Update 13:
Part 13: The Broken And The Beautiful
Raman who once used to be a die-hard romantic has now turned into a truly cold-hearted man who revolts at the very mention of love and trust. His wife's betrayal has turned him into a cynic. His half-smile never reaches his eyes. He constantly wears a mask on his face to hide his inner battles. Thats Raman 2.0. The Broken Soul.
Ishita is a sweet, soft-hearted person. She is the embodiment of love and kindness. Confident and comforting at the times of despair, she has a gentle soul and strong heart. She has the same aspirations like any other girl when it comes to love and marriage. She wants a loving husband, cute babies and a caring family. She is the idealist. The Beautiful Soul.
The wheel of fortune brings these 2 souls together. Ishita who chose to be Ruhi's mother became Raman's wife first! She is the only one in this whole wide world who has the patience, strength and endurance needed to fall in love with Raman 2.0 and pull him out of the graveyard of sorrows where he has been living since his first wife ditched him for a rich guy.
There is nothing more insulting and painful for a man to see his love of life betray him for money! Shagun made him realize that his love and emotions are worthless. He was so badly damaged that he gave up on every relationship he had!
The thing is damaged people crave love more than anything else, yet they run from it at its very sight. They want an emotional connection, yet every time they try to establish one, ghosts of their past start haunting them, carrying images of the pain they had to endure. They push you away, yet secretly hope you would still insist on staying. Damaged people are so full of love, and that's exactly why they're so afraid to fall in it.
Falling in love with a damaged person is one of the hardest, bravest things one could ever go through. It's a series of battles that will change you forever, battles few are strong enough to endure. Loving a damaged person requires rivers of patience and oceans of love. Loving a damaged person is absorbing their poison and hoping it ends before you'll lie dead on the ground.
Loving a damaged person is a war, a war few are ready to fight! And when there is a war, there is a Jhansi Ki Rani!
She has to slowly peel his shield , layer by layer and melt his heart. It takes infinite amount of endurance to make cracks in the iceberg Raman has been inhabiting. Its a task meant only for the strong willed, the patient one, the one who knows how to love unconditionally because the truth is loving someone who has been hurt is caring for some without expecting anything in return.
Staying with a damaged person requires all the love one could possibly have. It's a win or lose game. In the end, it's either winning the war or losing everything; including yourself.
Raman has stopped believing in love because he is tired of giving his all to the ones who eventually leave him. He has been through hell and back. He on the outside pretends to be like strong independent who need no one, but inside he is the most vulnerable being who needs a hand to hold and a soul to understand. Ishita has gotten herself into a relationship with someone who keeps their relationship undefined, someone who locks his feelings in a vault with no keys. He sends her mixed signals because he wants her but he fears her too! He fears the feeling that still haunts him from the past, the feeling of being hurt, the feeling of being left behind. And he has realized that this feeling only comes from being vulnerable, from opening up to people, from making them see the real you! That's why he has mastered ways to protect himself from getting hurt. Hence the bitterness in his words and coldness in his behavior.
He knows what it took to make it here, and now he is not willing to allow anyone to hurt him again. The scars of his failed marriage with Shagun ran so deep that he convinced himself that love in all its forms was the most terrifying emotion of all. He will be unable to form any romantic bond between him and his wife. Their only bond would be of duty. Not that he didn't need it, but he doesn't want to love and be loved.
Raman and Ishita Honeymoon Suite
Raman let go of Ishita's hands abruptly and took a step back. Ishita puzzled by his behavior kept looking at his eyes to see if she can find something there.
Raman- Why?
Ishita- Hmm?
Raman- Why did you marry me?
Ishita(softly)- What?
Raman - You heard me! I want to know why did you marry me? We do not get along well. In fact we detest each other. We can't stand each other for a min and you knowingly got into a lifelong relationship with me! Why would you do that yourself? Unlike me you had full knowledge of who you are getting married to! Then why?
Ishita's past encounters with Raman already taught her that him behaving like normal people is a rare thing! He was very different from others. She wasn't exactly expecting him to take her into his arms and kiss her passionately like most newly wedded couples normally do but she certainly didn't expect such bizarre conversation either. It was no point explaining him so she decided to brush off his question.
Ishita's internal monologue- "Well, Ishita Iyer, you reap what you sow! Ab Shaadi ki hai Raavan Kumar se toh bijliyan hi girengi na! Baarish toh hone se rahi! You already crossed the Rubicon! Now deal with it! "
Ishita sat on the bed in a posture with her legs crossed touching the floor and her both hands behind her resting on the bed.
Ishita- Well, I was looking to make someone's life hell! And guess what, you won the lucky draw!
Raman(with a frustrated tone)- Shut up! I am serious! Now you listen to me very carefully.
You don't know me! You don't know anything. You will never get anything out of this marriage! I am sure you have some expectations from your married life and your husband but I am not the one to fulfill them.
There can never be a husband-wife relationship between us. You will never get my love or attention because I don't believe in all these crap. I didn't even want to get married ever but my circumstances forced to take this step.
I didn't know who I am marrying because it didn't really matter to me! That must have given you some idea that I couldn't care less about this relationship. My new wife would have no place in my life. She will be nothing more than just a random person whom I know by name and who lives in my house.
You shouldn't spoil your life in this meaningless relationship! I say you go back to your parent's home. I will get this marriage annulled in no time. You can start over afresh. You will be free to marry whoever you like!
Ishita- I see. So you playing God now?
Raman- What? What rubbish?
Ishita- Exactly! You are talking rubbish! Pretending to be God! Making predictions! Taking decisions about my life! Who gave you the right? Its my life! I get to decide! I got into this relationship willingly. And I will decide whether to stay in it or not! I don't take orders from the likes of you! So stop telling me what I should or shouldn't do!
Raman- You are stupid! Are you aware that I don't like you?
Ishita- Cool! I don't wake up every morning to impress anyone.
Raman - You know what? You are impossible!
Ishita - Tell me something I don't know!
Raman- You will regret this!
Ishita- Again, thats my problem not yours!
Raman folded his arms firmly on his chest.
Raman- Tell me this, how will you spend your life in a loveless relationship?
Ishita- That's none of your business! And I decline to answer! By the way, why do you care?
Raman- And what about me? How will I tolerate you for the rest of my life?
Ishita- Well, thats entirely your problem! Why do I care!
Now if you will excuse me, I would like to change and eat something. I haven't eaten anything since morning and I have no plans of suicide-by-starvation.
Raman looked at her with bewildered expressions! "Is she mad or something." He thought.
Ishita looked at him too! She certainly saw an element of surprise in his eyes but absolutely no hatred or disgust! If anything , his eyes were lit up with excitement.
Ishita's Internal monologue- Mr. Raman Kumar Bhalla, I don't know why but I have a feeling that I can hear what you are afraid to tell even to yourself! When you were asking me to leave what I read in your eyes is "Stay! I need you more than you think!"
I don't know what's going to happen in the future and I know its not gonna be easy but I will never quit on you! I want to be with you forever and I have never been so sure about anything in my life!
Raman's internal monologue- Ishita, from the moment I saw you for the first time, I knew that you would be the end of me! Why did you come into my life? If it was anyone else other than you, I would have continued as usual with my detached life in solitude! I wish I knew before marriage that its you I am going to tie knots with! I would have never let this marriage happen! I know for sure that I will never be able to love again. You may be different but you are a woman after all! A beautiful one! You can't be trusted! I will not let you or anyone else hurt me again! I hope sooner or later you realize your mistake and leave me!
Until then I will try to stay away from you as far as possible because one other thing I know for sure is that I want you so badly , I am afraid I will crush you in my arms if you come anywhere near me!
Raman- OK. Suit yourself! And you can have the entire bed to yourself! You certainly need more space than me! I will fit on the couch.
Ishita- What? Did you just call me fat?
Raman- That would be an understatement! No? ( He said with a smirk.)
Ishita- Main aur moti? Which angle?
Raman- Oh hello! From every angle! 360 degree! My arms are still sore from the previous lifting! (He said with a naughty smile on his face!)
Ishita(with a fake anger)- Raman Kumar Bhalla, I am warning you! Don't mess up with Ishita Iyer! Tumhari sehat ke liye achha nahi hoga!
Raman- Iyer? South Indian?
Ishita- Tamilian!
Raman- Ek hi baat hai! Tum sab ek jaisa hi khana toh khate ho! Idli aur Sambhar. Bas chutniyan badalte rehte ho! So you are a crazy Madrasan! Huh! (He laughed!)
Ishita(with a soft smile)- Raman...you better stop now...or else...
Raman- else whattt......Madrasan?(He said with a mischievous smile!)
Ishita- I will...I will eat you alive instead of food!
(She smiled and emphasized on the word "eat" and "you" least hoping he would catch her double entendre!)
One should have seen the look on his face as he almost instantly understood his wife's double meaning dialogues and her mischievous smile! It was priceless! He first looked down, smiled shyly and then looked up! He gazed at her intently and told himself "She never ceases to amaze me!"
Raman- Mujhe baad main kha lena Madrasan, pehle khud pe rehem kha! Come out of this taam-jham quickly! I am also hungry! Whole day all I had was 4 cups of coffee! Lets have some real food first for dinner! Raat Abhi Baki Hai!
Ishita gave him a playful smile and left for the washroom.
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PS: Raman and Ishita think differently when it comes to their unconventional relationship! One wants to establish it! Other one wants to keep it undefined! What happens next we will find as we go. But for now they have managed to break the ice with their playful banter! They will have a lifetime of this!
Edited by Mi-Amor - 4 years ago
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