opening the door slowly he walked into his room at late night after long working hours,a smile crept on his face when his eyes laid on the bed where his wife sleeping in the mid while ruhi,shravan occupied two corners and with riya and rohan on either side of ishitha
'so today is children's night' he thought keeping his lappy bag aside he dimmed the bed light and opened the green curtains of the window so that the room won't be more dark as the moon is emitting efficient light to see his wife glowing face
he can't even go near her and peck her forehead as she was at the centre of the bed
smiling at her he slowly walked towards the wardrobe taking out his clothes walked out aiming to ruhi's room
after a quick bath he came out in his night wear,smiling at his daughter favorite room decked in pink took place on her bed pulling over her pink bedsheet
sleep was far thing after seeing ishitha with all the kids of the home in her arms,how wrong he was in judging her now he knows she is the best mother to their daughter and the love she has for kids is eternal
it was more than week she took off from her work,and his home filled with joy,his ishitha is the only one who could bring smile on every one's face
raghuram shifted to bhalla's mansion after ishitha took off so that he can spend good time with ishitha,throwing all the responsibilities on their children raghu uncle,appa and mr.bhalla took retirement from their work before 4years when ishitha entered into their business world
all the trio old is only do few signs and video calls with their old clients to assure their shares are at good hands
and ishitha's life from past one week revolve around the four kids in the mansion and taking care of rinky who was nearing to the delivery
thinking about kids and ishitha unknowingly his mind shifted to the place where he never want to get into and his wife's requests which are going into deaf ears getting only lame excuses in return from her husband
flashback...
before 4years
with their 2years old daughter in the mid they are glancing at her cute features while ishitha started a conversation 'raman we should plan for ruhi's sibling,now ruhi is walking on her own and she is even speaking tiny words' said ishitha pecking her daughter's forehead
listening her words his face went pale as if someone suck the blood from him,when he felt ishitha's palm on his shoulder he composed himself answering her 'ishitha ruhi is very small now she still needs our attention and just now you started working with us,it is so soon for us for planning another baby'
thinking her husband was right poor woman agreed to him unknown to the reality
before 3years
'raman now i think we should plan see ruhi is even going to play school and i got even familiar with work' said ishitha smiling at him shyly
his heart pricked listening to her wish,he can't even pour out his sorrow infront of her trying hard to be normal he sushed her saying riya is months older and sarika is carrying and if they plan who will take care of them
she felt sad this time when raman again ignored her wish,but later she thought he is right kids,mihika and sarika need her
and the next year she didn't uttered a word as she know the kids are small and they need her and the work need her
before an year
she thought to ask him for one last time to know whether he is interested to have one more child or not,and as if she guessed he reasoned her they should not plan any soon as kids are small and even his elder sister didn't plan for any other child after shravan
that's it there was a huge fight between the couple that night and they took a week to reconcile as ishitha she should give some time to raman to plan for another baby,may be he was feared with what happened to her on ruhi's birth time
...end of flashback...
tears rolled down from his eyes thinking those days how he made her sad and how he is not able to fulfill her demand this time and he can't fulfill her demand in this life
crying over their fate he doesn't know when he fell asleep
next morning:
she woke up and looked around to find raman,instead of him she found his bag and wrist watch on the side table and his tie on the couch,she glanced out throught window to see still it is little dark,she glanced at the clock,'now it is only 5.00 am getting married to raman i lost the track of waking up early,but where he was' she thought and got down from the bed not disturbing the kids and placed pillows on the corner so that they won't fall down in sleep
seeing the washroom room door unlock she walked out of room and went to ruhi's room seeing him no where in the hall
a smile crept on her face seeing him sleeping like a kid with a palm under his cheek while the other hand hugging the pillow close to his hear,his small hair falling front covering his forehead,he looked like ruhi in such pose covering himself in his daughter's bedsheet,'sometimes he turns to be very childish' she thought
slowly taking the place of the pillow which he was hugging before she wrapped her one arm around his waist and her leg wrapping over his leg her face hiding in his chest she fell asleep smiling at her husband
he woke up to see his wife in his arms which is one of the best thing which he always wanted to cherish,one look at her he will forget all the worries he carried
tucking a strand of hair at the back of her ear he smiled at her glowing face,'don't know why but she is looking very happy these days,i wish you should smile in this way for ever' he thought pecking her lips waking up her from her dear sleep
she smiled seeing him gazing at her 'Good morning' she said snuggling in his arms making him smile at her childish antics
'when some one say good morning they should not sleep like this seeking warmth from her dear husband' he said pecking her forehead
'i wish to stay here in your arms for all the day' she said looking into his eyes
he hugged her closer to his heart smiling at her wish but soon their privacy got disturbed by continuous knock from their little daughter
'who is there in my room,come out or else i will tell to papa' little devil threatened the persons in the room
'see our daughter won't let us stay in each other arms for a long time,now come get down' he said getting down from the bed
pouting at him sadly she covered herself with the duvet not interested in starting the day
pulling out the duvet away from her he glanced at her who forcefully closed her eyes,he chuckled seeing her behaving like a kid when she has 5years old kid
'darwaza kolo koun hi andhar' ruhi shouted again making ishitha open her eyes
'go as you took leave its your duty to attend ruhi now i am not going to share your work' said raman walking to open the door
'raavan kumar is taking revenge' mumbled ishitha
seeing their parents in her room keeping her both hands on her hips she quirked her eyebrows to get an answer from them
smiling at her he picked ruhi into his arms kissing her dimple 'ru baby won't you say good morning to papa?'
'Good morning papa,Good morning mama' she greeted both of them
'good morning baby' both wished her kissing her cheeks
remembering riya rohan are in her room she mentally smacked for leaving kids alone
'ruu riya and rohan did they woke up?' she enquired tensedly?
'mama don't worry i am there big sister na when you are not there in room i and shravan called mihika chitti she came and took them with her'
she said proudly
'my daughter is very responsible' said ishitha kissing ruhi's cheek'
like my mama said ruhi wrapping her other arm around her mother's neck pulling into her papa's arms for a group hug
smiling at the duo he pecked both their cheeks,one smiled at him and the other one shyed away
...
after two weeks:
'it is already 4weeks i should talk now or else family members definitely get to know,and i can't break their trust this time' thought ishitha arranging their cupboard
listening some footsteps she turned her head to see raman walking into the room lazily loosening his tie,throwing away the lappy bag on the couch
'neelu bring me a cup of tea' shouted raman
'you go and fresh up raman' said ishitha taking out his night wear
taking the clothes from her hand raman walked into washroom as he was really tired
ishitha who was standing there walked out 'raman is looking very tired should i tell him now?' thought ishitha
after taking bath he walked out freshly as if he got some sudden energy
when ishitha entered the room with tea and snacks he enquired her 'where is neelu ishitha why you are bringing?'
'neelu left for the day raman,she has some work and ramu is on leave so no cooks today' said ishitha
sipping the tea he questioned her 'why mansion is silent?'
'only we two are in the mansion' said ishitha
raman looked at her surprised thinking how every one left ishitha alone and none informed her
understanding his concern she explained him why there are no one in mansion 'romi and mihir are still at office,papa went for some get together
kids and other women in the home went to attend some of our relatives marriage they asked me to accompain but i doesn't want to go so i requested them to carry on'
'so we are alone in the home for sometime' he says wrapping his arms around her neck for which she smiled weakly
seeing her disturbed he keeps aside his playful mode and questions her 'did something happened,you are looking very dull?'
'i want to speak with you about something which we are ignoring from long time' said ishitha
understanding her words he moved away from her 'ishitha i have some work,can we talk later' asked raman evading his eyes from her
before he can move away from her sight she held his wrist stopping him from walking away,'raman either it is now or never' she said
'then my answer is never' said raman indirectly
tears rolled down from her eyes listening his answer 'i want to know why never raman you can't simply say that it is never' asked ishitha trying hard to be strong
'why you want another kid ishitha,we already have ruhi,riya,rohan and shravan,everyone are our kids then why you want one more ishitha,stop thinking about that' said raman
'yes raman ruhi,riya,rohan,shravan everyone are our kids but is it a crime if i wish for a second kid,don't you want to become papa again,i promise you raman i won't break your trust,do you still think i can't be a good mother,or will i repeat same mistake which i did in past'
asked ishitha trying hard to control her tears
'i could never give an answer for your questions ishitha,i am sorry' thought raman struggling to hold back his tears
'i don't want any other kid ishitha,it is my final decision and never try to bring this discussion infront of me' said raman walking out of room
while ishitha collapsed on the floor crying vigorously remembering raman's words
'i can't abort this kid raman please change your decision,i am unable to understand why you are not willing to welcome a new member into our family'
cried ishitha not understanding how to make raman agree
before 1month 2days back:...
in italy:
'mrs.bhalla congrats you are two weeks pregnant,i think you should undergo some tests so that we can get to know the fetus health and growth' said doctor
ishitha was on cloud nine listening to doctor's words 'i am pregnant,i am so happy but how raman is using precautions might be he missed last time,will he agree for this baby,i will make him agree,this happened unexpectedly i think God wants to bless us with another kid'
thought ishitha
listening to doctor's question she came back out of thoughts 'mrs.bhalla will you take tests now?'
i am sorry doctor i have a flight tonight to India,after getting back to India i will go for a check up,thanks for giving such a good news for me,i am very happy' said ishitha
'it's ok don't be late get your check up down as soon as you land in India' suggested doctor
...
it was almost 1 and half month raman is not agreeing today with his words i know he definitely ask me to abort this kid,but how can i kill my own kid i can't do this,he has to take a decision,i won't ignore my health like before i should be careful and healthy'
thought ishitha,wiping her tears she left to kitchen taking her dinner she went to her room with a firm decision to take a stand regarding her baby
on the other side raman was driving in the city while ishitha's words are echoing in his ears "don't you want to become papa again"
stopping at side he cried his heart out 'i too want to become papa ishitha,but we can't we lost that chance'
flashback...
before 5years...
in ooty...
when ishitha fell on the ground by slipping on the water hitted by the chair she cried her lungs out while raman and other family members rushed out to her
holding her bump she cried uncontrollably with pain
'ishitha nothing will happen to you,i am with you,everything will be fine' cried raman shouting at romi to take the car out
'papa please call doctor and inform about ishitha's situation' shouted raman carrying his wife in his arms
with romi driving raman settled in passenger seat while vandita with ishitha in her lap 'romi drive fast ishu is bleeding' shouted vandita crying seeing her sister's condition
she got reminded of her mother's condition when she fell in the same way
raman cried long the way consoling ishitha who was shouting in pain when he himself was in so much pain seeing ishitha in a vunerable condition
...
soon they reached the hospital and ishitha was taken to emergency theatre
ishitha's doctor walked in to OT immediately followed by some senior doctors and nurses
while raman collapsed on the ground crying uncontrollably in his daadi's arms 'daadi if something happens to ishitha i can't live already her pregnancy got very complicated now this fall,please daadi tell them to save my ishitha at any cost'
begged raman to his daadi
'please be strong raman nothing will happen to ishitha,she has all our blessings,don't loss your hope and strength' cried daadi consoling his grand child
please fill this consent form' asked nurse forwarding the papers to raman
reading that hospital or doctors are not responsible for patients death raman shouted at nurse how could they say that
after lots of consoling from raghu ram he signed the papers praying to God that nothing should happened to ishitha
appa and amma are devasted listening the news while raghu ram and every person in the family are worried for ishitha's safety
...after 6hours...
ishitha's gyneac and other senior doctors walked out of the room seeing them raman rushed to them 'how is ishitha,she is fine right nothing happened to her right?'asked raman comforting himself
'sorry mr.bhalla...'
before she could continue more raman cried nodding his head negatively 'no nothing should happen to my ishitha,i will call doctors from foreign if you can't do but please don't tell no'
begged raman
'mr.bhalla control yourself ishitha slipped into coma' announced doctor making raman collapse in a chair
'with the fall her brain stopped responding with the lack of oxygen and heavy bleeding,i already warned you to take care of her and i even appointed a doctor to stay with her for 24hours i don't know why ishitha sent her today from your home if she doesn't respond in 24hours she might slip into permanent coma'
said doctor
'what about baby' bala couldn't stop from asking because ishitha beared so much pain to see her baby,he wanted the baby to be safe as she is ishitha's resemble
'congrats mr.bhalla it is a baby girl but she is very weak and she is under observation in incubator,when we think she is fine we will shift the baby to normal ward and you can see at that time'
no words entered into raman's head after listening that ishitha may slip into permanent coma if she won't gain consciousness in 24hours
he silently stayed out of OT glancing at her through the glass door 'how can you sleep like this peacefully when my heart is bleeding seeing you like this on the bed in an irresponsive state'
raghuram can't stay quietly he walked into doctor's cabin and asked her 'i want my daughter to be safe do anything she should wake up' shouted raghuram at doctor
'sir we can't do anything you can get any specialist they can't do anything she should be coming out of coma on her own,and to be say frankly i don't have any hopes
i thought we couldn't even say the baby but she is lucky to see this world
we took 6hours to get the baby out of her womb,there was a bowel obstruction because of change in position of the baby with the fall,do you know how difficult to save the baby,ishitha's uterus has damaged severely '
said the doctor about the severity of the fall
'please do something to save my baby' pleaded raghuram
'we can't do anything now' said doctor walking out leaving a shattered raghuram and raman who came to talk with doctor about ishitha's situation
'uncle please do something' asked raman feeling helpless for the first time,both found solace for the first time in each other's arms
'i already lost one daughter now i can't loss ishitha nothing will happen to her' said raghuram consoling himself and raman
...
after 24hours ...
'sorry mr.bhalla we are shifting her to seperate ward as ordered by raghuram sir,we are helpless you can see your baby she is fine and please be extra carefull with the baby' said doctor walking away leaving raman and other family members in tears
a nurse walked in with the baby wrapped in pink soft towel 'here your baby' said nurse handing over the baby to raman making everyone move towards the baby
bhalla's never thought that they won't smile seeing the first baby in the new generation
the baby held raman's attention helding his finger in her tiny palm yawning in sleep
he laid his eyes on the baby who was pinkish in color with soft skin,her eyes resembled ishitha's eyes,her dimples resembled his dimples
he smiled in tears hugging the baby as if he gained strength from baby,he walked into ishitha's room with the baby in his arms,seeing her mother she blinked her eyes smiling softly
'i hope atleast listening to your sounds your mother will wake up' said raman to the baby while she wailed with hunger
vandita was the one who took care of baby's hunger and every need of her for a week
...after a week...
as usual raman and the baby settled beside ishitha waiting for her to wake up,everyone in the family started losing hopes on ishitha
and they cried seeing raman's situation as he forgot the meaning of sleep and food
listening to his baby's squealing he turned towards her who was pointing her little hand towards her mother,his eyes followed ishitha to see her opened her eyes looking at her surroundings
he immediately shouted for doctor making the family members run into the room
before any one can speak doctor and nurse asked everyone to walk out
'raman was happy for seeing ishitha awake and worried if she get into coma again,praying to God he stood outside the room waiting anxiously'
seeing the doctor walking out he took a deep breath 'she is fine you can go and meet her,but still she needs rest,so keep the environment silent around her' suggested doctor walking out
ishitha who was blocked out for sometime came into normal state and the first thing she did was touching her flat stomach 'my baby' she uttered fearing something might happen to her baby
before she can get hyper raman walked in with baby in his arms 'she smiled seeing a little figure in her husband arms'
'our baby' she uttered slowly looking at raman
while raman nodded his head happily
she took the baby into her arms observing all her features 'she looks more like you raman' she said glancing at raman and showered the little kid with kisses,'our ruhi' uttered ishitha making raman nod his head
raman who was controlling all his emotions hugged her making sure baby is safe in her arms,he cried his heart out while ishitha stayed numb not understanding what happened to him that he was crying like a kid
after sometime all the family members walked in and cried hugging her
later she got to know she was in coma for a week,she cried hugging raman thinking what he might went through
leaving the baby with ishitha raman walked into doctor's room to ask whether ishitha is perfectly fine
'doctor do all the tests once again let ishitha stay until she is perfectly fine' said raman
'mr.bhalla we already did all her tests,i have to inform you one thing' said doctor making raman's heart skip a beat
'ishitha conceiving again is impossible,it will be better if we remove her uterus,when she brought into hospital our whole attention went on to save the kid
and after ishitha slipping into coma our thoughts didn't went back to her health condition
after the fall her uterus has become weak and there is a blockage in her fallopian tube,i think it will be good for her life if you make her agree for this operation
tears rolled down from his eyes listening ishitha can never become a mother again,'no i can't say this to her she will be heart broken i don't think she will digest this,she loves kids very much'
'but the operation is necessary mr.bhalla if by mistake she gets conceived it will be danger for her' suggested doctor
'i will take care of that,she won't get conceived again,i cant tell this heart wrenching news to her now' said raman walking out from the doctor's cabing
...end of flashback
wiping his tears he determined not to fall weak on ishitha's request
'i won't agree for any of your wish which is harmful to your life ishitha' thought raman drivin back to the mansion
by the time he reached everyone in the family are back
he walked into the room to see ishitha sleeping with a frown on her forehead,he placed a kiss on her forehead wiping away the frown from her face
'i hope you will be normal by tomorrow like always' thought raman unknown to the decision she took
...
next day
raman made ruhi ready for the school seeing ishitha still asleep sending off her to school he walked into the room to see ishitha not on bed,he walked near washroom listening water flowing sound he went to get ready for the day
when he walked back he saw a bag on the bed making his heart skip a beat,he looked around ishitha seeing her no where he is about to step out of the room but stopped seeing her entering the room
avoiding him she walked near the wardrobe taking out another bag,place ruhi clothes in it
he started a conversation unable to bear her silence 'ishitha are we going for any outing i think you packed our clothes' he asked hoping it is true
'i am not willing to go anywhere with you,i am going to appa home with ruhi,i won't come back until you change your decision and you are not going to meet me till you agree for my wish
i will ask karthik to drop ruhi here when you come back from office,i would have left ruhi here,but as i am off from work i can take more care on ruhi' said ishitha without looking at raman
his eyes welled up with her words grabbing her hand he made her to look at him 'are you mad do you get what you are speaking,i am not letting you leave me and i won't change my decision'
shouted raman making everyone in the mansion get alert
'i am not ready to listen you raman,i waited for 4years so that your decision will change,but yesterday i understood that you are never going to change your decision'
shouted ishitha back
soon everyone walked to their room to see both husband and wife fighting
daadi(st):after all these years they are fighting but what is the reason for it
'i can't do everything as per your wish ishitha,planning for a child should be done with both our will and i clearly told you iam not interested'
said raman controlling his tears
'i want the reason there should be some valid reason for not willing to plan for another kid' asked ishitha wiping her tears
'there are no reasons i told i am fine with one kid our ruhi' answered raman in emotionless tone
'then i doesn't think i should stay here with you' said ishitha taking the bags into her hands
mrs.bhalla who stood silent till now stepped into the matter 'what is the problem raman and ishitha what is this stupidity,you are grown up and decisions should be taken wisely'
suggested mrs.bhalla
'i doesn't want to listen anything mummiji if you want to advise then tell to your son who was least bothered about his wife genuine wish' accused ishitha
when she was about to step out of the room raman who was thinking ways to stop his life going away from him blurted a lie making ishitha's step halt
'i can't give you the happiness ever again ishitha,i can't become father,i had an accident in londan when ruhi was one year old' said raman thinking he could stop ishitha
everyone stood shockingly listening raman's words while ishitha walked towards him with tears in his eyes
'aap sach bol raha hu kya?' asked ishitha for which raman nodded his head
unable to control her anger she throwed the bags aside and held is collar angrily 'such a big lie and betrayel raman' shouted ishitha making everyone in the room confused with her behavior
'no ishitha it is true,if you want we can adopt a baby' said raman trying to convince ishitha
'i would have believed your words raman if your symbol is not growing in my womb now' shouted ishitha with tears in her eyes
along with everyone raman was shocked listening to her words 'a fresh fear formed in his heart listening her words'
'no its impossible,how can you,i used ' getting conscious about his surroundings his words halted in middle
'you missed taking precautions at the last time before 2months' completed ishitha making him realise his mistake
'whatever it is you will abort the baby' said raman
a slap followed his cheek by his mother the next moment 'how can you kill your own kid,did you gone insane raman' shouted mrs.bhalla while ishitha cried in daadi's arms
'i can kill my kid but not my wife' shouted raman in haste making ishitha and everyone looked shocked
ishitha walked towards him with tears in her eyes 'raman what are you saying?' she questioned him
'after your fall your uterus became weak and doctor said your tubes got blocked because of which you can't carry a baby and conceiving is difficult even if you are conceived then it is danger for both you and baby
please ishitha agree to me i and ruhi can't stay without you,please abort this baby' asked raman which a father never should ask and hugged her crying in her arms
helplessly ishitha cried in his arms cursing her fate 'i know you couldn't bear this news,that is the reason i was evading your question but today i can't see you going away from me and you didn't left any option for me'
said raman crying along with her in each other embrace
ishitha cried helplessly listening to him
all the family members shattered listening the news they all know how ishitha and raman love kids,but God has written only ruhi on their fate
cupping her face he asked her again 'we will abort this baby please ishitha i can't loss you at any cost' cried raman
ishitha nodded her head agreeing to him as she know if something happens to her raman and ruhi can't live,she had seen how raman became over protective towards her and ruhi after she recovered from coma
it took 3months time to recover from the bitter days for raman than ishitha,she can't be selfish for her desire and hurt raman and ruhi
'ok then we will go now itself' said raman bringing ishitha out from her thoughts
listening to him her heart skip a beat and she felt a pit in her stomach
she loosened her grip from him but he held her tightly knowing that she can backout after all a mother could never harm her baby
'no i can't do please' cried ishitha seeing their condition everyone cried out
'please ishitha forget that you conceived again,for my sake for ruhi sake' pleaded raman
'with fear of your rejection this 1month i could never feel this baby,now we are going to kill our own baby,how can i raman i can't do this' cried ishitha in his arms
'its all my mistake i should have been careful' cried raman hugging ishitha
everyone left the room leaving them alone how could they console the couple when they themselves are unable to cope up with the situation
helping her drink the water he made her sit on the bed while she didn't left his embrace as she needed so much of strength to take toughest decision of their life
after much silence voiced out 'raman let us feel the baby for one day after that i will do whatever you say'
'no ishitha the more time you stay the more attached you will get to the baby' he said killing his sobs
taking his palm she kept it on her stomach while he looked at her confusingly 'even now you can't wait to kill our symbol for a day raman' she cried making him cry feeling their baby under his palm
sometimes God pushes lots of shit on our faces which we find difficult to deal
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