"see what I made you Avni... I bet you will die for this.. It's so damn mouth-wateringly delicious..."
neil said as he sensed Avni's presence in the room.
avni was startled when Neil talked to her without her saying a word after entering into the apartment.
"he can still sense my presence..." she thought.
"I didn't mean to startle you beautiful..." neil winked at avni and then smiled at her.
"It's ok... by the way it really does smell nice.. what did you make..??' Avni replied with a genuine smile on her face and excitement in her eyes,
"well... it's lasagna Mrs. khanna.."
"It's Avni Ayesha.. thanks I'm not hungry anymore.."
"and thank you for always reminding me this... for not letting go a single opportunity of hurting me..."
avni looked at neil's face and then into eyes which were screaming his heart out and the pain he felt. when avni couldnt look at him any longer, she ran up to her bedroom trying to avoid the way he was looking at her. the way he was looking at her reminding her of all the happy times they ever had, before they divorced.
Avni entered her room closing the door behind her. She looked down at her chest and wondered why was her heart beating that loudly. why was the wound on her chest aching and hurting her again..?? why did she felt her heart stabbed by her very own words..?? why did it pained her to see neil hurt..?? why did his pain felt like hers...?? why were their hearts still connected to each other..?? why were they still not able to move on in life; forgetting each other...?? Contrary to her thoughts, she couldnt help but wonder if he still wants her the way he wanted her back then. does he still finds her as beautiful and attractive as when they were married...?? thinking of that time, Avni couldnt really pinpoint at a major reason of the failure of their marriage and how they reached here at this stage. his family, her so called paternal family, their insecurities and tender love - all of them were the reasons why they had to get separated from each other. one thing led to another, and they signed the divorce papers getting blinded by their respective egos.
She had to stop herself from going back to that time and a long hot shower will surely help in relaxation. thinking this she got in the bathroom and stripped out of her clothes. As the hot streaky water poured down her naked body, she relaxed and closed her eyes pushing all those thoughts that were starting to run in her mind. she was suddenly craving his electrifying touch on her body, his fingers working on her body as if she was a musical instrument which he played with expertise. Just the right things at the right time.
Her breathing shallowed as she remembered all those days of togetherness; be it before they got married or the time while they were married. his smile, his face, his touch, his famous smirk - her mind clouded with his thoughts.
"Ohh... neil... Go away... just go..."
avni whispered with her eyes still closed. Her heart still racing in her chest. She knew one thing by now, he was affecting her big time. She had to get him out of her system and her house. he cant live here in her house with no apparent reason. Suddenly she felt that the time flew back and smiled sensing his presence and the comforting warmth of his body around her. she was about to open her eyes but she settled on reliving those passionate moments by keeping her eyes shut.
"avni..."
avni opened her eyes as she heard him whispering her name.
Was it really happening...??? She wasn't imagining it... was she..?? oh shit... It wasn't her fantasy. It was very much happening. She looked at his hand wrapped around her waist pulling her into him and lips sucking on the nape of her neck. Avni was now numb unable to think what to do next but soon her breath hitched when she felt his hand move down to the place where she needed him the most. But wait.. she couldn't give in to the temptation, no ways... she has to stop him. She held neil's hand and stopped him, earning a love bite from him in return. he kissed her collarbone as she moaned in pleasure and pain.
"Baby..."
A single endearment term and it drove her crazy every time he said it. nothing changed even after long two years. Avni stood numb under the shower occupied with her thoughts while neil drank the water droplets off her body- his lips creating havoc in her body. She gasped when she realised how turned on he was. And so was she, to make things worse. Her body was reacting to every touch of his. every single touch.
"neil... Stop... please..."
avni somehow managed to say the opposite of what she wanted. She didn't want him to stop. Not now after years of this painful separation. all she wanted at that moment was to get her needs fulfilled and to fulfill his in return. After all he was the only man she ever wanted and will ever want. He was her "one and only". Nothing in the world could change it. He was her fate. Her destiny.
When she hoped he would do the opposite of what she said, he backed off. As his hands left her body, she felt lifeless again, later on feeling rejected in the process. Didn't he want her now...?? Doesn't she appeal to him like before...?? Hurriedly she grabbed her towel from the rack and covered herself with it hoping he wouldnt see her face which was red with embarrassment.
"I'm sorry"
avni turned to look at neil with his neck hung low and eyes glued to the floor . Was he embarrass too...?? Or was he regretting it already...??? I dont regret it, said her heart. Her eyes couldn't help but travel down his body - his wet hair, kissable lips, well toned body, broad shoulders, his see through shirt that was making it all the more difficult to resist him. then her eyes travelled to his face again, to find his eyes fixed on her face... No her lips. She knew what they wanted. A kiss.
Being a 21st century modern girl, avni did what she wanted to. She stepped closer to neil and stopped just an inch away from his lips. She slowly and sensuously traced his arms up to his shoulders and kept her hands there.
"You don't regret it... Do you...??" avni asked.
"Not in a million years..." neil whispered back, taking avni again his strong arms.
Next second, his lips were pressed against hers. avni froze when she felt his lips against hers after two years. hurriedly she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him close wanting all of him. To herself. As she kissed him back, neil groaned and pulled her close to him; this time practically leaving no space between them. The possessive hold and the softness of his lips made her legs weak and she clutched onto him for support. No way she wanted the kiss to end. She wanted to kiss him like this for the rest of her life but alas that wasn't possible.
They broke the kiss and panted, their eyes still locked with each other in unexplainable passion and hunger. neil placed his forehead on avni's and she caressed the back of his neck with utmost love and care. The hot water pouring over them was making it all the more difficult for them to control the temptation. The water droplets on avni's pink lips were inviting neil, making him lose control and he leaned forward. As he drank the water droplets off her lips, avni shivered under his touch and pulled him closer. avni slowly and passionately sucked on his lower lip when neil moved his lips to her cheek, teasing her. avni pulled his hair as neil continued teasing her by dropping kisses on her shoulder blade and pinning her against the wall. avni while enjoying the torture dropped her hands down and guided them towards his shirt, which was wet and sticking to his body like a second layer of skin. Touching his strong arms and chest, now made her want him more than anything in the world and unlike her calm and patient nature, she ripped open his shirt while he made her moan by sucking on her sweet spot. She touched him slowly and sensously, loving the feel of his naked chest under the soft skin of her palm. The warmth of his body slowly and gradually making her lose the tinniest bit of sanity left in her. Neil was getting crazier with every passing moment and was sure he could never get enough of her. Her sweetness. Her taste. Her fragrance. All driving him crazy. there has not been a single night in the past two years when he didnt crave for her and her presence. He couldnt help but think how every night he wanted to sleep with her in his arms but couldnt. the thought saddened him until he felt Avni hugging him.
"I want you neil..." Avni whispered. Not wanting to let go of him.
"I want you too..." neil told avni as a matter of fact and bit the skin of her shoulder, giving her another love bite.
"Ahh..."
neil licked it and blew air on it, trying to soothe the pain; which made avni shiver with chills.
"neil... r..r..room..."
neil turned the shower off and picked avni in his arms with her arms around his neck. And their eyes locked in a passionate eye lock.