Something I wrote long back, thought of posting it here.
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Watching the stars as they twinkled in the sky, curled up on the sofa I sat with a steaming cup of coffee. Sitting there by myself in front of the crackling fire and the swirling flames that stirred up wistful reminders of love. The loneliness I felt at the moment sent a shiver down my spine.
My mind turned to the distant recollections to the time when we were together. The same thoughts crowded my mind yet again. My mind recalled every moment we spent together.
Flashback:
The remembrance of settling myself in a chair at an exotic restaurant. As I looked up I found you smiling, your ever-lasting dimpled smile made my heart skip a beat.
The only word that came out of my mouth was your name.....Vansh
Vansh: Hi, Sweetheart
You have everything what a girl wants in her Mr.Perfect - 6 foot tall with lean body, charming smile, heart full of love - beyond perfect. Your deep and intoxicating brown eyes had a unique power to captivate anyone who looked at you. But I was the lucky one who you looked at.
I leaned back to admire the sight before me and saw your eyes twinkle.
Vansh: I knew you would come (smiling)
You passed me a glass of wine as we both sat down to enjoy the view and most importantly each other's company. Placing your glass on table, you tilted your head to look at me in hope, to find answers......Answers that I don't have.
I looked in your eyes to see them filled with utmost care and love, and that was the moment I knew there was no going back but still a part of me wasn't ready to cope up with the new feelings you aroused in me. Seeing my hesitation you smiled at me, that special smile you saved only for me. But I knew behind that smile you hoped for me, for us to be together.
Vansh: take your time (placing your hand on top of mine)
I responded by giving you a smile.
That was the last time we touched, we talked ... we met.
Now sitting in my cabin, my hand wandered upwards massaging my temples. I didn't want this, I want more. I want you, but I know that's not possible. Not anymore.
You had met with an accident the very next day while returning from work, the same day when I thought of confessing my feelings to you.
My eyes reflecting the same longing that I saw in your eyes that day. It has been 3 years, but I remember it like it happened yesterday. As I sat down and stared at nothing, my will of living slowly dying. I wanted to escape, escape from this world, where I found you and then lost you. The same world that gave me hope and took it away the very next moment.
I screamed your name knowing that no one would come to comfort me like you did, where no one would smile at me the way you did. And now, I know what I want and this time I won't we late.
Falling in love with you wasn't in my hand, a chance to live and share a life with you wasn't in my destiny but coming to you is definitely in my hand and my only desire.
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Please no chappals, eggs or tomatoes.
Anupamaa
Cricket
