Gauri looking thoughtful looking outside the window while speaking to her mother over phone..
G: Haan.. Maa.. koi baat nahi.. tu apni khayal rakho..
Omkaara comes inside..
M: Gauri, damaadjee hai to phone do, main 6 mahine pura hone ki badayi deti hoon
G: Woh kaam mein mashroof hain. Abhi baat nahi kar sakthe. Main usse badayi deti hoon, aapki taraf se.!
He looks at her, thoughtful.
M: Acha tum aur damaadjee kahin bahar jaa rahein kya?
G: Nahi nahi kahin nahi jaa rahe. Shayad 2 din baad jayenge. Abhi unke liye bahut kaam hain. Yeh kya saal gira hain, sirf 6 mahine poora hogaye hain na?
Omkaara just realized the date and memories paned as flashbacks of that day, when he filled her maang with his blood and carried his own little chiraaya in his arms for the phere.
M: Gauri tum khush ho kya?
G: Main khush hoon maa.. yeh kyun baar baar pooch rahi hain?
M: Nahi wo mujhe kabhi kabhi lagta hain, tum todi udaas ho. Shayad damadjee tumse achi se baat nahi karte..
G: Arey nahi nahi.. aise kyun keh rahi ho.. main bahut khush hoon maa. Wo humse achi se baat karte. Tum aayi thin a yahan, dekha nahi?
M: Wo maine kya dekha.. aap logon ko ek do baat karte hue dekha. Uski alava aap dono ko saath mein rehke bhi nahi dekha. Issliye meri mann kabhi kabhi vichilit hoti hain
G: Nahi maa.. jab tu aayi, wo kahin kaam mein mashroof the, issliye doosri room mein kaam kar rahe the. Hum ek hi ghar mein alag alag rahenge kya. Aisa nahi hain. Hum khush hain, tu bas aisi bekaar cheejein sochkar apni tabiyat kharab na karo. Aisa kuch nahi hain..
She was going on without realizing that he was standing near the bed, listening to all the conversations.
The conversation got over after a few minutes. Gauri disconnected the call, turned to place the phone on the table, just then Dandi called. She didn't notice him standing silently in the corner of bed since the room was relatively dark in the evening and she didn't have the interest to switch on the lights.
G: "Haan Dandi bhaiyya kaise hai aap?
D: "Main teek hoon Gauri. Tu kaisi hai, Omkaaraji kaise hai
G: Main teek hoon, Wo bhi teek hain. To batayiye kaisi chal rahi
D: Achi chal rahi hain.. aaj teri 6 months ki anniversary hain na.. mujhe yaad tha.. wish karne ke liye phone kiya
Tears swelled up in her eyes. She vaguely remembered her mentioning wedding date to Dandi. He must have so much affection on her to remember this exactly.
G: Thankoo
D: Bas bhagwaan tumhe saari khushi de.
G: Dandi bhaiyya.. Saturday mil sakthe kya? Bahut din huye aapse milne. Yahan meri koi kaam nahi, baiti baiti bore hi ho jaati hoon. Issliye main soch rahi thi, aap ki miloon. Wo sankarjee ki mandir hain na, aapki moholla mein, wahan milthe hain?
D: Haan kyun nahi. Pucca milthe hain, itna saari batein karni hain. Bahut din hogaye naa, milthe hue?
G: Haan Dandi bhaiyya. Aap se miloongi toh mujhe apni parivaar ki kami mehsoos hi nahi hoti.
D: Gauri, kya tum pareshaan hain.. Omkaara ji ne phir tumhari bezati ki?
G: Bezaati .. nahi nahi dandi bhaiyya.. wo pehli ki baat thi, ab kuch nahi hain.
D: Teek hain, tu fikar na kar, hum mil rahe hain na.. baat kartein hain. Chalo raktha hoon. Khayal rakhna apni..
Gauri turned with a heavy heart and her heart skipped a beat. He was standing there, staring at her with a deep intense look in his dark brown eyes. She couldn't comprehend what was going on behind the face but she was least interested in having a conversation now on their relationship status. She was reminiscing the memories of their marriage and its purpose and was having a silent heart talk conversation with her Sankar jee about his reason in getting her married to this man, who doesn't like her, if not hate her.
O: Gauri, tumse kuch baat karni hain
She knew this was coming, but she was not in the mood for a verbal duel or a reiteration of the discomfort she is, in his life.
G: Kya hain.. She was looking down.
O: Aaj wo.. shaadi ki din hain na..
He stuttered since her uncomfortable gesture was making him more hesitant.
"Han, Meri shaadi ki din" She looked with pain & angst and her voice was an grumpy with the emphasis on the word "Meri" like it's just mine and not yours.
He got irked by the voice and its undercurrent taunt.
"If I remember, shaadi to humne kiya hai"
"Nahi, shaadi maine kiye hain, aap sirf naatak kar rahe the. Yaad nahi hai?"
He is getting used to her passive aggression these days. Whatever he speaks, he ends up being provided low key taunts on his passiveness and not-so-interested take on this shaadi. He was taking it silently since he can't afford to lose her again. 1 week of separation seemed ages even when he was confused about his stance on this relationship.
"Maa ji mujhse baat karwane ke liye pooch rahi thi, kya? Kyun nahi diya, tumne?"
"Aap baat bhi karenge to kya karenge. Yahi ki aap iss shaadi se kitna khush hain ya phir humhaari pyaar bhari rishthe se aapki kitna khushi mili?" Her lips frowned in sarcasm stemming from the disappointment, her life has turned out to be.
"Gauri.. main samajh saktha hoon ki tum upset ho.. Par"
"Par kya.. Haan mein upset hoon, meri zindagi ko lekar. Main sapne bhi nahi dekhi hain ki main kisiki zindagi pe ek bin bulaye mehmaan bankar rahoongi. Mujhe yahan pe aise hi khayal aati hain. Humhaari shaadi sach aur saaya ki beech mein atak gayi aur main isse saaya sochke chod bhi nahi sakthi sach maanke apna bhi nahi sakti. Mujhe khud nahi pata aakhir main karoon kya.." tears swelled up in her eyes as she turned immediately towards the sankarjee and maa parvati's statue in their room.
"Ganesh ji ki papa. aap hi batayiye. Meri zindagi mein, yeh sindoor, mangalsutra aur phere ki mazaak banakar rakha hi kyun"
"Yeh koi mazaak nahi hain Gauri" his voice was stern
"Agar mazaak nahi hain to kya yeh sab sach hain?"
"Shayad"
"Aap ke liye to nahi"
"Main maan na chahtha hoon"
"Phir bhi maan nahi rahe hain, kyunki aap ki dil mein humhaare liye kuch jaga nahi hain. Zabardasti maan ne se acha hain aap mujhe maar hi daalo" Her disappointments multiplied her sorrows and she lost her control over the words.
He was shocked.. "Yeh kya keh rahi ho tum"
"Sachi hain, please aap mujhe jaane dijiye. Bhagwaan ke liye mujhe jaane dijiye. Yahan rehke, aap ki moo dekhe, pal pal toot rahi hoon mein. Mujhe apni aap se gandigi mehsoos ho raha hain, jab main aap ki saamne pigalthi. Nahi kar sakthi main yeh sab. Pleej, aap mujhe jaane dijiye aur ho saktha hain to kabhi mujhe bulayiye mat"
He was shaken by her exteme composure. She does generally remain within her league and this is the first time he is witnessing her losing her temper, to this level. He couldn't think of the empty space, when she is gone but he didn't want to admit anything in the heat of the moment.
"Gauri. Tum agli baar aisi behki baatein nahi karegi. Samjhi tum He clutched her arms and was shaking her with rage. "Haan humaari beech mein bahut saari misunderstandings thi, iska matlab ye nahi main tumhe nafrat kar raha hoon. Infact, I want you to stay with me issliye kyunki tumhaari bina meri space adhoori lagti hain mujhe.Meri aadat hogayi tumhaari aur main apni saare misunderstandings ko peeche rakhe fresh start karna chahtha hoon. Tumhe shayad pata nahi hoga par mujhe humhaari shaadi kabhi bhi ek natak nahi laga. Itne din iss baat ko dil se mane ke liye tayyar nahi raha, par ab manta hoon. Humhaari shaadi sach hain aur tum meri biwi ho. Aur iss rishthe ko kamyaab karne ki zimmadhari hum dono ki hain. Pehle main nahi samajtha aur tum bahut patiently wait kar rahi thi. Ab main manne ke liye tayyar raha to tum peeche kyun hat rahe ho. Bolo ek aakhri mauka nahi deh sakthi tum?"
His outburst had the necessary reaction from her as she toned down a bit.
"aap ko jo bhi karni hain, dil se kijiye zabardasti se nahi"
"Yeh main koi zabardasti se nahi kar raha hoon, dil se hi kar raha hoon. Yakeen kaise diladoon tumhe" He turned towards the sankarjee's statue, exasperated. Maa Parvathi's statue had been decorated by her with all the accessories of a suhagan.
He walked up to the mirror and picked up her sindoor, from the table.
"Ab toh yakeen karogi?" He picked it up in his fingers and smeared it on her forehead, while Sankarjee kept smiling at Gauri.
That's a wrap. I have just planned it as an OS. Please let me know your comments on this..!!
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