanyu sat in front of him and told him his side of the story, Naksh kept his expressions neutral, trying to judge the man who was in love with his niece. Impatient. Loud. Brash.
Nothing like a man Naksh would have picked for Akshara. Or even imagined Akshara would pick for herself.
But there was something about the earnest manner the young man conducted himself in. Naksh recognised the desperation in his words and actions - here was a man who had already lost the love of his life and had no way out of the pits of his despair.
Abhimanyu looked back at Aksharaâs uncle. His text asking him to meet him had come a few minutes after they had started their journey back home. It had felt like an oasis in his desert of angst. But now, as he recalled all the things that had gone down, he felt the same blanket of hopelessness shroud him again.
A few moments of silence passed before Naksh responded. âWell, itâs a toss up between you both on who the bigger idiot is.â
Abhimanyu frowned at Naksh as he gave his opinion. âExcuse me?â
âDo you know how rare it is to find the kind of love you have? And youâre both playing footsie with it.â
At Abhiâs forlorn expression, he added, âLook. I know you donât want to hear this. But the fact is that you screwed up. You knew that Akshara is blinded by her family, and you hurt her right there. Obviously sheâs going to run in the opposite direction, Dr. Birla.â
âSir, IâŚ.you donât have any idea how guilty I am about everything that happened. But what was I supposed to do? I couldnât go through with the wedding after knowing the truth behind the fire and Aksharaâs accident. For a moment, even if I wanted to forgo my own wishes, I couldnât get married after knowing the truth - what kind of life would we have had in our marriage?â
âThat didnât strike you before you asked to marry Arohi?â
When Abhimanyu didnât come up with an answer, Naksh sighed. âIâm sure you want to forget the past, Dr. Birla. What you donât realise is that Aksharaâs entire life revolves around the past. Letâs not even go there. You say that you love her. And against my better judgement, Iâm inclined to agree with you.â
âBut, Abhimanyu, how much do you know about her?â
Abhi interjected, âWith all due respect, Sir, I know all there is to know about her. I know things about her that I donât even know about myself.â
âYou know her, Abhimanyu. I can see that. How to calm her down. What sheâs feeling at a moment. What hurts her. Iâm not denying that. But what do you know about her?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âThereâs a difference between knowing someone and knowing about someone. Akshara Singhania Goenka is a very easy person to love, Dr. Birla. Sheâs sweet, altruistic, and is far more accomplished than people give her credit for. But sheâs plagued by nightmares you and I cannot even fathom. Youâre a surgeon, right? You are taught to go to the root cause of peopleâs disabilities. Your love, all these feelings, your care can probably be the symptomatic treatment of Aksharaâs problems; but her wounds run deep, Dr. Birla. And till you get to the root of her problems, you can have no chance in winning her over. â
Abhimanyu thought over his words, âYou mean the cause behind her panic attacks? Or Arohiâs behaviour towards her? Why she lied?â
âThereâs a lot you donât know about Aksharaâs past. Sheâs conditioned to be the way she is through years of continuous judgement and trauma. And Iâm not at the liberty to disclose her trauma to you, Abhimanyu.â
âI know Akshara, I can tell you that she mirrors your feelings if nothing else. But if you really love her, really want her in your life, you have to get her to open up to you. And Iâll warn you that the road to it, isnât going to be easy, Dr. Birla.â
There was a gritty determination in Abhimanyuâs eyes as he heard that. The fact that Aksharaâs eyes carried a pain he couldnât identify wasnât a secret to him. Neither was the fact that the voice that drew him to her reflected the same agony. He knew she was suffering, maybe in a way which was far worse than him.
âThe road to love is never easy, Sir, is it? It wonât deter me. Not if she is happy in the end.â
Naksh gave the man a heartfelt smile. âThatâs what I wanted to hear, Dr. Birla.â
âAbhi. You can call me Abhi.â
âI think Iâll stick with you calling me Sir though, Abhi.â Naksh grinned at the sheepish smile on Abhiâs face. For the first time since since they had met, he looked like the young man he was and not as though he was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders.
âSo, where do I start?â His earnestness made Naksh laugh.
As they got to thinking, Abhimanyu felt a ray of sunlight shine on him after days of being in an abyss of dejection.
Akshara Goenka had no idea what was about to hit her.
*****
The next day saw Akshara having breakfast at her house with the senior Singhanias while her two brothers were busy sleeping.
Her uncle had still not broached Abhimanyuâs topic or the panic attack, and that was giving Akshara new anxiety.
She looked at both of them, clearly engrossed in their avocado toasts, and talking about the merits of legalisation of medical marijuana. What even?!
She coughed and began, âYou donât have anything to ask me?â
Her uncle raised his eyebrows, âDo you have anything to tell me?â
âNo.â
âThen no.â
Keerti hid a smile at the exchange. Akshara was slowly becoming the old version of herself - clearly unable to hide her emotions from her uncle. And she had new-found respect for her husbandâs own version of reverse psychology.
âHow do you know the Birlas?â
âIâm investing a few millions into their hospital. They seemed like a respectable bunch and I wanted them to name their A&E department after Mumma so I called them for lunch.â
Silence reigned again and Akshara squirmed. âDonât you want to know how I know them?â
âAre you volunteering that information?â
âNo.â
âThen no.â
This time Keerti had to fake a cough to stop herself from laughing. A kick on the shin from her husband calmed her down a bit.
âI work at the hospital, you know? As a music therapist.â
âSo thatâs how you know the Birlas?â
âYes.â
âIs pulling the doctorsâ shirt off and mumbling their name into your pillow the usual way you greet all the doctors of the hospital?â Naksh asked innocently and Keerti had to duck below the table as an excuse to pick up an invisible fallen spoon before she peed herself looking at Aksharaâs face.
She had become a very interesting shade of red and her eyes had grown wide as she choked on her own saliva.
âInteresting tradition. Is it a Birla hospital thing? Because Iâm going to have a hard time doing that to Harshvardhan Birla the next time I see him,â Naksh added.
Akshara looked at her uncle. Then at the fruit on her plate. And she tried to imagine herself as one of the pieces of pineapple as she pierced her fork through it.
At her uncle and auntâs loud outburst of laughter, she turned an even deeper shade of red. She could feel her face becoming hot, even the tip of her ears felt hot.
âIâŚ.I need to go the hospital. My leave ends today,â she muttered as she got up.
âSure. We did ask Dr. Abhimanyu to wear t-shirts from now onwards though. Wouldnât want you to attack his virtue.â Keerti said helpfully from behind her.
She smiled a bit at herself though, as she made her way up the stairs.
âI. Am. Such. An. Idiot.â
********
Abhimanyu looked at himself in the mirror for the hundredth time as he sat in his cabin. Nervously fidgeting with his fingers, he sighed out loud, before taking out his phone and looking at the text from his new mentor.
âSheâs left for your territory. Do not blow it.â
Words of the wise, Abhi thought. No help, but they calmed him down a bit. âThink of her like a disease,â he said to himself.
âWait, disease? Shut up, Abhimanyu,â he thought. But it gave him perspective. It was a powerful metaphor. He had to find out the risk factors and the origin of the tumour before he could work on targeting said tumour and figuring out its management.
A knock disturbed his thought process and he looked up to see the very cause of his vexation standing at the door. She was wearing a blue off shoulder top and trousers and looking all types of adorable and pensive, Abhi thought to himself.
âHi Abhi.â
âHi Tumour,â he said without thinking and then closed his eyes with embarrassment at her horrified look.
âSorry. Morning, Akshara. Please come in.â
Confused, she swallowed and took a step inside. âIâm sorry about yesterday. IâŚI wasnât completely in my senses and then the panic attackâŚ.anyway, sorry for the hassle yesterday.â She said her piece, looking determinedly at the paper-weight on his table as though it was going to perform a series of very elaborate magic tricks. He was wearing a t-shirt below his lab coat, she noticed, turning a very vibrant shade of red, yet again on recollecting her aunt's departing words.
Abhimanyu smiled to himself. âI didnât mind at all. I didnât know you were half a Singhania, though.â
This time she smiled and looked at him. âYeah. My pedigree is something else, huh? Naksh Mama is my motherâs brother.â
âYou miss her?â He asked expectantly.
âNever knew her enough to miss her, you know. She was gone before I even knew how to really address her.â Akshara replied absentmindedly and then turned serious as though realising that the information was too personal to share with a random person.
Abhi took in that information and rushed to her side before she could make a hasty exit.
âAre you fine? I mean after the attack yesterday.â
She took a step back at his proximity. She could feel his heat and his presence disconcerted her like always. Couldnât he have asked the same question while sitting?
She could only nod her head and take another step back.
âYou know, I made a promise to your uncle yesterday.â He said conversationally.
âYou talked to my uncle?â
âYes. Heâs actually a very nice man. A little authoritative but then again, I live with Harshvardhan Birla, so who am I to judge?!â When she didnât reply, he added.
âDonât you want to know what the promise was?â
âWh..What?â Stop freaking stuttering, Akshara, she mentally chided herself.
âI promised him that Iâll try to make all your dreams come true.â
âOh. Okay. Good for you.â She didnât really know how to answer him anymore. Urgently turning towards the door, she turned the knob, just as she felt his presence behind her now. Crowding her.
His own hand covered hers on the door knob as he leaned in. Aksharaâs eyes popped out of her head and she felt her back grow rigid, as something warm pressed against her cheek for a moment. His lips, she belatedly realized. She barely resisted the urge to turn to him - whether to sock him in the face or to kiss him full on the mouth - she wasnât sure which way she leaned and she had to remind herself to breathe.
âGood Morning, Akshara.â He said, now back at a respectable distance from her.
He opened the door for her helpfully, and she stood there still as a statue. âWhat was that?â
âI told you, I promised to make all your dreams come true. And I keep my promises. Especially when it comes to you.â He smiled gently at her.
Blinking her eyes and still in a bit in shock, Akshara stepped out of the cabin and made her way to the corridor not really grasping what had happened moments ago.
You dream of me?â
âEvery morning. You wake me up, you know? By kissing me.â
As she remembered her panic attack induced confession, she closed her eyes, mortified.
She hit the wall next to the door repeatedly with her head.
âI. Am. Such. An. Idiot.â
Akshara missed the smile on Abhiâs face as he watched her from the glass on his door. God, I love her.
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That is it folks! I hope you enjoyed a little bit of the "funny" moments, if I may call it that. The next update will take at least a week.
Leave behind your comments, please.
Bisous,
Neha
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