Baji-Kashi TS- I AM A WARRIOR (COMPLETE)

Baji-Kashi TS- I AM A WARRIOR

Once again he has left for his promise to several people.His motherland ,his king,his mother and above all his brothers in Maratha 'samrajya''.And once again she is left behind.Left behind to wait,left behind to involve in household chores so that his thoughts doesnot constantly pops in her mind,left behind to eternally pine for his love.Kashi never chose him rather fate chose her to be with him.Since the day they have met,they have been bantering,throwing words yet both of them have accepted that they are in a bond none could severe.

Such was an early dawn.Baji left for Satara to inspect any infilteration Shahuji's new found army.He feared that with so many against his Baba being a Peshwa,rising from a humble background and Shahuji being the Chatrapati,attempts to eliminate them would not rest soon.He is a warrior and its his prime duty to protect the saviuors of motherland.Since Radhabai was unwell,he didn't want to disturb her and tried to sneak out quietly before anyone in the household could stop him on one pretext or other.

But was pleasantly surprised to see Kashi with a pooja thal awaiting at the door step.He felt his frustration gaining momentum but strangely he couldn't bring to hate her for all the angry words they have exchanged.She is an innocent soul with child like excitement swirling around her.Hailing from a non-warrior family,it's no surprise that she is not immune to the fear of losing all she possessed and she held dear to her heart and soul.He was definitely angry on being forcefully married to her but he could not bring to hate her.Kashi's touch on his feet brought him back to senses.He realized how hard is to be soft and compassionate compared to how easy is to slay the throats of the enemy.

'So,you are leaving.Why didn't you inform anyone?'',Her face was blank of expressions,but the voice quivered.Baji took notice of the quiver and replied in a dominant tone-"Didn't feel like informing.By the way everybody could have easily concluded that I have left on a mission.''Her fingers moved in a zigzag pattern taking the chandan,sindoor,chawal' and her arm stretched to reach his forehead.''My aayi' says not to step out of house that to if going for an important work without doing aarti.So,never step out without aarti.Samajhla'Yodha'?'' Had it been some other other day he would have given a long lecture about being warrior and how fear of death and failure should never cross his mind etc.But today he chose to remain quiet.For strange regions he felt to boost that fear in her.Sadistic he may seem so.

"Kashi bai! If I fail to return one day to you,return to your mayka'.They can better take care of you than me.''He was suddenly remembering the foretelling of his future.He didn't know if she was aware of the fact that he would not die old.Why would you not return? Are you fearing that you would die? ,her quivering voice now turned into a whisper.''Fear!ha! I don't fear for myself.I fear for what is behind me.My family and my friends..''his voice trailed as a lone tear of helplessness gripped him.He is a mortal of human flesh and then a warrior.Some emotions are beyond the military thoughts.Some emotions can never be fathomed.

'And me?,for reasons unknown,she felt that he never considered her to part of either his family or his friends.She was just in his life,existing,trying to be above his every relations yet falling an inch lower.I am getting late Kashi.Go and have some sleep.I can see that you have not slept the whole night.''His voice had suddenly turned urgent.That's not my answer.''Her voice has regained its strength.''You will have to wait.Wait because I am yet to figure out what's my existence after I take out the shield of a warrior.What am I other than everyone's saviour and what am I to you.

Few drops of tears involuntarily dropped down from her eyes.Don't cry.These tears make everything look so trivial.Don't let your tears represent my failure in personal relationships.Rather shed happy tears that you too are a Warrior.Don't wait for me.I shall now take leave.''Did he realize how cruel those word were?How brutally they have dashed her fantasies and dreams about marriage.But yes he has remarked right''She is a warrior,because she has put aside all her vexations and the bitterness in their relation to welcome a new dawn.

The birds are chirping at far.The whole of Saswad would now spring into life.She has to get ready to complete the household chores without a single line of worry on her forehead and a single drop of tear in her eyes because she is a warrior.Learning strength from fear.

(To be continued)...

P.S.-This is a fictionalized account on the couple.Thank you very much for reading.Feedbacks would be appreciated.

Awesome👏...eagerly waiting for second part

Originally posted by: nancy56

Awesome👏...eagerly waiting for second part

thanks 😃 will update soon.

PART-2

"Don't Fear Change,Change Fear...

Kashi bai's anguish was slowly taking shape.The shape of tiny tear droplets.The rangoli she drew with zeal and love is slowly turning misty.The person she had sent away months back is returning.Yes!! Returning with another glory,returning with new found skills,returning with a wife.Life has not been so confusing as it seemed to her now.The unadulterated love she held for him felt like a burden.Why did fate and life conspire against her? Why are they having the last laugh..

"The Peshwa has returned.Trumpets and cymbals clanged to make the pitched sound.The conches blew hard while petals fell as drizzling drops of rain from atop.The rhythmic sounds at far mirrored the sounds of fury in her heart.The tears had dried up though few specks of those still clung to the eyelashes.Picking the pooja thal she followed her sister in laws.The welcoming aarti has to be done.The aarti is simply a brutal reminder that "he was never hers.The brute truth hardly any faint hearted can bear.

"Kashibai! Are you upset?You didn't participate in the celebration.I was waiting for you.,Bajirao's voice filled the silent air and converted into an echo.Kashibai,why is this room so dark?Talk to me atlest once.,for reasons unknown he felt a knot in his heart.He knew his decision has hurt her but he had the faith that she would accept anyway.Call that confidence in her or simply a faith in her abilities.Oh!You have returned.I didn't realise.Sorry ,was busy with writing letter to my mother.Have n't met her in a while.,the tone was dry yet the words screamed of her agony.I have hurt you.Is n't it?,he asked though he very well knew the answer.No! You didn't hurt me.You killed Kashibai.Puzzled,he looked at her,trying to figure some meaning from her sunken face.Means?,he enquired.This is not Kashibai,Peshwa Saheb.This is Peshwinbai of Punethe legal heir of Shanivarwada ,favourite daughter in law of Peshwin Radha bai and an option in Bajirao Bhatt's life.You have killed the Kashibai who loved her husband till death could do her apart,who spent nights without wink of sleep for receiving a small information about him,who was extremely possessive about her belongings.You have killed her with a master stroke.Today I realised you are an able warrior without any iota of doubt.You killed Kashibai.Peshwa Saheb.You killed her.,the tears flowed without hindrance and wetted her tearstriken cheeks.Some emotions are sometimes too difficult to handle and even more to control.

"Kashibai! Look at me,he softly demanded as she was engulfed in a soothing hug.She would be lying if she denied that she was not pining for this love,this hug.He let her cry ,cry like the little kid who was suddenly bereft of her favourite toy.He loved Mastani because she was his inspiration but he admired Kashi because she was his strength,his very spine.Kashibai is not dead.She is alive only she has changed.he said with softness ,caressing her tresses.No,she is dead.She will never return.,she purred as he held her more close to his heart.My Kashi has changed.She has not gone anywhere.She is very much with me.She has turned into a fierce warrior.She has accepted her fate with dignity and fierceness.His words always created magic.Today was no different.Her eyes sparkled with fresh tears pooling her eyes.How do you know?,the words came out instinctively.Because I can read through those eyes.Yours lips can tell thousands of lies but these eyes though are dark in colour can mirror the inner thoughts perfectly.I admit,we have n't spent much time in uttering sweet nothings to each other.These distances of roads and hearts ensure that I should return to you.I shall never vanquish you of your rights over me.But you also must remember that I am a storm which can't be bound to knots and reigns.You have to build yourself tough enough to endure the storm and shelter those in need.I have faith in you and your master abilities.Because I always knew this Kashibai is a warrior.''

The diyas burnt brighter with every drop of oil.Kashi lit them with utmost care.Her life is like the oil.She has to receive the heat which she herself provides to the wick to burn.His words reinstilled in her to live a life without worrying about trivial emotions like fear,jealousy and all those who accompany these in battalions.She felt that its not because of her inadequacy he brought Kashi rather because she was adequate enough hence he brought a slight change in his life.Their lives.

He will be leaving soon to meet the Nizam .Preparations are nearly complete.Few more hours and once gain he will be gone.Gone only to return.Kashi!,his voice reverberated through the room.Her heart quickened its beats.Her feet muscles sprinted and in this clumsiness her heart missed a few beats.She presented her infront of him,all decked up.Are you leaving now?Wait,I shall get the aarti thal.Its not yet prepared.Just wait ...,her voice trailed as his index finger crossed against her dainty lips.Shh! Calm down.Relax.I am not leaving now.Just had few things to tell you.Mother is willing to go on a pilgrimage.So its your duty to take care of necessary arrangements.Take care of Chimaji,I have hurt him even.Mastani remains in your custody.Please save her from any harsh situations because I know you can.And yes,take care of yourself too.I think this much is enough for now.I shall take your leave.''

His distancing figure made her smile.How easily he handed over all his responsibilities to her.He didn't seek any approval ,any nod of agreement before despatching the duties and responsibilities to her.She also didn't deny any of these.She vowed to keep upto his expectations because as a warrior,she should not fear the change rather change the fear.That is the only way and that is the need of this life.

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P.S.-This story is my fictional take on the couple.Thank you very much for reading.😊

Tooo good..

Originally posted by: nancy56

Tooo good..

They grew up in the second part😳

Thank you.😊.Yes.I just wanted to portray how they face two different phases of their lives in one style that is braving like a warrior.😳

Originally posted by: amritat

Beautiful writing...😊

Thank you 😊

Originally posted by: Crazy_Saks_

Loved it!!!!

I kinda watch the show on and off nd m quite pleased to read such brilliant write up on Kashi and Baji.👏

Atleast here Bajirao didnt ignore her... unlike the show.

Also Kashi didnt deter from voicing out her emotions...

Indeed she was Warrior...

It was a brilliant piece of work... and I hope to read more

Sakshi😳

Thank you a lot for reading this piece And those kind words.😳 I believe that though he loved Mastani he stiil loved and respected Kashibai.Hence,i tried to portray the emotions as i view it.😊 Would write soon another.😃