I Dont Know How To Love Anymore [SuVan OS]

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Posted: 4 years ago
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This one is kinda sad, but seeing SuVan's confusing feelings, this is probable too.

Written from Suman's POV.

Hope you like it. Dont forget to comment and let your opinions show, I am open to constructive feedback!!

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She doesn't get half way through his name before he turns on her, his eyes wide and a little wild.

"You're still in love with me?"

He sounds angry, and she can already feel himself shaking her head, because that's not how this is supposed to go. Right? Love isn't supposed to be like this. This hard and painful and complicated. She's not supposed to fall back in love with him, she should have just left him to die here on the battlefield. But here she is, and there he is, and he looks like he's fighting tears, even as her hands ball up into fists. Like she can fight the obvious, the inevitable. But she's tried that, she's been trying that, and she knows there's no point. She too fell in love -she doesn't even know when- but she's tired of pretending she didn't.

"Shravan..." Her voice is quiet. She hopes it's reassuring or soothing or something, and she takes a step toward him to clean his open wounds, like he's a little kitten that might spook if she pushes his limits.

He's quick to take a step back, his hand out as if to stop her, to warn her off. "You can't be in love with me anymore now!"

Suman frowns then. "With all due respect, I think I get to decide how I feel."

"No. Not if you're just throwing your feelings around like this." He tosses her hands up. "You don't fall back in love with me. That's how this story goes."

"You're acting like you wrote the story, like you know how it all ends, but you're wrong." She stares at him a moment, and she knows she's scared, but suddenly she's not, not anymore. "Shravan, I love you. I'm still in love with you."

"Sumo, stop! It is not that easy for us to continue this. You know what happened to my family. You know how much it has destroyed us yet you want to come back to me? It will take some time to make amends, you cannot just express your love like this-"

But she doesn't want to stop. She's been holding onto these words for too long now, and they need to be said.

"I can't even remember a time that I wasn't in love with you," she admits. "And I know that I love fighting with you and I love talking to you and I love how alive I feel when I'm with you. And I love the way you smile in my face, and the way you have fought so hard to protect your family, no matter the cost, and how strong you are, even if you'll never admit you're any of those things. And I don't care if you think the story is supposed to go some other way. This is our story. You and me."

She takes another step forward, staring into his eyes, and she takes it as a good sign that he doesn't step back.

She closes her eyes, sighs and continues. "You and me are the whole damn series, and I don't know how it ends. I don't know where it's going. But I don't want to miss out on anymore of it." She shakes his head. "So no, I'm not gonna stand on the sidelines and pretend that I don't want to-"

She opens his eyes to step closer and convince him. But he's already gone. And she's imagined this moment, so many times, but it is so much worse than anything he could've thought of. A lone tear escapes her face and then she cannot help but collapse to the ground and bury her head in her hands. What can she even do now that he has blatantly refused to even pursue this notion? This is literally a nightmare that came to life.


She's probably never going to forget this moment. It'll be seared into her memory for a lifetime.

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Posted: 4 years ago
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quite intense dear...really good !...they were a damn series...that was a really good line you used ...really nice...

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Posted: 4 years ago
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Beautifully written dear❤️

Suman at last fought her fears and accepted the truth

Her confessing her love again was amazing....

I agree with Meena, You and me are the whole damn series, this line is soooooooo good👏

Loved reading it....do write more!😳


Welcome to the forum🤗

Haven't seen you here earlier so might be late or maybe on time....

Anyway hope you have a great time here😃


What should I call you?

I am Lavanya, you can call me Lavy!

And yes dear don't feel sad that people aren't replying to your work...lately everyone's busy and the serial is going downhill because of which not many members are active, real life too is going on so pls excuse us!


@forumwasis comment bhi karlo yaar... it takes many efforts to write this!

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Posted: 4 years ago
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Originally posted by: Pranushka_723

Beautifully written dear❤️

Suman at last fought her fears and accepted the truth

Her confessing her love again was amazing....

I agree with Meena, You and me are the whole damn series, this line is soooooooo good👏

Loved reading it....do write more!😳


Welcome to the forum🤗

Haven't seen you here earlier so might be late or maybe on time....

Anyway hope you have a great time here😃


What should I call you?

I am Lavanya, you can call me Lavy!

And yes dear don't feel sad that people aren't replying to your work...lately everyone's busy and the serial is going downhill because of which not many members are active, real life too is going on so pls excuse us!


@forumwasis comment bhi karlo yaar... it takes many efforts to write this!


Thanks a lot! I understand the mayuusi phase is on right now..

I'm new to this forum, you can call me Tannu 😊

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