Raman pulled ishita closer and kissed her temple while she pecked his lips.
Raman -its getting late jaan, let's sleep. He said laying down on the bed.
Ishita -kya raman, apni suhaagraat ki raat kaun sota hai. She said adjusting on his chest.
Raman -achcha ji, sota nahi hai toh kya karta hai.
Ishita -pyaar karta hai apni nayi naveli dulhan se. She said keeping her legs on his.
Raman -but woh toh humne kar liya naa.
Ishita -what,we just did it once. Aap kitne sadu ho,u r satisfied. Not fair.
Raman-ofcourse, I am not satisfied. I want to love u alot, but can't do it either, as my little baby is very weak.
Ishita-weak, no way I am all good.
Raman -really, u think so, but I don't think so, coz I know u r not OK. U have tried to kill urself thrice in last two -three days ,and I know how weak u r physically. So it will be better if u sleep tonight.
Ishita -but raman, she said getting up.
Raman -no but bachcha, come to me, I will make u sleep. He said opening his arms for her. She made a baby pout seeing him while he just smiled making her smile too. She lay down and snuggle into him while he kissed the back of her palm.
Both were staying in same position when ishita said -raman.
Raman -hmm.
Ishita -aapko bahut gussa aaya hoga naa mujh par.
Raman -huh, kab.
Ishita -when u have seen me with ashok that too being the owner of ur all companies. Aapko lagaa hoga naa ki Maine aapse aapka sab kuch cheen liya. She said looking at him.
Raman kissed her temple and said -aisa kuch bhi nahi hai.
Ishita -jhooth, I know u must be very hurt. Maine aapse aapki property le li, aapki maa le li. Aur phir u thought I was with ashok, toh aapko bura toh bahut lagaa hoga naa. Sach sach bataiye Raman. I don't want any kind of secret between us, joh bhi shikwe shikayat hai, hum aaj hi dur kar lenge. Kal se hamare liye ek naya savera hoga.
Raman -mujhe tumse koi shikayat nahi hai jaan. Yes I was very hurt and angry with u, but when I saw u that day so much in pain, mujhe ehsaas hua ki tum mujhse kitna pyaar karti ho. And I was such an idiot to hate u. Uss din se le kar aaj tak bas yahin koshish kar raha hoon ki tumhe itna khush rakhun ki tum kabhi bhi cigarette yaa sharab ko haath mat lagao. U know everytime to lite a cigarette or have a drink, u make me die a little. Main tumhe takleef mein nahi dekh sakta,kabhi nahi dekh sakta tha. U remember, jab tum mujhse nafrat karti thi, tab bhi main tumhe takleef mein nahi dekh paata tha. Tumhara thoda saa sick hona yaa rona, mujhe kabhi bardasht nahi tha. Aur ab jab tumhe mujhse pyaar ho gaya hai, toh tumhe khone ke darr se bhi main darr jaata hoon. Sirf issliye chahta hoon ki tum yeg nashe ki lat chod do. I know it's not easy but u r not alone. Main hoon tumhare saath, har raaste par.u just have to be a little brave and everything will be fine. He said and look at her, she was already looking at him.
Ishita -i promise raman, main nahi peeungi, kabhi nahi peeungi. Chahe mujhe kitni bhi takleef ho, I will fight back raman. Main ab kabhi nahi peeungi. Aapki kasam. She said and kissed his chest.
Raman wrapped his arms around her and said -achcha, chalo ab so jao.
Ishita -i wanted to tell u something.
Raman -haan bolo.
Ishita -i don't want to go office anymore.
Raman -ab yeh baat kaha se aa gayi.
Ishita -aise hi, humne aaj ek nayi zindagi shuru ki hai. Main nahi chahti ki ab hamari beech kisi bhi tarah ke differences aaye.
Raman -main kuch samjha nahi.
Ishita -ashok hamari company mein kaam karta hai. I know u don't have any problem with him. But aaj nahi hai shayad baad mein u started getting insecure, so I just want to say ki problem ko yahin khatam kar diya jaaye.
Raman -aur kaise hogi problem khatam, tumhare caliber ko dabaa kar.
Ishita -i don't mean to say that, it's just I don't want to go away from u. Mujhe bas aapke saath rehna hai.
Raman -aur woh kaise hoga agar main office mein rahunga aur tum ghar mein. Mere paas tob tum tab rahogi naa, jab hum saath saath office mein rahe aur saath saath ghar mein rahen.
Ishita -aur ashok.
Raman -ashok, shitu hamare rishte ke kamzor hone ka kaaran ashok nahi, hum dono ke beech ki duri thi. Aur ab jab duri nahi hai toh hamara rishta bhi kamzor nahi hoga. Issliye tum mere saath office jaogi aur hum saath kam karenge. OK.
Ishita -pakka naa, hamare beech koi problem nahi hogi.
Raman -never, now enough of talking, now sleep. He said and start patting her softly. Soon both slept cuddled in each other.
Later in night, Ishita got up feeling restless, she looked at the clock and saw it was three in night. She wiped her sweat and look around trying to feel better but the restlessness wasn't stopping.
She took a glass of water and gulped it in a go trying to give some solace to herself. But she wasn't getting any peace. She was feeling like screeching someone hard due to the restlessness. She got out of the bed and start walking to and fro. She was tucking her hair behind her ear again and again.
After sometime, she sat and said -ek baar pee loon. Phir kabhi nahi peeungi. Sach, just one chance. She said and took out the bottle from her bag. She opened the bottle to drink. She was about to drink it when her eyes fell on raman, who was sleeping peacefully wrapped in his duvet.
She remembered that she sweated on him that she will never drink. She stopped herself remembering that and said throwing the bottle -no, no I can't drink. I can't break his trust, I can't break his promise, I can't drink. No. She screamed on top of her voice breaking his sleep.
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