Originally posted by: milkcakejamun
I'm not the CV, nor do I claim to be the CVs, but based on the way the track ran. I believe Shiva's thoughts progressed something along the lines of:
Kangan Kaand: I don't like MKMKB. She's related to Maami, so she has to be pure evil... However, she was also willing to jump for me... For me. She was willing to sacrifice her life for my happiness... and I can accept that! I've always wanted a wife who would love and accept me for who I am, and I felt like, for the first time, Raavi saw me as someone beyond bhootnath and Chattan Pandya. She seems like someone who would follow alongside me as I go through my adventures!
Up Until Sneha + Diary: I really like Raavi. She really is my soulmate. Happy... bubbly... Even her silly remarks of being Somnath's most beautiful don't bother me anymore... because to me, she is the world's most beautiful woman ❤️ How can I start my relationship with her?
Sneha + Diary: I really mean nothing to her... She never wanted someone like me... She wanted someone like Dev... white collared, nice job, well-dressed... that's why she never introduced me to her friends, right? That's why she always seemed so nervous and turned her face away from me, right? Even if she means the world to me, I mean nothing to her... and I will continue to mean nothing to her...
Raavi's Friends: I understand you never wanted to do this marriage... but come on... I'm a person, too! I might not be college educated, but why do you disrespect me like this? Why do you save all the smiles to your friends when I have never once received a smile like that. Why is it that you are able to talk to your friends so easily, but when it comes to me, you grow silent... if you hate me this much, why do you continue to stay with me? Is it because you don't want to see me happy? Did you jump that day, not because you cared for me, but because you wanted to see me suffer for longer? If you really don't want to be with me... then I don't want to be with you either (Shiva pushes Raavi)
Raavi's Friends Round 2: How could I expect anything different from you. Now I understand. It was never about marriage for you, was it? You never wanted a future for me... I am nothing more than your puppet... when you are happy, you are willing to spare your time for me... and when you are angry, you test my bottom line... and for what? For these English speaking friends of yours? Do you even know how debauching their thoughts are? One of them wanted to elope with a married woman... and you defend them? We're over Raavi... whatever feelings I felt for you... they were nothing but a farce... you tricked me well... but I shouldn't be surprised... you are MKMKB after all... causing pain runs in your veins.
Precap Scene: Rishita is right... why should I hold onto this relationship? I wasn't wrong. It was her. She doesn't want to introduce me to her friends... she doesn't want to defend me... she calls me gawar and jahil, not understanding everything I gave up in life... she doesn't deserve me... and keeping her stringed along will be my mistake... so it's better to divorce
IDK... as I was writing this, I realized there could be other interpretations, but this is how my line of thought went when watching all those scenes. Humans don't easily accept their mistakes, and Shiva was so blinded by insecurity, rage, and inferiority that he couldn't possibly see beyond this...