Chapter 5
P - Ask reddy to prepare food as per this chart and Raghav's food I will prepare myself. And before everything remove all the alcohol from the house. I don't want to see any alcohol anywhere.
F - Ok Pallavi Ji. Anything else?
P - No and get the medicines which doctor prescribed. Some were missing in the lot.
F - Ok Pallavi Ji.
Raghav was listening to everything sitting on his bed. He didn't showed any reaction on the news that Pallavi never filed the divorce papers. Drive back home was also mostly silence with some frustrating honking by Pallavi. Once Farhad left, Pallavi turned her attention to Raghav.
P - U take some rest. I will get some soup and then u have to take medicine.
Raghav noded in affirmative and she left the room to get things done. Dinner was quite. HHs were happy to see Pallavi back, so was Farhad. But Raghav didn't reacted in anyway. He followed whatever was instructed by her without any question and then both went to their rooms for the night.
It was third quarter of night and Pallavi still was turning sides every other minute as the sleep seems like a distant thought. She get up to check on Raghav and saw him standing to his window gazing moon.
P - Star gazing is good activity but not when u have multiple fracture and cracked skull. Why are u not sleeping?
He kept his silence for sometime watching the night sky. She saw him and then joined him in star gazing. After a while he broke that void.
R - Can I ask something?
He said Still gazing to the sky.
P - Sure.
R - Why do u like pain?
P - Sorry... didn't get u.
R - Clearly u enjoy pain. I hurt u at each and every point. I ruined ur business. I ruined ur family. I ruined ur character. I even forced u to marry me against ur will. Still u are here. So clearly u r a masochist Right?meaning...
P - A person who enjoys pain. I know English Raghav.
She said looking towards him.
R - Yes so why are u here?
He looked at her for an answer.
P - Clearly it has been a hard hit to ur head. U are talking sense today.
R - Yes it seems. So answer me.. y r u here Pallavi?
She took a long breath as the question seems to knock on the corners of her heart which she herself don't want to visit. She gave him a look and asked.
P - Why u didn't apologized? I can see it in ur eyes. I saw it in ur eyes that day too when u were signing the papers. U had a lot to say but u didn't. y?
And there was again the silence of night and both turned to night sky for silence.
R - Because i knew. I knew u already forgave me. Long before that day. I never saw the anger u said in ur eyes. I saw disgust. I saw questions. I saw disappointment but never anger. U didn't hated me for what I did. U were disappointed with me for what I did. I failed u, multiple times. U gave me chance after chance but I ruined everything everytime. I know u can't hate me. Sorry... u can't hate anyone. Thats not who u r even when I wronged u at each step.
P - But u could have apologized. This what u did to urself for so long, u didn't had any right to do. Y u didn't said sorry? Is ur ego that big to right the wrongs.
R - No. Its not ego. Because with u, it can never be ego.
P - Then what stopped u from making everything right?
He looked towards her. Her eyes already looking him for answers. He looked in them and sighed.
R - I didn't apologized because I knew u will accept it because thats the person u are and after that I will hurt u again because thats the person I am.
The night was dark but some light was making its way with moon and stars. They turned back to the sky and flowing wind noise filled the silence.