Originally posted by: Onyourface
Exploring the unexplored
There is lot of shor today, the external shor , but the noise of the internal shor has overpowered their emotions, that's the noise you can't hear, you can only feel it , that's the worst and the best part
I am trying my best to fulfill all the promises that I had given to mishti and her family, somewhere I feel I am responsible for not taking a correct decision in life , wished i had handled it in a sensible manner, life has been kind enough to give me a second chance , i will try my best to mend those relations, I am putting my best efforts to make this day extremely special for my angry chroni, I am so happy , that chirpy flirty naughty avatar of mine comes naturally when she is around, this is magic magic she does to me , gosh no wonder I was so lifeless when she wasn't around all these months ....
saathiya mere main toh tera deewana hun , saare jahan se begaana hun , meri dhuno ka tarana tu , I know I still have a long way to go when it comes to balancing mishti and my family, this is the bridge that I have been trying to cross since day 1 , I am so happy to see that now I don't have to choose between you and nanko but is it the last battle that I had to fight ? there is a fear that what if something happens and life takes me away from you ? I have lost the trust I had on my mom ? Whenever I sense something dangerous around, I feel that's my mom trying to hurt you , why shouldn't i feel that , she has left no stone unturned to separate us , I am not able to trust her , yes I am angry even though I got to know she wasn't responsible for the accident today , i don't know , am I angry on myself for misjuding people? What is making me so angry all of a sudden? Is it the fear of losing you mishti?
Abir, we have gone through a lot in the past couple of months, I have seen every shade of yours , from a full of life free bird to a caged bird, I am happy that after all the mess , life and kanhaji managed us to bring together, dil yeh mera khush rehta hai bas saath tera paake , I am still stuck with a lot of thoughts , all I know is whenever I see you I forget all of that , my smile starts meeting my eyes , like I said I never had imagined that someone will love me so effortlessly one day, with no complaints and no demands, you made me realise that I am beautiful the way I am , I totally believe that you love me more than I love myself , I couldn't stop myself to dream about you , a dream of a space where it's just you and me , I am craving for the moment , the moment of "us" ..... I can't believe that finally my dreams are turning into reality , you are in my dream and you are in my reality as well ... but as always, something happens and my world shifts ... I have seen your worst shade in your anger, abir, you just don't listen when in anger ...may be that's why I am trying to give you some time off , i am giving you some time and some time to myself too , cuz i don't want the arguement to escalate between us , I want you to hear me , and for that I will give you the time to hear yourself first .... not now , but i will definitely try to talk with you ... see you soon my ajeeb rajvansh
Hands down I am the stupidest of the lot here , how stupid it was of me to use kuhu for all the mess , one second was it all my fault alone ? I mean , how does it matter now, what happened has happened right, if not entirely my fault, I was the one who initiated it with faking my love for her , I have realised that I have started feeling something for her , I don't know if its love, but I fear losing her, I know I have done nothing till date to make her feel better but now I don't know what should I do to make her feel happy , how should I stop her , why is she not accepting that saree ? I know a saree couldn't make up for what I had done , but it can be a good start , right? she is so chirpy I thought she will like my chirpy antics , wait where am I going wrong? My bhai is happy , I am happy for him, he got hurt , I just wanted to check on his wounds , I know I only asked kuhu to come with me before that stupid jhoomer fell but my brother got hurt na .... why this always happens with me , why am I not able to balance my relations? Kuhu, I think I have started loving you , but I feel I have to struggle a lot to know and now i don't have much time ....what should i do ?
Yes I am insecure , I am jealous too , i am scared , scared that my facade is soon going to come out , a part of my family will be happy to see mishti getting married and a part of my family will be shocked to hear about my divorce , I have never been anyone's priority in life , why can't for a change , things be about me , just me , not mishti , just me , call me selfish , I don't want to share my day with anyone ...after mishti entering my life , I feel like I am treated as a second option , to the extent that now even my own husband considers me a second option #WOW , he is happily dancing, dancing for what? Dosent he remember we have an impending divorce coming up , is he happy to lose me , is he happy he will be all free now, may be yes, that's what the first thing he told me after our wedding right ?, he told me to leave him and go ... he clearly told me that he used me and after that I had never seen him feeling sorry about it , I think he wants to me to leave , clearly he doesn't want me in his life, guess no one wants me on their priority list ....
Love is simple, and simple is the most complicated thing in the whole world , love let's you free, the same love gets you caged too , it makes you rise in life, the same love is capable enough to make you fall in life too , it gives you the courage , it also gives you fear .. love is that only emotion that brings layers of other emotions along with itself
YRHPK is slowly exploring the deep hidden subtle layers of love in the most beautiful manner
All you need to do is, try to listen the shor inside their hearts , you will feel what they want to make us feel 
This was just my attempt to write what I feel about the characters, will come with a detailed review on the episode soon
Bhabhi Ji Ghar Pe Hain?
