Devakshi OS 'Second Chance' Bonus Chapter,Part2-Page6 [28/2/

Sonakshi's POV

"I hate you" .Damn! i need some fresh air lest this head of mine is gonna burst. I tried getting up. "ouch" i yelped in pain. this stupid injured foot. We were back from the jungle like 3hours ago and suhana had made dev first aid my foot. i glanced at the watch. 3:00 am! I have been trying to catch some sleep from ages now but it in vain. I limped out of the room to use some fresh air to calm my mind and thoughts.

"Ouch! Ouch!" i sat down on the grass which was a little damp right now. Stupid me! it was kinda cold here but everything was so serene and peaceful. My head was ringing with his words. His hateful words. The intensity in his eyes when he had said "i hate you". Gosh! Why does it bother me so much. come on sona! you hate him too. Dont you ? atleast you should. My subconscious rebuked me. I do hate him but my hate can never surpass my love for him. After what he did to me, To my family, not even a speck of love for him should be there inside me but he was afterall my prince charming, my soulmate, my bad habit and bad habit never die so easily. He is still that sweetheart though, not to me, to my daughter. No scratch that. Our daughter. I smiled. Until now, i was accustomed to suhana as my daughter and now out of the blue she was "our" daughter. Mine and dev's daughter. I couldn't help but smile. damn! how i wish this had happened 7years ago and soha had her father right from when she was born. My thoughts trailed back to when suhana uttered her first word. I never wanted to force a word out of her as her first. I just wanted it to be natural and a surprise. Baba had been trying hard to teach her say Rabindra , his gurudev's name , which was totally insane. We used to laugh and maa would try making him understand that no little child utters a word so difficult as his first but baba being baba wouldn't care. But soha'a first word came to us as a shock. "paa" yup! Thats right. "pa... paap.. papa..." was her first word. Baba was furious but maa was elated that though, soha was away from her father physically, her heart was connected to him. And me? I was ecstatic? I couldn't be more happy that my child's first word was her father's name. I was snapped back to the present by those little devils rolling down my cheeks. No sona! You cannot cry. You are not allowed to.i rebuked myself.

"oh my god! Ms.BSB crying"!. great just when i thought i could attain peace! I didn't need rocket science to recognise the owner of the voice. I turned to his direction and looked at him puzzled. First of all what was he doing here at this hour and secondly what on the earth is bsb now? "BSB...Brave Sonakshi Bose! You know?" he smirked. I shrugged. "mind if i sit here?"he questioned pointing beside me. "yes! I do"i said, irritated. "i don't care." with that he jumped beside me. I wonder,did this man get younger after all these years? And hotter? Focus sona!! "what are you doing here? At this time?" i asked "Ah! How about you answer that first, ms.Bosss?" .Urghh! what is up with this attitude and why does he have to take my name so dramatically? "Headache ! you know?" i said directing towards him."you need a doctor then, Doctor" he said with that stupid smirk pasted on his face permanently. "I did meet one. But he said no solution to this headache. Chala gya tha ye headache meri life se saat saal pehle, fir aa gya"i said sarcastically. "ooh! Jiss tarah aap meri life ko chhod k gyi thi?"he snapped back.i glared at him. "ye to aise kah rha hai jaise maine iski mom ka ghar unse chhina tha" i muttered more to myself but he heard."excuse me? What do you mean?i snatched your house from your parents"he asked. I swear! this guy doesn't play games with me now. I am in no mood of any jokes now."come on Dev! Don't start your drama now. We both know what happened 7years ago." I said. "wait wait! Please say it clearly. when did i snatch your house from you?" he asked, confused yet agitated. "stop it already dev! I cannot revive all those painful memories. That's the problem with you. You always act like you don't know anything. Everything happens under your nose, your name and yet you don't know? You said you knew nothing about prenup and know you would say you don't know that Vicky threw us out of our own house and that too on your orders?" i was angry, would be an understatement. Just when i thought he has changed, he was back to his spineless self. "Vicky what? You are crossing your limits now. We fought, we got separated but that doesn't mean i would do something like that. I would never snatch a roof from someone's head."he said. "i wish dev! I always believed that you wouldn't stoop so low.but you did. For your mother. And please don't act innocent. The documents had your signature."i told him.

By the time i finished, i had big fat tears rolling down my eyes which i knew wont stop today. Memories of that night still haunted me. That was indeed the worst day of my life. I lost my love , i lost my house and i lost myself. And now this guy is kidding me or what? acting like he knew nothing? "look sonakshi! First stop crying. I still cant see you in tears." " oh really? Says who? The reason behind them?" i snapped back. " what papers are you talking about sonakshi? When did i send Vicky to your house? " i was perplexed. "oh great! You don't know anything again. Do you even live in this world? Vicky came to our house that day with the legal papers stating ishwari communications had bought our house. We were thrown out of our house in the middle of night. It had your signatures and you are trying to tell me you don't know anything?" i couldn't handle all of this anymore. "What? That bast**d! Sonakshi! Trust me. I never did anything like that. I would never even dream to do something like that. And how could you even trust Vicky? Don't you know that guy? How he can do anything?" he shifted close to me now and had a soft expressions on his face. I can never understand this guy, his mother and his family. " perfect! Blame me again. I called you. Several times. Did you pick them? No! You cut all my calls . i trusted you dev. Whatever happened i was sure you would not do something like that. But your cutting my calls and ignoring me, proved me wrong." I stated. I trusted him more than anything in this life. i was always the bad one for his mother but i still supported him in every situation. Through thick and thin. Accepted all his mother's taunts , allegations thinking one day she would accept me and love me just like i loved her without any adulterations. He was aghast " cut you calls? When on the earth did you call me sonakshi? I was drunk but not that drunk that i don't remember something i did not do." He stated. "just stop this shit dev. Just stop" i choked. I couldn't take it anymore . he wrapped his arms around me. I jerked him. He did the same again despite my protest. "shona" his tone was soft. The tone he has when he talks to suhana. I looked into his eyes, now brimming with tears. " i think there are a lot of misunderstandings. There are a lot of things which could have been cleared 7years ago but to our bad luck they didn't . now it's the time. We have to talk sona." He said with utmost sincerity. No sona! Don't look into his eyes. Don't forget he is the one responsible for your sorrows. You cannot be weak this time. "there is nothing to talk dev. Everything is clear. You signed a stupid prenup because you and your mother doubted my love for you . you threw us out of our house and then when subdued my ego and wanted you to meet your daughter your family yet again turned me down. What needs to be cleared now? Don't you think all of this is enough for a person to go through in a single life?" i was sobbing loudly now, leaning into his body. " you don't deserve any sorrows sonakshi. And if you know. My life wasn't heaven. I went through hell as well." He was angry again. " you yourself are the reason for that " i stated.

In our heated conversation, i didn't realise it was damn cold by now and my nails and fingers had turned blue and were freezing. That happened to me always when i felt cold and dev knowing that very well came back from his room with a shawl and draped it around me. Wait a minute! It was my shawl. I looked at him confused. He shrugged "only you or your things can provide me warmth." Damn! Don't get flattered Sona. Just then it clicked me. I had those documents pictures in my phone. I had to send them to my lawyer. I unlocked my phone and just searched through the gallery while he was looking at me perplexed. "here!" i said , handing him my phone. He was shocked beyond imagination. "i had to prove myself again. Kitna ajeeb hai na dev. You used to love me and still i had to prove myself time and again. Your anger used to take all over you and i was blamed everytime. You remember that day maa fell down? Apparently i had pushed her? Did you realise it was you who pushed me? You slapped baba. You said it was by mistake and you never intend to slap him. You expected an apology from us? Then? Why didn't you expect an apology from yourself if i had pushed your mother? Why were all the rules different when it was your mother? I respect what her for what she did for her kids but dev! She is not the only one who struggled in this world. My parents struggled the same way too. I know you love your mother more than anything is world but that doesn't mean you would overlook her mistakes just because she is your mom and she had a hard life." i spoke without a pause. There was a lot inside me which needed to be out someday. And i still had a lot to say. "you said your mother got that prenup signed without your knowledge? Didn't you consider that a mistake? Or just because it was your mother who did it,so it didn't qualify as a mistake? you being a mumma's boy couldn't take a stand for the right. You chose your mother everytime even if she did something wrong or unfair. And you always saw my tiniest mistakes and made sure you make them big. Your mother states that she loves you like anything? Is that what love is? Not sharing your son with anyone? Being manipulative just to keep your son away from his own wife? Playing evil games with your own son's life? how would you feel if i take suhana away from you right now? If i never allowed her to even talk to you? do what your mother did? You wont hate me then right? I love my daughter and do anything? Right? Not even allow her father to talk to her. I know i was wrong keeping her away from you. I curse myself everyday. i hate myself for that. But Dev i want to tell you that i don't want my daughter to go through what i went through. I don't know when your mother starts getting insecure about you again and do things to throw suhana out of your life. and knowing you, you would never take a stand against your mother, take a stand for right. Suhana is young dev and she cannot handle that evil. She wont be able to see that the person she considers her superman not voicing against wrong and giving in to wrong just because his mother likes it that way. I don't want the little soul face this cruelty. " i said. He was sobbing now.

" damn it!" he punched the ground hard." Let me clear few things first. I never doubted your love. I knew you loved me from all your heart. And that prenup! i never got that one made and never signed it myself. I didn't even know about its existence . i don't even know what all is written in that evil thing. You need to trust me over that. And those documents. Vicky will have to pay for his deeds now. I never did anything of that neither did i cut your calls , Vicky must be behind that too. " he said. His eyes were red by now boiling with anger. " and coming to the main thing now, What do you call me sona? Spineless? I am afraid to tell you,i was that. I was spineless. All these bitter years made me realise that. My mother played with my life. I am fully aware of her insecurities. I know she loves me, i love her too. But she took advantage of my love. And what do you think? After you left i had good relations with my mother? We never had a good 10minute talk at a stretch in 7 years .i can never forgive her for what she did. Wish i had been stronger, if i was even 10% like you, we wouldn't be here today. But sonakshi, you always knew i am a difficult man to deal with. My anger takes over my mind and my heart. It was only you who could keep my on track. I was angry, i was wrong but if you wouldn't have left that way and tried supporting me , understanding me i would have done something sane. And suhana? She is my daughter. A part of me. A symbol of our love. I would do anything to protect her. And not even maa can take her away from me. What she did 7years ago has devastated my life and i wont let her take the only reason of my existence away from me. Even if that means i have to live away from maa. She couldn't accept my love then and support me 7 years ago, i cant support her insecurities and all her wrongdoings now. I know it took me years to understand this but i am glad, i finally did" he said with utmost honest and sincerity. His words could lie but not his eyes . i know what he said right now, he meant it. " i am sorry dev if i said too much. I know both of us were at fault 7 years ago but i couldn't stop myself from sharing my fears. And losing suhana is my biggest fear. The mere thought makes me die inside. just like losing you was my biggest fear. I lived without you because i had to, but now i cant live without her. I see you in her. I see myself in her. I see us in her and living away from you has already eaten me inside. Now i can't lose soha" i chocked by the end. He just hugged me tight. "sona! If you think i would take away suhana from you and i am not good for her, Then i would go away from you. I want to see my daughter and you happy and if that requires me going away from you guys, i would happily do that." He said breaking the hug. " no dev! I don't want my daughter to lose her father or you your daughter. I can never be more happy to see the happiness on my daughters face when she is with you and i know your love for her is pure. Its just your family, your mother that i am afraid of." I said cupping his face, looking into his eyes. " i cant change what happened in the past. I can only ask you for a second chance." He looked at me expectantly.

I couldn't decipher what was happening . It was almost morning and what i had thought to be a 15 minute "me time" had turned into a 2hour talk, more of an argument with dev and here it was. I had to again risk it, take a decision that would change many lives, most importantly three lives. i was into my deep thoughts when dev stepped back and went on his knees. What the hell was this man upto? " sona! I know it's all so sudden. But would you give me a chance? Would you give me chance to raise my daughter? Would you let me prove my self as a father ? would you let me win back your trust? Whatever i did in the past, i can never apologise enough. But just like the old sona would do , would you forgive me? "he said forwarding his hand. he was breathtakingly adorable right now. He looked so cute while ranting. I was shocked and confused. I was standing there like a statue. " i don't think two people limping would look good. My knee is hurting right now and if you don't answer any time soon i would be accompanying you with that." He pointed towards my injured foot. I rolled my eyes. Though my foot was hurting like hell, i got on my knee too, right in front of him and said" yes yes! I would! And i am sorry for what i did too." And with that i kept my hand in his . just then he jerked my hand leaving me surprised. " oh sorry! I forgot to mention few more things. I don't want you to blame me later that i didn't tell you ." he paused. "Miss BBBSB, i mean Miss. Beautiful, Brave and Buddhuram Sonakshi Bose, would you give me a second chance? not just to prove myself as a father but as a friend and husband too? You are intelligent enough to realise that this Dumb Dev Dixit still loves you. So would you give me second chance to win you back? I promise i would stand by you this time and would prove myself and most importantly wont be a mumma's boy aur spineless. Would you give me a second chance?" he said. I blushed ,for the first time in 7years. Could i say no? " Mr.DDD,i mean Dashing Dumb Dev Dixit , yes! I give you a second chance. Would you give me one too? I asked. He smiled, the biggest. He stood and picked me up. "yes yes yes!" he swirled me around . "put me down mr. Abhoudro!" i scolded him. "no no gorgeous. Lemme drop you back to your room. You need beauty sleep . Look you have dark circles under your eyes. " he said foolishly. I glared at him "do i need to get accustomed to this flirting now? And when will you learn dev? You shouldn't tell a girl that she has dark circles under her eyes. Buddhuram!" i said ." i am not telling some girl. I am telling my daughters mother. And about flirting? Offcourse. I need to win back your love." he pouted. "whatever." I said as he put me down on the bed covering me with the blanket. he glanced at soha lovingly and kissed her forehead. Boy! That girl recognises her father. She smiled as she snuggled more into her blanket. he smiled at me and was about to go when stopped. He kissed me forehead and whispered" i promise, i wont disappoint you this time and wont break my promise. Just stay by my side." He kissed me again, this time on cheek. I kissed his hand in assurance and with that he was out of the room. i couldn't stop smiling. I hugged soha who was peacefully sleeping beside me. The journey ahead is going to be tough. We are again where we started from, just we have this little soul with us now. Hopefully things will work out this time and if not we will together make them work out.