FF ON MEHRYA 'SOCHA NA THA'ch18 on pg 141dt 19/12 - Page 105

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Just came from duty gonna start writing now. Not sure. When I will give update. So Sleep well. And nandu thank you for such amazing FB. I m in love with them , will Reply. Late. Sorry to all.

Originally posted by: Nandu0123

Di where are you still are u busy kya

Originally posted by: richasharma0991

I am writing nandu . My lappy had broke down yaar . I was busy in repairing it. So was late with update. Just one more hour i need.

here is my padas the next chapter .

Chapter 18

His lips were on my cheek only and I was numb . he took a breath but didn't removed his lips from my skin. My hands which were loosely hanged on his shoulder presently were in the center of his chest as it has loss it strength . I was unable to use my senses . they were blocked by his touch. He moved his lips from my left cheek keeping it in contact with my flesh , crossing my nose bridge to my right cheek and pressed his lips over there giving me a hard kiss. I inhaled a breath and his scent reached my nose . even that was affecting me making my whole body shrug like I felt cold breath and just shiver . may be he sensed that as his hand which was controlling my arm came on my back , felt like he wanted me to be warm in his embrace. I felt his lips no longer in contact with my face instead his cheek took its place and I felt his breath on nape of my neck . I felt his cheek being rubbed against mine and he inhaled my scent strengthening the embrace in which he had holded me. I felt new emotions running inside me but I was not minding them. Unexpected , I felt a quick moment in which his hand from my back holded the back of my neck with his other hand still controlling my whole body close to him . my eyes got opened on his swift moment . I saw his face , his eyes full of want , which were looking at my features only , his nostrils flaring explaining how rapidly he breath . his lips which were a little open , in the need of oxygen or what I couldn't comprehend . I was observing his each feature ,like he did mine . my heart raced fast now, I could even hear the pumping of my heart . his hold on my back of my neck got firmer and he tilt his face a little . my lips went dry and I saw his approaching his lips towards me . I saw shaurya khanna . as that name came in my senses . It felt wrong . as I saw his eyes slowly getting close and him nearing towards me . I was stun with what was coming . my hands gained some power and I place them hard on shaurya's chest making his stop while coming out of his embrace was impossible . he opened his eyes as he stopped . he was upset and had questioning eyes . I gulped the air hard and looked aside . he still holded me in that same frame . his hands didn't moved a bit from there place. I wanted him to remove his hand but didn't struggle as I felt he will ignore them . " stop this it came from my mouth in a low and weak voice . I didn't looked in his eye , I need to be strong . his hand moved from my neck and came on my left cheek , his finger ending in my hairs . it felt cared . I looked back in his eyes and saw no care in them but a question ,' why' . which he didn't asked from his mouth. I was forced to answer this now . his disappointed but cared state made me to answer. " its wrong " I said looking straight in his eyes . his jaw hardened after a second . his eyes disappointed . he blinked them and looked away and in sudden moment left me . I was startled when I was no longer in his embrace . he was little mad now , I could feel specially when I saw his right hand which was on my cheek being closed in a fist . I gulped harder . I looked at his face , he was not looking at me and I didn't wanted him to look also . I just gained some power and left from that place crossing him. I didn't looked back till I reached Rahul and dragged him to take me home asap , while in whole journey , he was asking me reason for my weird behavior but I was just numb and was trying to think what just happened with shaurya and what he did and said .

I saw mehek running . she didn't looked back once while I watched her running inside back stage entry door. Wrong what she meant by wrong . I was angry on whom , on her for running when I wanted to kiss her or on my self who was so desperate to kiss her while she had whole power to resist me when I could feel she is affected by me. I was not clear on that even . I just sat in my car which was parked there and started to ride back to my home . Why she was even there . I mean it was not a commoner area . it was restricted for relatives or other people . she came there to cry . my thoughts took a pause .cry , she was crying that made my hand on the stearing wheel go statue for few seconds , she was crying as she felt she was responsible for her friend loss. Well that she was , I gave Rahul offer to help , fair enough , but miss Sharma wants to be helper now bear the consequence and cry . I thought but the image of her crying hugging me came into my mind . she thought she was hugging her friend . my heart soften on her sobbing image . I heard a horn and I looked at road again , it was jammed traffic . people giving horns unnecessary . " jab aage wala nahi chal raha , toh uda lu gadi . horn mar raha hai idiot ( when the person ahead is not moving , then should I fly over him that you are horning . idiot " I yelled to random public in frustration . I could still hear horn. I sigh hard in frustration and closed my eyes holding steering wheel. Flashes of her beautiful face came in front of me , the moment I was going to kiss her and she said its wrong . I instantly opened my eyes . my eyes were on road only but I was not looking at it . my mind was in that moment only where we were closed but she asked me to stop . loud noise of several horns broke my stance and I noticed that the car that were in front of me has moved and cars from behind were horning , shouting at me to move . a person who passed by my car even passed a comment while crossing " abe so gaya kya ( have you slept) . I looked at him while he commented and passed but didn't reply back which was very unusual on my part . I just started my engine and called Mahesh in order to keep my mind occupied . " yes Mahesh . you know next round is the semi finale and is in out door location . I want you to do all preparation for it . the supply , venue set up and the security , there should be no lapse . . contestant are to be brought to the place from ISC venue by our transport means . make arrangement for them also . I want every contestant . mrs hema , kiran , Rahul , vishwas , mehek and smitee all to be ready in time . no confusion at all " . " sir sir he said interrupting me . " yeah what I asked him on phone . " you named mehek , she is not a contestant this time " he added and I recalled my sentence in my mind and yes I said her name . " may be she has been part of this ISC also so much that you , I interrupted him saying . " I ll talk to you later Mahesh " I said ending the call . till that time I have reached my home and I entered the premises of it . I was just outside the the main door but I was sitting in my car only . I closed my eyes and kept my head on head rest of my car seat . my mind was asking several things I know I am attracted to her , its more than infatuation now . it bothers me when she is hurt and it pinched me when she oppose my approaches . I do affect she said it herself today but then why she is resisting . I again recalled her words in my mind. " I know shaurya doesn't like me and he will do anything to trouble me still I gave him a reason to poke us both . but I don't know why I behave like that with him . why I am so different with him . why despite of my determination , I can't ignore him. he brings such different emotions from me. His words hurts me more now " the flashback of her words brought a smile on my face . it felt so good to know that I affect her so much . . " what if he would have , not stopped me from eating that thing today " these words said by her made me hug her today , which I was resisting from the moment she had hugged me.' I would have not let that happen mehek I said . I took a deep long breath . her scent was still in my senses . my smile widen on that memory . I so very wanted to be in that moment . I had lived every bit of it . this girl has some other effect on me only . her resistant doesn't make me to ignore her but I did what she said despite how much my heart was unhappy following what she said . I can do things for what she cares which is a total surprise . something I have not done for any of my previous girlfriend , until I am to gain something out of it . accept it shaurya she is special . I chuckled on that thought . " sorry miss trp can't let you stay away " I said this and opened my eyes only to find mohan , my chauffer with confused and amazed look on his face , " sir, aap khud se kyun baat kar rahe ho( why are you talking to your self ). Aankh band kar ke has bhi rahe ho ( you are smiling , keeping your eyes closed ) " he asked with a bizarre look . I gave him an angry look , which made him shut up at once . I came out of the car and passed him the car .keys " park karo , aur mujhe has ne se pehle tumhari parmission leni hogi kya ( park it, and I have to take your permission before smiling ) " I asked him . he just noded his head left and right in fear . I passed him a nasty look and went inside . " miss trp kaun hai ( miss trp kaun hain ) I heard him asking to himself but I just went inside .

Its 2 o clock in night . I am listening to song since one hour now but sleep is no where near to my mind . all I could thing even with this heavy music in my ears , is about my encounter with shaurya khanna . I recalled his words again I was not drunk that night and I am not even today' . that means he in his full sense when he came close to me . a little smile came on my face unknowingly on that thought but as I realized on what thought I am smiling , it just vanished . how can I smile on this , this means he just wants me physically that's it , I mean he never liked me , always taunted me . he is so mean with me and he loves to trouble me but still wants to kiss me . so much confused he sounds himself only . but if he is confused what about me . he didn't forced on me , I too didn't resisted it at once just when in that moment I opened my eyes that too when he pulled me towards himself more , it occurred in mind that I was letting him kiss me , shaurya khanna , who had just made me cry few minutes ago . my mind , ears and eyes all were tired with these thought running in my mind . I can't deny now that he affect me. Like no one has affected me . but do I want it whole hearted, a guy like shaurya , who is so self centered , so arrogant , so mean to people , can I like such a guy . I just shrugged on that thought and I turned left and was in baby position now . image of him approaching me for the kiss came in my mind . he is so handsome . his masculine features could make any girl go weak on his knees . his captivating eyes has holded me many times now but its just his looks that I am unable to m resist him . he is a charming personality by looks even he flaunts it . but is it enough for me to let him advance . I like people who make their way to my heart by their deeds , not by looks and I have just few deeds of him only in my mind which make me not to hate him but to like him or more , its just not enough , but then why I am affected by him that I can't stop my self from giving in to his touch . my stomach growled on that I didn't had dinner properly due to all this going in my heart . I so very wanted to share all this with some one , sonal will also come tomorrow morning only . I thought till then what I will do . I looked at my phone it was 3 o' clock now . I have job to go ,I said being totally tired . job means being near khanna and I don't know how I will react better I don't go to white chilies tomorrow only , once I will talk to sonal then only I will decide till then I will ignore him .

I was in white chillies today . it was already 10 o clock . morning routine was going on . due to ISC and german project and my other works I was unable to pay much attention to it but today I have come here to look at its working under Vicky management and alsoto face someone . I was looking at kitchen area only. Was looking for a moment to sneak into it . I was surprised on that thought . I am the boss , why the hell I need to sneak into it . so I just went to kitchen . my entry made all the chef to look at me . they all wished me and became more alert . I passed a smile which gave surprised look in return from them . why the hell I am being nice to them . I just crossed the others to go to mehek Sharma counter , which surprisingly was empty . I was curious now . " where is she " I asked a fellow working chef looking at the empty counter . " who sir I heard her asking politely but I was not polite with my reply " mehek Sharma , who else work here " I was harsh . " sir she took a leave today " she said in a scared voice . " with whose permission " I asked angrily . she gulped hard and had no answer . I just turn to leave and I heard her saying " Vicky sir " . I barged in Vicky's cabin. " why you gave mehek leave today " I asked rudely . he was working on some papers sitting on his chair . he gave me a curious glance . " she asked for it as she is not well " he said in a casual tone , my harsh tone doesn't scare him . the thought of her being ill made me not well. I was worried now . I took my phone out and just dialed her no. her phone ringed for two minutes then the operator said " the subscriber is not answering your call . I dialed again still no reply . now I was worried and angry . it was now fourth time I dialed her no . may be she is resting " I heard Vicky . I looked at him. may be he is right but I need to hear her . I was about to cut the call when the phone was picked . " hello it was not mehek . " hello , where is mehek " I asked straight . " she is resting " I heard the reply in a stern voice . " who is this " I asked . " sonal , her best friend " she replied with a stress on best friend . I felt it weird . " can she talk to me " I asked . " NO came reply instantly . " what happened to her " I asked . for few minutes I didn't heard any proper reply but only few whisper and mehek was present there I could say . " flu . ahh cold . stomach ache every thing . she is just not well " sonal said being uncertain . I got it she was faking . all my worry was replaced by anger now . " put the speaker on phone " I said in a firm voice . " what " she asked being confused . " I know she is there " I said being irritated now , " just put the speaker on I added . Vicky was now standing near me . he had curious smile on his face . " its on speaker , but she is sleeping " that brought my attention on the call . " mehek , you want to ignore me , do it . just don't fake your illness . alright " I said in a concerned voice . I heard nothing from other side for a while . just few whisper that too was not of mehek. I ended the call on a disappointed note . I looked at my cousin he was now smiling being amused . " she is ignoring you why and you are worried in place of being angry . what a surprise he asked . I glared at him . " make sure she come tomorrow and if she doesn't cut her salary for two days " I said and moved out of his cabin .

" camera fit kiya hai kya , usne tere room main ( has he placed a camera in your room ) asked sonal once the phone was ended by him . I just took a cusion and hugged it . " mujhe nahi pata ( I don't know ) I said being irritated from her queries . I have told her every thing which happened between me and shaurya and she has bombarded thousands of question to me. " kab tak ignore karegi madam( till how long you will ignore him madam), faking your illness . she asked . I had no reply . I heard notification alert on my phone which was with sonal . " message hai tere , ashiq ka( its message , from your lover ) " she said . " ashiq nahi hai woh mera ( he is not my lover), read it " I said being agitated now . she read it and just burst into laughter . I was surprised .I got up and took my phone . " sirf ashiq nahi hai , sarcastic ashiq hai( he is not just lover , but sarcastic lover ) she said rolling on bed holding her stomach . I read the message to know what she meant " I kissed you and you fall sick . next time think of some better excuse . without a fuss come to white chilies tomorrow okay " it was messaged from shaurya khanna . I was crimson red now . he is too much . I looked at sonal and slaped on her butt. " stop laughing " I went back to my position . after two minutes of laughing she finally got normal and sat up while I was just glaring at her . " see mehek , what you have told me , I can come out with just one thing . may be you are attracted to him , nothing wrong yaar . he is attractive but , if your mind is against it . then ignore him. attractions come and go . but you can't sit here for life time . you have to face him . face him but ignore him . but if you are unable to ignore it, then give your heart a chance . " she kept her views . I looked at her being unsure . she sensed it . . she sat next to me and hugged me . " and if you have no feeling for him , just attraction then tell him clearly . even after that if he stalk you then just call me , dekh lenge khanne ko( we will see khanna) " she said . I smiled to her and hugged her back .

Today was ISC outside location competition where contestant have to prepare dishes for the people on the streets and who ever will get less public votes will be out . it was old delhi place. Its been three days I had talked with miss Sharma , when she was all silent . vicky had informed me that she came on the next day . I was so busy with my work that I didn't visited white chillies till now and I thought that I will confront her today in competition but I was unable to see her . the competition had not started till now . she is always before time to support her friend . I decided to call her . I dialed her no . first call was missed . she didn't picked . I dialed again and she picked .

Mehek- hello ( I smiled as I heard her voice )

Shaurya - you are well now ( I teased her )

she took some time and replied

mehek - is there any work .

she dodged the question

shaurya - where are you , I can't see you .

mehek- superman ho? That you can see people when you are not near to them ( she asked in a taunting manner)

shaurya ( I thought of teasing her more ) you want me to be , suuperr,man.

Mehek was silent now .

Shaurya mehek . don't go silent again . where are you . you are not here to support your friend rahulll( I said deliberately stressing on Rahul )

Mehek - I am at white chillies .

Shaurya - why you didn't took day off for supporting your friend .

Mehek - its busy here in white chillies .

Shaurya - aur tumhare bager toh white chiielies chal hi nahi sakta na( and without you white chillies just can't run right .) I commented .

Mehek - tum , tumhe kaam nahi hai kya ( aren't you having any work )?

Shaurya - kar raha hoon na, tumse baat ( I am working , talking to you )

Mehek- mujhe nahi karni ( but I don't want to )

She was about to cut the call . when I said my last statement

Shaurya - good to know , ki tum usse ignore kar rahi ho , mujhe ignore karne ke liye ( that you are ignoring him to ignore me )

I said and cut the call . I enjoyed teasing her . well good out of this is that I don't have to bear their friendship in front of my eyes . Mahesh rushed to me " sir everything is ready " . "yes I am coming " I said and went to the stage area .

Everyone was partying at my house . Rahul was in final along with mrs hema and kiran . I was very happy , more happy seeing his happiness which he was sharing with my family . I was sitting on the dinning table . mohit nehal and Rahul were dancing together . Rahul saw me and came to me . he picked a laddoo from the sweet box and made me eat it . I was already full " bas kar yaar( stop it yaar ) I said while he still fed me . he sat along with me . " tu kyun nahi aayi( why you didn't came ) he asked . I took a sigh . " It was busy at work plus I wanted to make sure that I get leave on finale " I lied with a smile . I was guilty within my self as I remembered shuarya words " good to know , ki tum usse ignore kar rahi ho , mujhe ignore karne ke liye ( that you are ignoring him to ignore me ) which were true . " I will not ignore you now I said absentminded . he looked at me being curious and amazed . his phone ranged , it was arjun flashing on his phone screen . he looked at me with big smile , I had same on my face . " hey kiddo he said picking up . " thanks bro he was getting disturb by the celebration song of my siblings . he moved out of house. Nehal pulled me for dance along with sonal and mohit .

we all were done with our dancing and now were wraping up the things already daaji has commented his famous dialogues " bas karo hoon( stop now) . " mehek , ja dekh yeh Rahul kahan reh gaya, khana tayaar hai ( go see, where is Rahul. Dinner is ready ) chachi said placing the plates on dinning table . I noded and went out to see Rahul . i was out looking for Rahul . he was not near the house . I found him at some distance . he had his back to me . I called him " Rahul baat khatam ho gayi toh , bahar kya kar raha hai . jacket bhi nahi pehni tune . aaj kal raat ko dhand ho jati hai ( if your call is finished then what are you doing outside . you have not even wore your jacket . these days its cold in night) I was saying this approaching him but the moment I saw his face I just stoped . he had tears in his eyes . " Rahul I said keeping a hand on his shoulder . I had never seen him crying . " tu ro raha hai I asked with concern . he chuckled while wiping the corner of his eyes " kitchen main hota , toh bol deta pyaaz kat raha tha . aur koi bahana bhi nahi aata ( if I would have been in kitchen , then I would have said I was cutting onion . don't know any other excuse ) he said turning to me . I was unable to smile on his joke . he saw worry on my face for him . " arey yaar kuch nahi . arjun ki motivational speech sun kar rona aa gaya ( nothing yaar . got emotional listening to arjuns emotional speech ) I forced a smile to hide my worry . he still had tears in his eyes . " did you know what he said. Bhaiya haar jit toh lage rehti hai ( brother win or lose are part and parcel of life ) , more important is to give your 100 % that you are giving he said imitating arjuns teenage voice . he smiled to it and I smiled seeing him . " phone kat karne se pehle pata kya bolta hai . ( do you what he said before ending the call ). I don't need a home till you are with me . so just enjoy . " he said . he closed his eyes and said " I need to win it for him mehek . he opened his eyes and looked at me and took a sigh. I smiled and gave him a side hug . " chal andar chal ( go inside ) " I said . he smiled back and started walking to my home . I just stood at my place only . when he noticed that he turned and asked " you are not coming ". I replied him " you go , I will come in a minute . he turned and left . I walked few steps to the small temple that was there in my house lane . I stood in front of it and joined my hands and prayed with my eyes closed . " when I had not won last year mata rani . I had felt bad. I have never confessed it to anybody about this till now . but I am saying it today . it was terrible feeling . giving your hundered percent and still losing It . people will console you its okay . its not the end of the world but I don't want to say all that to Rahul . its his last chance to save his dream . please make him win mata rani . if not for him then for arjun . a child who is Rahul's world . please make him win. Just make him win " I layed my heart out to god . I opened my eyes and nod my head once more and turn to leave . when I was going back I felt I saw somebody leaving from there but I didn't saw anyone . just felt the footstep . I ignore the thought and went inside .

I sat in my car and dialed a no " yeah I wanna know everything about Rahul phian . yes its very urgent I ended the call saying these words I looked at the direction from where i came . I was outside paranthe wali gayi where I came to meet mehek Sharma to confront her but saw her with Rahul and heard her prayer . I looked back at road . she wants her friend to win. I recalled her words in my mind and started my car to drive back home . I was in my room when my phone ranged . it was of the person whom I have asked about mr phian. " yes tell he had informed me how Rahul will lose his house if he didn't paid 25 lakh sum in time to hiis dealer and the dead line was three days after the finale of ISC . I thanked him for his information . I came out in my lobby and sat on couch . I was confused . now I know that Rahul is in desperate need to win , has a brother to look after without having any job in his hand and more importantly mehek wants him to win . I have an unreasonable dislike for him . well I know the reason but still my jealousy is just because I hate to see him so close to mehek . I can't be harsh to him due to that and because mehek wants him to win ,I should not go easy on him . it would be unfair to others. I was in state of little confusion now . I had to be fair to every contestant . I had to make sure of it .

It was final day now . my whole family came today to support Rahul . he was nervous I could say . the competition has not started till now so I decided to relax him . I went to rajiv sir and asked his permission to meet Rahul once . he agreed and requested me to be fast . I thanked him and went to Rahul . he saw me coming . " I needed you yaar " he said when I approached him . I smiled " itna kyun dar raha hai( why are you scared so much ) . he shrugged his shoulder and smiled to me . this nervousness is difficult to ignore at such times but I have to relax him . I smiled back to him . I dialed a no on my phone . it was arjun. " hi aru , yeh le apne bhai se baat kar ( take to your bother ) " I said keeping the phone on speaker. " bhaiya , just enjoy okay. I will love if u win and if you lost . I have to love you more takin aap devdas na ban jao( so that you doesn't became a devdas . ) he said last line dramatically . me and Rahul both laughed on this . " bhai . I am always with you and if you felt like hugging me just hug mehek di . I love you. all the best " he ended the call saying that. I smiled to Rahul whose eyes were again glittery. I gave him a tight hug as I felt he needed it . " thank you I heard him saying . we broke our hug when somebody coughed . I turned back and saw shaurya khaanna standing there with a not so happy face . now I had cold feets instead of Rahul . " can we start , if you are done with your hugs " I heard him saying with a hardened jaw . he was looking at me only and I don't wanted to look back to those eyes which always has the power to hold me . I just passed him and sat in the audience with my family . show was started . todays round was explained by rajiv sir . the task was to prepare flor de chocolate negro . I know this dish . a chocolate desert . a difficult one . specially the presentation . the good part is that I know that Rahul is well aware with this dish . rajiv sir has asked all the three finalist whether they know the dish or not and everone replied yes they know . then step forward shaurya khanna and said . " this dish is gonna be the finale dish of the season . I want you to put your every effort in making it a desire piece so that you could impress the person who would be judging it . his words surprised me and everyone in the room . " dear contestant . please welcome our judge for finale . mr antony mark " the hall was filled with claps as shaurya annouced this and a british man in his late fourties entered the set from back stage . he was escorted by Vicky sir . shaurya welcomed him and gave his biography . " mark is well known american celebrity chef , who owns many hotels in America and has specially came to india for judging ISC finale . we all know these contestant from weeks now . some we may favour some we may not . here mark is oblivious to all three and will select the winner just with the credibility of their dish . fair result " he said the last words looking at me . I looked back at him . he deliberately did that but why .

i know i am very late but i will compensate by updating early this week.

Originally posted by: Nandu0123

Chapter : 17

Di I'm sorry for not clear fb because my comment is deleted three times now due to my bed network plz ignore the mistakes

Ok round four is starts now and ms is also this round and she team up with mrs.hema this time and mrs hema is really nice person and she have no problem with ms helping rahul but sk found about it and cut one in both team and later he behave totally jerk with mrs hema at testing time 😡

Even rajeev sir told that it's not problem but he didn't listen anyone when ms about taste the chicken he stops her and taunts her

Ms leave from there and holding her tears 😭 when she listen the results she was happy because both rahul and hema are safe and after listening result she left from there and reach parking area and starts crying there when she feels hand on her shoulders she thinks it's rahul and hugs him and tells everything about wt was in her mind now

Di sk realise about his feelings kya ? Why he hugs ms and kiss her checks ? 😆

And he tells that he didn't drink in party and now 😆😆Di don't u think u ended at wrong point 😉😛

Continue soon di 🤗 ⭐️

For beautiful update and pm me di ⭐️