Originally posted by: foresight
While he is impulsive and can get angry, I see Rudraksh as someone who is still vulnerable because of his childhood....even more vulnerable that Sarnash who has all the love in the world (though he missed on fathers love and will be susceptible when he finds out he is orphaned)
Rudra is someone who has put false bravado so far to cover his flaws, lack of love and support in this life. Lack of genuine care. Yes his mother (step mother cared for him) but could never protect him, as a child needs. His brother cared a loved, but he too couldn’t stand up for him. In that sense, despite the love and care (restrained as it was) he has never had protection, support or trust. He has been the dumb child even when he had some good ideas on how to tackle those that were plotting against him.
And yes, he is impulsive (volatile) and angry when something that is close and emotional connected to him is destroyed. Then he is driven by emotions and not logical doubts about whether Preesha is really capable of killing his brother of not.
For him, if he has that support, someone to care, someone he can trust, then there would be nothing he wouldn’t do for them. Because he had never had it before and he has craved for it. If he is made to feel he has it and then made to believe that it was all illusion or if it is snatched away from him, he is going to explode....impulsive, angry, betrayed, heartbroken and even cold....unwilling to trust again.
He has never seen love before. Not in his parents relation. Not in his brothers. Not in anything he experience before. So while love as notion is something that he might have in his songs, he doesn’t have the ability to recognise it. Even though he is someone who would appreciate its colours more deeply that any of the other characters in this show.
Preesha on the other hand is the responsible one. She had taken responsibility for everyone around her in a way. Her sister’s promise, Yuvraj’s career, her dad’s arrest, the blackmailer, the kidnappers, the nurse even. In that sense, she does have the definite colours of a ITV female lead who will take everyone’s blame on herself and shelter them....many times when they don’t deserve it and encourage bad actions from them even more.
but she is not he abla Nari of ITV either....majority of the times. She can speak her mind. Stop tougher people a lot more confidently and with conviction vs the usual docile FL.She has been responsible for so long that taking help and letting someone else in to the problem doesn’t come naturally to her...it is alien in a way. Rudra showing his vulnerability and he care he has for Sarnash is opening her up some what but not always and not entirely.
She is someone who has been surrounded by love. She understands it to some extent. Missed it in her life though she could never admit it...mostly to herself too because god forbid it conflict with her promise about Saransh. In that somewhere her childhood friend who seemed sincere, seemed to care for her, stand in the tough years with her without calling her names, who is like her father....brought the yearning for love in her....the same way Sarnash has been yearning for a father somewhere in his heart. Both were quick to accept and pedestal Yuvraj in that role, but his behaviour even before rajeev’s death left more to be desired for both though pree was good at making excuses for it.
It was the jail track that raised lot of questions in pree even when she was protecting him. Question about his being father to her Saransh and about his truthfulness to her. So much so that he trusted Rudraksh with complete custody over yuvraj. That divide is increasing wider and seeing Rudra fill the role that she had always dreamt Yuvraj would....seeing Rudra actually live that role is making her question things. You can be blind to something that you don’t see and know. She cannot be blind to the compare and contrast that is happening in front of her eyes.
she will take time to recognise the love though and some more to accept it. She has made the mistake once...which she somewhere deep inside she realises but doesn’t accept. What is worse is that she has had a time when she put Yuvraj ahead of Saransh and she is living in that guilt when she lost her life and Sarnash was completely broken. Now she has made Sarnash her priority even more aggressively and her sole purpose. Now to let someone else have some priority....not out of duty but out of emotions...even when she feels them ...will take time.
Losing Rudra will be that moment for her when she will need to accept the place he has in her heart all by himself and not as Saransh parent. And that he is as important to her as Saraansh. Right now, she is scared to even venturing anywhere close to that territory ....may be scared that it will end soon...that it is not permanent. That is why she keeps on tagging it as married for Saraansh....and that rudr Care for her is as Saraansh mom and not as pree the individual.
Very well written about Ru-Pree POV...
I specially liked how beautifully u have penned down Pree's emotions..why z she always guarded..n y she does not let her emotions overpowering her duties...mainly she wanna keep saaransh her priority...
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