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Hello hello!
So I was responding to a friend's post and I thought I might as well extend it to this one.
This dialogue disturbed me in the beginning, it did not make sense for Shivaay to completely forget there is a Tia waiting in the shadowsđ
NOT to mention the very easily noted sexism of the statement. Therefore, I am not justifying it, I am merely reassuring myself as to an alternate interpretation that makes more sense in keeping with Shivaay's behaviour (IF at all I'm reading him correctly). Please do not bash, I am ALL for women paying for their own stuff on dates, if they wish to. (WHICH THIS WAS NOT)
Enough prelim warnings, here goesđ
When we go out, I pay
This statement came easy to him, like second nature.
She was with him, she could trust him to take care of her, she did not have to be so strong all the time, so independent as to not let anyone do the smallest thing for her.
She never demanded anything from life, from her loved ones, so why would she let him pay for this small happiness?
But he wanted to. He won't let her take this away from him: her unadulterated joy at this tiny moment from her stolen childhood. He could never return that to her, but he could at least steal some of these moments back for her, just to watch the concentrated happiness on her face.
'Take care'
'Jab tak tum andar nahi chali jaati, I'll wait'
'Agar tumhe kuch ho jaata, toh mera kya hota?'
It seems ever since that Janmashtmi night, he feels a fear, a responsibility, a commitment to keeping her safe and sound.
Offering to do things for her, to make life a little easier, to be her helpmate, even if briefly, to take some pressure off of her, so she does not feel she has to pay for this happy moment.
'When we go out, I pay' perhaps also meant
I'll take care of you, I'll ensure you can be a bit light, a bit carefree, a bit relaxed when I'm around.
After all, he takes care of his own: She's family.
And just like that, she is a part of his gang. THE gang, the three brothers who have created a charmed space for themselves, have invited her to belong.
She has in them, well-wishers, friends, and in his case (more).
In stress eating her cotton candy, he forgot his worries for a moment while grumbling to her like a kid. He let go. Just for a few moments, she returned to him his little unworried moment.
For more such moments in the future, he had to ensure a 'We', he had to ensure that he knows she can pay for herself, and buy these small happy things for herself; but she does not have to. He'll handle it.
The great wall of Shivaay will take care of her small worries and assure her happiness.
Sorry thoda zyada ho gayađđł
hugs
Anupamaa
