NOTE - Been busy so hadn't been able to update the SHAKHI TS - COMING HOME But I'll Try To ASAP if anyone was waiting.
THIS ONE IS Anokhi's Monologue After The Life Altering Moment In Her & Shaurya's Life.There were mixed views on her actions afterwards so tried to dive into it.
SHAKHI OS - LOVING HER IS RED
She stood still staring at her reflection in the mirror.
STARK DEEP RED
The vermillion filled her whole partition as she moved the towel towards but her hands stilled before she could wipe it away.
“Why did you stop Nikki?.Go Ahead Wipe It”.
Her subconscious roared from inside.
She was about to but her hands stilled as she tried to force herself to move the towel towards her partition.
She held the platform and took deep breaths to control her heartbeat.
“Ab Ho Gayi Naa Tum Meri Mrs Anokhi Shaurya Sabherwal”
His words resonated aloud as she touched the red powder proudly placed in her partition.
When she had left the hostel and stopped to pray to her Deity about a new beginning today never in her wildest dream she would have thought the day would turn around like this.
The initial shock had transformed to pure elation in finding him there as he had held her close and being enveloped in his warmth and embrace she had let go.
Her eyes had roamed over every inch of him to ensure herself he was safe and healthy after the ordeal he had went through when he was kidnapped.
Only she knew the hell she had been to back and forth in the period of being aware of him being kidnapped to her relentless search for him.
Knowing he was trapped held hostage and in pain had felt like someone was piercing a blade right through her heart.
Whosoever said falling in love with someone being hit by the realisations,admitting it to oneself and then moving ahead in the relationship was easy was doing nothing but making the lamest jokes of all.
Shaurya Sabherwal had been an enigma when she had met him.A stranger who she didn't hold high first impression about because of the way he had talked with her Aastha Mam.
It had been a tussle her fight to get admission to SIAC,his attempt to thwart it and the subsequent changes that followed afterwards.
Destiny had played its cards in the way that two of them unceremoniously landed in sitiuations where he used to get annoyed and angry with her.
She didn't know why it had bothered her when he used to be so kind and obliging towards everyone except her.
It had all changed that night.The night she was vulnerable and lost and he had come to her rescue.
Anokhi had never encountered a man in her life who had been so soft and gentle with her.His eyes had glistened seeing her in that condition and unknowingly her heart had found peace in his embrace.
The respect had been earned when he had stood by her side supporting her, fighting for her helping her to prove the culprits guilty.
She had peeled the layers slowly and recognised the man he hid.
The Man who was righteous,whose innate goodness shone on one occasion than more,who was a thorough gentleman and in whose eyes she had seen glimpse of deep hidden pain.
Knowing he was her mentor's son and their turbluent relationship she had been on the crusade to fix things between the mother and son only to be hit by the realisation later she had crossed the boundaries.
Understanding this man knowing he was leaving to Patiala and the confrontation in the library where he had said the words she had never expected to hear from him.
It had all accumulated one way and other to the point she had bursted out without no qualms expressing her every disappointment.
Poetic it had been that the most honest and heart to heart conversation they have had was on the bridge that had led to bridging the gaps between them.
And that night Shaurya Sir had become her PS.
Reema had been the one to word the budding feelings inside her heart a name.
But it had all began long ago.
She had realised why her opinion of him mattered to her.
Why it bothered her when he was so considerate and polite with others and at times rude with her she had termed him Karela.
Why his words had cut her so deeply she the Anokhi Bhalla who never gave up had decided to leave SIAC.
She had been angry,disappointed and hurt when she had misunderstood HE had left her alone in riots.She had felt cheated as if it there was an unsaid promise been broken.
The conversation at the bridge that day when Shaurya had done the unthinkable the first for him as well just so she could listen to him once had lifted off the veil clouding her eyes.
His heartfelt apology,genuine and honest regret of uttering those crude words to her was visible in his actions.
The truth was shining in his eyes as he had pulled her closer and finally cleared her misconception that it was him who had saved her life that day.
Inspite of their disagreements and arguments an unnamed string had tethered them together since beginning.
Shaurya Sabherwal had become the only Exception in Anokhi's Bhalla life.
He was the first man in whose embrace she had felt the safest and cared for.
Whose touch was always reassuring and warm.
They both have never adhered to the boundaries their otherwise professional dynamics demanded.
She talked and expected from him as if she held the right to do so and he knew when to be firm with her when her stubborness went overboard.
But most profound Shaurya Sabherwal was the first Man who apologised to her.
Who came all the way behind her just so he could mend his actions.
The Man who told her to fight for her dreams ,to chose herself,to not give up on her goals.
Whose eyes she saw pride being reflected as he reminded her of her fighting spirit.
And then she saw the glimpse of the Man who wanted her to come back.Who wanted her to recognise the real him and see his actions.
She trusted him,trusted him enough to let down her guards.
When he was around she didn't always had to be the responsible person she had been her whole life,she could depend on him and she did as she had drifted to sleep that night in his car,her subconscious self secured in the knowledge he was there.
There had been was no awkwardness between them rather the morning had brought the inkling of perpetual change in their bond.
It's his embrace she always sought for solace ,his arms were her safety blanket.
Contentment and warmth it was being held by him and she never wanted to lose it.
Realisations has paved way to acceptance.
She has been the girl flying on cloud line as first bouts of love has founded roots in her heart.
And Mr Shaurya Sabherwal had left no stone unturned to water and nurture it as such there was no coming back from it.
The way she always had his undivided attention,the way his eyes searched for her in the crowd,his unprecedented and utmost importance to her ,his adorable jealousy,his antics,him treating her as someone who was inadvertently precious to him.
The moments they have shared,the words that had remained unsaid.
She couldn't pinpoint one moment for it has been all the little things and more that has had Anokhi Bhalla being truly,deeply and irrevocably in love with Shaurya Sabherwal.
She had been in her own bubble but bubbles bursted and hers as well when opinions,statements and hard hitting truths had disrupted her float.
Her own sister had warned her that theirs was no match to being reminded of the differences in their social status as it was termed by society.
She has been on the edge of taking the leap of faith when she had become aware of him being engaged once.
It had been a rollercoaster of emotions since then where she had seen more lows than highs.
She had chosen to trust him but seeing him having dinner with the person who was his ex fiancee,who everyone thought was perfect for him was her worst fears realised.
His confession had been intense like the man in question.
He had tried to clear her misunderstanding not wanting doubts to dig a deeper hole but the visual and coming aware of his past has had her unable to process or even be elated with the knowledge of the man she loves returned her feelings.
Her conversations with Reema and Kanchan had made her understand his viewpoint that had him going to Goa behind him but as fate loved they had been disturbed again.
It had seemed the same Universe that conspired them to bring them together was deliberately creating hurdles in them being one.
Her Birthday how happy they both had been but the sudden arrival of his family and the announcement of his engagement to the same person as she had felt like a stranger standing amidst the same people who had earlier gathered to celebrate her birthday.
Anokhi had heard the sound of her own heart shattering to pieces.
She had fled unable to see anymore.And when he had come running to explain she hadn't listened to him.
How close she had come to losing him not once but twice.
She shudder to think otherwise outcome of his accident.
She had belief in his love but what could she do about the mindset and his prejudiced thoughts.
She had chosen to breakfree from it all only to have her whole world tilted on its axis coming aware of him being kidnapped by her own brother in law.
Only she knew the hell she had been to back and forth knowing he was trapped and in pain.
Wearing his watch she had been the woman on mission to find him safe and secure.
Anokhi prided herself in being a fighter but it had taken every ounce of her strength ro have walked away from him that day.
His earnest eyes as he had tried walking towards her whilst being weakened.
She had been convinced they weren't meant to be.He was meant to be with his family with the woman his family deemed perfect for him who was complying to his conditions or so she has thought.
Till they had confessed their love to each other.
Those few moments were the most blissful moments of her life.
It has been she has been searching and wandering and was now the chaos ended being with him.
The conversation hasn't been the most heartwrenching conversation of her life.
He had said love had no ego but then her heart had been clouded with the knowledge of him having loved Shagun once whom he had easily let go but he said he couldn't leave her.
It was practical for both of them to have parted ways knowing they wanted different things from their respective lives.
He had held her tears in both their eyes as he had almost pleaded to her to not break them apart but she had found herself right in her stance.
Till he had stepped ahead only to do the unthinkable and marking her as his wife.
Anger had rushed through her veins seeing another man even if he was the man she loves with every pore of her being taking a decision without her consent.
It had jolted her reminding her of every battle she has fought since she had come aware of the patriachal mindset of the society she was part of.Of the prejudices,of the differences between a man and woman of the rules set and the permission.
She was Anokhi before being anyone's daughter or wife and only she held the right of making the choices and decisions.
It was her she knew but it was him too standing there.
She had never seen Shaurya Sabherwal so vulnerable.Tears in his eyes as he had whispered
"I Need You Anokhi"
Anokhi had felt she could see right through the soul of the man who stood affront her promising her everything she had ever wished and desired in her life.
Him and her dreams,that's all she wanted and desired from this life.It had taken every ounce of her self control to not move forward, wrap her arms around him and confess she needed him as much as he needed her.
She loves him more or as much as he loves her.It wasn't a condition she had placed in front of him but an expectation because he was the only one from whom she could expect and trust to fulfill it.
The man who told her to fight for her dreams,the man who stood against his family to prohibit her expulsion from college,the man who brought her back to SIAC,the man who makes her blush and loves her to no ends.
Yes she won't wipe or wash it away because it might not have been with her consent but she understood his intention.
It was pure and pious and action done forced by the hands of his love.
Mrs Anokhi Shaurya Sabherwal
She might not be ready to take the ultimate leap of faith yet but she will value this bond.
Because his action Shaurya had warded of the insecurity from her heart.
Of him having loved someone else before and her in same capacity and depth.
She knew now in what dimension he may had shared with Shagun in the past it was nowhere close to the love he felt for her.
All his words of having changed because of her and being her partner and support system in her dreams and future seemed true.
He was incapable of letting her go,The happiness and pride in his eyes as he had addressed her as
Mrs Anokhi Shaurya Sabherwal.
She whispered it aloud herself as a surge of acceptance and belongingness filled her.
She wasn't okay with how it had happened but she couldn't bring herself to regret it either.
She didn't knew what future held but she knew the heart of the man who had in a way binded themselves in Holy Matrimony.
She would honour and respect this bond not because of any obligation.
Solely because she believes in the love and respect she holds for the man in question who she knew will go beyond and far making her dream come true to reality.
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Arjun
