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Adjiraj's monologue about the last few weeks that's been one rollercoaster of a ride:

Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend. Albert Camus

Friends are special. Some are there everyday, some are there in your moments of weakness, some are there as a temporary guest in your life. No matter what kind of friends each one end up as, what matters is they were there at some point of time. How blessed are we to have friends like that.

But what if you've never had a friend? All I had growing up was, pain and abandonment ,added to it the responsibility of being the elder sibling and guardian to my Tanya when my only parent my papa was locked away in prison. There was no time to play friendship with kids around ,there was no one to trust. When people I thought were my own, destroyed my family, I simply didn't have the courage to extend my trust to strangers. I had no one to call my friend. Tanya was the sunshine in my life, but she was too little and innocent. That fateful day, I promised myself that I'll try my best to keep her away from the dark side of the world. I know it's not completely possible but a brother will always try to be sister's protector.

Then one fine day the same fate that had been calling the shots over my life, took me right back to the place where it all began: Lal mahal. I know this case is tricky, my career and my personal life is headed towards a head on collision! But some things in life can't be left unanswered. I need answers. I need to get justice, and I believe "Do good it'll come back to you". My mother was a righteous woman. I live by her beliefs. I'm not a coward like my father who was unjustly accused, but never fought back. Had he done so, we won't have been living like orphans while he was sent to prison. He's my father but I find him a coward. I shall never be one!!

Stepping foot into Lal mahal brought in memories of old, good old days, but the past has tainted those memories. I can't savour those moments anymore as I only remember that day when papa was dragged away in front of us.

Lal mahal have all the well known players but there's one new player that has entered:Anami. She's apparently the daughter of Satrupa and Baldev. I'm sure she's a fake one. Our first meet was strange. We banged into the other. She's weird. She's unlike girls I have seen. She's loud, she's arrogant and a big mouth. Goodness, how much can a 17 year old talk, her know it all attitude is irritating but she's not bad at heart. We met again when I went to question the people at the mahal about Vatsalya's murder, she clashed with me then too. Gave a welcoming gesture with a ball aimed straight for my forehead! Good aim this girl has, her justification for her mistake reminded me, this one is one of a kind! We kept bumping into the other with the whole DNA test process.

Her so called fake mother approached me to oversee the whole process, in exchange offering me a bribe. At that moment I knew she's up to no good and as expected the DNA test turned out positive. As she wanted it to be. Anami was so confident that it'll be negative. I truly believed she was a victim of Satrupa's schemes, but looks like she's another one of those frauds, whose eyes is where the money is. Who'll want to let go of an opportunity to benefit from the golden goose. My head tells me this girl is not worth my friendship, but my heart says there's something more to it.

I decide to do another paternity test. Despite it being a sign of my own inefficiency and professional misconduct that allowed Satrupa to manipulate things, I had to do it to comfort myself, that my reading of Anami was right. There's this compelling need in my heart, that needs to be put to rest my understanding about the jhalli. I can't be that terrible in reading a person right? Anyway to rest all doubts and accusations once and for all, I do the test. I acquire the sample sneakily. Oh well, all is well that ends well right!!

Report is positive. Feels like a huge weight is off my chest!! Now only thing is, that girl should never come to know about this. I don't want to hurt her. I know how she'll feel, but then I was forced to do it!! I can't trust anyone. She has to understand a friend. I hope she meant what she said when she said she's my friend now. I don't expect her to be happy about it but I hope she'll understand me. That's what friends do right, read between the lines, as it is she's way more mature than people her age.

She came to know about it!! Now she's annoyed. She's right too, but I also need a chance to tell my side of the story, so I went back there. Goodness this is one tough nut to crack. I don't know if I'll ever figure out this girl. I thought a man apologising without going all hulk on her will make her happy. But no, she not only starts screaming, she beats me with a stick!! Can you even believe it? This is one strange girl, but still I hope she'll be my friend. I don't know how this whole friendship thing works, but I think I'll figure it out along the way!!
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Posted: 7 years ago
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Did you ever wonder if the person in the puddle is for real, and you are just a reflection?
Bill Watterson


Welcome back, Benna 🤗

That was a much loved reflection on Adhiraj's interlude, herewith a poignant take on the man whose denigrated by fate and disparaged by destiny, as he stood tall and fought the adversities to carve a niche for himself and his little sister, subjugating her from the harshness of reality as he withered storms to find his bearings, while the world passed by and moved on.

And the shrivelled soul dwindled to keep his sanity intact as he channelized his being into avenging the wrongs and the injustice that was meted out to his fore-bearers,while not letting his conscious perish with the hate that resides within the confines of his cold heart. And he did good, as he tightened the noose of legalities around the necks of the reprobates, until the vicarious came along to derail him from his predestined path, while he struggled to fight the allurement, only to crumble and relinquish his pursuit for enlivening his parched soul with those peppered drops of love, basking in the satisfaction that his heart seizes and his mind banishes him to seek.

Yet, like a man enraptured and entranced, he stumbles his way to the vivaciousness that beckons him to abandon his obligation and reach out to curb that bewitched and untainted fair maiden whose miffed and disgruntled stance has his heart yearning for her gratification, her cognizance, as he makes his way to his benefaction..his...Anami.

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Benna, that was a beautiful reflection of Adhiraj's journey so far.
From his insecure childhood to vulnerable present, you have captured his journey so beautifully.

For the first time ever in his lonely life, he has found a friend who not only understands him but sees right through him. For someone, who had no one to share his feelings, he found someone, who don't even needs words to know them. How beautiful is that! Despite of her young age, Adhiraj considers her an equal and worthy of sharing his deepest insecurities. He does realises that no one has understood him better than Anami. Romantic or not, they definitely share a soulful connection. The most beautiful one!

He goes by his Mother's beliefs in goodness, can he go wrong? Never. The Goodness, he believes in will bring him closer to the truth. The truth of his life, he desperately searches for. He is like a parched soul who seeks the meaning of life and its purpose. Has he seen the glimpses of his oasis in his new found friend?


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Aww this is absolutely adorkable ! Just like Adhiraj !😆

I love how you highlighted the thoughts of Adhiraj as a young kid, aloof and forced-to-mature at a young age. How protective he is of Tanya and protects the only bundle of happiness in his life. And slowly, Anami is worming her way though. Despite, misjudging her - his innate belief compelled him to sought out the truth - and truly belives her to be a true and honest girl ; and let's hope the bond turns stronger and even more beautiful, in the coming days. 😳

And even though it is very dreamy @ Dreamer-89 ; I'm sure that's not your name, what do I call you, dear lady ? 😆😉
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Posted: 7 years ago
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Benna

Thank you for taking the bait and penning this eloquent interlude from Adhiraj's perspective. It made up for a compelling read. And I do hope that this one is a concatenation of interludes and we will have more coming. 😃

Updated the reserve and thank you for re-formatting the post.

I know I am demanding, but I only want the best, from the one I know whose capable of nothing but the best. 🤗 ❤️

God bless !!
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Benna, a very interesting analysis of Adhiraj's thoughts.

There is a naivete about him that is at odds with both his position and profession.

You sense an inherent goodness in him which is what Anami subconsciously responds to. The hurt that she initially feels at his duplicity in stealing a lock of her hair is mitigated by that feeling inside of her, more than his sorry I feel.

I really liked how you touched on his 'memories of the good old days". Dheeru was a trusted and favoured aide of Vikramaditya, and as his child he would have come to Lal Mahal many a time. He would maybe have been indulged by the Lal Mahal residents as a child, and so the betrayal by them of his father, and by extension him, would be that much more painful and would further feed the hatred of today.
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Congratulations Benna!

Guys, this post has been liked by Ankit Siwach aka Adhiraj

Benna, you go girl!


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Benna,
What a wonderful peek into Adhi's mind! 🤗

This guy! Sigh...

As turbulent as my mind is,
As untamed as your spirit is,
There's a feeling that binds me to you,
That which seeps into the crevices of my mind,
And fills me with joy,
And makes me feel whole.

Isn't this the most beautiful feeling, the most adorable friend I have had?!

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Originally posted by: ammu3

Aww this is absolutely adorkable ! Just like Adhiraj !😆

I love how you highlighted the thoughts of Adhiraj as a young kid, aloof and forced-to-mature at a young age. How protective he is of Tanya and protects the only bundle of happiness in his life. And slowly, Anami is worming her way though. Despite, misjudging her - his innate belief compelled him to sought out the truth - and truly belives her to be a true and honest girl ; and let's hope the bond turns stronger and even more beautiful, in the coming days. 😳

And even though it is very dreamy @ Dreamer-89 ; I'm sure that's not your name, what do I call you, dear lady ? 😆😉



Hey Ammu if I can call you that 😳 I'm Benna. Adjiraj as a character has impressed me over the past few weeks. He's not the typical angry young man who goes around push pulling and going all hulk mode with the girl 😆 He's got a past that's not been perfect but he's turned out to be a good human. His ideologies may not always be right. But his heart is in the right place. I liked the fact that he vented out his anger and frustration on the punching bag, calmed down and then went to have a conversation with Anami. He knew he messed up, no ridiculous misunderstanding no stretched out illogical egoistic talks just a direct request to be given a chance to let him say his side of the story. A fresh change from the normal heroes of tellyland. He's not perfect he's human and that's what made it easy to write a post from his perspective.
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Originally posted by: Ecrivain.

Did you ever wonder if the person in the puddle is for real, and you are just a reflection?

Bill Watterson


Welcome back, Benna🤗

That was a much loved reflection on Adhiraj's interlude, herewith a poignant take on the man whose denigrated by fate and disparaged by destiny, as he stood tall and fought the adversities to carve a niche for himself and his little sister, subjugating her from the harshness of reality as he withered storms to find his bearings, while the world passed by and moved on.

And the shrivelled soul dwindled to keep his sanity intact as he channelized his being into avenging the wrongs and the injustice that was meted out to his fore-bearers,while not letting his conscious perish with the hate that resides within the confines of his cold heart. And he did good, as he tightened the noose of legalities around the necks of the reprobates, until the vicarious came along to derail him from his predestined path, while he struggled to fight the allurement, only to crumble and relinquish his pursuit for enlivening his parched soul with those peppered drops of love, basking in the satisfaction that his heart seizes and his mind banishes him to seek.

Yet, like a man enraptured and entranced, he stumbles his way to the vivaciousness that beckons him to abandon his obligation and reach out to curb that bewitched and untainted fair maiden whose miffed and disgruntled stance has his heart yearning for her gratification, her cognizance, as he makes his way to his benefaction..his...Anami.



👏 You've brought out the brokenness of his soul so beautifully.

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