Take 5
Pahia Beach - 6.00 PM
Arnav sipped his Corona,as he heard Aman ask him - " so, im your best friend, and i can officially declare that i have never seen you smiling so much, like i have since yesterday.What's really on your mind Man?"
Arnav said to his defence - " what the?? you are mad, i smile all the time..."
Diya teased him further throwing some sand on him playfully - " yeah,what he means is that you been grinning like an idiot...and i really am interested to know the reason..."
Dita smiled, they had all been sitting in a group chatting,and she had spotted Arnav , stealing a glance at her best friend Khushi every now and then,and she did see Khushi glancing at him too,and maybe that was what his friends were teasing him about,and she listened keenly.Khushi could use a nice change,and he did seem like a nice guy.She sipped her beer,and she heard Diya say - oh cmon, as much as he wont admit, i guess this is about your friend, Dita..."
Arnav glared at Diya, how could she just say that out loudly.
Dita grinned - " oh cmon, anyone would be blind to not see the two of you looking at each when you think no one is looking, but you know we are..."
Arnav grinned - " Dammit, is it that obvious?"
Aman rolled his eyes - " you bet it is...", and he turned to Dita and he asked - " so your friend, she clearly loves her adventures, i mean she hasn't been off that jet ski,for a long time now..."
Arnav nodded- " you spoke my mind buddy...i wish i could do that you know, just be so fearless in life..."
Diya winked at Dita - " oh please even if you wished, you couldnt, the two of them dont like water..."
Dita - " yeah,i understand, because i dont too...i could never just go into the ocean, alone its crazy, only Khushi can...", she finished fondly.
Khushi wasn't here, and so Arnav knew this was the right time to get some information out of her friend, and he asked - "so she did tell me she isn't seeing anyone..."
Dita nodded - " yeah, she isn't , for a while now...", and she winked - " oh i can see someone is interested..."
Arnav smiled - " you bet I am...",and he continued to drink his beer,and waited for the girl of his interest to finally come ashore.
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Khushi's POV
The winds breezed through my hair, as I headed back towards the beach, i looked at my watch it was 6.05, and i knew the tide would be getting high now.The time out into the ocean, had given me sometime to think.
I wanted to set myself free, of worries.I didn't want to be caught up in regrets.And i knew, i would regret if i didn't make some effort to know Arnav.I had walked out earlier ,also because i had felt a little uneasy,because he had called me perfect. I loved myself,but i didn't believe in prettiness too, i had a condition and i wasn't perfect.Not everyone would see, perfection, when they saw my artificial limb.I was attracted to this guy,and i sort of was starting to like him, and i couldn't do anything about that,and i could sense that he wanted to get to know me too.That made me happy, but the way he looked at me, as if I had no flaws,wasnt what the reality was,and I knew I could do something about that.I reached the shore, and returned the jet ski, and walked my way up to where everyone was sitting.I wasn't perfect,and now would be the time to let Arnav know, that.
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Arnav's POV
I watched Khushi walking towards us.Finally, i was going to get some time to talk to her.I saw her gesture Dita to pass her bottle of water,and she quickly gulped it down as she said - " guys, I cant believe how can you all just sit here, and not feel the thrill, it was amazing..."
I heard Diya say - " and i wish i was even half as brave as you were...anyways i guess, we as in me ,Aman and Dita, have to go back to the hotel..."
Khushi - " you do?? now??
I saw Diya, wink at Aman and Dita,and I knew what she was upto here,she was trying to get me some alone time with Khushi.
She was a good friend.Diya , you absolutely earned yourself a huge present from me.
Dita played along - " yeah, you know, i wanted to make some minor changes in our itenary, to match Diya's, you know its mostly similar anyway, i just thought, it would be so much more fun, if we went ahead on this trip together, khushi i hope you dont mind..."
Khushi shrugged, as she said - " I don't, i guess..."
My insides did a flip again, great, next 12 days with Khushi around, sounded amazing to both my mind and heart.
I looked at her and smiled - " i was thinking of walking down the beach for a while, wanna join me?"
Khushi smiled - " yeah sure..."
I immediately shot up,and i said to everyone - " ok see you guys at the hotel...then..."
And we started walking,and our hands brushed against each others,and that sudden shot of current jolted my body yet again,I gave her a small smile,and then started walking.
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Khushi's POV
I watched him out of the corner of my eye, as we walked.It had been a few minutes,and we had been silent.I wondered what was he thinking, because i knew i was thinking about him.
It wasn't dark yet, and the breeze was just perfect,and I spotted an area of a few small rocks on the beach,and i asked him - "wanna sit for a while...?"
Arnav nodded - " yeah...guess you would be tired..."
I smiled - " no, im anything but tired,i just want to sit here, you see the sun is just about to set, it'll be the perfect view..."
He looked at the horizon,and nodded, and sat next to me, and i folded my arms on my arms as i looked out,enjoying the peace and the sound of the waves,and i heard him say - " you know, i dont usually get time to enjoy the beauty of nature..."
I smiled - " Busy Businessmen usually work behind walls, i know, and i know you are a very busy one...dont you go on a holiday like every year...?"
Arnav smiled - " no actually this one, is my first in five years ever since i got back from Harvard..."
I was impressed.
"harvard, wow,thats a smart man, sitting next to me then...",I winked.
Arnav grinned - " oh did i make an impression, otherwise...?"
" No, you did't, but you know you should take out time for yourself, I do so, every year, its important.."
He nodded - " yeah i know what you mean now, two days off, and i haven't felt happier, and free,having the time to relax,be with friends,do what i want, feels good,maybe i will do this more often..."
I smiled - " you should...", and then I started playing with the sand next to me.
He asked - " so, how is it that, you are so fearless,I wish I could be..but I somehow don't have a big appetite for any sort of adventure..."
I smiled - " well I wasn't like this always, i was different as a child, very shy,and introvert, until when i was 15, and then, Life happened, I changed.."
He asked - " you mean when you moved to paris?"
I took a deep breath, and the sincerity with which he was looking at me, made me want to open upto him, and so open up, I did.
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Arnav's POV
I saw her deep in thought,and I wondered if she was going to answer, what i had asked,maybe i shouldn't have.It was sort of personal.But i really did want to understand what she was saying.
I saw her look into the horizon as she said - " no, not just that, you know Arnav, we always take so much for granted, all the time, life, family, friends, I did too, i knew my family loved me,and I loved them, I never saw the need to come out of the shell i had built for myself,until I got a second chance at Life..."
I was confused.What did she mean by that? And i asked - " second chance?"
Khushi gave me a small smile as she said - " Remember how i told you about my family, earlier today?"
I nodded - " yeah..."
Khushi continued - " they are the reason why I am who I am today,they taught me how to appreciate life, I lost my parents,as in my birth parents in a road accident, when I was 15, we were on holiday in paris, dad was driving, when the accident happened, i only remember waking up in the hospital few days later, to find out that both maa and papa had been killed instantly.
I felt shock go through me as i heard what she was saying.This was tragic and i said - " im sorry, Khushi..."
Khushi gave me a small smile but she continued -" I remember crying so much, i had lost my family, my world,in a second, just like that, I didn't know why i was spared,but then Shashi uncle and Garima aunty took me in,and loved me as their own, and Aman bhai, what can i say about him? if it wasn't for him..."
I didn't know what to do.My heart went out to her,and I on an impulse, put my hand on top of hers as I said - " Khushi,I had no idea..."
She smiled, but she didn't let go of my hand,and that felt really good - " yeah, and you know what do be honest, i don't go around talking about my tragic past, with people i just met...but..."
I asked softly - " but, what?"
Khushi - " I dont know, why with you, i just felt I could talk to you,and also because you called me perfect...when I'm anything but that..."
I looked at her confused as i tried to get the meaning of what she was saying, that was a compliment, i had never given any girl, ever before,because i had never come across anyone so, perfect.
She smiled at me as she said - " well, in the accident all those years ago, maa and papa weren't the only ones I lost..."
I asked - " was there anyone else?"
Khushi picked up her left hand,and stared at it and her voice had so much emotion as she looked at it and said - " this too..."
I looked at her confused,and she asked - " wanna see something?"
"yeah...", i said.
Khushi picked up her right hand from under mine, and i didn't like the loss already, and then she folded the sleeve of her shrug,and shifted something on her left elbow,and she started to roll something down.
I looked in shock,as she completely took out, what I now figured was a skin cover ,and I found myself looking at her artificial myoelectric limb,as i heard her whisper softly- " I lost a part of me too, Arnav..."
I looked at her face, her beautiful face, and i couldn't believe what I had just seen.I could see that her eyes were searching for some sort of a reaction from me,and it struck me then,as to why she spoke to me about all of this.She had sensed my interest in her,and she wanted to be honest to me.And i didn't know, what exact emotion came over me, and all i wanted to do, was pull her into a hug, but i didn't, I didn't know what she would think.I had to say something,but i had no words,i didn't know, what to say, i fought for the right words, and i finally said - " So this is what you meant,when you said..."
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Khushi's POV
Khushi looked at him ,as she waited for some sort of reaction from him when she heard him and she nodded - " this is exactly what I meant, when I said, I wasn't perfect Arnav, and you should know..."
I looked at the expression on his face trying to read what it meant and i asked - " did i freak you out?"
He said softly, immediately - " no, you didnt, Khushi..."
I immediately felt like an idiot,maybe this was a bad idea,I quickly picked up,my skin cover,and started to put it back on, when I heard him say -" no stop, don't..."
I looked at him puzzled - " don't what...?"
He said giving me a small smile - " I am just awed by how kool this makes you look, you know like you are right out of science fiction movie..."
I couldn't believe my ears,did he just say that?It was something my brother would say to make me feel,as if having an artificial limb was the most normal thing in the world. It made me feel very nice.
I smiled - " you didn't just say that? you are very kind, Arnav..."
He slowly put his hand on my other free hand and said - " And you, Khushi, are very brave, the bravest girl Iv ever met..."
I smiled.This probably wasn't a bad idea after all.
I heard him ask with concern - " was it very difficult?"
I gave him a small smile as i continued - " It was initially, i mean for the first three years after, I was very unsure about myself, you know it took me some time to accept myself with this,but then with time, and with my family's support, i learnt to love myself, nonethless,my brother made me see, how this was a symbol, of my survival,and how I was so lucky to have a second chance, I decided then that I would live life, fearlessly, you know take risks, do all adventures on my bucket list ,love myself, and specially with this condition, you know there are people , who have looked at me with pity, and i hate that,totaly despise it,and its like all this thrill of adventures,gives me an extra adrenaline rush, it gives me an accomplishment, that i am no different, I can do what any normal person can, if I want to, its really all in the mind, thats what I believe..."
I saw him look into my eyes as he smiled - " It really is all in the mind Khushi..."
I felt my insides dance as i felt I could almost take a dive into his eyes and I said - " Look, i didn't mean to bore you wit h all of this..."
"you didn't Khushi, infact, it means a lot to me that you felt you could open up to me...", he said
"It does?", i heard myself ask.
"yeah, believe it or not, it really does...", he said sincerely
I felt him rub my right hand gently and I looked at him and said - " Look, I just wanted you to know about my condition, because..."
"because, you also feel this sudden pull, in between us, don't you?there is something here...i know there is, and i know you sense it too...", he said taking me by surprise.
I said honestly - " yeah, and its crazy and insane, we only just met..."
I heard him ask - " Does that matter?"
I looked at him,gosh he was the greek god himself, the wind was playing with his hair,and the sun had almost set, I had never ever felt so attracted towards anyone, ever in my life.
"I dont know, Arnav...its just strange though, isn't it?"
He smiled - " yeah , it is, but in a nice way...and just what makes you think you aren't any less perfect, just because you have an artificial limb, Khushi?"
I felt him cup my face tenderly and I couldn't believe what i was feeling, it was the moment, for sure, I almost felt he was going to bend down and kiss me right there,and i whispered - " what do you mean, you possibly can't..."
His face was so close to me, i could almost feel his breath on mine as he whispered - " from what I see, you are even more perfect, with this super technological arm of yours..."
I could only whisper his name.i swear, my mind had officially shut down.
"Arnav...i...", and I closed my eyes in anticipation and I couldn't believe I wanted to be kissed by him,and just as his lips were about to touch mine,My stupid phone rang,and much to his disappointment,broke the moment, and probably mine too.I quickly picked up my phone, it was Aman bhai, I spoke to him for a few minutes, by walking in the front.I put the phone down, and took a deep breathe, what would have just happened, if my phone hadn't rung.I would have kissed Arnav, what was wrong with me, i just met him like a day ago, this never happens to me,I have never kissed anyone like that in the moment, even with all my boyfriends, it would take me weeks of being into the relationship, to let them come so close to me,but here, this was different,it felt so natural,and so right.
Ok, something was really up here.I had officially lost it.
I turned to him and smiled, and caught him looking at me,and i gave him a flushed smile as I said - " lets go, shall we, its getting late.."
Disappointment flashed his eyes, and i knew what it was about,but although i felt it was so comfortable,and so natural and I had never wanted to kiss anyone or be kissed anyone so badly ever,but that Khushi in me, that stupid one who always thinks so much about everything danced to the surface again,and i heard him say - " yeah, come, Aman just messaged me,everyone is returning to city for dinner...we gotta join them..."
I smiled,and we started walking back.
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Alfresco's Resturant and Bar
Dita looked at Khushi, and she seemed lost to her and she asked whispering in her ear - " everything alright , Khushi?"
Khushi smiled - " yeah, just something on my mind..."
Dita smiled - " great..."
And right then her phone beeped,and she checked it to be a message,and didn't know the number yet,but it read - " you, ok?"
Khushi quickly replied - ??
It beeped again - " seriously Khushi, its Arnav...i realised didnthave your number, just got it from Diya's phone..."
Khushi quickly replied - " oh, yeah im ok..."
"you seem lost, look im sorry if, i mean about..."
Khushi felt disappointment but she covered her expression, ofcourse he was sorry, about what would have happened, if her phone hadn't rung.
She quickly wrote - " no, its ok, i understand,was the moment i guess, glad the phone call came.."
And right then she finally looked up to see Arnav put his phone away, she knew she wasn't going to get a reply to that.
Right then Diya asked Aman to pass her some fries off his plate,and Aman teased - " i get it, you are on a holiday my love, and hey, you already finished your fries..."
Diya looked at him in fake shock as she said - " are you implying,that I'm going to get fat ,because I'm eating so freely on the holiday??"
Aman immediately covered up as he said - " no no, darling, what I mean is that I love my fries...", but he lovingly fed her one with his hand, as he winked to the rest - " gotta use your words carefully buddies, wouldn't want to get into trouble..."
Everyone laughed,and Arnav looked at Khushi for like the hundredth time, and their eyes locked briefly,and this time for a change she didn't look away.
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Arnav's POV
AS i drove back to our resort, with Aman and Diya, I couldn't help but think of Khushi.I wanted to talk to her, as soon as possible.I had no idea, what was wrong, one moment, she was in my arms,and we had almost kissed,and i could sense that she wanted it too,and then the moment broke.I was disappointed, when she offered to just leave like that.Maybe it was because I had acted on impulse, for in that moment, all i had really wanted was to kiss her,and feel her in my arms.There was something about her, that made me feel so different,and it all felt so right at the same time. But I felt maybe it did seem a little too fast to her,and thats why i apologized,but then when she messaged that she was glad that the phonecall came in time, i swear, i didn't like that at all. I wanted to just tell her already, that i was sorry, if she did feel this was going a little fast,but i was not sorry about, wanting to kiss her.
I pulled into our Resorts driveway and I watched Khushi pull in behind us, in the Q7,and i smiled to myself, she looked so much in control,and so powerful,gosh, i had no idea what was happening to me here, I was loosing my marbles, i swear i was.
I got out, and watched Diya and Aman give me a small smile as they walked back into the resort hand in hand,and I smiled,as a picture of me holding Khushi's hand flashed through my mind.I brushed it aside, as I saw Dita also walk back into the resort,busy on the phone, and i leaned against the door of my car,and waited for Khushi to get off.
She got off the drivers seat, and shut the door behind her, and she gave me a small smile and leaned against the door of her car, she knew I was waiting for her,and i said - " you know what, maybe tomorrow, sometime, you should drive the Cayenne,i know you wanted it, but since you were so kind to me, consider it a thank you..."
She grinned ,and i loved it,I wasn't liking the worry on her face over dinner - that'll be great, i have been waiting to get my hands on that beauty for a long time, you know..."
I asked - " then why did you let me have it in the first place?"
Khushi smiled - " Like i said earlier, i knew you needed it,you with Aman and Diya,and knowing Diya now,i knew she would have freaked out..."
I broke into a grin - " yeah, she would have..."
Khushi - " ok ill see you tomorrow morning..."
I smiled - " yeah, but i aint swimming with those dolphins, honestly, i don't know how to ,you know swim..."
Khushi's eyes widened in surprise - " I cant believe you don't swim, anyways it'll be as much fun,watching from the match...",and she started to walk away, and I didn't know what came over me, and i pulled her by her right arm,back to me,catching her by surprise as i looked into her eyes, trying to read what was on her mind - " talk to me, Khushi..."
She was startled,as for sure,as affected by our proximity as I was,and I heard her whisper back - " talk what?"
"about what was on your mind, over dinner, you were lost, i know you were...".
She innocent look on her face,i swear i would have kissed her then and there, if she hadn't stepped back.God, i was so disappointed, what was wrong with her.
I saw her smile as she said - " yeah, about that, maybe later Arnav, I want to, but Im tired, you know its been a long day, and I need to take out my brace..."
Worry came over me immediately as I asked touching her left arm - " are you ok? are you in pain?"
She gave me the most sincere look ever,as she said looking into my eyes, and put her other hand on mine -" thanks for the concern, but no, it doesn't pain anymore, but I have been advised to take it off you know after a long day, and specially after a physically tiring one, thats all..."
I nodded - " ok, goodnight then..."
I watched her walk ahead a few steps and then she turned to me and said in a sincere tone - " you are a nice guy,Arnav..."
I smiled back,as i watched her turn and head back into the resort.I have heard that before.But coming from her, in her beautiful voice, it just sounded so so different.
I walked into my room,and lied down on the bed,and closed my eyes.And then I started to think about everything she had told me this evening.I wasn't easy for her,I could sense it, to talk about her loss,but she still did,because she wanted to be clear about her condition. I knew what this was about,she was unsure about how I would have reacted to the truth.
I could not even imagine the pain she would have been through, loosing her parents.I couldn't even dream about a day without mine,and then to top it all, loosing a part of yourself too, coping with the loss, accepting yourself for who you are now,adjusting to a new family, new country, new Life.That required insane amount of inner strength, I had no idea,how could she be so strong, and I couldn't believe I was already liking her new family,and I felt genuine gratitude for such kind people,they were there for her, in the toughest of her times. But she had fought against the demons of loss,pain and doubt,and learnt how to love herself,and live with an attitude which was both fearless and applaudable.I hadn't seen anyone, embrace loss like that,and I was impressed,and moved, in a very different way.And now that I knew about it all, i wasn't feel any less of what i had been feeling for her.Infact , it had all just heightened,she was an amazing woman,who amazed the hell out of me,and all i wanted was to spend as much time as I could with her, over the duration of my holiday.
I quickly took out my phone and texted her -
"Khushi, just so you know, you are the bravest person, i have ever met ,in the 28 years of my life..."
And i got a quick reply -
"Thanks,and Arnav, just so you know, you are the nicest guy, i have ever met, in the 24 years of my Life..."
I smiled.
Khushi was amazing.And i was going to get to know her, even more.Period.
Decision had been made, and I ,Arnav Singh raizada, never changed my mind,if I decided onto something.
And the minute I closed my eyes again, her face revolved in front of me, and i found myself thinking of how badly i wanted to kiss her,and what would I have felt, if the phone wouldn't have rung,and I would have got to feel,her gorgeous lips under mine.
Alright, i had lost my marbles,and I was going crazy,but I liked it nonetheless.Sleep started to take over,and I was sure, I had this grin on my face,because I had Khushi on my mind.
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Khushi's POV
I twisted in bed, for like the zillionth time. I couldn't get Arnav out of my mind,and I could only think of our proximity earlier.Could just someone explain, what the hell was happening to me here, for i had no explanation to give myself.I finally shook Dita next to me,and said - " get up, Dita, i want to talk..."
She sleepily woke up in bed and asked me rubbing her eyes - " whats wrong with you? i thought you were asleep..."
I rolled my eyes - " do i look asleep to you...?"
Dita rubbed her eyes - " yeah you don't,whats up?
I finally blurted out - " I almost, Kissed Arnav, this evening.."
All the sleep vanished from her eyes,as she jumped up in bed and then sat on her knees as she exclaimed - " whattt????????? now thats a first, tell me all about it, what do you mean almost??"
I shrugged - " Bhai called, just as we were about to kiss, its so strange, and I just cant stop thinking about him, you know that never happens to me, and its so so so strange..."
Dita smiled - " yeah thats because you keep your emotions closed in a small treasure box,in your heart, and are alwayd on constant guard, its time someone knocked over that box, and your emotions come brimming out..."
I looked at her zapped - "are you even listening to yourself??seriously, help..."
Dita smiled - " ok so what happened? i mean how..."
I sighed - "So you know, ever since iv met him, cant get him off my mind,and theres something,i cant explain, like some spark, some electricity shot goes through me,whats wrong with me?"
Dita - "go on..."
I continued - " so, today earlier today after Lunch, he asked me how someone so perfect as me didn't have a boyfriend,well i knew it was a compliment,but made me think, if he was a tiniest bit interested , he needed to know about my condition..."
Dita's eyes widened - "you never talk to someone you just met about it Khushi, i know you, it takes you some time to open about what happened, so Arnav must be different..."
I sighed - " exactly, it felt so right, so natural to talk to him, as if it was the most natural thing to do,and not just i also spoke to him about ma and papa, which was another first and, i didn't just talk to him ok, i also showed him,my hand..."
Dita - " wow khushi, thats a first, i remember Rahul and Derek got a glimpse of it after weeks..."
I nodded - " yeah, then what is it about him, that pulls me, its like he is this magnet..."
Dita - " how did he react? what did he say?"
I smiled - " well i did think i had freaked him out, but he didn't let me put back my skin cover on, he said something like how i look someone out of a science fiction movie, and my artificial limb didn't make me any less perfect..."
Dita grinned - "Whoaaa, so the fire is on, on both sides i guess...but this is great Khushi..."
I sighed - " it surely feels great, but you know, as much as I wanted him to kiss me,and i wanted to kiss him too, i backed out, also because I was nervous, im sure, i don't even know how to kiss properly,you know..."
Dita rolled her eyes - " oh god, dont begin with your intimacy issues, now.alright listen why dont you just stop worrying, and let go for once, it'll all flow naturally..."
I looked at her skeptical - " it will?"
Dita smiled - " yeahhh, and cmon Khushi he is gorgeous,and nice and kind,you gotta dive in..."
I grinned - " you are right,maybe I should,but ...a holiday fling,what after two weeks?"
Dita - " lets think about that, when the time comes now,you gotta just go with what you feel, promise me you will..?"
I smiled - "ok, and thanks, i feel better already..."
Dita hugged me,and i hugged her,and then turned to sleep, already waiting for the morning to come.I felt myself shiver,as i recalled what I felt, when he had so tenderly cupped my cheek,rubbed his thumb, next to my lips,and I swear for the first time ever, I slept with the thought of what I wanted to feel,what I would feel being kissed by a guy.But he wasn't just any guy, he was different.He was Arnav.
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Edited by arnav.khushi - 8 years ago
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